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Ibogaine in Ibogaine in psychotherapypsychotherapyA case studyA case study
ibogaine therapy ibogaine therapy ukuk
outline of treatmentoutline of treatment
assessmentassessment
pre-ibogaine therapy sessionspre-ibogaine therapy sessions
ibogaine therapyibogaine therapy
post- ibogaine sessionspost- ibogaine sessions
assessmentassessment
date of assessment 20.3.8date of assessment 20.3.8
44 yo single male lives alone44 yo single male lives alone
physicistphysicist
reason for assessment: reason for assessment:
had seen Tribehad seen Tribe
neglectneglect
emotional traumaemotional trauma
to addressto address
desire to open up spirituallydesire to open up spiritually
break through “armour” keeping him separatebreak through “armour” keeping him separate
why are we herewhy are we here
has things to dohas things to do
his “unfolding”his “unfolding”
sadness, not deservingsadness, not deserving
feeling stuck, free himself for better thingsfeeling stuck, free himself for better things
using energy in a positive wayusing energy in a positive way
phenomenaphenomena
feeling a finger on skinfeeling a finger on skin
seeing faces and beingsseeing faces and beings
hearing his name.smellshearing his name.smells
seeing hand through coffee mugseeing hand through coffee mug
floating patterns, lights and coloursfloating patterns, lights and colours
butterflies, spidersbutterflies, spiders
bellsbells
electricity, hummingelectricity, humming
shakingshaking
backgroundbackground
parents abusive alcoholics, parents abusive alcoholics,
never felt appreciated, nasty to himnever felt appreciated, nasty to him
older non-identical twin, 3 siblingsolder non-identical twin, 3 siblings
parents violent to each otherparents violent to each other
left home age 21left home age 21
relationshipsrelationships
heterosexualheterosexual
last girlfriend 5 years agolast girlfriend 5 years ago
never committednever committed
drug and alcoholdrug and alcohol
cigarettes from age 13 to 18 months agocigarettes from age 13 to 18 months ago
alcohol from age 25, never heavy drinkeralcohol from age 25, never heavy drinker
no drug historyno drug history
medical historymedical history
appendicectomy age 15appendicectomy age 15
recurrent tightness in epigastrium ?irritable recurrent tightness in epigastrium ?irritable bowelbowel
shaking in legsshaking in legs
no allergiesno allergies
no medicationno medication
past psychiatric history- suicidal ideas from age past psychiatric history- suicidal ideas from age 44
father heart dx, CABG, parents alcoholicfather heart dx, CABG, parents alcoholic
personalitypersonality
introvertintrovert
happy child, sensitive, shy quiethappy child, sensitive, shy quiet
stick with his opinionsstick with his opinions
interests: nature, animals, musicinterests: nature, animals, music
commentscomments
I don’t feel self-pityI don’t feel self-pity
help me go back. I was a kid, I was murdered. help me go back. I was a kid, I was murdered.
reorganizing a drawer, re-filingreorganizing a drawer, re-filing
aware of risksaware of risks
“ “ I think it will be painful”I think it will be painful”
review one 4.4.8review one 4.4.8
““alright”alright”
met a brazilian womanmet a brazilian woman
can read peoplecan read people
wants to work for himselfwants to work for himself
patents for inventionspatents for inventions
spasm right flankspasm right flank
dream nine 8ft peopledream nine 8ft people
review two 20.4.8review two 20.4.8something around the cornersomething around the corner
optimisticoptimistic
directors at work are like his parentsdirectors at work are like his parents
wants to work with peoplewants to work with people
forming space to growforming space to grow
no fear of taking ibogaineno fear of taking ibogaine
abdominal symptoms. eyes flickeringabdominal symptoms. eyes flickering
colours workshop. saw mediumncolours workshop. saw mediumn
unfoldingunfolding
review three 2.5.8review three 2.5.8
looking forward to summerlooking forward to summer
never had fear. never feared parentsnever had fear. never feared parents
nightmare, albatross, water on facenightmare, albatross, water on face
earliest memoriesearliest memories
in photos always looking upin photos always looking up
review four 16.5.8review four 16.5.8
abdominal pain, humming on/off 5 yearsabdominal pain, humming on/off 5 years
can feel bodies around himcan feel bodies around him
sacrifices in relationshipssacrifices in relationships
to use his talentsto use his talents
discussed ibogaine therapydiscussed ibogaine therapy
physical examinationphysical examination
review five 29.5.8review five 29.5.8feeling okayfeeling okay
mix of excitement and anxietymix of excitement and anxiety
flutter in epigastrium, left chestflutter in epigastrium, left chest
humming in torso, legs. humming in torso, legs.
ball of heat left chestball of heat left chest
age 7-14age 7-14
wizard in the forestwizard in the forest
past livespast lives
ibogaine therapy 7.6.8 ibogaine therapy 7.6.8 1030 ECG normal. test dose 100mg ibogaine 1030 ECG normal. test dose 100mg ibogaine HCLHCL
saw medium. wizard in solar plexussaw medium. wizard in solar plexus
was seeing colours of light, pink mainlywas seeing colours of light, pink mainly
feeling relaxed, little nervous, excitedfeeling relaxed, little nervous, excited
plans to take next week off, course “spiritual plans to take next week off, course “spiritual realm”realm”
1100 feeling fine1100 feeling fine
1130 BP 120/80. flutter right leg1130 BP 120/80. flutter right leg
usual buzzing in head but strongerusual buzzing in head but stronger
1200 taken ibogaine HCL 1500mg ( total 1200 taken ibogaine HCL 1500mg ( total 20mg/kg)20mg/kg)
1215 P 70 reg good vol1215 P 70 reg good vol
1230 hot flush. P 65 BP 120/801230 hot flush. P 65 BP 120/80
1315 P 60 reg. restless. ++ visions1315 P 60 reg. restless. ++ visions
1400 BP 120/80 . doing okay. thirsty1400 BP 120/80 . doing okay. thirsty
1500 P 60 less restless now1500 P 60 less restless now
1600 BP 130/85 P 65reg. thirsty o/w settled1600 BP 130/85 P 65reg. thirsty o/w settled
1900 “heart beating fast”. felt in chest. BP 1900 “heart beating fast”. felt in chest. BP 140/90 P 88140/90 P 88
drinking plenty water, no nausea, vomiting or drinking plenty water, no nausea, vomiting or urinationurination
2000 BP 120/80 P 70 reg .Some anxiety 2000 BP 120/80 P 70 reg .Some anxiety
dehydrateddehydrated
1230am BP 110/70 P 76 reg. visions 1230am BP 110/70 P 76 reg. visions decreasingdecreasing
0530 white doves. 0530 white doves.
memories of 1 1/2 y.o.memories of 1 1/2 y.o.
dogs ,sheep, horses, 200 people, dinosaursdogs ,sheep, horses, 200 people, dinosaurs
initially lot of blood and goreinitially lot of blood and gore
““what if I’d died” “ it was lovely”what if I’d died” “ it was lovely”
7 people working with him.7 people working with him.
2 girls, old man (Lao Tse), monk, african, 2 girls, old man (Lao Tse), monk, african, indian, otherindian, other
advice given to himadvice given to him
levitation of bedlevitation of bed
white cloudwhite cloud
box with white materialbox with white material
bridge of white blanketbridge of white blanket
traffic lights, lights flying through airtraffic lights, lights flying through air
fat lady, thin lady, ends of same thingfat lady, thin lady, ends of same thing
father’s aggressionfather’s aggression
mother aware of what she has donemother aware of what she has done
birds, butterflies, cows, pidgeonsbirds, butterflies, cows, pidgeons
person next to meperson next to me
ceilingceiling
white rabbitwhite rabbit
three screensthree screens
third eyethird eye
gamesgames
little birdlittle bird
world’s population in miniatureworld’s population in miniature
USA, ChinaUSA, China
bodily sensationsbodily sensations
gel/ substance on abdomengel/ substance on abdomen
substance over handssubstance over hands
higher placehigher place
body being worked onbody being worked on
telepathic communicationtelepathic communication
watching historical self without emotionwatching historical self without emotion
victim as victimizervictim as victimizer
changing his workchanging his work
writing postcardswriting postcards
trust Lao Tse as guide. trust other humanstrust Lao Tse as guide. trust other humans
• “ “it was fun”it was fun”• ““life is an opportunity”life is an opportunity”
post-ibogaine one post-ibogaine one 13.6.813.6.8
““reborn”reborn”
“ “ best thing i’ve ever done”best thing i’ve ever done”
““tolerance”tolerance”
““sense of real purpose”sense of real purpose”
responding differentlyresponding differently
lessons learned lessons learned
““higher self kept telling me off”higher self kept telling me off”
has been adjustedhas been adjusted
““only used rational mind”only used rational mind”
moving forward fastmoving forward fast
““baby smiling at me and laughing”baby smiling at me and laughing”
judging and labelling lessjudging and labelling less
wanting to mix with people morewanting to mix with people more
seeing colours, lots of green, ball of green lightseeing colours, lots of green, ball of green light
the strong pulse in stomach has gonethe strong pulse in stomach has gone
not self-persecuting, humble, forgivingnot self-persecuting, humble, forgiving
connected to other half of selfconnected to other half of self
work: fine about going backwork: fine about going back
has faith things will comehas faith things will come
visions: cave; water not falling on himvisions: cave; water not falling on him
post-ibogaine two post-ibogaine two 19.8.819.8.8
talked about changing his careertalked about changing his career
less judgementalless judgemental
seeing three women, playing the field, enjoying seeing three women, playing the field, enjoying freedomfreedom
wanting to move to south coastwanting to move to south coast
visions: dog on his lap, slim girl long hair sitting with visions: dog on his lap, slim girl long hair sitting with meme
wanting ibogaine againwanting ibogaine again
feelings about the old manfeelings about the old man
chance meeting with a woman called Lindachance meeting with a woman called Linda
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post-ibogaine three post-ibogaine three 10.10.810.10.8
““major progress”major progress”
dream in a lake, released somethingdream in a lake, released something
really wants to be here now since ibogaine and really wants to be here now since ibogaine and dreamdream
seeing beings and lightsseeing beings and lights
wave and the archangelwave and the archangel
sees an old man & a boysees an old man & a boy
women on holdwomen on hold
work going wellwork going well
post-ibogaine four post-ibogaine four 7.11.87.11.8
feeling wellfeeling well
discussed job offerdiscussed job offer
applied to work as carer at local hospiceapplied to work as carer at local hospice
healing workshopshealing workshops
mediumsmediums
patentspatents
post-ibogaine five 6.3.9post-ibogaine five 6.3.9
inventions and the dream homeinventions and the dream home
healing therapies to othershealing therapies to others
reconciliation with motherreconciliation with mother
freedom from past traumafreedom from past trauma
no issues around waterno issues around water
recurring dream of being at universityrecurring dream of being at university
did see Linda again but....did see Linda again but....
ibogaine still the best day of his lifeibogaine still the best day of his life
wants to continue journey in junewants to continue journey in june
psychotherapy and psychotherapy and ibogaineibogaine
powerful, deep experience outside consensual powerful, deep experience outside consensual realityreality
alchemical experiencealchemical experience
introspective and cosmicintrospective and cosmic
contact with intelligence outside egocontact with intelligence outside ego
freedom from past traumafreedom from past trauma
re-evaluation of his life and prioritiesre-evaluation of his life and priorities
reconnected with the worldreconnected with the world
peace in himselfpeace in himself
unfolding, unstuckunfolding, unstuck
new path for his futurenew path for his future