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“Postcard with insomnia” by Iulia Gherghei
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“Postcard with insomnia” by Iulia Gherghei
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Postcard with insomnia
I've forgotten a word on my lips
while I was sliding into the sleep
the dream had no titles
I was no human any more
A leaf lounging on the lake
pushed by a paddle in a mad dance...
freeze the frame
the kid is howling into the night
the heart is jumping out of chest...
she wants to drink water
I'm spinning in a mad dance
with thousands of whispers
the sleep is left on the lake
I am human again sliding into the night
stop
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About a father's sicken soul
I have erased his memory from my soul
keep telling myself he didn't left marks there
He might be dead now! I don't even care...
has been dissolved, has been evaporated
Dust on a blade forgotten in sun
The Blood
the one that unites us...
It does not, I tell you!
It's an illusion!
Between us only the arrowheads remained
with their poisons always activated by the saliva of
the one who troughs away the glove
Here comes the strike that blows off the compromise!
It is like I listen to the same hate record
only now, the voice is hissing
as the snake takes over that man
who once was my father...
Every day it gets clearer
forgiveness can't happen
there where it has been broken;
it has been humiliated and spit
the blood...
Infuriated, the D.N.A bent over his serpentine
so, I've liberated myself!
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Trust
You put your heart into my hands
you trusted me to ease the pains
what can I pour on your wounds?
The honey of my voice,
the warmth of my eyes?!
I am too afraid to hurt the air
with sounds of my lips kissing
the empty space of despair
wait till the next beat of your heart
will touch my inner ear
then I'll burst in love!
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The winter is near...
The world seems friendly tonight
when cold owns the streets,
I sit near the window sipping the darkness
as black coffee hot in the morning,
cold was the word of the week
coughing and sneezing
my kid turned the nights
into deep seas of fear,
tonight the cold arrived to its end
the world is friendly again
the winter is near.
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My muse... out of order!
Maybe, tomorrow my muse will come,
maybe, such a word full of hope...
My muse runs away when the grey sky,
dirty and smelly streets come my way
she gets smaller and smaller, melting her essence into the drain
when cursing is the music that the streets play
surely, my muse will come tomorrow
with her smile bringing sun on the colourless sky
Maybe I'll be home for her!
Home such a comfy feeling...
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The Dragon nightmare
I wish I've been a dragon lost somewhere in a castle
I wish I've been a dragon starring in the mirrors
burning with my breath the curtains
I wish I've been a dragon flying over seas
finding nest in the princess eye
who else but a dragon can fall in love
with the wrong girl, in the worst moment
when the prince cuts his throat merciless
taking the girl as war prize
living the dragon in his own black blood
missing his flight in the princess night
who else but a dragon could I wish to be?!
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The abyss of one
I am alone in my narrow word
who to compare my shadow with
do I need more than one...
new is my coat but the inside?!!
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Letter to my mother, the only inhabitant of heaven!
Mother,
let me build your heaven!
You would be a butterfly
caressed by the sun
and the snake frozen by your sight
would lose his poison
The entire view would borrow its colour
from the your wing's rainbow
The rest you should find it into my palms
there you would tuck in with my soul
I should watch your sleep together
with the grey and curly doggy
for nourishment I should serve you my eyes
my tears you'll drink to calm the thirst ...
Yes, mother, with your permission,
I will build you the heaven!
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The crock
"Now" is a round word
waiting for the splinter
to burst its beginning
rolling the vowel like a damnation
we take upon us the guilt of
overwhelming
in desolation we retreat ourselves
stretched traps for the few!
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"Damn it..."
The kid is angry
the shoe is no fit for the doll
the pink gown is no match for the green purse
big sorrow
I am smiling
I am at ease the kid is playing
there in her room
She built her fairy
here comes the prince on his white horse
Everywhere good fairies flying
Mother, I'm hungry
And here I have a part in this play
I am feeding a princess,
a little terrorist, one and ten high( in cm)
whom I always have to remember that
sentences do not begin with " I want "
"Please, mother
turn on the cartoons"
"I will give you chocolate if you eat the apple"
"We won't go in park if you don't take a nap"
"Tell me what's next to three if you want to play dice games..."
That’s how we negotiate
me, the dragon mom with the beast-princess
together urging for break
the day when the kinder garden is starting!
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Illusions
We don't need dreams...
They are like a disease
it sticks on your blood
cutting deep into your
long orifice of the pupil.
Dreams...
They are crushing our leaves
Spit the spine
Mirroring us in thousand of shreds
The pyres are fired
The ashes have the same taste
The stacks have holy faces
In the air, the apples are sour....
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Words
I am scarred
blank page in front of me
waiting my words
today, a good day
someone told me
I am hungry for your words
give me more
from where do they come
these words with their dance, with their music
with their passion through my blood
that make my eyes moist and misty
so I lose control
Am I addicted to this state of mind?
Are they my medicine against death,
my cry for help cast throw the universe?
Today, a good day
all the rocks that spin around us
are deaf!
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At last...
Our bones' story is waiting to be read
Sadly, nobody will feel de urge to find out
the trivial sequence of happenings that we lived
The still puzzled dinosaurs are reflecting the grim clash of the ice age
that is the prime time news of their bones
The last flash news is yet to come...
Our bones won't be read
The time will suspend its dimension
The sun, the terrorist, will stop the clock by explosion
Tic, Tic
Disappearance in two steps
The dinosaurs were choked by snow
We will slowly burn
In ashes we will return as established before
And the ashes, is known, has nothing to tell
In the newborn vacuum it will float, it will spread
the silence
There, in void
silence at last!
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Prelude...
The rain penetrates...
On my skin
long marks are,
hard smells...
the thrill is in the thunder
give me your lips
to sneak the liquor in
the bitterness of a teeth
stuck deep in my flesh...
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The intruder
To chase me out they would like
I stand across their throats
yet, they have no guts
to stare with their eye like a splinter
they keep the knives hidden
polish them every day
they would like my blood to wash their feet
and my eyes to crush the punches
I ignore their existence, suffering, hatred
useless they whip my surface
won't demolish the temple
I even laugh of their fierce swarming
They dig me, bury me
I, yet alive,
breath and defy them
From the top
it seems an endless comedy
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Butterflies
We were between us the flatterers
We lick our faces
In a compact circle of lies
The sunrise found us tired
With the cigar's smoke in the mirror
Waiting for the liquid fire to burst
We were some stiffs with dried out tongues
eardrums stuffed with words
We were tending to the blue with burned eyelids
The soul was squeezed from us
now draining into the parquet cracks
We were noble dust with coquette scent
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Lately
I always wake up with the same question
in my mind
why don't I deserve any...
And all the others
accuse me of ungratefulness
I admit
Nothing works for me
Nobody is good enough ...
To put my head on a pillow
To sleep
To wake up restful
Not to fear
Is it too much to ask, I wonder
I probably don't deserve it!
I have to run
to lose my breath
to sit down only in the car that drives me to the work
to sleep only when the bus stop is red
Restful only when the kid is smiling
sliding on the slider...
I probably don't deserve
a time
to be human
I am a mom...
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The cactus flower day...
Today I've made a cactus
The blood sprang out
and painted the thorns as flowers
I flew up to the skies and from above
that stain rich for perfection
I am an artist, I said
What else could I do with my own blood
on this earth ...
In what should I reflect my infinity?!
And suddenly I felt an urge for blue
I called it water
water, earth, cactus...
I'll leave for tomorrow the clay
that will shape up the Predator
I'll leave for the last day
the birth of the monster that will destroy my garden
Still, I'll keep it just for me
Only my celestial eyes to be sting by cactus flowers
and from their wound to be borne angels
to fly together
to breath the fairness of this last day
The cactus flower day...
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God’s innocence in a sense
Was god innocent when created the universe?
Is innocence a disease that fades away when time is running out
and dirt penetrates our flash?
Is innocence that died when the apple touch our lips?
If still the innocence would run through our veins
would we appreciate the godly deed?!!
So, again I wonder how innocent was god
when he forbidden us the tree?!!
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The girl from the bus said: Yes!
The girl from the bus said: Yes!
Yes! I've lifted up my arm
I've hung tight by the metallic bar
I am in the bus
and someone stick his nose as if he wishes
with all his being to enter my arm pit
Yes, my blouse is so translucent
And its transparency leaves out my greenish body
Yes, I am a fresh flower from the fields
That your city nose suffocated by asphalt wouldn't smell ever
Yes, caress me all with your breath in the canicular squeeze
as if a hair dryer will spin to my neck
touch me with your sober up poet thoughts
We still have an entire yard of hugs
and a thousand dreams in the horizons....
Too bad,
you and your shirt written with a stupid logo
will lose yourself in a late reverie
without poetry...
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I can't write about autumn
I can't write about autumn when we are in the middle of July
and his incandescent air is torturing my noon hours
I can't write about autumn when alone in my humid sheets,
in my suffocating nights I fight the insomnia
I can't write about autumn when I long for its cold mornings
for its long and red sunsets, for its multicolour leaves
for its anticipation of winter holidays
I can't write about autumn when lonesome in my life, in my dreams
I am paralysed with fear and shivers of cold autumns are sighing in my ears...
The empty bench under the colourful tree of autumn is a wish
about how my life should be
so; I am waiting for that autumn when leaves can whisper happiness
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Prayer
I've danced with my feet in the flames
sniffing
My skin sizzling
My blood in this way
it was redder,
shier
The stones had a sense
in this saint drama,
they were defying us
I left my trace in the palm
and I squeezed as hard as I could
I remained a dust
on the others lips
Spit with veneration
in the mirror
On the street
the rivers are gathering...
And once more
the evening prayer
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Equilibrium
Rare gaze over the edge
a dance on tip toes between two moods
you choose
be happy
take a spin in steps of tango
be desperate...
Sometimes simply being is a difficult process
Equilibrium
A state of soul emerged in seas of feathers
Pillows to soften the gap
One shore has the storm
On the other... the dream is on
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It might be
It might be somewhere a wound
in the centre where the spring comes out
it might be that the soul coagulates
to the bone
and out there beyond the windows caressed by the sun
the happening takes place in slow pace
the despair that arises from broken glasses
stings the sunset...
And then it will flow...
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Playful...
Your smooth touch...
your eye is dressing me with white feathers
slowly, slowly you're shrouding me
as a tomcat in search of a victim
You dance a mad dance on the edge of the lip
Sniffed by a hungry beast
I dare, I squeeze, I run ...
you tenderly besiege my figure
and craving, you sip the very proper prey
I...
Thousands suns seem to smile to me
Now that I give in to you,
Abandoned in...
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Come, my friend!
Come, my friend,
enter my temple!
Light candles on my opened wounds
opened to the crowds
come!
I have a story for you
stay calm into the shadows of my walls
I'll pour only love whispers in your ear
Forget your sunny desert
Come!
Into the dark dropped from the mirror
come!
in the story there is enough place
for one more destiny
Up there, under my temple's roof will be our oasis
and the sound of their tears will be the spring
from where the storyteller begins
Come here in deep shadow
Put your soul in my palms
I'll return it enhanced with the smoke of my ashes
Come! Have no fear
my temple is echoing just for you!
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Letter to a most respected poet
Oh, dear poet, your love of us,
mortal creatures with nasty smells,
with looks like devils disguised in angels,
or the other way around,
dusty and furious and most of all, lusty
approaches you to god himself
Why is my question, why are you still
singing a virtue that never been ours
only your perfect reflection in the mirrors
of heavenly waters?
I hope we meet in our next journey
through human meadows
hope that milk will spring in our galaxy
finally
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The panic at the end of the world...
The world is ruined inside us
The drums announce the end in an infernal pace
Muezzin voice crying from the minarets
Bells desperately pounding
Cross made with sweaty hands
The Sabbath is rest for Eloim
The world is ruined inside us
quietly
each lie
each crime
with every cowardly
The world is ruined
God will recreate it if he wants
right now
only if he wants...
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Love song
Who needs love?
I most certainly don't!
My definition of love:
it is an illness, a psychiatric one
Can you imagine: to be addicted to a person seems OK!!!
instead smoking is a dangerous addiction
Both are lethal sometimes
Now I heard that love only takes three years
Some hormone is no longer produce after a while
Exactly as in any sickness
Bad news: you can't fight hormones
So I was in love, probably soon
love will infect me again
Is very sad when suddenly you wake up
with a total smelly stranger next to you
who behaves like he owns you
That's a crap moment
Who needs love?
I most certainly don't!
The prince turned to frog!
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Never enough...
Never enough
Never enough
always hunger for more
I am a collector of fulfilled desires
running in a hurry to the next glittering piece of
nothing
I feel dead only when my pockets are empty
of lust
Possessing is my drug
I'm yours, she's mine
Is the song that pours honey into my veins
So, intoxicated I turned to the ground
Waiting for the dust to bite me.
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The Black hole
I need to explain this world
to put myself in my place
in my spot in this universe
I need to believe there is a order
A scheme
for which every atom joins another atom
for which every bee flies over her flower only
for which I take every breath one at the time
for which I still hope that love is the centre
of every galaxy
even if we've chosen to call it
The Black hole
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New galaxies
It's late in night
Dark sky with clouds hiding indifferent stars
Covers my dried out eyes
dried out of hope, of dreams
dried out by endless pain
"my neck is relaxed "
"my neck is relaxed "
I have to repeat over and over again
to escape from the terrible torment
Fear of death, fear of suffering
all my life is a dance on the edge
Where is the promised happiness?
What is this shadow that I'm chasing like crazy?
It's late in night
the game of snooker is over
stars are crushing into each other
new galaxies are borne
so that explains the firecrackers in my eyes...
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A new trip
I lost track of time
I lost myself in the vertigo of everyday life
who am I?
What do I want to take with me from this well defined journey?
Are there answers for these simple questions?
I could continue this way all along...
so many like me...
The earth is still spinning
the sun is still burning
death is a refuge
sweet emptiness
bits and bits of anonymous dust
so being humble and simple it is
just a rehearsal before a new trip
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A glimpse of heaven
April flower so pure, so clean is your flavour
In an instant you sent me back to youth
My wings are spread again and I return
to ancient times
The flight I take when I can feel your grassy smell
when white and yellow, pink drops of colour touch my eye
Is like a spin from a perfect tornado
Is like a rain sprung from god's eyes
tears of Eden...
So, what on Earth do I need more?!
A glimpse of heaven pouring butterflies in my life
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Enjoying life
The truth comes to me with so many mouths
so many colourful tongues
it jumps out from so many mirrors
so I'm confused
do I have an option?!
Can I bargain a new truth, my own
Can I ignore all the other truths
you may certainly try
but
are you prepared to pay the prize?
From my experience with the history
any new truth was borne in a blood bath
As far as I am concern
establishing that truth is only a convention
I choose to free myself by
Living
enjoying life truth by truth
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The pill
Take the pill- he said
the pill that keeps you inside the system
keeps you calm, keeps you from asking questions
In fact what is the truth
A convention, a mutual agreed fact
Tomorrow another bargain, another truth
but now, to stay inside this system
you have to swallow this pill
this little lie together with that little lie
swallowed by you day by day
till you'll need no more truth
-Give me the pill, he cried
- I can't cope with this world
So, it all resumes in what pill
you decide to begin a new day
the truth then will have its colour
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Nothing
Nothing came to me
It was smooth
It was humid and warm
I let myself embraced by
Nothing
Empty defines a volume
So, nothing came to me as a void
kissed me, abandoned me into a bliss
I, myself, let go any strings that may have attached me
to the grounds ...
Nothing is the perfect suitor
Anonymous, odourless lover
The one who is a pleasure to wait
for more or less a whole summer
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Old age
prisoner of my bad temper
in search of my light past
when I used to laugh my tears out
everything was a reason for laughter
jokes on everyone
I was the soul of the party
the champagne was in my eyes
now the joke is on me
I've suddenly realized that
laughter had abandon the ship
I enjoy only the sound of a quiet evening
alone...
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The dance poem
her round arm circling the air
her oval, pale face - a dream, a flight of butterflies
she is spinning...
spinning on my windy thoughts
music takes us on cosmic rides
her immaculate ballerina dress pours drops of happiness
rain and sun are all around
take me dear in your dance!
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Middle life
Now it's a time in my life when my engines
run slowly
In fact I have energy just to watch others pass by
to watch leaves turning green
to really breath the air and sense the smell of a fresh born flower
Now I run the movie of my life backwards
I'm stunt how always in a hurry I used to be
obsessed to be free, nobody to interfere in my way
Now when I am tired, and maybe smarter and for sure older
I stopped by the river side, watched my face in the watery mirror
and cried.
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About kindness
The bread is warm,
Bread is good
Steamy and appealing to your nostrils
And I do not know why you're happy
A little
It's good, it's hot
It's almost as sweet as a mother
And it's a sunny autumn
A little cold
But at your breast hot bread you carry
And it's good that you sink
In childhood nearby your mother
When your father was the empty field
And milk from bottle you drunk unfolding the lid
And it's hot
And sticky and steamy
And you become almost
Friendly in the autumn...
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I can't write about autumn
I can't write about autumn when we are in the middle of July
and his incandescent air is torturing my noon hours
I can't write about autumn when alone in my humid sheets,
in my suffocating nights I fight the insomnia
I can't write about autumn when I long for its cold mornings
for its long and red sunsets, for its multicolour leaves
for its anticipation of winter holidays
I can't write about autumn when lonesome in my life, in my dreams
I am paralysed with fear and shivers of cold autumns are sighing in my ears...
The empty bench under the colourful tree of autumn is a wish
about how my life should be
so, I am waiting for that autumn when leaves can whisper happiness
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What an irony!!!
so, we are in nuclear crises
an economical crises
a spring crises
and in this state of affair
I am writing poetry
what an irony
I am contemplating skies waiting for fluffy white clouds
To pour tears of death in our grounds
I am writing poetry
what an irony
They are crying for help, starving and chocking with white smelly ashes
Death is inside them
Once more
I am writing poetry
what an irony
The sun had exploded
The radio cloud had passed
The trees had blossomed
What an irony
I am writing poetry ...
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In their cherry shadow
Cherries to stick my teeth in
their meat, their red Stream fill
my lips with comfort delights
Perfect kiss...
I drown in their blood
The righteous muscle of utterance
It is an act of love
Cherry frail body to knead
Trapped in our solar fury
It is an act of debauchery
The detachment from the core
The future begins his story
Once it will come back
To crush its creature into my mouth
I promise to wait for an orchard
to leave my ashes
Resting
In their cherry shadow
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Mourning
My soul is stacked
vertigo is my second nature
chewing, talking, drunk ...
into a wound end
when you get down the collar
is the question that rang in my ears all the time
as if they care
that I carry on my neck like Atlas
the land
suddenly I am old with half a century
my mother seems more alive
in any case she can carry a loaf
tingle, tingle
my left ear
the nostrils, cold shivers creeping
comes ... comes for the second time
the infernal pain
explode
I reached a point
which pain infuriates me
I feel my neck is hot
pulsating in rhythm of despair
cry
tingle, tingle my left ear
my eyes flow
I am stuffed with pills
waiting for tomorrow migraine
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The ear infection
Do you feel my pain?
You make me laugh!
My pain will never rest into your vein
Only the shadow of my torture will cross your way
my pain is just my pain
I am selfish about it
I don't share my earthquakes, my dark shivers
the knives splitting my brains
No, no, I am sure
This pain is no toy for you
Do you hear?!
My ear is singing
the migraine is here to stay
Let us dance death for dinner
Breakfast in bad temper
Supper in vain ...
Do you still feel my pain?
Do I still hear my cry for help?
Dissolution in crocodile's tears!
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She knows!
In my roads
I pass by a sad street lantern
I don't know why it is sad
Maybe because
almost like in a hug
someone stays close to it borrowing its colour
It's midday
and his eyes are extinct
I feel how he vibrates
inside him is a tension
Something under his feet is moving, shudders the shadow
He would have smiled...
I sense some fluffy pity under my skin
for the man stuck in the lanterns
Helplessness
I pass forward
and leave behind sad perfumes
it’s all I could do....
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Anonymous the lover is transmitting from the sight
Another day to watch
the wind dancing in her hair
to breath the air that follows her
to keep it in my lungs
for just a second
I'm stunt on this piece of side walk
one with the lighting tree
Another day
The heat of second is bursting in my ear
When I watch her coming ...
And jolly is her figure
Full of promise the day is
Humble, I let myself vanish
into her eyes' depth
And thrown away into the skies a second later
a stranger for I am just
Yes, but I was there in her sight
and that's a victory
The seed for many dreams
here, under the lighting tree
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In the air
I feel it in the air
in this wind that tickles
caresses and heals
the frozen soul
I feel it in the air
My nostrils smell
The deserted eye is defrosting
and everything gets
colour
I feel it in the air
the spring fortune
It's green in my taste
It's green in my smell
My ear is dancing with green
New leaves are shimmering
the petals are trembling
Today
We are lucky
In spring
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The Spring Exercise
I should be happy
the trees have blossomed
over the town the odours are floating
Fragrances of joyful yellow, white, flowers
I should be sad
Walking down the city's alley
Ugly by our gas emission
I should be joyful
The kids have an infinite appetite for play
It is peace
I should be sad
The cancer is doing his work
in the town people are hiding their scalp
under the ugliest scarf
I am and I should exist
the town is on my nerves
Today I cast away the garbage
I am lighter with a bit of dust
Which I await to breath it back
The first corner of the street
It's spring
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The wolf
I have cold blood
On my lips I were
unravel wolf's signs
I sell myself in each winter
by the teeth
and bite the curse
from the fruit
I guess the luck in your palm
and paste it on my forehead,
the autumn's fortune
Love
in my spine with seeds alive
and the eye is calling me
drooling for another day
I have cold blood
My warm body is free
from his bones
On the wolf's lip
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Dead or alive game
First
I had no legs
just an immense stiffness
The helplessness annoy me
Choke me to death
They all put honey into their voices
Their damnation was oozing on their eyelashes
Hope was caught in stitches
And death is drinking a bear on "Happy hours'
The mattress took out its thorns to the fair
They mangle my bones
Now I was nothing
but a bag full of worms
with some order in it
From time to time
They twist me
Bath me
They kept the appearance of a body
Should I go on telling the story
About the smells and the sludge...
How I was starring myself from the sealing...
I would have drink champagne
And caviar
I would have eaten
Instead
Drops of water they put on my lips
The good ones
The bad ones
All together
Why hadn't I a button
An off button
My only relief
In death I was carrying
all that in me was unstoppable
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In the end, my cell's war
I won
Then in that January
When for me
" Young and restless"
Was over!
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The migraine
I will wait until
The darkness will twist
Its roots into the land of my eyes
Sucked by the wind
Like a sweet caress I'll stretch
Between the dry surfaces of the pupil
Dried by the dreams
I'll squeeze myself for a scream
Halls in the runaway
Will open into the my artery's
Madness
And blood will burst
Infuriated
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The dream
I've split a dream in two
The seeds were chewing the sunset
The fruit's thrust it was bitter
I've understood the sadness as fruit
Into the rusty fall
Away is the love
Useless melancholy of the stinky meadows
The maiden prayer's is like a wind
Cut by the sins
The whip won't touch the humble
Love is a thorn from our ribbons
I've understood but too late
The world had reached its spine
We've remained the taste of our wishes only
And we've longed for the sin
Only by desire ever since
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Since
Since the air
Still caresses us
And the leave tickles our eye
And the apple spreads his aroma still
I propose to forget
Forget then that in every breath we take
The poison is in triumph
Forget then that the leaf
Could turn into a spear
For your eye
Forget then that the worm
Carved his way to the treasure
In the flesh of your apple
Since death
Has no taste, aroma or colour
It only remains
To cook it
As we prefer
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Unpopulated heaven
I think people have invented death to get vengeance on God
what a sacrifice he made to abolish the ugly border
He even put his blood on the cross
what have we learned from here?
We add in the torture book a new way to enjoy death
We are the Maestro, we induce and produce pain
with the artisan's finesse
And,
revenge after revenge, we destroy any chance
to return there...
Where the tools of pain are only the snake's thorns
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I miss the summer...
I miss the summer
That June day
In my wedding gown
The smell of happiness
All around us
New life
New taste
Champagne
The kiss
I miss the summer rain
A shower to wake me up
Too late
That day of summer
A bubble carrying a dream of happiness
Flew away
Turned back as a bitter memory
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Watching the sky everyday...
I am watching the sky everyday
waiting for it to speak to me
and it is silent, dropping
into my eyes blue poisons
I feel like I'm becoming
a snake
unable to fly
only to drag with me the heavenly wonder
I am cold, doomed to lose myself
through the corners,
The nostalgic circles
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