Moody Amakobe

Still Rest My Heart

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Moody Amakobe

Still Rest My Heart

This book contains a compilation of original poems. Names, events, incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or locales is entirely coincidental. Copyright © 2013 by Moody Amakobe These Poems are the property of Moody Amakobe For the procedures of publishing, duplicating, distributing and listing of this poems in any other media, US copyright laws, international copyright agreements and other relevant legislation are applicable. Such procedures require permission.

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To where my heart belongs...

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Contents Abyss of passion ............................................................................. 4 Allure: The Bitter that comes with the sweet ...................................... 5 This desert I trod in ......................................................................... 6 These feelings I harbor inside of me ................................................... 7 A poor heart’s lamentation ................................................................. 8 Tracy! ............................................................................................. 9 Mystery reveals ............................................................................... 10 These Pretty flowers........................................................................ 11 I fight ............................................................................................. 12 For all that we hope for ................................................................... 13

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Abyss of passion

If love is a pit that we stumble and fall into

While we plod this journey of life Who watches over us; as we fall deeply in it? Who waits for us beyond the pit? To hold us when we get to the end, Who makes sure we don't hurt when we finally plunge? I don't know yet for I feel like I've fallen in it with you So cling to me and I'll hold you, I'll teach you how to be strong I'll tell you not to fret, because as much us we have doubts About this endless chasm; knowing that we recede on trust and sheer faith, there is still calmness in our hearts A peaceful calmness that none of us can explain A serene Kind of harmony that only comes after a storm, That heavy storm is the rocky road We wondered on before we fell into this abyss, Fear not about what may come, ask not yourself: Who watches over us, who waits for us, beyond the pit? To hold us when we get to the end, for I know I'll do Whatever it takes to get the persons digging this pit To keep Shoveling so we never get to the end.

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A look, a second look, a smile, a hand shake, a

hug, a kiss... Is it to our making that these things come to us? Or is it someone divine that wishes this upon us? These rich, intense feelings of mixed emotions The attraction that makes you look twice, That, that makes us long to get close, That power that separates our world from the rest.

An emotional fight, a tear, a second tear, A handshake, a hug, a kiss... Is it insecurity that makes us fight? Is it the way nature has it so we can mark our frontiers? Should we keep asking why or should we cry and feel at ease Should we get close together and show our affection? The divine attraction that has been cast upon us will decide That attraction that separates our world from the rest. A thought, a smile, A Call, A handshake, a hug, a kiss The thought that came to me to write this Is it the same one that makes me smile? Is it the one that makes me dial your number? Or is it that divine attraction that makes us get close? That one that makes me long for you and you long for me That attraction that will get us together for one final kiss goodnight

Allure: The Bitter that comes with the sweet

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This badlands I trod in,

A desert so violent, I can barely walk Winds blow from every direction, the sun gleams so bright The climate so sultry and oppressive There is no shade for miles I can't lay my head down to rest; I can't find water to taste My heart cries inside of me Should I continue should I give up and waste away?

I say to myself trod on trod on Since from a far I can see water From a distance I can see some shade I trod on this land, with sands so hot I can barely feel the souls of my feet My heart cries inside of me Should I continue should I give up and waste away? The horizon doesn't seem to get close The water and the shade keep moving with it And I realize it's a mirage, I sit and weep with my heart Should I continue should I give up and waste away? But I know that if I continue I'll get to the high seas so I trod on.

This desert I trod in

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These feelings I harbor inside of me

I ask myself if they are meant to be Is it something else like you say to me? Or is it love like I claim to be I saw you once and I fell for you I toyed with my feelings coz it couldn't be true How could it happen in a minute or two? How could I fall for one that I barely knew? But the more we talk the deeper I fall Now this heart wants to give you my all All that I harbor inside of me

The ones that make me ask myself if they are meant to be Is it something else like you say to me? Or is it love like I claim to be? Gone are the days when love was only pain I waited for long till I thought it was all in vain What a day when you'll let your emotions pour like rain And whisper to me your emotions will reign The same emotions I harbor inside of me The ones that make me question if they are meant to be Are they something else like you say to me? Or is it love like I claim to be.

These feelings I

harbor inside of me

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The splendor and peace I feel inside

Like the waters of the ocean on a low tide Reflecting back I think I was taken for a ride Now I think from the beginning I should have lied Deceived about my feelings for her Deep inside it feels like a scar A scar left in the heart by a wound so bizarre This wound I thought would never heal Now I wonder if it was truly real Is this the way we were meant to feel? Or is it just an emotion to foil? Every night on my knees I kneel For a love that will feel surreal I have waited long with an emotional zeal An ardor that makes my mind wonder I have not seen one thus far.

A poor heart’s lamentation

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Let me tell you about Tracy, She's not your typical girlie

She will make you go crazy; this is the story of Tracy Before she took off on me she said I love you baby And everything was showy like a springtime Sunday Now she's knocking at your door She say she wants some more, Stay away from Tracy, She's not your typical girlie She will make you go crazy. Tracy has my heart Tell her to give it back Last time we made love, I can't believe she called me Dougy I said Tracy that's not my name; why did she choose you; brother? She's not your typical girlie Tracy will make you go crazy Stay away from Tracy She's not your typical girlie She will make you go crazy, I said she's not your typical girlie Let me tell you about Tracy she's gonna make you love her She's gonna make you adore her then she's gonna make you suffer

You can't get her on her number Now you calling me brother after you took my Tracy I told you about Tracy, now she's driven you crazy and she's knocking at my door Or I'm I gone crazy.

Tracy!

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Come, sit by me and listen as my story

unfolds This story is not new, but from the days of old it’s the same story recited to you in rhetoric gold the same old story that makes you grow cold It’s a story that rejects all history passed to you this story touches the fringes of the unknown it’s a story mankind has known for ages this story is one of a kind, a story veiled in allegory A story that can only be unveiled by the beholder You will refuse to let this story in your mind it will linger in the borders of you heart it will wait at the doors of your soul, but you will refuse to let it in this is a story of love, devotion and acceptance This story my friends will penetrate the chasms of your spirit the story will show you the way of the world, this story is not history this story is not present neither will it be future This story lingers within. Forever and ever...

Mystery reveals

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Journeying through this road of life

I came across many a rose gardens I passed by lilies in the valley

I walked by beautiful dandelions oh! How they blossomed.

And then I came upon you! I claim to be no man’s master neither do I claim to have one

but you, my pretty flowers!

These Pretty flowers You captured my being. Is this fate or is it destiny? I ponder for all I know the book of life contains my destiny and in between those lines your name is written The many promises we have to keep The many promises we have to break Which will I keep which will I break? Shall I keep the one I made about never leaving your side? Shall I break the one I made about staying apart?

For every day I long for these pretty flowers For every day I know that these flowers bloom within For I wondered aimlessly on the road of life, until I came upon you For now I sing a new song; These pretty flowers that I picked up on the road of life

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Indeed many hearts have I broken

Indeed many have broken mine Shy as I am to be beaten again I keep rolling to obviate moss So I strive to win a heart A heart enclosed in a citadel A fortress no man can conquer A heart that might bring me sorrow A heart that might bring me joy So I fight! This I promise myself is the last battle of the heart Alas! I fight! It might take me to the ends of the earth; a vast terra incognita Alas! I fight! It might descend my heart into squalor; chasms so degraded Alas! I fight! It might take me through Dante's nine levels; anguish and sorrow Alas! I fight! Strong as I am I know I'll falter Weak as I am, I know I'll win Why give up the race when I know not its winner? Why run from the battle before the swords are drawn? So I grapple head to head with destiny hoping to change my fate a fate unknown, a fate disguised Alas! I fight!

I fight

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For all that we hope for and for all that we fervor

For time is said to heal wounded emotions Although this time can never be replayed The moments we shared will always be adored After all we can do is hope for a future together So for all that we hope for and all that we fervor We should always keep in mind the ones we leave behind We should always remember the ones that left For with them memories were made For with them the precious time was spent That way these memories will always be cherished Because all we have is hope for a bright future So this is for all that we hope for and all that we fervor For all that we hope for is a life together All that we fervor is one another What more can we ask when we are apart but time. We ask for time to bring us closer again Time to give us more memorable moments Time to be together and hope for a future

So for all that we hope for and for all that we fervor For all the time we have spent together For all the time we created memories For all the time we hope to spend together Always remember, you are the one I love.

For all that we hope for

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-The Bitter End-

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