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KshitijLiterary Magazine
“Winter had descended on Roorkee and mercury scales were hovering around the zero mark. Every morning I would wake up to its cold call, and let the freezing water cut through my fingers. As I walked to class every day , I would see people pass in and out of the sea of mist. Like ghosts in silence , the trees in the Thomson Marg would watch me pass. Only the mist was privy to my thoughts.” She was unforgiving though, winter.She gnawed on cold bones and blew frosty winds across your face. You covered it up with the flaps of your coat. You thawed your hands inside warm gloves. Layers of woollen clothes shielded you from her cold touch.Some were not so lucky, and among them are the brave rickshaw-wallahs of Roorkee. They often bear this predicament without grunting their disapproval. They will wait outside the gates at four in the morning dressed in half the number of layers you are clothed in and ferry you across the timeless channels of Old Roorkee, for a mere forty rupees. They will work their weary bones up the slopes, you know how hard it is, right ? even without the extra passengers ! You wonder, “ What sort of a hellish occupation is this ? “ . But there are thousands of rickshaw-wallahs, suffering silently. Some will try to drown the pain in their joints with liquor. They will look at you with expectant eyes, and sometimes call out. They will haggle for prices, because money for them constitutes the bare necessities, comfort, not extravagance. If this does not move you, you can turn your lens towards the rest of the world. As someone once said , you can drink in all the sorrow you want and find your glass barely filled.Suffering, it would seem is natural after all. Like winter, it will come and go.However, as winter seemed to finally depart, an extraordinary thing happened, it rained. The air was washed clear .The tall oak trees on Thomason marg looked regal. “Oaks sustain all life in the Himalaya “ , a drenched stone read. Many saplings, with an ancestry that could be traced back to the Himalayas had been brought down and planted here. Somebody once told me that it was the work of a determined professor, who fought his way with the administration to clothe most of Roorkee in a green cover.Every place has a story to tell, you need only listen.
This semester’s issue brings to your table, 10 interesting stories that focus on different experiences. We hope that each one urges you to pause, and think.Happy reading !
Editorial
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Editor-in-ChiefPriya S.Executive EditorsAbhinav SharmaHanan T. Qureshi
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Hindi Editorial
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Shiv SagarTanvi Sinha
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Manoj SardaArunanshu PrakashShivam BhattNitin DhakadOmkar KulkarniHimanshu YadavShubhanshu Dubey
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Prakhar VarshneyRitu Madan
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First Year Members
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The Lighthouse
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Across the River
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Contents
Roorkee
Ykkirk
The Witness
Departure Night
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Khush considers the possibility that there is no God. He hates to make such a supposition b u t a s ing l e p i ece o f b l a sphemous misinformation is weighing heavy against his resolve to think otherwise. God is the wavering flame of an earthen lamp. Death begets immortal memories. Even if the departed were frail, puking and old individuals, death endears them to you and their memories live with you for life. A foot jerks out of the fire.There is a lump in his throat. He visualizes it, feels it and then lets it go. He allows it to slowly slide down his throat. The lump shrinks until it is no more than a point. The world, living or dead, is only a point of light.Oblivious to how hoarsely the Hugli howls or how raucously the rain rams the colossal edifice, its occupants- white and ochre-robed monks- breathe peacefully. They are not the living or the dead world. They are neutral spectators. ***Nakhush, buoyed with the opportunity at hand, optimistically conjures the image of him hitting the ball into the net. A boy kneels and looks above to thank the heavens- he cross-marks this image in crimson.But then, a man, resembling his dead father, comes hurtling down from heaven and starts cheering him. This image does not appeal to him either. So, he thinks there is just the goal post; and the goalkeeper definitely has a problem with diving to his left. He feels the blade of his kicking-foot press against his boot.Deaf to the euphoric cheering and chanting, agile Nakhush moves his nimble feet and
sends the ball zooming into the net. Next, he is soaking in the jubilant celebration. ***At night, after the football match, Nakhush does some terrible things; things that he does whenever he is happy. Now, Nakhush is a smart kid. He knows that there is no God and hence there is no one who will come to know of those terrible things. No celestial lighthouse is sweeping the darkness of the ignominious expanse of the Immoral Sea. Couple of years ago his thoughts were tumultuous. He would weigh the promise of instant gratification against the hope of eternal joy. Now all that is gone. Now, probably, he does not even think of the 'terrible things' as being terrible. And sometimes, he does not even know what he is doing and so there is no question of earmarking his acts as acts of debauchery. He is intoxicated, obviously. Poor lad! What started with alcohol and cigarettes has ended in Bazuco and Bazuco eates his brain, like termites. He is drowning in the darkness and there is no lighthouse, no d a y - o f - r e c k o n i n g a n d n o d i v i n e retribution at all. As Nakhush himself mused- no one is watching. But, that also means that there is no one watching over him; that is to say that no one can save him from drowning. He is sitting on a pavement or maybe a footpath, sniffing or licking something. It is so dark, I cannot see. He must be happy that he isn't being watched. But suddenly, there is a blast and there is light all around. Nakhush is certain that the lighthouse has finally found him. He is scared silly, I tell you. He is so scared he starts weeping. The noise of the blast grows louder and louder until it stops but by then Nakhush is already asleep. The people from Fundación La Luz have found him. ***Far east from Nakhush, the monk, Khush, is l eav ing for Bogotá . T he Colombian
Katha Upanishad 1:2:1There is a path of joy and there is thepath of pleasure. Pondering on them, the wise (one) chooses the path of joy; thefool takes the path of pleasure.
The Lighthouse-Abhishek Jha
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government, disillusioned after numerous reports of death of teenagers due to drug-addiction, has decided to employ the services of Khush and his fellow monks to pull out people like Nakhush from the dark abyss. Fundación La Luz, a voluntary group of doctors and psychologists is supporting the cause.Khush thinks of his own childhood. He remembers the sweets in the kitchen that he used to steal. The sweetness of the sweets often overcame the guilt of stealing. The C o l o m b i a n c h i l d r e n h e i s t o address....tch....serve have this syndrome. They know that it is wrong to do certain things. But who is to stop them? Parents? He chokes at this thought. He thinks of his dead father; his father who had ingrained in him this tiny notion of a watchman called God- a watchman who stops all bad things from happening. When his father died, his faith in God began to shake until it was restored some years later. These thoughts trouble him as he flies across continents. ***It is a bright sunny day. Khush takes charge of some forty bright boys in a classroom. I call them 'bright', because they know why the earth goes round the sun or why the apple does not shoot upwards after having detached itself from the apple tree. They know that depravity is depravity. Khush explains to this audience why they should and how they could follow the moral laws of the society. Now Khush is as bright as any of these boys, in fact a little brighter. So, he is able to convince them, logically, of the need for self control and can explain how b y p l a c i n g o n e s e l f b e t w e e n t h e u n c o n t r o l l a b l e c o n s c i o u s a n d subconscious levels of the mind, self-control can be achieved. One man is not convinced. Nakhush knows how to shut images that distract him and how to send dead dads back to heaven when
they defiantly tumble down to earth. So when the lecture gets over, he stands up and confronts this shaven man with brazen audacity. He does not ask any tough questions.“Sir, may I ask a question?”“Go ahead.”“You say that I follow certain moral laws. What happens if I happen to break one of these laws? What if I shut myself in a room and smoke marijuana in Cambodia? Forget God in heaven, I don't have a father at home. Who is going to stop me from breaking these laws?”Here Khush loses his composure because, you see, a dead father has been mentioned. The lump-in- the-throat exercise has to be repeated before he can answer.“To understand my answer to your question son, you will have to first experience the change. You will have to abandon certain things. Only then, I will answer your question.” He has to say this in a calm and assuring voice to ensure that his message is delivered. Nakhush, determined to know the secret, has to submit himself to the monk's wishes.The monk is back in India, but he continues to think of the boy. He knows that he has cheated. The truth is that he doesn't know the answer. He doesn't know where to find it. So, he is looking for it everywhere. While everyone recites the mangal aarti from memory, while they close their eyes in chanting, he is reading through his hymn book; like a novice- the shanti mantras, the purushasuktam. He is scrounging for his golden verse in the Testament, the Psalms, and the Quran; his lesser known texts. While he is working, he is chanting the Gita to himself. He knows it by heart.Nakhush is unhappy. He has waited for a month. He has exercised restraint but his body aches. Every moment is a battle. His mind is tumultuous again, like in the old days. The camp at Fundación La Luz is over. He thinks, 'The monk is bad… The monk is
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not coming… How will the monk know he has broken his promise?' He resents his own bril l iance at arriving at this logical conclusion. It is not long before he gives in to the temptation. His feet drag him along the dark alleys. There is a huddle in the shadows. He moves closer. There 's Bazuco and they are quarrelling over their quota. As the quarrel grows into fisticuffs he pushes himself through and grabs a fistful of packets and shoves them down his pockets, inside his shirt. Suddenly, his eyes meet another pair and he freezes. Now, more eyes turn towards him and he sees them clearly. They are older than him and stronger. He must run. 'Not so easy boy!' 'Grab him!' He is a tough fighter. Here a jab, there a kick but they are too many in number. He is bleeding and breathless. He finds his senses failing. There is a light again. He welcomes it this time. The others abandon him and melt into the darkness. He slumps down and passes out.Khush is exasperated at his inability to solve this riddle. He, the conqueror of scriptures, the intellectual hermit, he, whose, company alone is benediction to many a bereaved souls, defeated at the hands of a mere child. He is persevering. His melancholy eyes bore into his subjects for answers. They stare back at him. He's perplexed. He goes on with his sermon, “The finite contains the infinite.” The audience stares at him, harder than ever before. “The finite contains the infinite”, he repeats slowly to himself. He has found his answer and must hurry. How simple indeed! 'The infinite, which is the world and all its stuff, in this little kernel of a thing called brain.' The story is 'The Return to Faith'. He recounts it: It is the rainy season. In the month of Shraavan, Shiva is worshipped. Pilgrims throng the holy city of Deoghar to pay obeisance to the Lord. Lepers, urchins, bastards, orphans- all of them are welcome. This is the house of the Lord. Beg and you will be granted. It does not matter if you have sinned. Who brought
this lingam here anyway? Raavan- the devil himself. He listens to the seasoned beggars- 'There is a monk here. Ochre-robed. Just look out for him. He will never leave you hungry.' The temple is lousy with pilgrims and it is difficult to find anyone but he is small and hungry. He sees a flash of saffron. He leaps, trips, and falls down at the feet of the monk. Instinctively, he starts crying. The crowd is indifferent, the monk furious. “Pull yourself together boy! Now get up!” he shouts over the noise. Khush cries louder. “Now there, don't stare at me. I didn't do this, did I? You made the choice, little monster, between free food and free fall.” He is pulled up.
***Khush rushes through the prison gates, ashamed. He cannot stop reproaching himself but he must conceal his guilt. He remembers his mentor. He must be as stern as possible.He speaks from behind the bars, “Now, look at you. Why should I keep my promise when you didn't?” The boy is bruised and listens in total silence, head bowed in submission. His heart reaches out for him but he cannot commiserate with him now, not for a few moments. He summons his strength. “That day when you asked the question, I did not answer because what you said was actually true. No one does anything if you happen to break any moral laws,” he went on, making the sarcasm in his voice felt. Now, with a touch of compassion, “However, you cannot break these laws, you know, like the law of gravity? You can only break yourself against these laws.”
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She rummaged through her bag to find a five-pence coin to pay the confectioner. When she finally found one, she handed it over to him with the air of a pearl diver who had just found a treasure. She scurried to her car, and bit her tooth into the brownie before the long forgotten taste of her dida's payesh could return and send her taste buds for a mutiny. She finished it off with a devilish grin and smacked her lips clean. After dinner, she was lying in her couch watching TV, when there it was again. A bowl full of payesh, thickly condensed milk and rice, colour a most inviting shade of rich, creamy brown, and a taste that lingered on in the senses, long after the memories attached with it had gathered dust. Her dida appeared with her toothless grin, her white plain bordered saree. She switched off the TV and shut her eyes, but the scenes just hung there; only flickering, but never fading. She dreamt of a little school girl returning to her city dwelling, amidst the beating of the dhaak, and the incense-filled air, while her friends headed to their deshe'r baari, their ancestral home, for the Pujas....................................................................Kobita sat there, huddled in a corner of the boat. The coarse saree stung her skin. She pulled the saree down to her belly to hide the tears that were falling. She tried to keep herself from quivering, and drew her bundles closer. She was on her way to where Padma would become Ganga, to where Ileesh would lose its taste, where her language would become too mired by Hindustani, and lose all its sweetness. She worried over the garden, the orchard, the ponds and the home that had she would never set her eyes on again. Before leaving, she had made sure to drink in every little detail, so that they would remain etched in her memory the way she would like to think of home. She worried for the shiuli flowers in her garden, the numerous mango trees and coconut palms and the fish in the ponds. She wept for her unborn child who would never know the lands that were his. She remembered an incident
from her childhood. During a visit to Sundorbon, she had secretly smuggled in a plant from the mangroves and planted it in her backyard. She still shuddered to think about how it had wilted.Durga Pujo was just a few months from now. At other times, the artisans would have been commissioned by now. Would not a sudden stop to the Pujo bring ill fate upon the family?......................................................................One evening, she decided to pick up grocery on her way back from work. There was a new man behind the counter. A South-Asian, in his fifties, she noted. As she was picking up what she would need for the coming week, she heard someone talking; trying to keep his voice low, in what she could clearly make out was an argument. But suddenly, the words stirred in her a sense of familiarity, longing and emptiness. She realised it was the very tongue that had been in use by the older members of her family. She followed the voice, and found herself staring at the cashier. He looked at her questioningly. She left the grocery without a word.Thereafter, her visits to the store became more frequent. Within a month, she had learnt that he was from Dhaka, indeed the very place that her family came from. His name was Imran. She started conversing with him in that vaguely familiar dialect, which she had never quite used before, but was surprised at how easily she used it now.He would cook for her, at times Ileesh of the Padma that friends would sneak in to this faraway land. The tantalising aroma of mustard would arouse in her the memories of those long autumn afternoons, when she would try keeping a count of how many times the fan blades went round. He would describe Bangladesh to her, breaking all the confines that had existed earlier. He would play the latest renditions of Rabindra Sangeet. He was the one who introduced her to Nazrul Geeti. She found
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herself spending more time with him. He would ask her to describe Shantiniketan to him. He would never tire over listening to her, painting with words the Jorasankho Thakurbaari, Sarat Chandra Kuthi, Presidency College, Calcutta University, and other seats of the Bengal Renaissance. For them, they were each a part of a shared past, that they had been brought up not to forget, to remember through the experiences of those who had lived through it. A cruel hand had forced them to change their entire beings.It was a March morning, when it was exceptionally warm for the part of the year, that he informed her that he was going home for his daughter's marriage. Indeed, when she had first heard him speaking on the phone, he had been chiding his younger brother for his inability to find a suitable groom within their own district. Too much difference in dialect and culture, he said. A smile
crossed her face as she was reminded of her own aunts, who would search for matches tracing their ancestry to o'paar bangla, the other side of Bengal, and then fuss over the differences in culture and tradition, if the match happened to be from a different district.“Would you like to come over? ““No.”“I leave in a fortnight.”“Hmmm.”Almost immediately, without even noticing it, her visits grew infrequent. She got caught up in her work that she had neglected for a while.One day, as she was leaving for work, she found a parcel at her doorsteps. It contained a bowl full of payesh in it, the colour a rich, creamy brown. Along with it was a note. “Happy Birthday! I made it especially for you. I hope it brings with it the luck that it promises.”
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vk¡lw cgus yxsA dqN gh {k.k esa eSa dgk¡ Fkh ugha irk] dgk¡ tkus okyh Fkh ;s Hkh
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dh 'kfDr vc {kh.k gks jgh FkhA eSa ph[k&ph[kdj jksus yxh] ysfdu mldh
Øwj g¡lh us eq>s [kkeks'k dj fn;kA eSa vk¡[ksa ew¡ndj dksus esa fleV xbZA eSa
Hkwrdky esa pys tkuk pkgrh Fkh] lc dqN cny nsuk pkgrh Fkh] ?kj tkdj
ek¡ ds vk¡py esa fNi tkuk pkgrh Fkh ysfdu ----------ysfdu dgk¡ laHko izR;apk
ls NwVs ck.k dk ykSVuk------------dgk¡ laHko dkypØ dk foijhr fn'kk esa
?kweukA vkSj -----------vkSj var esa eSa fgEer gkj xbZA
phj xbZ phRdkj esjh ml lUukVs dks
fuokyk cu pqdh ijHk{kh dk]
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Lohdkjus dksA
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fey ldk u ifjokj ls] u lekt ls vkSj u gh dkuwu lsA mlds vJq n;k dh
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iwjk gkus dh [kq'kh ykykf;r dj jgh Fkh] lw[ks jsfxLrku esa pydj r:oj dh
'khry Nk¡o dk ,glkl Fkk oks ysfdu I;kl vHkh cq>h ugha FkhA fdlh cM+s
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pkdw mBkdj fpYykbZ vkSj--------------
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D;k ;s Hkh lp cu tkrs gSa \
izfrdkj& fufru /kkdM
9
50% of the world’s population lives in cities and by 2050 it will grow to be 75 %. Like a dragon that entices you to look into its enormous eyes, cities are captivating millions with the lure of high paying jobs, better living standards and for the young people, a place where the party is happening. But the town we live in, Roorkee, is a stagnant settlement, with a lowly population of 3 lakh people. For none of us it is a home and neither is the prospect of camping here for the remainder of our lives an enthusiastic option.
India is building to grow and growing to build; every city in the country is undergoing rapid urbanization and the city borders are expanding to accommodate the overflowing population. Bangalore is restructuring its internal transport network; Mumbai, Chennai, and Kolkata are launching their new airports. In contrast, the biggest construction site in this tiny town is a multi-activity center in the IIT campus and this is a reflection of the peace that commands the silhouette of Roorkee’s ground-hugging skyline.
As the sun sets over the main building on a summer evening, a starry sky cloaks the night and you are lost in wonderment at its clarity, so unlike the smog that shrouds the cities; a ghastly reminder of the perils of environmental pollution. Roorkee is an over-productive Pappu’s dream destination with every need a stone’s throw away; a bicycle is enough to score the limits of its perimeter. For the residents who are either academics, non-civilians or natives, a weekend of tranquility in the Himalayas is just a two hour drive. A walk through the bustling bazaars of
Old Roorkee will show you how the town has juxtaposed its old, fading self with the boom in modern day consumerism. It may not be one's ideal shopping destination, but you will find several ways to amuse yourself in those queer, petty shops just around the corner.
Severely handicapped in the aspects of quality health care and institutions that can drive the economy, Roorkee, w i th i t s p i c tur e sque autumn leaves and slow rickshaw rides , sadly, can never hold the young, restless population with their worldly ambitions. To me, Roorkee is restricted to my life in the neighborhood of the IIT campus and the thought of living here is analogous to taking up sainthood. But even with its incapacity, you come to love it. The canal and the solitary walk on its bank is my way of bonding with the town’s so called ‘it’ place and I wouldn’t want to give it up for a night at the disco bar.
The small scale of one’s neighborhood will become a luxury with cities being stretched beyond their elastic limit to sustain millions of people. It is then, that a town like Roorkee becomes everybody's Utopian village. When I take leave of the town after four years of stay, I can only be grateful to have lived here; but the holiday is over, and the lucrative job (hopefully) in traffic clogged Bangalore or slum-choked Mumbai awaits.
Roorkee An ideal town that none can make their own
10
-Chandana Rajanna
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ftls ykuh gS jks'kuh oks [kqn gS v¡/ksjksa ls f?kjk gqvk]
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11
“Order! Order!”, said the judge in a loud voice, striking the table twice with a gavel. The incomprehensible chattering ceased quickly, and there was pin drop silence as the court stood up in respect.
“Witness number six, Sameer, depose before the court.” The sound of his name brought him back to reality. As all the heads in the packed courtroom turned towards him, he became nervous. Trembling with fear, he got up from his seat and wearily walked towards the witness box. He didn't get a wink of sleep the previous night as he had restlessly contemplated the proceedings. One thought after the other had kept him tossing and turning, and his weary eyes betrayed his exhaustion.
As his dad stood surrounded by a posse of cops, he didn't desire to look at him in the eye. Perhaps he was afraid, or even ashamed to testify against his own father. For the next hour he answered a volley of questions from the prosecution, was cross examined by defence lawyers; he maintained his composure with great difficulty. Soon the judge adjourned the hearing, and the packed courtroom dispersed, like grains emptied from a wide mouthed vessel .He stood dazed at the outcome of his resolve. His father had left quietly without saying anything. It seemed that he was playing a mute spectator to the proceedings against him. His indifference left Sameer numb. The least he had expected was a commotion. Perhaps he showed the same politeness that he expected from his employees at United Builders, a million dollar enterprise.
It had taken years of brainwash by his mother that made him testify in an open court against his father's alleged wrongdoings, while he had headed the United Group, which split after his parents' divorce a decade ago. Although they had separated after a bitter battle in court, the hatred and animosity refused to die down, even after so many years.
Since he grew up as the only child of his expatriate parents, he was made to believe that his father was responsible for the miseries of the family and every hardship that came their way. This left an indelible
impact on his mind, and the troubled childhood made him believe that suffering was his destiny. Time, they say is a great healer, and it had healed his wounds too, but this event had brought all the long forgotten memories before his eyes. He vividly recalled the acerbic comments that his classmates passed when his father didn't turn up for the annual sports days. Those were the times when he was growing up into an introvert young man, continuously hiding his feelings from his mom, who loved him dearly but was too busy with her job to understand the emotional imbalance that troubled him. Sameer confided in no one except his own intimate self, made few friends, for the fear of losing someone dear obsessed him.
Dragging his steps towards his car, he thought about spending some time alone on the beach side for introspection. He came to abhor this predicament. Looking at his footsteps, alone on the moist beach sand, a strong feeling of guilt overpowered him. Life seemed cruel, and existence only a burden. Although his dad hadn't met him all these years, he remembered the happier times. He got a sudden urge to go back to the past, a human tendency when one feels guilty about any wrongdoing. The foamy tides came ashore and receded. “I have lived long enough and can't bear all this. Maybe I can't bear this guilt any more. Maybe I could make new friends. Maybe I will get over this.” he thought. “No, I think I should be where things make sense, where I don't have to curse myself again and again.”
The perpetual gloom made him contemplate the possibility of suicide. He started walking into the deeper sea. Not knowing swimming left him with a very low chance of coming out alive. One last look behind, and he could see the human activity, busy vendors, moving cars but all that was too meagre to break his resolve. He walked and began to feel the sheer force of sea water, carrying him in, like a helpless prey in the claws of the predator. Although he resisted, involuntarily, his weary legs gave up and he could sense being carried in a mother's lap like a child. Feeling dizzy, the sun setting in the distant horizon was the last thing he could see, and he could relate it quite well to the situation he was in.
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The Witness-Nabeel Kangoo
12
“Cell number 680”. The sentry opened the rusty lock with a cling, after finding the right key from the bunch, and pushed a prisoner into the cell. He let his eyes adjust to the darkness, his nostrils lined with the dusty air. The cell was a damp dungeon. As he sat on the dilapidated chair, bringing himself to terms with the new surroundings, he found that he didn't have a cell mate which added a further touch of desolation. Without touching the food that was served, he slept in the pitch darkness, as an eerie silence filled the cell, where a man's dignity is chained and shackled. It was already nightfall, and he fell into a deep slumber sooner than usual, thanks to the extensive counselling therapy at the Aryrdham. It was then that he was shifted to the Crawley Detention Facility, charged with 'attempting suicide,' owing to his candid confession.
In the morning, after he was successful in striking a conversation with the guard, he came to know that a prisoner from cell number six would be shifted to his cell. The guard had just finished speaking when the opening of the door and the jingling of the keys broke the silence. Slowly, he looked awkwardly to the other side .That's when a tall figure emerged from the darkness. “How are you here? You look frail? ”, his voice was filled with concern. “I...I ...was just arrested
for ...” and he had barely completed speaking when his dad interrupted him. “And don't worry, I would have done the same had I been at your place. I just wanted an end to this hate story. We can at least be friends.”
The rest of the time they spent, passed quickly, and perhaps they would have even wanted to stay longer after the kind of truce that they had declared. His father left a week after and the day soon came when he, too, was free to smell the fresh air, and admire the glistening morning dew on the ever green leaves.
The sun shone brightly as he left his cell to complete some final formalities. He had thought of a lot to do, after walking free. Completing a solitary hiking trip, a boat ride alone across the channel of Dave, a trip to India, but he would have a lot of time to plan. His heart felt lighter .He had left an enormous burden back in the past. A last look back, he could see the letters in bold, “CRAWLEY DETENTION CENTRE”He smiled, and could see his mother waving from a distance. He looked up into the wide, blue sky. He could see birds soaring at great heights. Smiling, he embarked on a new journey in life.
13
24AUGUST
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Rachel Perkins longingly stared at the clouds floating
across the huge grounds of Midway High as she rested
herself on Jim Merton's lap. She could sense his vision
boring through her head. She didn't find it cheeky
though.
“You don't seem very happy”, Rachel broke the silence.
“Graduation's in a couple of days.”
“Your application is decent enough.”
Jim shrugged. It wasn't a good topic for today.
“On the contrary…”
“I know. I am happy.”
“So you took it.”
“Yes.”
“It's not very good.”
Rachel sat up. “Do we need to start over about this?”
Jim looked down; half of him giving-up, the other half?
Well, he had no choice.
“Café then?”
Jim nodded.
****
Captain Jeremy Swintern killed the engine of his Honda
and got off the car in his usual brisk manner, which
almost disguised a slight limp in his left leg. His
expression was not the usual one, though. A slight curl on
his lips hinted a smile. It was unusual enough to create
murmurs through his office staff as he got off the elevator rd
on the 3 floor of the headquarters of the Colorado State
Patrol. Swintern's secretary was too observant not to
notice his expression and knew that the job had been
executed well. The last time she was witness to this visage
of his was when he successfully carried out a drug bust. It
was a secret op, and nobody knew about it save for the fact
that it involved some gunfire: Swintern was shot in the
thigh and his 3-month leave wasn't a secret. The State
Police Awards were announced later that year and
Swintern was the top-cop for the third time in a row, for
tracking and hunting down Julius Mercante, the third
most wanted man in the southwestern U.S.
****
Bernard Perkins liked having a whitewashed image.
Among the general community he had created a lasting
image of an honest and philanthropic businessman. But
most of his wealth came from his moonlight trade. He had
started a motel business in'77 along with three of his high
school friends which ran well for a couple of years,
earning each of the partners a small fortune. All was rosy
until an afternoon when the police arrived and found
Aaron Smith and Jack McGee unconscious in a room
along with a kilogram of cocaine. The following
investigation led to the seizure of incriminating evidence
that Smith and McGee were embezzling business funds
unbeknownst to Perkins and Julius Mercante, to conduct
a sizable drug racket. They were sentenced for 48 years of
imprisonment.
****
The cold February night didn't seem to bother Jim as much
as what he had learnt recently. He walked absent-
mindedly out of Larry's Coffee on to its porch when
Rachel said something about meeting a friend. He walked
back into the café to wait for Rachel.
Rachel.
Perkins Sr. had managed to keep the halves of his double-
life admirably separated. Only those deep within the
police ranks knew about his reality, without documented
proof though. It also did not matter if there was any, half
of the force already was his personal asset anyway. Jim
knew about this, as his uncle was a policeman. But that
did not bother Jim as much as the fact that Rachel had
accepted her father's offer to join his empire. Lost in his
frustrated thoughts, he did not realize that the door he
had just pushed through was not the restroom. Not until
he saw the white powder on the table in neat linear
mounds. Not until he saw the men standing behind it pull
out their guns. Instinctively he ducked as bullets whizzed
right above his head, one of them smacking a coffee cup,
spraying steaming liquid on the poor customer's face.
People screamed. Jim dashed past the doorway. Quickly
calculating that the main door was too far, he aimed for
the kitchen. The gunmen were probably too high to care
that there were people around. They gave chase, shooting
all the while. Jim was aware of their inebriated state given
by how widely they were missing him. He ran across the
kitchen taking tight turns and throwing utensils behind
him all the while. It slowed them down, giving him just
enough time to push past the alley door. Only to find two
more burly men waiting. They pressed the gun against his
temples. Jim stopped and raised his hands. Exactly at that
moment, the gunmen burst through the alley door.Jim
ducked again as the bullets whizzed past him and hit the
bouncers. The men stumbled on Jim before they even
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realized what they had done. Jim quickly got up and was
about to run when their heads exploded.
****
Swintern settled back in his chair behind his cluttered
desk. It was rarely so, but he knew many of the files were
now useless. Soon it would be back in its original state:
notebooks on the left, pencils and files on the right,
flanked by a vase and two photo-frames. He found the
frames hidden behind a particularly large mound of files,
covered in a thin layer of dust. He looked lovingly at them
before placing them appropriately and getting back to
work. He powered up his computer to check his e-mail.
No new messages. He switched over to “Compose” to type
out the report of his previous operation to his superior
officer. It beeped. “1 new message”. Anonymous source.
Swintern clicked on it. The next second he grabbed his
coat and dashed out of his office.
“Perkins is back”.
****
Blood and brains spattered all over his face. Jim
immediately closed his eyes to prevent the semi-liquid
grossness from wetting his eyes. He got up on his feet and
wiped his face before opening his eyes. He wished he
hadn't. Rachel stood five metres away with a smoking gun
in her right hand. Jim couldn't take his eyes off the gun for
a minute, and her for the next one. She didn't move,
perhaps dazed at what she had just done. Jim's mind
revved. He ran towards her, snatched her gun away,
dragged her towards the alley exit and pushed her inside
the café kitchen. She didn't resist. A couple of police cars
screeched to a halt at the alley entrance, probably called
in by one of the customers. Jim watched in a daze as his
uncle came running towards him with his gun raised. He
saw him freeze in shock. Slowly, his expressions began to
harden.
****
Swintern took a call as a 2-car police motorcade
consisting of his trusted officers took down the road to
Binn's Mansion.
His face contorted. “What do you mean 'He's gone in' ?”
“The undercover operative has entered the mansion and
has broken all communication lines. It would be advised
that you do not attempt a forced break-in.”
“That is outrageous! What are our other options?”
“A strategic entry, if that is possible. We are not sure
whether the operative's comm range is affected. You can
attempt contact at close range”.
Swintern knew that Perkins had enough sleuths in the
force to know that he was on his way. Time was not his
piece of cake.
“Negative. Attempt contact with the op or he is on his
own.”
****
The view from the Cherry Hills was magnificent. The
entire Denver suburb could be seen flowing like a river
from where he stood, the city skyline visible in the
distance. It made for a very absorbing view which
definitely did not bother him in the least. What did was an
elaborate Victorian house in a secluded wooded portion
of the Hills. He took his eyes off the scope. It was 12 years
since he last saw Rachel, until now. And he wasn't going to
miss a date.
****
The cars screeched to a halt at the gates of the mansion.
Two teams got off the cars. The first team immediately
created a gunfire diversion taking down the gate and
escort guards to let Swintern's team advance inside.
Meanwhile inside the mansion, the gunfire outside drew
no specific panic. The bodyguards simply raised their
guns and waited. Orders came from a woman who looked
like she was in her late 40's. Only, she was just 30:
hallucinogenic substances had, quite literally, grown old
o n h e r .
The guards nodded. But they had hardly taken a step,
when a man emerging out of the curtains with his sub-
machine gun blazing, proved it to be their last. The thud
of three men falling and Rachel's surprisingly quiet gasp
was followed by the click of a magazine being reloaded.
Their eyes met.
****
All those years hadn't changed Jim's feelings for her in any
manner. His mind flashed back to the night of the café
shooting. His uncle had no choice but to arrest him,
neither did Jim offer any explanation or resistance before
entering the car. He quietly watched the scene outside as
his uncle drove out of the alley and onto the road by the
café entrance. A sizable crowd had gathered around: too
busy watching the bullies being pushed inside another
police car to see Jim being driven away. But that wasn't
what he wished to see. What he did wish was standing on
the first floor of the building; half of her face hidden
behind the curtain, her emotionless blue eyes focused on
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him as he moved farther away. The same blue eyes today
stared at him from less than a meter, before the wrinkly
eyelids closed over them. Jim wasn't at all repulsed by her
appearance. It was her eyes he had fallen in love with
first, and they were just the same. He held the reloaded
gun close to his chest, as if to calm his heart down which
was beating rather awkwardly. He had to get back to his
senses, things weren't the same as before. And by the look
of things, never going to be.
****
Swintern had taken cover expecting backup guards to
come exploding out of the ornate Greco-Roman doors.
But there was none. A minute later, he heard gunshots
inside the house.
What the…?
However, when there was no action for yet another
minute, he had reached a certain conclusion. He signaled
his team towards the doors.
****
Rachel was almost facing an information overload. The
irrational emotions she had buried deep beneath twelve
years of materialistic and selfish life gained new energy at
the sight of Jim. She no longer felt old and burdened. She
was 18 once again. Jim dropped his gun to grab a running
Rachel in his arms. The world may have ended for them,
and they couldn't have cared any less. It did not last for
long though, as Rachel felt Jim's body go limp and a hot
liquid trickle down on her face. She came out of her
embrace to recognize the red liquid, just when Jim's ear
mike radio came alive. “Cherry 4, Cherry 4! Do you hear
me? Bailout now! Advance team has been dispatched and
will soon break in at your posi…”. Static. A bewildered
Rachel turned around to find Bernard Perkins standing
behind her, his gun raised. Just then, Swintern and his
team burst through the doors. Perkins opened fire again,
now on the police. One of them was shot on the shoulder.
But he was no match for the fire power. Three bullets
pummeled his chest and one through his eye. He died
before he hit the ground. Two policemen now had their
guns trained on Rachel who had dragged Jim's body out of
the mess. Swintern, however, broke down at the sight of
Jim. Rare tears trickled down his face as he crawled
towards Jim and clasped his nephew's hands to his face.
****
Jeremy Swintern and his wife Stella's happiest day was
when Jim arrived at their Arvada home. Stella was born
with a uterus disorder, which meant that she would never
be able to carry. She had told Jeremy about her
abnormality, expecting fully that he would track back on
his decision to marry. But she mattered too much to
Jeremy now; he never had any second thoughts. Stella's
sister had declared Jeremy as Jim's godfather. But as fate
would have it, Jim and his parents were spending the
summer holidays in Colombia when disaster struck in the
form of an earthquake. Jim and Stella's photos on
Swintern's desk was all that was left of his family.
****
Rachel had grown up among men. Men who did not
flinch at the idea of shooting a man standing next to them
and smiling after it. The only soft corner of her life was
her mother. Rachel's only memory of her mother was her
image in the mirror as she combed her long hair. The first
five years of her life, Rachel was a happy child, the apple
of her mother's eye. She was probably the only human in
the inhuman Perkins household, where guns
outnumbered spoons. Her mother doted on her and
pampered her to no end. But she too could tolerate
Perkins only so much. He had completely changed in the
eight years she had known him. She could take it no
longer and left her husband a crying 5-year old girl
behind. She had inherited all her mother's qualities,
which in her father's eye, became a bane for Rachel. From
the comfort of her mother's lap, she was pushed into her
father's world. Perkins loved her daughter but he was no
father-figure: he would get her anything she wanted, but
was immediately put off by any kind of cheap emotion.
All her tenderness got eroded away by her father's taunts.
Most of her childhood was spent crying until she turned
13, when her father gifted her something that changed
her life completely: a Beretta pistol. She died down,
suppressing all her feelings beneath a hardy exterior that
she had begun to develop. And then Jim Merton came into
her life. Jim was an escape from reality. She never knew
what liking someone meant, she did not like him. But
when things became really hard for Rachel to handle, Jim
was a cushion she could always rest on.
****
17 years later.
Rachel opened her sleepless eyes as the first rays of the
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spring sun streamed through the small window of her
dormitory. The usual cling-clanging of the morning
checks echoed through the long hallways of Denver
Women's Correctional Facility. Monotony was an integral
part of her life now. And she liked it that way, she could
work her way through the day without thinking or
remembering much. Her first few years were
excruciating: never had so much changed in her life in
just one day. For a short moment, she was on the top of the
world. She toppled down in the next. It was her childhood
all over again. It haunted and pained her for days until she
began to shut them all out of her mind. But in the process,
she shut herself from the outside world.
At 2:15 pm, she was called on by a visitor.
Jeremy Swintern waited for her in the airy visiting area of
the facility. It reminded him of his visits to Jim when he
was imprisoned for the café shootings. Though it had
been proved that he had shot those men out of self-
defense, Bernard Perkins's lawyers had pressurized the
jury into accepting a felony of provocation against Jim,
which required him to spend three months in prison. Jim
had changed significantly when Jeremy visited him there
for the first time. Jim had never hidden anything from his
uncle this long, so when he told him the truth about the
café incident, Swintern was in a daze. However, Jim
painstakingly managed to convince him and make him
give his word not to take any action against Rachel, as she
had saved his life. Jim became oddly involved in criminals
and began to make his own investigations. In fact, on one
of his uncle's visits, he had passed on crucial evidence
incriminating Julius Mercante for the first time, as many
of his accomplices were his prison-mates. On his release,
he broke the news to Jeremy and Stella that he wanted to
join the police forces. Jeremy knew his nephew too well to
miss his motive behind his decision. He knew Jim's
relationship with Rachel since their high school days. It
was obvious to him that his involvement in law
enforcement was less due to fascination than it was a
rescue mission to pull Rachel out of that hell-hole she had
stepped into.
****
Rachel never had a visitor before in her 5-year stay. She
calmly walked into the hallway leading to the visitor's
area. Her mind was too numb to even wonder who it was.
Swintern stood up when he saw Rachel enter. She actually
looked younger than she was ten years back, now that she
was off drugs. However her face had matured and
showed no emotions. He smiled slightly as he shook her
hand before offering her a chair. Rachel looked on as he
took a small package in his hands and offered it to her.
“Jim wanted you to have this.”
She opened the package to find a leather-bound
notebook. Jim's diary. It was a long time since she had
spoken to someone.
“After all these years?”, she asked hoarsely.
“I could not part with it. This was his only memory”,
Jeremy managed to say.
Rachel could see his face contort in pain when he parted
from the diary, and knew he was not lying.
“Thank you”, she did not look up at his face.
****
Rachel entered the room quietly. Bernard Perkins did not
like to be interrupted in his thoughts. She had left her car
keys in her father's office backdoor, the place from where
he conducted his other businesses.
“Is it you, honeypie ?”
“Yes, dad.”
He handed over a couple of sheets. “Please darling, do
check these accounts for me. ” It was not rare that Perkins
made use of his daughter's arithmetic skills, so that he
could mull over the more sensitive parts of his trade.
She was leaving when, “Rachel ?”
Something serious. Her father rarely used her name. She
walked back over to him.
“Things aren't smooth anymore, child. You know what
happened to Uncle Jimmy, don't you?”
“Yes dad, I do.” Jimmy Wilkins, a close associate of
Perkins, handled the imports. He had been caught in New
York receiving a shipment, though the transaction had
not been traced back to Perkins yet.
“It's no longer safe to work here. Considering how
established we are, we will be caught even if we stop all
this.”
Rachel was silent for a minute before she spoke, ”What do
you mean dad?”
Perkins knew what his daughter had in mind. “You're
right, darling. We have to move abroad.”
As if on cue, gunshots were heard from the café below.
Rachel dashed from the room, despite her dad calling her
back. She took the exit that opened onto the alley, and
found Jim facing her father's butlers.
***
Rachel's tears shone in the moonlight, as she silently
watched the car pull away with Jim.
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egÙoiw.kZ fu.kZ; fy;k tk jgk gksxk] ;g lkspdj tSls gh geus lHkk ds }kj
ij vUnj ds fØ;kdyki dk vuql.k dk iz;Ur fd;k rFkh vH;arj ls d`".k
o.kZ dh iks'kkd igus ,oa xys esa ̂ ^Qhrs** dk vkfyaxu fd;s ̂ ^lTtuksa** dh
Vksyh mB dj ckgj vkus yxhA ogha gkFk es uhys jax dk ̂ ^okf"kZd iapk¡x**
Hkk¡fr ys[ki= fy, ,d cqf)thoh ds eq[k ij /kwi&Nk¡o Hkk¡fr fefJr Hkko
FksA Qyr% gs loZt! gekjh bl fpark dk fuokj.k dhft;sA**
^^gs foizo! 'kk¡r gks tkvks] ge vkidh euksn'kk ls iw.kZr;k ifjfpr gSaA ckr
vusd o"kZ iwoZ lr;qx dh gS tc fo|ktZu gsrq leLr cqf)thoh xq:dqy esa
dBksj] ifjJeh ,oa lgt thou O;rhr djrs FksA ml le; fo|kFkhZ
'kkjhfjd] ekufld ,oa vk/;kfRed fo|ktZu djrsA os xq: ds dk;ksZa esa
mudk gkFk Hkh c¡Vkrs rFkk muds vuqHko ls cgqr dqN lh[krsA ijUrq muesa
,d cqf)thoh ̂^xzUFk&dhV** FkkA og lEiw.kZ le; iqLrdksa esa yhu jgrk
&iwokZ izqFkh] dqekjh f’k[kk
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