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Personal Statement
Erin R. Mross
Colorado State University
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I believe that student affairs is critical to student success in higher education and assists
students in the lifetime process of growth and development.
If I am being transparent with you all, in a several instances during my SAHE career, I have
found the prospect of going into the field of higher education disheartening. This is primarily
because the education system, in many respects, is broken. And, on most days, it feels like it is
impossible to fix. I think the closest I got to dropping out of SAHE was after my faculty
interview with Eric Ishiwata for CSPA. We talked for almost an hour about the flaws of the
higher education system, in particular about how faculty don’t have the capacity to actually care
for their students due to the pressures of the tenure system (personal communication, November
20, 2014). He also called out the profession of student affairs stating that we were, as a
profession, not really reaching students that needed to be reached but rather only serving the
students who were going to be fine without us (personal communication, November 20, 2014). I
went home feeling completely dejected. I had known some of the limitations of our field before
going into it, and always hoped that through being a part of the field of higher education, I could
change it. I have come to realize that just because the system is broken doesn’t mean that our
existence within the system doesn’t make a difference to students. In fact, I believe that student
affairs is critical to student success and growth. Without student affairs professionals, I believe
higher education would be a much more oppressive system. In short, even though the system of
higher education will not change overnight, I believe that we matter because we make a
difference to our students through providing them opportunities for growth and development.
I believe in the power of students and that I serve an important role as an advocate for
them. They are who I fight for.
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The first assignment during my SAHE career will always stick with me because it helped me
frame my purpose as a student affairs professional. Our first paper we wrote was on John
Gardner’s book Excellence. As a primer for this paper, we watched a video on John Gardner. At
the end of the video they posed the question: “Who will you fight for?” (PBS, 2001). This
question has stuck with me and it has guided a lot of my work. I find that sometimes it is easy to
get distracted in the politics of an institution or to get buried in the daily administrative tasks of
our positions. It is easy to forget for whom higher education actually exists: the students. As
such, I believe it is important to remain student centered and student focused. It is vital to
remember the power of students especially when they aren’t given a seat at the table. I believe it
is our role to be their advocate in these situations. As someone with a vast amount of privilege
who will often have a seat at the table simply because of the privilege I hold, I have to remember
to use this power and access to advocate for students.
I believe that student learning doesn’t just happen within the classroom. I believe in
focusing on the education and development of the whole student (American Council on
Education, 1949; Keeling, 2004; Keeling, 2006).
When I reflect back upon my experience in higher education utilizing the framework of
“transformational learning” as outlined in these defining texts, I begin to recognize how much of
my learning and growth occurred outside of the classroom. As such, it is important to advocate
for the role that student affairs professional’s play as educators. It is also important to remember
it is our responsibility to develop the whole student—not just their intellectual capacity—in order
to ensure higher education is a transformational experience. I believe that students should walk
away from their educational experience being better people, too.
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I believe students should walk away from their higher education experience with a
deeper understanding and respect for diversity and human dignity.
Building upon the previous statement: I believe that, in order for students to become “better
people,” we have a responsibility to be social justice educators and advocates. This starts through
encouraging student growth and identity development. We must encourage students with
privilege to understand their privilege—to learn how to use it productively rather than
oppressively. And, student affairs professionals must also be allies and advocates for those who
have been underrepresented in higher education and have experienced other forms of systemic
marginalization. It is part of our job to work to change these systems and empower students.
I believe that all should have access to higher education and that all humans should
experience the professional, intellectual, and personal development which is a result of
higher education. However, I do not believe that a college education which results in a
bachelor’s degree (or higher) is the only path to obtain this development or these rights.
(Gardner, 1995).
I do not believe that everyone has the right to attend college in the sense that everyone
should attend college. I do believe in access and that everyone who has the drive and ability to
attend college should. However, more importantly, I believe there are other respectable paths in
life in which one can develop oneself professionally, intellectually, and personally. Through
working at Front Range, I have had my eyes opened to these different paths to a full life that may
not include a Bachelor’s degree. We must, as a society, increase access to all developmental
experiences including but not limited to higher education. As student affairs professionals it is
our role to both continue to increase access to higher education and encourage a continued
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educational experience that is the best fit for the individual, recognizing that a bachelor’s degree
is not the only path for everyone.
Addendum 5/1/2015
I believe that access isn’t enough.
Throughout my time in higher education, I have noticed that most conversations about social
justice in the sphere of higher education fall short of actual social justice work. In fact, most
conversations about social justice merely appropriate the term, which allows universities to
continue to miss the mark when it comes to serving marginalized students, ultimately further
perpetuating inequity. Conversations about social justice are really merely conversations about
diversity—they are a numbers game where universities count the number of “diverse” students in
attendance or within their employees. University administration then utilize these numbers as a
means of illustrating how socially just they are as an organization— patting themselves on the
back for opening the gates of higher education to those who have historically been denied access.
Access however does not equate with inclusion into the higher education system and it certainly
does not equate with systemic change which is the hallmark of social justice work. I believe that
opening the doors higher education without providing students with the means necessary to
succeed is the antithesis of social justice work and is an immoral act of violence which can
further oppress students. (On a side note: I use the term violence intentionally as a means of
illustrating how this is an act of power over marginalized students which results in psychological
and sometimes even physical harm. Violence as defined by the World Report on Violence and
Health by the World Health Organization (2014) is defined as “the intentional use of physical
force or power, threatened or actual, against oneself, another person, or against a group or
community, that either results in or has a high likelihood of resulting in injury, death,
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psychological harm, maldevelopment, or deprivation” (n.p.). I therefore believe that access
without inclusion is an act of violence which places students in climates which result in physical
and psychological harm). Additionally, I believe that opening the doors to higher education and
providing students with tools for success is merely inclusion because it allows the current
oppressive system to remain intact. Make no mistake, inclusion is not social justice work.
Although “inclusive excellence” is more moral than access alone because it is not an act of
violence against students which results in harm, it still falls short because oppressive systems
remain intact. Inclusion therefore is not social justice work. I believe in working toward real
social justice in higher education. Doing social justice work as student affairs professionals
means overhauling the current system in favor of a new one which allows the full and equitable
participation of marginalized students within a climate which is shaped to meet their needs,
ultimately resulting in a higher education system which benefits all students.
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Subject Name
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1 100.00% Erin Mross
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1 100.00% 9/4/2014
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Demonstrates an understanding of individual, group, organizational and leadership theories
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1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
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Demonstrates an understanding of individual, group, organizational and leadership theories
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I have studied identity theories in Undergrad. I do however feel like I would like more context.
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates a working understanding of assessment and evaluation, methodology, and interpretation as it applies to student affairs practice
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1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
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Demonstrates a working understanding of assessment and evaluation, methodology, and interpretation as it applies to student affairs practice
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0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
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1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
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I have NEVER done any real assessment! I already feel like this would be helpful in my assistantship!
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Mean 1.00 Std Deviation 0.00
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Mode 1 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
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Demonstrates an understanding of basic legal, contractual, and liability issues involved in college student affairs practice
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0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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I have only had one legal class ever before. I understand a basic concept of protected classes, title 9, VAWA, and affirmative action. However I KNOW I need a lot more of this!
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
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Demonstrates an understanding of basic legal, contractual, and liability issues involved in college student affairs practice
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Mode 1 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates an understanding of cross-cultural and diversity related issues within the context of higher education
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0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
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I have studied diversity and higher education but KNOW there is sooooo much more to learn.
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Demonstrates an understanding of cross-cultural and diversity related issues within the context of higher education
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Demonstrates an understanding of higher education systems, history, and how student affairs roles, responsibilities and systems are infused into the larger educational picture
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
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Demonstrates an understanding of higher education systems, history, and how student affairs roles, responsibilities and systems are infused into the larger educational picture
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similarly, I have studied Higher education systems and history. However while at FRCC I am learning how little I know about other institutional types and their contextual history, roles, big picture etc.
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Demonstrates an understanding of how diverse student learning, developmental theory, and research are relevant to students' education and development
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Demonstrates an understanding of how diverse student learning, developmental theory, and research are relevant to students' education and development
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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I have started learning about theory but know there is so much to learn still!
1 Respondent
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Mean 2.00 Std Deviation 0.00
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Demonstrates an understanding of students' diverse characteristics, demographics, and attributes and how they influence students' education and development
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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similarly, I have studied identity and on a basic level feel like I understand how identity can influence a students' education and development
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
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Demonstrates an understanding of student affairs standards and practice and professional ethical standards
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
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I have looked over some CAS standards and have read the Student Personnel Perspective. but that is it.
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
Mean 2.00 Std Deviation 0.00
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Demonstrates an understanding of student affairs standards and practice and professional ethical standards
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Mode 2 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates an understanding of current issues and practices in the student affairs profession.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
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1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
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I feel like through being in higher education recently this has come up a lot.
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Demonstrates an understanding of current issues and practices in the student affairs profession.
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
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Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to perform administration functions and services in selected student affairs functional areas (at least two distinct areas).
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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Demonstrates the ability to perform administration functions and services in selected student affairs functional areas (at least two distinct areas).
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1 100.00% I have started this, with my assistantship, however I need this!
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Mode 2 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to develop, implement and evaluate educational and student service based programs.
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1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
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0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
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Demonstrates the ability to develop, implement and evaluate educational and student service based programs.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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1 100.00% Assessment=something I need!
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Demonstrates the ability to utilize various forms of technology for data collection, analysis, communication and presentation of information.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
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I have NEVER done any formal data analysis outside of my statistics classes in undergrad. AHH!
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
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Demonstrates the ability to utilize various forms of technology for data collection, analysis, communication and presentation of information.
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Mode 1 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to formulate goals; implement strategies for achieving goals through efficient and effective use of resources and evaluation of goal attainment.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
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1 100.00% More evaluation. I also feel like I am pretty good with goals.
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Demonstrates the ability to formulate goals; implement strategies for achieving goals through efficient and effective use of resources and evaluation of goal attainment.
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Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
Mean 2.00 Std Deviation 0.00
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Mode 2 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to meet deadlines and produce quality results.
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Demonstrates the ability to meet deadlines and produce quality results.
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1 100.00% I have met all of my deadlines thus far...we shall see what happens!
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Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates adherence to and value for personal and professional ethical standards through ethical practice.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
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1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
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Demonstrates adherence to and value for personal and professional ethical standards through ethical practice.
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I am still uncovering my ethical standards. I feel like they are firmly in place however I need to uncover the why behind the what still.
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Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates personal and professional confidence.
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Demonstrates personal and professional confidence.
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1 100.00% Eh... I am still learning!
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Demonstrates inquisitive, self-motivated commitment to learning and self-development.
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Yes I am here! I am ready! I am excited to be challenged and supported throughout this developmental process.
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Demonstrates inquisitive, self-motivated commitment to learning and self-development.
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Demonstrates a commitment to personal and professional growth in the area of diversity and social justice.
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I know I can grow with my SJ and diversity stuff however I feel like I am in a pretty good space with it right now.
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Demonstrates a commitment to personal and professional growth in the area of diversity and social justice.
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Demonstrates ability to work with others within a team context.
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Demonstrates ability to work with others within a team context.
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I am still learning how to work with teams. Especially the cohort since I don't really know everyone yet.
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Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates ability to make appropriate modifications to behavior based on self-monitoring and constructive feedback.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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Demonstrates ability to make appropriate modifications to behavior based on self-monitoring and constructive feedback.
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1 100.00% Feedback is a struggle for me. I know i need to work on this!
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Demonstrates ability to teach and model a respect for shared community values, including establishing and maintaining an inclusive community promoting civic education.
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Demonstrates ability to teach and model a respect for shared community values, including establishing and maintaining an inclusive community promoting civic education.
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yes! I believe in an inclusive community and promoting civic education. However I feel like I need more tools to actively teach this.
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Demonstrates ability to teach and model a respect for shared community values, including establishing and maintaining an inclusive community promoting civic education.
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Demonstrates a willingness to engage in sustained dialogue in order to reach an understanding of the issues presented.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
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0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
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1 100.00% I am willing to sit in the dialogue and in the discomfort.
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Demonstrates a willingness to engage in sustained dialogue in order to reach an understanding of the issues presented.
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Mean 4.00 Std Deviation 0.00
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Demonstrates the ability to use sound, effective written and oral communication techniques and strategies within student affairs practice.
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0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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0 0.00% 0.00 N/A
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Demonstrates the ability to use sound, effective written and oral communication techniques and strategies within student affairs practice.
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1 100.00% Still working on this. DAMN APA!
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to communicate in an inclusive manner.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
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Demonstrates the ability to communicate in an inclusive manner.
Count Respondent %
Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00%
I know there is a lot of holes in my inclusive language still however I have been working on this for four years and have been consistently learning.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 100.00% (1) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 4.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 4 Std Error 0.00
Mode 4 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
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Demonstrates the ability to relate effectively to a wide range of people and appreciate individual differences, with cultural sensitivity.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
1 100.00% 50.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00% I have been working on this a lot. I hope I can learn more.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 100.00% (1) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 4.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 4 Std Error 0.00
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Demonstrates the ability to relate effectively to a wide range of people and appreciate individual differences, with cultural sensitivity.
Count Respondent %
Response %
Mode 4 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to build rapport, show compassion and understanding for others, and establish and maintain mutually satisfying relationships.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
1 100.00% 50.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00% I have been working on this a lot. I hope I can learn more.
1 Respondent
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Demonstrates the ability to build rapport, show compassion and understanding for others, and establish and maintain mutually satisfying relationships.
Count Respondent %
Response %
2 Responses
Top 2 100.00% (1) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 4.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 4 Std Error 0.00
Mode 4 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to supervise and train diverse student affairs staff, students and/or professionals.
Count Respondent %
Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.0 Comments
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Demonstrates the ability to supervise and train diverse student affairs staff, students and/or professionals.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0%
Count
Percent
1 100.00% I NEED the supervision sessions STAT!
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
Mean 1.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 1 Std Error 0.00
Mode 1 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to advise student groups and organizations.
Count Respondent %
Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00 Meets goal occasionally
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Demonstrates the ability to advise student groups and organizations.
Count Respondent %
Response %
%
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00% I NEED advising STAT!
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
Mean 1.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 1 Std Error 0.00
Mode 1 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to apply student learning and developmental theory to student affairs practice in a specific context.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00 Unaware of goal
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Demonstrates the ability to apply student learning and developmental theory to student affairs practice in a specific context.
Count Respondent %
Response %
%
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00%
haven't had too much of a chance yet however I am looking forward to it!
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
Mean 2.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 2 Std Error 0.00
Mode 2 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
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Demonstrates the ability to develop creative solutions to complex problems and see opportunities where others see obstacles.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00% yes? I mean I am working on this.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence 0.00-0.00
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Demonstrates the ability to develop creative solutions to complex problems and see opportunities where others see obstacles.
Count Respondent %
Response %
Interval @ 95%
Demonstrates the ability to engage in the process of change instead of defend against it.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00% the discomfort. Yes. I engage. No I don't like it.
1 Respondent
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Demonstrates the ability to engage in the process of change instead of defend against it.
Count Respondent %
Response %
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the belief that personal actions can make a difference.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
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Demonstrates the belief that personal actions can make a difference.
Count Respondent %
Response %
Count
Percent
1 100.00%
I do believe that personal actions can make a difference. Need a little modeling on this though.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 0.00% (0)
Mean 3.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 3 Std Error 0.00
Mode 3 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
Demonstrates the ability to engage in systematic inquiry, research, analysis and interpretation.
Count Respondent %
Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00 Meets goal consistently
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Demonstrates the ability to engage in systematic inquiry, research, analysis and interpretation.
Count Respondent %
Response %
%
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count
Percent
1 100.00% I haven't done research in the field before but have done research
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Top 2 0.00% (0) Bottom 2 100.00% (1)
Mean 2.00 Std Deviation 0.00
Median 2 Std Error 0.00
Mode 2 Confidence Interval @ 95% 0.00-0.00
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End of the Semester Reflection
Erin R. Mross
Colorado State University
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End of the Semester Reflection
My fall semester of SAHE got off to a somewhat rough start. I was not receiving emails
from the program, meaning I spent the majority of the first couple of weeks trying to catch up on
any missed information and discovering how to fix this problem. Because of this, I started SAHE
already feeling behind. It wasn't until August 27th, after working with I.T. for weeks, when I was
subscribed to all listservs and began receiving communications. Because I wasn't integrated into
the program and the division, I found myself feeling excluded and disengaged from the program.
However I think this introduction into SAHE also really set the tone for my experience in the
sense that it helped me realize how much of my SAHE experience was on me to create. I think it
can be really easy to believe that the SAHE program is designed by the faculty and our program
administrators rather than something that we, as students, have the ability to shape as well. I
think this realization was very important for me, and has become an underlying framework for
the first semester of my SAHE experience. I believe that learning is more than passive
assimilation of knowledge but rather a dynamic process in which I, as the learner, have the
power to construct my experience. This reflection will look at moments in which I either failed
to realize this power or utilized it to the best of my abilities within my classes, my assistantship,
and my relationship with the cohort.
Classes
Classes overall have gone fairly well for me this semester. In all honesty, I was expecting
master’s level classes to be more academically challenging in some respects. I would say the
biggest challenge in regards to classes therefore was making sure that I had enough time to
complete what I needed to get done rather than the work itself. The most challenging class
overall has been Introduction to Research Methods. This is also the class that I am doing worst in
academically. This class has been difficult for me because I have felt like the instructor team has
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very little commitment to our learning. In short, they don’t really seem to care about us learning
anything and being able to apply the concepts to our practice. This comes across through
haphazard lectures and assignments which were not being taken seriously by the instructors.
Throughout the semester, stories from the cohort began surfacing about the academic rigor of the
classes. Someone infect even turned in an assignment which was incomplete and still received
100% on it. I found it very difficult to stay motivated to engage in class and to put attention or
care toward these assignments because I felt like the instructor team ultimately didn’t care about
the assignments.
However upon reflecting in my academic performance in this class I feel like this is an
instance in which I have failed to recognize my power to construct my own SAHE experience. It
became abundantly clear to me that I was failing to do this during the fall break. During break I
was working in the computer lab on my final research paper. While working, I ran into the TA
for the class. He was asking how I felt class was going and how my paper was going. During this
conversation, I admitted that I felt a little disappointed in the level of learning which was
occurring in the class. He said that I was right, I would likely do well on the assignments for the
class without putting in much effort (including the large research paper I was working on).
However, he challenged me stating that I should always dig deeper in order to find a personal
motivation for finishing the paper. This inner motivation would be something that I would
personally get out of the process not just doing it for the final grade of the paper. I then thought
back to the first day of research methods class in which Dr. De Miranda gave this exact same
advice to us when he assigned the research paper to us. I realized that it had been the expectation
all along to search for something of greater meaning in our work. I had merely lost sight of this
because it was less applicable than some of my other classes.
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Speaking of which, in terms of our other classes, I have really valued a lot of what we
were learning and found it all very applicable to student affairs. I think in this respect I began to
realize how little I actually knew about the field I was committing myself to. For example, I was
unaware of all the foundations of student affairs as a profession and the context of the history of
higher education in the U.S. These are some major take aways from CSPA. Although much of
Student Development Theory is very intuitive, I have already found many instances in which it
has been very powerful to name or contextualize a student’s development through using theory.
And, as reflected upon in my professional competency reflection, I have realized that making
assumptions about where a student is developmentally without critically reflecting upon where
they actually are can cause harm. Ethics has made me think a lot about how utilize my
professional and personal values as a student affairs professional. I already used a lot of what I
have learned in Ethics in my assistantship.
Assistantship
My assistantship has been a lot of work, however it has been extremely rewarding. I often
find myself wanting to spend my extra time working on projects for my assistantship because I
really do love what I do. I feel like my assistantship has a lot of purpose. What makes it
purposeful is the fact that I am the first person to have this assistantship, meaning I have a lot of
ownership over and responsibility in what I am doing. I think the biggest challenges in my
assistantship have been discovering how to handle the politics of working at a university in
general. Because a lot of people on campus have stakes in my work as Graduate Assistant for
Diversity and Social Justice there are often multiple players and perspectives I feel like I need to
consider when creating programs or trainings. I have found it very important to make sure that
the majority of the political players have buy in with my programs. This has been difficult
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because a lot of the work surrounding Diversity and Social Justice Education can be contentious
and missteps can do a lot of hurt to marginalized communities. For example, this semester I put
on a program in which we hung door tags on all of the doors around campus with information
about sexual assault and consent. We got a wide range of responses back. A student reached out
to me feeling like they had been invalidated by the program because I used the term “sexual
assault” rather than the term “rape” for the program. On the other end of the spectrum, I was
approached by a professor who was upset with the program because they felt like we shouldn’t
be talking to our students about sex at all. I have come to realize that it is almost impossible to
ensure that all political players feel positive about the work that I am doing, however I can do my
best to include people in the planning process and ensure their voices or concerns are heard. I
will not however allow the politics to hinder me from putting on a program or starting a
conversation that I feel like needs to happen on campus.
Outside of programs, I have learned a lot in my assistantship through supervising Freyja.
I was initially a little hesitant to supervise Freyja because she is a non-traditional student and is
actually older than me. I was expecting her to not see me as an authoritative supervisor because
of this. This insecurity became a very strong motivator for me in the work that I do at my
assistantship to ensure that my programs are well thought out and credible. Additionally, beyond
being a source of personal motivation, I have also learned a lot from the action of working with
Freyja. First of all, Freyja identifies as a student with a learning disability. Although I love to be
creative in the work that I do, often this means working up to the last minute and relying heavily
upon flexibility. Freyja however needs more processing time in order to feel like she is secure in
doing her best work. Because of this, I have discovered how I can adjust my working style in
order to give her a rough framework for her work week so she can thoroughly process through
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her work before she has to do it. The quality of work has increased exponentially since I made
these accommodations. In addition to learning about how to work with Freyja specifically, I have
learned a lot about supervision in general through working with Freyja. Although we had fairly
well outlined expectations for each other at the start of our positions, I had never supervised a
student who was consistently not meeting expectations before yet was wholeheartedly invested
in the work that they did. This caused me to initiate a lot of difficult conversations about
improving performance in a way which still honored all of the hard work Freyja was already
doing. Through these conversations Freyja disclosed that she was dealing with a lot of personal
things that were carrying into the work place. We discussed how when you show up to work, you
show up to work as a whole person and often carry with you the baggage of the other aspects of
your life. This caused us to have a lot of conversations about how to find balance in life as well
as how to prioritize self-care in a way that allows one to better handle the stresses in all aspects
of ones’ life.
Cohort
I really appreciate our cohort. I feel like we have a very cooperative cohort and I feel very
grateful for that. I have heard from former and current SAHE members that cohorts are often
very competitive and I feel like I would struggle if I felt like I didn’t have the cohort’s support.
We somewhat informally set an expectation that we would be supportive of each other through
the fact that we created a “groupme” texting group in which we can communicate with everyone
in the cohort at once. This group text is used to remind each other to complete assignments for
class as well as to socialize with each other, setting up dinners and other bonding activities. It is a
nice way to ensure that everyone is being included. I haven’t had too many conflicts with anyone
in the cohort which is amazing when you think about how much time we all spend together. I
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have however had a couple of difficult conversations with people in the cohort. I have been
approached twice, by different members of the cohort, that sometimes I don’t always fully honor
the connections I have with those in the cohort. One person approached me about how I appeared
like I had no interest to get to know them personally. I was completely unaware that I had ever
paid less attention to cultivating a relationship with them when they first approached me. I soon
began to realize though that I hadn’t reached out to them as much as some of the other people in
the cohort, oddly enough, because we had similar identities and interests. Because of this, I had
made a lot of assumptions about their story and didn’t take full stock of their individuality. The
other member of the cohort that I had a difficult conversation with discussed with me that they
trusted me with some very personal information and that they felt like I didn’t fully appreciate
the weight of what they had shared with me. In both of these instances I realized that I was
unaware at how inaction and inattention can cause affect a relationship as much as harmful
actions.
Concluding thoughts
Overall, I am amazed at how much I have learned through my SAHE experience thus far.
As I move forward with the program I would like to continue to intentionally reflect upon the
meaning of my experiences. Thus far, I have found that when I am faced with a challenge I have
the ability to move forward through understanding the power I have to turn challenges into
learning experiences. I am excited to build upon the lessons I have already learned and to take a
more active role as constructor of my own learning. I think through being able to take this
proactive approach, I will be able graduate from SAHE with a multitude of meaningful
experiences to guide my role as a student affairs practitioner.
Addendum 5/1/2015
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My first semester was much more difficult than I expressed in my reflection. I pushed
myself to my limits and never really felt like I managed to do anything which mattered. This
semester left me with a deep sense of purposeless. Even though I was working hard and doing a
lot of things, I felt like very little of what I doing mattered. I think it is interesting that this
reflection talks about having the power to construct my own experience—and to make meaning
out of my own experiences—however this was something I was unable to actually do my first
semester. In fact, I find super ironic that I talk a lot about making meaning and finding purpose
without being able to admit that I had lost a lot of my own purpose. A lot of this reflection is
filled with hallow words. And rather than admit that I was feeling purposeless, I wrote a nice
reflection about ultimately finding purpose even though I never did. Through re-reading this
reflection it becomes clear that I struggled reflecting and making any meaning out of my
experiences my first semester. Even though this reflection is about 7 pages long, I feel like it
never really expresses anything. I am keeping the reflection intact because I believe it is a good
illustration with my inability to authentically reflect on my experiences and my inability to admit
my struggles even to myself.
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Academic Reflection: Today’s College Student Paper
Erin R. Mross
Colorado State University
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ACADEMIC COMPETENCY
Name: Erin Mross
Class: EDHE 673: Student Development Theory
Product(s): Today’s College Student Paper
Purpose: To develop skills in research, critical analysis, organization, writing, editing, and
utilizing APA format to communicate theory knowledge, application, and understanding through
writing a paper on a specific aspect of Today’s College Students (i.e. values, attitudes,
demographics, trends, etc.).
Primary Competencies Addressed:
KNOWLEDGE COMPETENCIES
Demonstrate an understanding of:
F: how diverse student learning, developmental theory and research are relevant to students’
education and development.
G: students’ diverse characteristics, demographics and attributes and how they influence
students’ education and development.
I: current issues and practices in the student affairs profession.
PROFESSIONAL PRACTICE COMPETENCIESII. Managing Self
C: inquisitive, self-motivated commitment to learning and self-development.
F: ability to make appropriate modifications to behavior based on self-monitoring and
constructive feedback.
III. Communication
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C: the ability to use sound, effective written and oral communication techniques and strategies
within student affairs practice.
V. Mobilizing Innovation and Change
D: the ability to engage in systematic inquiry, research, analysis and interpretation.
REFLECTION
Today’s College Student Paper
The Today’s College Student paper for Student Development Theory was one of the first
major academic products produced within the first semester of the Student Affairs in Higher
Education master’s program. For this paper, we were instructed to select a topic that we believed
was a significant aspect of the experience of today’s college students. This topic was broad and
could include anything as long as it was topical—it could have been written on current values,
demographics, or trends. The first challenge with this process was therefore to select a topic.
When selecting my topic, Jody and Jen suggested it was important that we picked a topic
that was of interest to us in order to ensure that we would stick to it, throughout the four week
process of completing the paper. I thought instantly to my assistantship and wanted to write on
diversity in community colleges and how student affairs support this diverse demographic of
students through creating an inclusive learning environment.
The first thing I learned when I started researching this topic was that there is currently a
lack of research on community college students. It was therefore very difficult to discover where
to find unbiased sources that focused on a community college sample population rather than just
traditional four year students. I feel as though the field of student affairs needs to step up to fill
this gap. As my paper illustrated there is a growing community college student population in
general which means that a large majority of student affairs professionals will be interacting with
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community college students either at a community college or once they transfer to a four year
school. Because of this, more research needs to focus on community college students so we as a
field can best support these students. In order to deal with this significant hole in our scope of
knowledge as a field, I had to broaden the scope of sources. I therefore attempted to find sources
that focused on non-traditional experiences like those of commuter students or those of transfer
students.
Once I opened up my scope I started thinking about the significance of my topic. My
topic had implications that were significant to student affairs as a whole based on the fact the
community colleges are access based institutions. Therefore they often serve a larger percentage
of underrepresented students than four year schools. Community colleges therefore serve to
increase access to higher education for many students who have to make the choice between
going to a community college or not going to university at all. This means that community
colleges are a critical environment for student affairs. We must as student affairs professionals at
community colleges understand the significance of our roles in supporting these diverse students.
At this point, I was feeling pretty good about my topic and my research—I felt like I had
a pretty good grasp on how my paper was going and that I was on track with the four week
process of completing this product. Then life happened. The Sunday before our draft of the paper
was due, I got a concussion. I was outside looking over my sources for my paper and was injured
as a wind gust blew a gazebo onto me.
I don’t think I actually understood the gravity of the situation until I was in my first class
of the day on Monday—research methods. I had managed to pass fairly easily as someone
without brain damage up until that point. As I was sitting in class my attention wandered. My
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brain could hear what Dr. Di Miranda was saying but couldn’t really comprehend the complexity
of the concepts he was saying. I went home that day and quite literally cried myself.
Sleep was the only thing I found myself motivated enough to do or capable enough to
perform. Throughout the week I kept sleeping when I knew I needed to be working on my draft.
I felt guilty having to put myself before my academics, fully knowing that what I really needed
to be doing was to be working on my draft. The night before the draft was due tables turned, now
faced with an imminent deadline I had no choice but to just write my draft. I wrote it all night
and was proud at how I was progressing with my injury because I was able to turn in tangible
product in Theory Tuesday.
Once drafts were turned in we received peer edits and feedback from our instructors on
our papers. It was through this process that I learned the most. My feedback was very critical, as
it should have been, due to the fact that I turned a barely coherent product for review. I however
have always been growing in my ability to receive feedback and fully recognize that I am a
person that doesn’t take feedback as well as I should. As you can imagine, my heart sank when
my paper was returned, marked up the wazoo with feedback.
There was however a note of encouragement on the back of my draft. It stated:
“Feedback=love.” It was in that moment that I learned the most from this assignment. Rather
than pouring myself into every minute detail on the page I took a breath, put the paper in my bag,
and saved the process of looking at the feedback until I was in a space where I took it in with full
validity. Which for me was at the end of the day Thursday, after my assistantship was over, and
once I was done with all of my classes for the week. I made myself a cup of tea, snuggled up on
the couch with an open mind and my feedback.
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And, through reading my paper, I fully understood the draft of my paper was pretty
terrible. The Erin who was more resentful of feedback would have explained away the feedback
by saying the shortcomings of the paper were because of my concussion or the limited sources.
Although these were certainly challenges that I faced when writing my draft, they didn’t explain
the lack of adherence to APA format or lack of direction for my topic in general. Rather than
getting defensive, the process of receiving feedback on my paper turned into a process of action.
I started looking for new sources and wrote a new outline for the paper over the next week.
These new sources and outline helped me receive a grade that I felt like I deserved and
one that I felt like I had actually earned when I turned in my final paper in class. The outcomes
of this product in some ways were therefore what I was hoping when I first approached writing
this paper: A good grade. However I feel like the true successful outcomes of the paper came in
some unexpected ways. I first and foremost learned how to deal with an unexpected challenge in
life. I think I have learned more through the process of having a concussion than most things in
life. I think I am now more prepared to deal with the unexpected—a skill that is rather important
to have as a person in general and is moreover important as a student affairs professional because
we are often on the front lines of crisis management. I secondly learned how better strategies to
respond to feedback. These strategies I will use as a student affairs professional to try to
remember that feedback=love and not attack the person who is giving me feedback or instantly
invalidate their feedback because it makes me uncomfortable. Less abstractly, I feel like I
learned about a hole in current higher education research and support through discovering that
little attention has been paid to understanding how to support the community college student.
Although the process of completing my first theory was a difficult one I am appreciative of all
the things I learned personally, professionally, and academically throughout the experience.
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PROFESSIONAL COMPETENCY
Name: Erin Mross
Product(s): Supervision of Students in an employment setting
Purpose: To develop skills in supervision through applying an understanding of student
development and theory to a situation in which a student has been injured while a work. This
reflection will address the legal process of submitting a workers compensation form as a result of
the injury as well as the communication involved with understanding the complexity of the
situation in which the student was injured.
Primary Competencies Addressed:
Competency Reflection and application of competency
Knowledge Competencies
A: individual, group, organizational and leadership theories and their relevance to student affairs practice.
C: basic legal, contractual, and liability issues involved in college student affairs practice.
G: students’ diverse characteristics, demographics and attributes and how they influence students’ education and development.
In this situation I was able to reflect on how to better use theory and understanding of a students’ unique identity development in the context of a legal situation. The student I supervise recently was injured at work and these competencies all came into play. I first and foremost learned a lot about risk management and the worker’s compensation system. I secondly learned a lot about how to apply theory and student development in a way to better explain and understand student’s actions.
Professional Practice Competencies
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Managing Self
A: adherence to and value for personal and professional ethical standards through ethical practice.
In this situation I was forced to reflect on my personal and professional ethical standard of malfeasance or the principal of “do no harm” which CAS subscribes to.
Communication B: a willingness to engage in
sustained dialogue in order to reach an understanding of the issues presented.
This situation required a lot of difficult conversations as well as a lot of dialogue to uncover all of the particulars of the student injury.
Working relationships with others
B: build rapport, show compassion and understanding for others, and establish and maintain mutually satisfying relationships
C: supervise and train diverse student affairs staff, students and/or professionals
E: apply student learning and developmental theory to student affairs practice in a specific context.
This situation required a lot of compassion and understanding between the student I supervise and myself. This compassion lead me to better understand how to apply student learning and development to my supervision.
Mobilizing Innovation and Change
A: the ability to develop creative solutions to complex problems and see opportunities where others see obstacles.
This situation has been a major, complex problem which the student I supervise and I have turned into an opportunity for growth and development for both of us.
REFLECTION
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October is LGBT history month. To celebrate, I created an elaborate display in the Longs
Peak Student Center with a timeline, facts, and banners hanging from the ceiling of the student
center, lining the pathway of the building entrance. While this was a valuable experience in
itself, as it developed my skills as a passive programmer within my role at Front Range in the
Student Life Office, the real learning occurred after the program was finished. On October 20th,
the student I supervise was taking down the display and hit her foot on the ladder required to
reach the ceiling—severely damaging muscles, bones, and tissues in her foot. This reflection will
address the process of supporting my student through the process of applying for workers
compensation as well as the growth that occurred within myself as a supervisor as a result of this
situation. Because of this situation, I learned a lot about how to adapt theory and student identity
development to my role as a supervisor. Additionally, as a result of this situation, I also was
forced to reflect on whether I had violated the ethical principal of malfeasance because I felt a lot
of guilt about the fact that a student was harmed by something I created.
The first thing that I learned throughout this process was the legality of applying for
workers compensation. This was a process which I had never had to apply for personally and one
which I never had to deal with for any of my supervision roles thus far. Because I was never
trained on what do to for the Human Resources practice prior to coming to Front Range and was
never introduced to the intricacies of the system when I came to Front Range, I quickly found
myself attempting to navigate a system with no context or guidance. Because of this I know I
was unable to support the student the way they needed. They ended up not filling out all of the
required paperwork right away and not going to one of the health care facilities which was in
network with our workers compensation system. I know feel like I know the workers
compensation process well enough to navigate however this situation taught me that at the end of
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the day, universities are systemic and it is important to understand as many of the systems and
processes as possible in order to be successful within the university context.
I also learned a lot about supervision throughout this process. After the injury occurred, I
had a one-on-one meeting with my student. In the meeting the student disclosed that they
bumped their foot on the ladder, however they never disclosed the extent of the injury or the
scope of their pain. It wasn’t until I left the office of the day that the student sought treatment for
their injury. Upon reflection, I feel like my role as supervisor was a barrier to the student feeling
like they could communicate about their injury. In theory, we learn a lot about student
development. I feel like the student was in developmental stage Kohlberg’s theory of moral
development in which they were motivated by the fear of punishment from an authority figure.
In other words, as the authority figure in this situation they feared that punishment would be my
response to this situation, which I feel like was the reason why the choose not downplay the
extent of their injury with me as well as why they choose to address their injury only after I had
left for the day.
Once I identified that the student was in this stage of moral development, I felt like I had
possibly done them harm by not identifying sooner that they were in the stage. I should have
understood sooner that they were in this stage and thusly could have better handled the situation.
This caused me to feel a lot of guilt about the situation because I felt like I had done the student
harm and acted unethically due to the fact that I had done the student harm.
In the end, this situation taught me a lot about how to not react to a situation. I hope that
in the future if I am ever in a similar situation again I will be able to utilize my knowledge of the
legal systems involved, my knowledge of student development, and my adherence to moral
principals in order to better serve the injured student.
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Subject Name
Count Percent
1 100.00% Erin Mross
1 Respondent
Evaluator Name
Count Percent
1 100.00% Erin Mross
1 Respondent
Date
Count Percent
1 100.00%
Count Percent
1 100.00% 1/31/2015
1 Respondent
Demonstrates an understanding of individual, group, organizational and leadership theories
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
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1 100.00% Working on this in Org. Behavior
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates a working understanding of assessment and evaluation, methodology, and interpretation as it applies to student affairs practice
Count Respondent % Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I am fumbling through this in my assistantship right now, however I dont really know how to do this yet.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates an understanding of basic legal, contractual, and liability issues involved in college student affairs practice
Count Respondent % Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I am fumbling through this in my assistantship right now, however I dont really know how to do this yet. I interacted with this a little with freyjas injury this last semester and really realized how little legal stuff I knew
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates an understanding of cross-cultural and diversity related issues within the context of higher education
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I have had prior diversity training and I am working on how to apply this to a higher education context
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates an understanding of higher education systems, history, and how student affairs roles, responsibilities and systems are infused into the larger educational picture
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Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I feel like CSPA was helpful for this one.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates an understanding of how diverse student learning, developmental theory, and research are relevant to students' education and development
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I feel like theory last semseter was helpful for tis one.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
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Demonstrates an understanding of students' diverse characteristics, demographics, and attributes and how they influence students' education and development
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% Theory.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates an understanding of student affairs standards and practice and professional ethical standards
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% Ethics
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1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates an understanding of current issues and practices in the student affairs profession.
Count Respondent % Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I feel woefully underrepared to deal with the current issues in the field.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to perform administration functions and services in selected student affairs functional areas (at least two distinct areas).
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
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Count Percent
1 100.00% I am starting to understand how to perform admin functions in campus activities in my current assistantship
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to develop, implement and evaluate educational and student service based programs.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I dont have all the piecee of this one yet, however am working on it in my assistantship
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to utilize various forms of technology for data collection, analysis, communication and presentation of information.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% Research methods helped with these pieces.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to formulate goals; implement strategies for achieving goals through efficient and effective use of resources and evaluation of goal attainment.
Count Respondent % Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I still have a lot to learn about strategic goals and resource allocation
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to meet deadlines and produce quality results.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
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1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I meet my deadlines and have quality results but often feel very rushed.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates adherence to and value for personal and professional ethical standards through ethical practice.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% Ethics
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates personal and professional confidence.
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Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I feel like I am very good at being an authentic professional
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates inquisitive, self-motivated commitment to learning and self-development.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% This last sesemter really pushed me to make sure I was pushing myself. I really realzed how important the self is in the learning process. Often it is up to me to make meaning.
1 Respondent
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2 Responses
Demonstrates a commitment to personal and professional growth in the area of diversity and social justice.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I know there is always more to learn bout diversity and scial justice and am constanlly craving more
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates ability to work with others within a team context.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
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1 100.00% The group projects help with this one.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates ability to make appropriate modifications to behavior based on self-monitoring and constructive feedback.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% 50.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I want to seek out and solicit more feedback. I do however feel like I am getting much better at processing feedback
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates ability to teach and model a respect for shared community values, including establishing and maintaining an inclusive community promoting civic education.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I believe in inclusion
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates a willingness to engage in sustained dialogue in order to reach an understanding of the issues presented.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I want to get better at difficult conversations and vunerabe dialogue
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to use sound, effective written and oral communication techniques and strategies within student affairs practice.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
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0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
Demonstrates the ability to communicate in an inclusive manner.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
Demonstrates the ability to relate effectively to a wide range of people and appreciate individual differences, with cultural sensitivity.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
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1 Respondent
Demonstrates the ability to build rapport, show compassion and understanding for others, and establish and maintain mutually satisfying relationships.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
Demonstrates the ability to supervise and train diverse student affairs staff, students and/or professionals.
Count Respondent % Response %
0 0.00% 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% 50.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I am learnng that there is a lot that I can learn about supervision
1 Respondent
2 Responses
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Demonstrates the ability to advise student groups and organizations.
Count Respondent % Response %
1 100.00% 50.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% 0.00% N/A
1 100.00% 50.00% Comments
Count Percent
1 100.00% I am currently advising a student org but dont really know anything else abut it.
1 Respondent
2 Responses
Demonstrates the ability to apply student learning and developmental theory to student affairs practice in a specific context.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
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Demonstrates the ability to develop creative solutions to complex problems and see opportunities where others see obstacles.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
Demonstrates the ability to engage in the process of change instead of defend against it.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
1 100.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
Demonstrates the belief that personal actions can make a difference.
Count Percent
0 0.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
1 100.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
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0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
Demonstrates the ability to engage in systematic inquiry, research, analysis and interpretation.
Count Percent
1 100.00% Unaware of goal
0 0.00% Progress toward goal needed
0 0.00% Making initial progress
0 0.00% Meets goal occasionally
0 0.00% Meets goal consistently
0 0.00% N/A
0 0.00% Comments
1 Respondent
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SAHE: Spring 2015 Semester Reflection
Erin R. Mross
Colorado State University
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SAHE: Spring 2015 Semester Reflection
What has changed
I feel like I caught my stride during this semester of SAHE and I really began to feel
comfortable about my place here. I found my purpose. Last semester I was floundering and did
my best to not show it. And, even though I questioned whether I belonged in SAHE, I only ever
voiced these questions to my very close friends in the cohort. Because I felt more comfortable
this semester and felt like I belonged—that I was “enough” to be a SAHE Grad because I was
doing purposeful things—I was able to be more authentic even when I was struggling. People
constantly ask me if I like SAHE. Last semester, I always said that I liked SAHE, even when I
wasn’t sure if I did. This semester, when I say I like SAHE, I really meant it. And when I don’t
like SAHE, I honestly express that I am overwhelmed. In short, a lot of what made SAHE more
manageable for me this semester was the fact that this semester has forced me reflect—to do a
lot of personal work which has brought me to find more purpose in my life.
Semester of Academic Reflections: Doing the personal work
I have heard a SAHE maxim that those who do well academically the first semester,
struggle more the second semester and vice versa. I found last semester to be not as academically
rigorous as I was anticipating, meaning I was preparing myself for the struggle this semester. In
general, I don’t really like reflecting too much either, meaning that I knew this semester was
going to be a stretch for me. As such, I knew that I would have to really dig deep in order to be
successful this semester. Almost every assignment from this semester required a minimal level of
reflection. As such I had two choices: try to fake my way through it or devote myself to the
process of reflecting. I devoted myself to the latter.
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Although it was—and still sometimes is—uncomfortable to sit with my own feelings, I
managed to be fairly academically successful this semester because I leaned into the process of
reflecting. There was one reflection after my friend passed away in a car accident that I did not
turn in because I didn’t want to “go there” however all of the others I feel like I was able to do a
good job reflecting this semester. Most importantly, through becoming more comfortable with
reflecting I was able to more deeply understand my identities and how my past informs my
present.
The identity I was able to explore the most in depth this semester was my race—my
whiteness. This process was mainly facilitated by activities and assignments we did in Inclusive,
however it began outside of the classroom for me. During the first week of February I took a
group of students to the Creating Change, LGBT Task Force National Conference in Denver.
The conference, which was centered on sexual orientation and gender identity, opened up with a
Racial Justice Institute which set the tone for a very intersectional experience. The first night of
the conference, a group of activists took the stage to protest the recent police shooting of Jessica
Hernandez in Denver—a queer youth of color. Some of the protesters were organizers in
Ferguson and activists within the #BlackLivesMatter movement. The remarks they made the first
night of the conference was the first time I think I really began to feel something other than
numbness about racism. This sounds very heartless and is difficult to admit. However prior to
this conference, I really only could conceptualize and intellectualize racism. Throughout the
conference the Ferguson organizers presented several times and I began to not only think about
racism as a concept but began to feel racism as a reality. Coincidentally, the Thursday of the
conference week also happened to be our white caucus group in Inclusive. It was one of the first
times I had been in a room with all white people talking about racism. And, it was also the first
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time I was appalled at how few feelings were in the room. I am still angry at our White group’s
inability to stay focused on racism itself. We talked a lot about “giving” people of color space
and airtime rather than anything that relates to either marginalization of people of color or
naming (and not perpetuating) the dominance that we have. This is experience taught me how it
will take much more than intellect to really begin to do the work to dismantle racism. And, that
even though someone may have all of the right words to say, it doesn’t mean they understand.
All of the work: Assistantship and two practicums
This semester in my assistantship I feel like I Freyja, my student coordinator, was finally
at the level I needed her to be. As such, I was able to move into the role of supervisor for most of
the programs, rather than programs last semester where I had to actively coordinate all of them.
Some of my most successful programs were: an Activism Week, taking students to both Creating
Change and the Higher Education Diversity Summit, Holocaust Memorial Field of Flags, better
passive programming, and bringing Dear White People to campus. However, because I didn’t
have to do all of the programming myself, I had more time to work on bigger projects. This
opened up my time to begin to make more connections with students and to find the purpose in
my work. I was able to work with students who were interested in bringing diversity and social
justice issues to our campus community. This included being able to do a couple of focus groups
as well as to have multiple one-on-ones with students who were struggling with the exclusive
campus climate at FRCC. The feedback that I have gotten from these students has made me even
more driven to make FRCC a space for them.
Although the bulk of my assistantship stuff went well this semester, I feel like I still need
to improve upon my planning. I always get everything done, however sometimes I know I
procrastinate until the last second in order to make it happen. In a couple of instances, this made
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a program I put on more rushed or of less quality than it should have been. Although I had a full
plan this semester—a major improvement from last semester—I can still improve by starting
sooner on my programming. Additionally, for next semester, I would like to continue to do more
focus groups and work with marginalized students. I am also looking for ways to do more
trainings and fewer programs. I would like to do trainings for faculty and staff as well as for
students.
In addition to working my assistantship this semester, I also fulfilled two practicums. I
served as a Leadership Coach for the Rams Engaging in Active Leadership (REAL) Experience
and as a TA for the online Theory Class. For my REAL experience practicum, I had two, one
hour meetings with a case load students who were in the REAL experience. These meetings were
required for these students to complete their Leadership Certificate. As such, I got to work with
an extremely diverse group of students: first year students, graduating seniors, on campus work
study students, students running for a student body government position, international students,
first generation students, and non-traditional students. These students also had a variety of
experiences: some experiencing suicidal ideation, domestic abuse, eating disorders, substance
abuse, anxiety, depression, prejudice, and coming out to their family. As such, even though I
wasn’t expecting it from this practicum, I really was able to use a lot of the skills I had learned in
HR in order to be there for these students and then refer them to other resources on campus. I
firmly believe that I can work with almost any student now because I worked such a diverse
group of students who were dealing with such diverse experiences within this practicum.
Through TAing with Jody and Jen for the online theory class I also worked with a very
diverse group of students. We never however were able to meet these students in person which
made for an interesting experience to figure out how to serve them. There were six of us on the
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teaching team and it was still difficult to give all of our students the attention they needed. The
experience that taught me the most in this practicum was coordinating the peer review
assignment and the racial identity presentations. Both required a lot of logistics and being
responsive to student needs. For the racial identity presentation, I also was able to grade the
presentations. This was a great experience to be able to actually grade something. Although I am
not sure when I would be able to do so, I am still interested in teaching at some point during my
career which made this a very relevant experience.
Overall, both of my practicums took up way more time than the 60 hours each I was
anticipating, however, I got more out of each experience than I was anticipating as well. I
learned a lot and grew a lot in both experiences. I felt like they complimented my SAHE
experience well and gave me experience in competencies which were different than the ones I
use in my assistantship regularly. And, in terms of future work experiences and future
competencies to address, I am looking forward to continuing to learn through a NODA
internship at UC Berkeley this summer.
Conclusion
Overall, this semester was extremely valuable. I feel like I grew a lot in all aspects of my
life: personally, professionally, and academically. Although I am currently in a mindset that is
ready for this summer in Berkeley, I can’t help but look back on this semester with a strong
sense of appreciation for all I have gained. This certainly was a hallmark semester for me. Spring
2015 will be the semester in which I grew to actually like my SAHE experience and began to
intentionally reflect on the meaning behind my experiences for the first time.
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KNOWLEDGE ACADEMIC COMPETENCY
Name: Erin Mross
Product(s): Ethics, Theory, CSPA Combined Class Presentation
Purpose: Work with a team in order to produce a 15 minute presentation on Thursday December
11th, 2014 and a one page handout both conveying the importance and relevance of student
affairs to an assigned audience. For this project we were asked to essentially answer the question:
What is student affairs and why does it matter? The assigned audience we were to covey this
message to was parents and families. We therefore, through interviewing constituents in the
Parent and Family Programs office, tailored our message accordingly. Our answer was to be
informed by the learning we had done in Theory, Ethics, and CSPA throughout the first semester
as a collimating educational experience.
Setting the Scene: Primary Competencies Addressed:
Competency Reflection and application of competency
Knowledge Competencies A: individual, group,
organizational and leadership theories and their relevance to student affairs practice.
This project required us to pull knowledge from Theory class and adapt it as if we were talking to parents. We therefore argued that the existence of theory in our field is significant because it represents that our work is grounded in research, empirical evidence, and professional experience. As such we specifically pulled information from: Bridge’s (2003) Transition Model and Chickering’s (1969) Theory of Identity Development as examples of Student development theory. We choose these theories because we believed they were two theories that would resonate well with the parent’s experience of supporting their student during college.
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E: higher education systems, history, and how student affairs roles, responsibilities and systems are infused into the larger educational picture.
This project required us to pull knowledge from CSPA and adapt it as if we were talking to parents. We specifically leaned on information that described the requirements for a legitimate profession as a framework to covey our message to the parents.
F: how diverse student learning, developmental theory and research are relevant to students’ education and development.
As mentioned above, this project required us to synthesize information from Student Development Theory.
G: students’ diverse characteristics, demographics and attributes and how they influence students’ education and development.
As mentioned above, this project required us to synthesize information from Student Development Theory.
H: student affairs standards of practice and professional ethical standards.
This project required us to pull information from Ethics class and adapt it within the context of relaying relevant information to parents. Because we were illustrating why student affairs practice matters, we thought it was most significant to touch on the CAS Standards Statement of Shared Ethical Principles (2006) because the existence of standards are a specific criterion for determining the relevance of a profession.
I: current issues and practices in the student affairs profession.
This project required us to understand the specific and current context of parent and family involvement in student affairs through the interviews we conducted. We discovered that parents of Millennials are more likely to be involved in their student’s lives and that it was therefore important for student affairs professionals to discover how to use them as allies and teach families how to be appropriately involved in their student’s life.
Professional Practice CompetenciesI. Administrative FunctionsE: meet deadlines and
produce quality results.
The prep for this project occurred primarily after fall break until the presentation on December 11th. This required a lot of work due to the fact that we were balancing multiple deadlines and final projects at the same time.
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II. Managing SelfB: personal and professional
confidence.This project required a lot of professional communication and presentation skills.
E: ability to work with others within a team context.
This project required to work with three other group members as well as collaborating with outside partners to conduct interviews.
III. Communication C: the ability to use sound,
effective written and oral communication techniques and strategies within student affairs practice.
This project required a lot of work honing in our presentation skills.
IV. Working Relationships with Others
B: build rapport, show compassion and understanding for others, and establish and maintain mutually satisfying relationships.
Because this was a group project, it was essential to discover how to work together. Throughout this extensive project, group dynamics were easier to navigate at certain times rather than others thanks to each of our complex personal, professional, and academic circumstances.
REFLECTION
The first thing that this project required was to come together as a group—to form—in
order to map out what we wanted the rest of the project to look like. I sent an initial email to my
group in order to kick things off. At this meeting, we strategized the best division of labor for all
of the tasks. This project required us to synthesize the majority of what we learned in our classes
throughout the semester, tailor it to a specific audience, and then boil it all down to a 15 minute
presentation. It was clear during this first group meeting, that we were all a little overwhelmed at
the moving pieces that this project required. And, to add another layer of complexity, we were
entering into a very busy academic schedule, in which there were several weeks throughout the
project that we had assignments due every day. This meant that we not only had a lot of work to
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do, but that we didn’t necessarily have the time or attention necessary to devote to the project.
Therefore, the division of labor within this project was key. There was no way we could have
finished the project without being able to lean on each other to finish our own components of the
project. This however was also something that required a lot of growth from me. I consistently
have been in groups—academic and work related—in which members are unable to complete
their assigned tasks. Because of this, I am often a little wary of working within a strategy which
required us to function independently. I therefore, first, before I even started to dive into the
project, had to learn how to trust the fact that the other members of my group were going to get
their work done. And, that they would not require me to hold them accountable for getting their
work done.
During this time of “independent functioning” it was my role to look through the content
that we had learned in Ethics and apply our learning to our project. I ended up with about 10
pages of notes for a section of the presentation which was supposed to be under 2 minutes long.
It was in that moment when I realized that I had to pair down my information to the bare
minimum and include only what was absolutely necessary. This made me feel a little anxious
due to the fact that one of the basic requirements of this project was to illustrate clear
connections to what we had learned in the classroom. I also realized while looking over my
extensive notes that very little information mattered to the specific context of the situation we
were presented with: talking with parents and families. This was an important moment of
learning because I realized that I was so focused on being able to prove what we had learned
throughout the semester that I forgot the actual purpose of the presentation. When I reframed my
role in researching the relevant concepts to parents in relation to Ethics I decided that it was
likely most important to them to merely know that we, as a profession have ethics. This was a
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movement away from the complex into the simple. And, a shift in thought from an overly
academic framework, to one that was more appropriate for the situation. I realized that our
parents and families don’t necessarily care that we are able to think about multiple ethical
rhetorical frameworks but rather that they should trust student affairs professionals with the care
of their students because we are ethical people.
After we all concluded our personal research, we met again to synthesize our findings
and turn them into a presentation and handout. We met the day before the presentation to do this.
As I mentioned above, this was quite literally one of the few times we all had on our calendars to
meet up. However, the last minute nature of this meeting sent our group dynamics into a tizzy.
There was a lot of tension within the group because, as the hours ticked off the clock, we
continued to work away on the project, feeling frustrated with the lack of progress we were
making. I think the majority of the frustration within the group stemmed from the fact that this
project was massive. And, we ultimately didn’t have enough time to complete it to the extent that
we wanted to. The frustration—and storming—in the group therefore gave us the opportunity to
navigate the complex group dynamics of the situation. I learned a lot about being understanding
when working with others because of this storming. I had made a lot of assumptions that we
were running into brick walls as a group because some members of my group had not completed
their work. And, that my peers didn’t complete their work because they didn’t care.
After the meeting as we all were leaving our meeting with extensive individual to-do lists
for the night, one of my group members approached me and apologized for not being better
prepared for the meeting. They let me know that they were struggling a lot with something that
was happening in their personal life. This personal event was acting as a barrier for them to even
focus in class, let alone successfully complete the project. I was in shock when they shared this
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news with me. I often forget while we are learning all of this stuff about student success, that we
are students ourselves. I realized that I failed to approach this group project with the full learning
of the semester because I failed to recognize the student affairs context of the situation itself.
Instead of utilizing classroom takeaways to understand where my peers were at with their
semester, I realize I jumped straight to a place of judgment.
As I reframed my judgment to understanding, I began to let go of a lot of the anxiety I
had about this project and was able to enjoy the experience of working with my awesome group.
Although our presentation was perfect, in the end, I firmly believe we did the best we could have
with the time and resources we all brought to the table.
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Professional Competency: Higher Education Diversity Summit
Erin R. Mross
Colorado State University
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Some things are more important than SAHE…
Addendum 5/1/2015
I will address this in my next steps however as you can see, I still need complete this
reflection. Feel free to look at my competency matrix or ask questions about this experience in
my preliminary defense in order to gain some insight into what I have learned. I did not write
this reflection because when I sat down to write this reflection I received a phone call that my
friend had passed away in a car accident. I have tried to write this reflection several times now
and still cannot bring myself to write it. I am still getting over the trauma of this experience and
unfortunately associate this reflection with my friend’s death. I hope to write this reflection over
the summer.
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1. Complete my GS6 form
2. Finish my professional competency reflection about the Higher Education Diversity
Summit
3. Revise my Resume to include most recent work experiences including my NODA
internship this summer
4. Continue to revise my semester reflections in order to begin writing my Overall SAHE
reflection. This includes looking over my competency matrix in order to discover which
experiences I need to include in order to make sure that my competencies are all
addressed. This also will need to include working on writing an overall reflection on my
self-assessments.
5. Write at least 6 reflections over the summer – three knowledge and three professional in
order to stay on top of all of the reflections I will need to include in my portfolio.