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SWARM
Silence, swarming
upon the high grass
Thrumming the girlheart
dancing the white breath of stars.
Silence, swarming
to rise in smoke at last
because ash never remembers
who it was.
LIKE RUST
Out in the sun on dirt paths-
where life grows lucent
In the dulled ponds grown reedy
in memory of mermaid swims
Absence bloats to a distraction.
A wisp of straw in a prayer book.
A SONG WITHOUT MEMORY IS ALWAYS OUT OF TUNE
Footsteps are disrupting the courtyard
where, with meticulous attention
I have spread the flour
to save a necessary beauty
which has slid past my face
to rest on my door
like a tramp.
Nourish me with your impudence
like the enticing flour itching off my fingernails
slipping slow onto the wet earth
in measured escape.
Your footprints are still on the front steps
How far can you go?
NURSE
Following the body from beginning to end
like the sick boy to notice how darkness falls
and belongs in unlikely bends
How you have been raised
to touch–
the long shadows of your psyche
The ache. Once again, the lights
on porches, windows open wide
in blue air, a greet
in disguise.
Breath pried from lung into vanishing
lessening every moment
the disgrace, the distance between
eyes and thighs.
Enticed.
How you have been raised
to touch–
Sweet humus of old sweat
on fevered forehead
for the wife to wipe.
Cold Band-Aid on clotting bruise
Concealed in fresh-pressed collars.
A concerned morning brimming with the rancor of his retching
A scooter still waiting in the yard.
WE ARE SOON TO BE RELICS
On this day, when the moon’s cleft lip has stuttered
to the black sea,
soft laments are falling
like night upon the delicate filigree
of our decay.
Desire has climbed the spine
Silk shawls
waiting to slip
for show and skin.
I hold you to my chest like a carcanet
In my ears–the suffocation of the words
I dare not say. Your voice is a helpless hover
Rising to end
in the salt of tears.
And all the brazen ways they have been loved.
Impossibly it leaks to the ground.
In the hush of mid-morning, when I lick the nape of your neck sadly,
you wait till the settled pause.
It is nothing, you say.
We are nothing.
The rain is nothing but a weeping cloud.
BEEJAKSHARA
The pretense of language is falling off
Discarding itself in odd places
Like a thatched roof to a monsoon sky
As a native tongue pours and pours
A sacred saliva
wordless tunes to thirsty lips.
IN THE BLUR OF ALL THE STARS
The sink is glorious, always the same
like the painful relief of childbirth
Vulgar like promised flowers
wilting in broken vases.
No matter the heart that bears drumbeats,
no matter the fire, the tiger eyes, the clawing-
the homecoming is to a clogged bathtub, a bed that won't hold two.
The streets are lit by rain.
Elsewhere.
GIRLFRIEND
When I call you by name,
I mean god.
I mean perfect.
I mean proud.
When you call me by name,
I am sand.
Grainy, a little tough to define.
Somber eyed linger.
I am opposite of goddess.
Dark apotheosis, anticlimactic negative.
High-necked and blustering. Innocent sin. White moon bleached bone dry till its urine-yellow. Ugly muse.
Roving mad.
Crass aesthetic, so street. Sarcastic imperative. A quality of intrigue that borders on vagrancy. A certain
distaste that stays, and stays the same.
When you call me by name, I become beloved poison you'd love to conceal in your snake-fang. The brave
misery of beauty lost in all the pleasuring.
SOME SOFT WILD LIVES IN ME
(i) Before
Like writing by the last light of day
I dream of you
in quiet desperation.
(ii) After
The ground still holds
The footprints of our walks together. Sheathed in mud.
Preserved.
(iii) Then
The porous earth swelled to the drip of song
Till our throats turned dry,
And our voice was gone.
Out there, in the grand beyond
Grew hollyhocks, holding on.
(iv) Now
Moonbeams have greyed the sky
Turned my copper body silver
Only shadows watch from the slit in the curtains
The world remains.
SOUTH INDIAN
Dress my brown body
With gold brocades
Gaudy purple
Of reshime
Fill my ears with silver today
My arms are for bangles
of glass. The plait-
Heavy with jasmines
Marigolds ensnared
Plump flowers to praise
Plump woman like clay
Choke my legs in toe rings
Coil of snake.
Divide my skull neatly
Call it baitale
One half like a lover lost
Parted in haste
Cover me in layers
Except the waist
In which I tuck my stories
A little too late.
LIGHT SKIN, DARK SIN.
When radiance wears a wound
it is lightning. Loud is revealing.
even its tantrum is phenomenon.
The dark cloud–
it has to burst, it has to leak, it has to let go. Silent is sacrifice.
and we curse its wretched presence on our shoulders!
GASPING LOVE POEMS IN GASH OF LIGHT
I have a name for the place where it all comes from
The pain, the panic, the anguish and the hubris
You see, a twitch is an earthquake that your palm carries
you are volcanic.
It's pink on your lips and blue in your grip.
If you can’t hear where it has drowned itself
Red, fluid.
bring the remote earthquake to your ribs
and you will know it gasping in
love poems.
FATED
Without you-
The days are not entire
Or entirely tired.
It is like some news has addled them
They keep their eyes shut
Like old men in sanatoriums
Afraid that a rainless day
Will wither the rhododendrons in supplication.
In the mudroom
I am patiently recovering the coat
With a stitch in time
This continues to be a wait for rain
And when you hear it,
Bring your sad mouth to mine
The rain is for kissing
And we should kiss slowly and forever
Into one luminously thoughtful thing.
Hold my hand then.
I want to see our palmlines align
To script a brighter future
Than our poor fates acquiesced.
IN THE AFTERNOON, I GO TO SMELL THE EARTH IN ROSE GARDENS
The copper cups, they stayed
like an ode to a summer of suffering
intense love, like a bite
that leaves no traces.
QUESTIONS
It was the want
The need, the necessity
To know how many miles existed in the seas
In our geography.
To rehearse heartache
till it was another memorized spell.
To feel the sharp aspersion of stars
in a sky so open and cold.
The question of if we were a possibility instead of people.
INTRODUCTION
Amma, this is her.
The one you call 'mistake'.
Amma, this is her.
Flesh and bone and love.
Even my mistake
Has a name.
EMPTY DRIFT
What is your life in the drift of time?
A frog in whirlpool pond syncopating
to half a song.
A wavering conscience.
A story forged on carbon paper.
A yearlong penance left unanswered.
To exist is to endure the danger of being forgotten
But you-
you bemoan the plight of the candle
Burning to its roots
without thought that the soot
extinguished you.
Here you remain,
with lips heavy with prayer
eyes alive and fevered
like a dying devotion that remembers its final deliverance.
KANCHANA LOVES MOIDEEN
The river wears a wound
Whirlpool white
Sudden rain
That cuts and drowns
Lover in wait
Like flooding plains that drag
Virgin soil to sea.
FORGETTING
This is not love, this forgetting, this poetry, this seismograph
It is warning, like what blares and jolts the curvy walls of lighthouses
in screams that announce a sink.
And here we are, calmly beholding the silence over our impending sea
as bubbles rise from the water
and disappear.
UNGODLY LOVER
Tear the air with disappointments
Cleave it in two
Like combing out the lice with careful fingers
When the cling to you like ungodly lovers
Sever the air with dispassions
Crack them open
Like the last peanut on everyday pavement
or the spaces between your teeth
Split the air with love, with hope, with greed.
Let them know.
You ought to scream these things. Till its in the air you breathe.