ELLIOT RODGER PLAYS POWERBALL " © LAURA A WARMAN 2014 " for Kate Hansen

I continued to visit the website of the Megamillions lottery

It was at this point that I learned about the Powerball lottery.

The Powerball hadn’t yet come to California, so I knew nothing about it before.

I looked at the website and saw that the jackpot was over $500 million!

California didn’t have a Powerball lottery, so in order to buy a ticket, I would have to drive to Arizona.

Erection-causing body. Her blonde hair wet

Becoming a multi-millionaire is the ONLY way I could have such an experience, and winning the lottery was the ONLY way I could become a multi-millionaire at my age.

As I stared at the Powerball jackpot that was over $500 million, I knew that i HAD to win it.

It was midnight when I had this revelation, and the drawing was on the following day. The only way I could get a ticket before the drawing was if I left for Arizona right then and there.

That sunrise, the sunrise of my destiny. That Powerball jackpot was meant for me.

Of course I would be able to live above everyone who has wronged me and rub it all in their faces as a form of gratifying vengeance. That was my ultimate purpose in life, my reason for living.

I spent the next three days in my room trying to garner enough courage to check the winning numbers that would determine my fate.

I visited the Powerball website to see the result.

"At the very first second of viewing the webpage, I caught a brief glimpse of it before closing it out of fear and panic.

In that brief glimpse, I saw that there were three winning tickets and one of them was in Arizona!

That had to be me! It was meant for me. It was fate, destiny.

I took out my tickets, of which I had purchased fifty, and sifted through them to find the one that matched the winning numbers.

I felt dizzy and ecstatic.

I reached the end of my stack of tickets, I didn’t find any that matched.

For the first few moments, I couldn’t believe what was happening. I looked through all of my tickets again and again, and still, nothing.

I didn’t win.

I just sat there, cold and dead, mentally trying to contemplate what I had just done.

I had driven all the way to Arizona just to buy lottery tickets.

I now had no chance to rise above them

I lost.