The Meditations of Thomas Sandoski

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Uhd Gde`ta ins ib

Uhigas \aneisjÈavè ]`ffàg J`rcy

©Lipyr`mht 3?15 cy Eavè ]`ffàg J`rcy

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Sdfax niw, fdt‐s mdt a f` fd !u`dt" #afg eiwn ane $ust %in%dntratd in gy vi`%d" & want yiu ti %fisd

yiur dyds ane f`stdn ti thd siune ib yiur hdart cda nm' f`stdn ti yiur hdart cda nm ane thd siune ib

gy vi`%d"(rdathd `n as gu%h a`r yiur funms %an hife, hife `t ane sfiwfy dxhafd, crdathd `n edd), hife `t ane

dxhafd as sfiwfy as yiu %an"#in%dntratd in yiur crdath`nm' that‐s r`mht, ane thd siune ib gy vi`%d"

(rdathd ̀ n edd)fy, hife ̀ t ane sfiwfy crdathd iut"*s yiu ard crdath`nm, edd) ane sfiw' bddf aff thd strdss brig thd eay fdavd that ciey' brig thd )s ib

yiur tids ane thd sifds ib yiur bddt" *s yiu dxhafd )ush aff that strdss iut thd ci ig ib yiur bddt'

sdd `t fdavd yiur ciey as yiu dxhafd, as yiu sfiwfy h`ss a`r brig yiur funms"Uhdy‐rd mi`nm nugc niw, thisd tids ib yiurs, thdy ard md+nm si nugc ane thd bddf`nm ib nugcndss

`s %rdd)`nm u) yiur bddt, )ast yiur an fds ane `nti yiur %afvds" -iur bddt bddf rdfaxde ane nugc"Uitaffy nugc"

&gam`nd thd strdss ib thd eay fdav`nm yiur ciey whdn yiu dxhafd' v`suaf`sd `t fdav`nm thriumh thdsifds ib yiur bddt" *s thd nugcndss r`sds brig thd )s ib yiur tids, ivdr cith bddt, u) ti yiur ndds,

ane burthdr u), )ast yiur %afvds ti yiur th`mhs"-iu ard %ig)fdtdfy nugc brig thd )s ib yiur tids, u) ti thisd ndds ib yiurs ane u) ti yiur

th`mhs"*ff yiu %an hdar `s thd cda nm ib yiur hdat, gy vi`%d ane yiur edd) ane sfiw crdath"

-iur h`)s ard bddf`nm nugc niw, si hdavy ane nugc thdy‐rd s`n `nm `nti yiur sdat, as thd strdss ib

thd eay fdavds yiur ciey"-iu %an bddf thd nugcndss ariune yiur %hdst, ga `nm yiur crdath`nm edd)dr ane sfiwdr" &t‐s mi`nm

niw, aff that strdss `s !u`dtfy fdav`nm, thriumh thd sifds ib yiur bddt as yiu dxhafd".ay miiecyd ti that strdss, cyd/cyd" &t‐s cd`nm )ushde iut thd sifds ib yiur bddt w`th da%h crdath"

?ddf thd nugcndss %rdd) u), a%riss yiur shiufedrs ane eiwn yiur args ti yiur 1nmdr )s, yiu ard

titaffy rdfaxde"-iur whifd ciey `s hdavy ane nugc ane yiu ard s`n `nm ca% `nti yiur sdat, a edae wd`mht' as aff

that strdss mids away" .dd `t fdavd yiur ciey thriumh thd sifds ib yiur nugc bddt"3iw that nugcndss `s %rdd)`nm u) thd ca% ib yiur nd% ane a%riss thd ti) ib yiur hdae, a%riss

yiur dars ane that nmf`nm `s thd strdss ib thd eay mi`nm away"_ushde iut ib yiur ciey w`th dvdry crdath, thdrd `t mids, )ush `t away"

3iw thd nugcndss `s %rdd)`nm eiwn yiur ba%d, aff thisd mht f` fd gus%fds ard rdfax`nm ane s`n `nmeiwn, eiwn ti sfdd)" -iu bddf nugc niw, brig thd )s ib yiur tids ti thd )s ib yiur 1nmdrs ane aff

ivdr yiur hdavy hdae' a%riss yiur %hdst ane aff ivdr yiur ba%d"-iu ard titaffy rdfaxde' brig thd ti) ib yiur hdae ti thd )s ib yiur tids"

Uitaffy nugc, as thd strdss ib thd eay, fdavds yiur s`n `nm ciey' s`n `nm, edd)dr ane edd)dr ̀ nti that

)fa%d"Uhat rds


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`ntdnsd, wh`td f`mht, mdt su% de ̀ nti thd ti) ib yiur hdae, ane w`th `t, ̀ nti yiur ciey" Uhdn as yiu

dxhafd that cr`mht fug`nds%dn%d `s )ushde thriumh yiur ciey ane iut thd sifds ib yiur bddt"-iu ard cd%ig`nm a %ineu`t ib cr`mht ane `ntdnsd e`v`nd, wh`td f`mht, ̀ t‐s %ig`nm ̀ nti yiur hdae,

thriumh yiur ciey, ane iut thriumh thd ci ig ib yiur bddt"

?ddf ̀ t run thriumh yiu' ̀ n yiur hdae ane iut yiur bddt as yiu crdathd' edd) ane sfiw"]`th dvdry rdfaxde crdath ane dvdry sfiw dxhafa in yiu ard md+nm hdav`dr ane hdav`dr as thd

nugcndss ta ds hife"3iw, `gam`nd that e`v`nd f`mht 1ff`nm yiu u), ga `nm yiu a sh`n`nm star" -iu ard mfiw`nm w`th `ntdnsd

e`v`nd f`mht ane w`th da%h crdath gird ̀ s su% de ̀ nti yiur ciey"3iw thd arda ariune yiu ̀ s sh`ggdr`nm w`th e`v`nd cdauty, yiu ard f`mh nm u) thd whifd arda w`th

yiur ̀ ntdnsd, e`v`nd raeàn%d" 5vdry gd yiu su% that cr`mht, `ntdnsd f`mht ̀ nti thd ti) ib yiur hdae,

yiur hdavy ciey 1ffs w`th fug`nds%dn%d ane as yiu dxhafd that f`mht iut yiu f`mht u) that s)a%d"-iu %an bddf yiursdfb cd%ig`nm f`mhtdr as yiu 1ff w`th e`v`nd f`mht"

-iur ̀ ntdnsd ̀ ffug`na in ̀ s raeà nm aciut yiu' 1ff`nm that )fa%d w`th ̀ ts )drbd%t cdauty" -iu ardmfiw`nm ane that e`v`nd `rèds%dn%d `s 1ff`nm u) thd riig' thriumh thd waffs ib that )fa%d ane a%riss

thd strddt iutsèd" Uhd whifd %`ty `s niw f`t u) cy yiur cr`ffàn%d ane yiu %an bddf cdags ib yiur

cdau buf wh`td f`mht, rda%h u) ti thd s y" Uhd s y `s raeà nm yiur f`mht ane cdauty ane thd whifd

)fandt `s niw sh`n`nm w`th thd fug`nds%dn%d ib yiur e`v`nd f`mht"-iu ard )ri$d% nm ̀ t bar ̀ nti s)a%d, bar a%riss thd un`vdrsd" -iu ard )urd e`v`nd f`mht' sh`n`nm iut

a%riss thd )fandt ane f`mh nm thd s y"Uhd %isgis ane yiu ard ind' sh`n`nm a f`mht ib )urd e`v`nd thiumht"

-iu ard )urd un`vdrsaf %ins%ìusndss, )urd fivd ane )urd f`mht" .4&3&32 &3?&3&U5 ane ?=S 585S"-iu ard 0sw`t%hde in‐"

;4affi, .aeha a""": Uhd .aehu saè as hd 1ftdrde ̀ nti Uhigas‐ f`nd ib v`sìn";"""& was winedr`nm whdn yiu wiufe rdgdgcdr gd, ane thdn, $ust th`n `nm aciut yiu erdw us

timdthdr":;.aehu""": .aeha a rd)f`de" 4d tr`de ti )ri%dss h`s br`dne‐s w`seig cut h`s sdnsds bdft shdff/shi% de

ane si ha6y hd winedrde ̀ b ̀ t was a erdag ir a bra%turde rdaf`ty";"""`s `t rdaffy yiu7:;=b %iursd""": 4`s br`dne sg`fde" ;"""ti rdgdgcdr `s ti %aff birth":;.arah""": .aeha a wh`s)drde ndrviusfy" Uhd wiunede ane wda gan cdman th`n `nm aciut h`s fist

fivd ane r`mht in !udud shd erdw u) cdsèd h`g";"""surdfy, ̀ t %an‐t cd yiu7: ;]hy ei yiu as """: .hd wh`s)drde, ta `nm a sdat cdsèd .aehu, ane fii `nm ti thd ]dst" Uhd sun

was r`s`nm acivd thd icf`!ud hir`6in ane 1nmdrs ib ydffiw sunf`mht rda%hde u) ti stri d thd`r

mfiw`nm ba%ds" Uhd whifd s%dnd >iiede `n an `ntdnsd %inbusìn ib %ifiur ane f`mht wh`%h gaed `t bddf

unrdaf' afgist a bantasy"";"""& havd cddn hdrd aff thd gd""": .hd mfiwde f` d a star `n thd cfda n`mht s y";"""s`+nm !u`dtfy cdsèd yiu":


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;-iu sdd .aeha a""": Uhd .aehu faumhde ̀ n that way infy hd %iufe, h`s sg`fd f`mh nm u) thd s)a%d

ariune h`g, w`th an `ntdnsdfy mfiw`nm aura" Ga`nfy vìfdt cut w`th gany ithdr huds, `t mavd h`g a

%artiin f` d a))daran%d, %at f` d ane cdn`mn";"""& tife yiu `t was aff an ̀ ffusìn ane niw yiu unedrstane, ein‐t yiu7:

;-ds""": .aeha a rd)f`de rda%h`nm iut bir .arah ane 1ne`nm hdr ha`r ̀ n h`s 1nmdrs" &t bdft as si9 as hdrdgdgcdrde in thd`r wdee`nm eay' f`9`nm hdr fa%d vd`f ane runn`nm h`s 1nmdrs thriumh hdr s`f dn

trdstfds" 4d fii de ̀ nti thisd dyds" 5yds that wdrd cr`mht ane si buff ib f`bd that thdy 1ffde h`g w`th

sueedn mr`db' thdn hd bdft thisd bag`fàr tdars %rdd)`nm eiwn h`s %hdd s";"""cut that eids nit ga d `t any das`dr":;Ein‐t bddf sae gy br`dne""": Uhd .aehu sg`fde as h`s `gamd baede" 4`s vi`%d d%hide `n thd ear ndss

as `t e`de away' r`nm`nm iut f` d a cdff `n th`% bim" ;"""dn$iy thd gd yiu havd timdthdr":

;]hy si sae7: .arah as de rda%h`nm a%riss ti ta d h`s e`rty hane" Uhigas usde h`s brdd hane ti w`)dh`s dyds ane mr` de h`s tddth" 4d %iufe nit !u`td cdf`dvd that thdy wdrd gam`%affy timdthdr ama`n'

a%riss thd acyss ib gd ane s)a%d, thd`r fivd hae biune a way";-iu wiufe ndvdr unedrstane""": 4d rd)f`de" Uhd sueednfy, thdy wdrd ca% `n thd`r f` fd %i amd, in

thd iuts `rts ib ]arsaw' fii `nm thriumh thd mf` dr`nm `t%hdn w`neiw" =utsèd thd maredn was ̀ n

buff cfiig ane thd risds 1ffde thd a`r w`th thd`r su%%ufdnt arigas" ;"""s ff, `t eids nit ga dr, niw wd ard hdrd timdthdr":;Uhd )fa%de fii s si ey""": .arah rd)f`de" .hd fii de aciut thd `t%hdn ane hd amrdde that thd

)a`ntwir mfiwde as `b `t hae $ust cddn )a`ntde" 5vdn thd %ri% dry hae a s)d%àf mf`nt as `b `t hae cddn

%fdande infy gigdnts ami";"""Oii at thd maredn, thd risds fii si cdau buf at th`s gd ib ydar, ane that sgdff ̀ s edf`%ìus":;]d wdrd ha))y hdrd": Uhigas rd)f`de w`s


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4d %fisde h`s dyds, ane thd bddf`nm ib hdr `n h`s args startde ti baed, `t s)f`ntdrde `nti a g`ffìn ny

bramgdnts, f` d erdags afways ei"Uhigas .aneis ` %iumhde ane cf`n de a f` fd" ]hy, hd thiumht, whdn hd rda%hde th`s gist %ru%àf

)i`nt, eè hd afways fisd bi%us7 4d %iufe nit dd) h`s %in%dntra in finm dniumh bir thd`r cie`ds ti

dntdr that statd ib )drbd% in hd‐e cddn tife aciut"* statd whdrd thdy‐e fisd thd`r birg ane thd`r cd`nm wiufe gdrmd `nti ind" Ui riag brdd brig thd

sha% fds ib girtaf`ty ane dx)dr`dn%d un`vdrsaf )dr%d) in' ̀ t was a statd ib g`ne hd trufy eds`rde ti

dx)dr`dn%d" (ut, afas hd rdaf`6de, h`s eds`rd was thd )ricfdg"

Uhd AC ydar ife stra`nde h`s dyds ama`nst thd cfa% ndss that surriunede h`g, harefy giv`nm" 5vdn thd

suctfd f`9`nm ib h`s %hdst, as hd crdathde, was si `g)dr%d) cfd that hd gay havd a))darde edae ti

any v`s`tir" 3it that a v`s`tir was f` dfy ̀ n that miebirsa dn )fa%d" ]hdrd infy thd siune ib rats ane

watdr er`))`nm d%hide ̀ n thd ear ndss ane thd dvdr )rdsdnt sgdff ib gdthand )drgdatde thd th`%a`r"Uhd gan bdft anithdr shar) )a`n ra% h`s rde ciey as h`s shrun dn stiga%h %r`de bir biie" Uh`s

)i`ntde carc e`vdrtde h`s g`ne brig thd dvdr )rdsdnt thricc`nm wh`%h %agd brig h`s ri+nm fd9

biit"Uhigas was surd hd %iufe bddf rats n`ccf`nm away at thd manmrdnde >dsh, ir da nm thd gammits that

bdstdrde thdrd, as thdy shu fde ti ane bri `n thd ear ndss" 4d‐e sddn thdg, thd fast gd a sha9 ib

sunf`mht shind thriumh a %ra% `n h`s sdwdr higd, rats that wdrd as farmd as %ats ane cravd as fìns"

4d ndw thdy wdrd thdrd ane `gam`nde thdg n`ccf`nm away, edviur`nm h`g sfiwfy, ind tid at a gd"

4iw hd w`shde hd %iufe cd ̀ n sunf`mht w`th .arah in%d ama`n" Ui bddf thd warg sun ama`nst h`s ba%d,

ane thd suftry crdd6d ib a suggdr eay, rush thriumh h`s ha`r" Uhd suggdr sun, h`s w`thdrde

gdgir`ds rd%affde, tw`n fde f` d a ba`nt star ̀ n thd edd) rd%dssds ib h`s g`ne"-ds, Uhigas rdgdgcdrde, hd usde ti f` d thd suggdr"Uhd %ardbrdd wargth ib a suggdr eay sddgde si e`stant' ane ydt ̀ b hd tr`de vdry hare, thd gdgiry"""

Lhaptdr $nd%

S`tds ib spr`nm.]arsaw Gar%h L DGus`% cfarde brig thd stamd as a mriu) ib bag`fy gdgcdrs ean%de timdthdr gdrr`fy" *rg ̀ n arg,

s)`nn`nm ti thd vìf`n, a%%ireìn ane erugs, wh`%h wdrd )fayde cy Bn%fd 4dnr`, #ius`n Sifb ane h`s

githdr .dfdnd, thdy ean%de $iyiusfy" Uhd .aneis `/4iM bag`f`ds wdrd vdry gus`%af ane thdsd bag`fy

rdunìns wdrd fiue ane rìtius i%%asìns' w`th trae` inaf _if`sh bif gus`% ane thd r`))f`nm siunes

ib ha))y %h`ferdn"

Ean%`nm %agd dasy ti thd bag`fy, ane tieay was ds)d%àffy a ha))y i%%asìn, cd`nm 2rane)a 4iM‐s

.`xty 3`nth (`rtheay" Uhd mr`66fde ife gan sat, )`)d `n hane, niee`nm ti thd gus`% ndxt ti thd finm


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tacfd" * tacfd wh`%h ivdr>iwde w`th biie ane af%ihif`% cdvdramds' ga`nfy vie a, wh`%h was thd ife

gan‐s baviur`td".dfdnd ane 4dnr` 4iM usde thd ife gan‐s bag`fy nagd ̀ nstdae ib 4dnr`‐s ̀ n rds)d%t ib thd ife gan'

)drha)s whdn thd hd e`de thdy g`mht rdvdrt ti 4dnr`‐s bag`fy nagd, Eu 2urrd" (ut wh`fd thd ife gan

was s ff gar%h`nm in thdy wdrd ha))y ti cd 4iMs"*s thd gus`% d%hide thriumh thd %hdrry cfissig, Uhigas rd%affde thd bddf`nm ib eag) mrass

unedrbiit ane thd th`% s%dnt ib $asg`nd r`s`nm brig thd cuee`nm >iwdr cdes" ?fiwdr cdes wh`%h hd

ane .arah hae tdnedrfy ganamde ane %arde bir ivdr thd gd thdy hae f`vde `n that hiusd' dMirt

wh`%h was rdwarede w`th thd cdau buf %ifiurs ane s%dnts ib s)r`nm" 4d fii de ariune h`s fush

maredn ane sg`fde"

Uhigas rdgdgcdrde )ddr`nm a%riss thd sfiw gi in 1murds, thd $ug)`nm ̀ nsd%ts, thd s)dff ciune

1xturds ib br`dnes ane nd`mhciurs, as h`s ma6d gdt that ib thd wigan hd fivde".arah, hdr ear ha`r mf`stdn`nm w`th sunf`mht, thisd edd) criwn dyds f` d wdffs ib fivd ane aeira in

)ddrde ca% at h`g a%riss thd s ff s%dnd ane hd rd%imn`sde that suctfd fii ib sdeu% in" Uhat mdntfd

sg`fd wh`%h rda%hde `nti h`s cda nm hdart ane gaed `t s`fdnt"(dtwddn aff thd ni`sd ib thd gus`%àns ane thd bran % ean%`nm infy thdy ga drde `n that gigdnt";.afutd‐": =fe gan 4iM %ria de" Uh`s was rdaffy a %iggane bir aff thd aeufts ti $i`n h`g ̀ n anithdr

tiast, ti finm f`bd ane ti gus`%, ti bag`fy ane ti af%ihif"

Uhd ife gan mfan%de a%riss thd sg`f`nm ba%ds that fii de ca% at h`g dx)d%tantfy w`th h`s mfass

ra`sde' un f h`s dyds gdt thisd ib h`s dfedst eaumhtdr, .arah" Uhdn thd ife gan‐s sg`fd dva)iratde"4d sn`Mde fiuefy ane fii de away sha `nm h`s hdae sfiwfy wh`fd thisd mathdrde shiutde ca% ";.afutd": .arah shrummde ane 1ffde hdr mfass" .hd f`9de `t ane tiastde hdr huscane in thd ithdr sèd ib thd

maredn `n s)`td ib hdr bathdr" .ueednfy Sifb 4iM, .dfdnd‐s dfedst sin ane .arah‐s nd)hdw, mraccde hdr

hane ane erammde hdr ti a s)a%d `n thd gèefd ib dvdryind" 4dnr` )`% de u) thd ciy‐s a%%ireìn ane

)fayde" Uimdthdr thdy ean%de ti thd bran % bif gus`%, f` d twi tddnamdrs, dvdn thiumh .arah was

th`rty ydars h`s sdnìr";Uhigas""": a br`dnefy vi`%d dn%ria%hde u)in Uhigas‐ thiumhts ane erdw h`s a dn in away brig

h`s bag`fy";"""`s th`s yiur w`bd‐s rav`sh`nm s`stdr ane hdr bag`fy that &‐vd hdare si gu%h aciut7:;*h, ]`n fdgan' yiu crutd""":Uhigas sg`fde sdd`nm thd stiut ane buff cie`de ba%d ib h`s nd`mhciur

aeerdss`nm h`g";"""&t ̀ s, ane that ̀ s hdr bathdr, =fe Gr 4iM whisd c`rtheay ̀ s tieay" *rd yiu dn$iy`nm iur his)`taf`ty7 &

sdd yiu gust cd bir that `s thd th`re mfass ib vie a &‐vd sddn yiu er`n , ane hiw finm havd yiu cddn

hdrd, tdn g`nutds ir fdss' )fdasd rdg`ne gd7:


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;& eèn‐t rdaf`sd yiu wdrd %iun nm": ]`n fdgan rd)f`de `n that mruM, acru)t tind hd was niwn bir"

Uhd gan f`9de a th`% 1nmdr, ane tummde at h`s mrdasd sta`nde sh`rt %iffar, gugcf`nm w`th h`s giuth

buff";Uh`s biie `s miie gy br`dne, tdff gd, `s aff Hdw`sh biie th`s miie7:

;?iie ̀ s biie ̀ s biie": Uhigas rd)f`de m`v`nm thd tacfd thd in%d ivdr" .gi de safgin, camdfs, ishdr

cu dr, %fi de %rdag, )itati safae w`th fd u%d ane %rdss' )fus sgi de 1sh, )atd ane rae`sh cddb

wh`%h was .arah‐s s)d%àf`ty" *fthiumh thd mudsts hae cddn da nm s`n%d niin, ane ̀ t was niw biur ̀ n

thd a9drniin, thdrd was s ff )fdnty ti dat";.arah‐s bag`fy gay cd Hdws cut wd ard #athif`%s ane wd dat what wd want" & hdar yiur bag`fy dat

$ust crdae ane w`nd, ir `s that $ust in .uneays7:;8dry bunny Uhigas""": Uhd th`% sdt gan rd)f`de as swdat cu`ft u) unedr h`s >at %a) sta`n`nm thd

cr`g cfa% ane eag)dn`nm h`s ha`r";"""yiu shiufe cd in thd stamd" Uhdrd‐s ind fdav`nm `n an hiur""":

4d %hu% fde ti h`gsdfb as #inrae, .dfdnd‐s cacy, %rawfde tiwares h`s bddt" Uhd th`% sdt gan std))de

ca% as `b thd cacy was a e`sdasd, cdbird aee`nm";=h, havd yiu hdare7:;4dare what7: Uhigas rd)f`de as hd fii de ivdr ti sdd what h`s w`bd was ei`nm" 4d sg`fde sdd`nm

hdr ean%`nm s ff w`th thd`r nd)hdw, hdr args iutstrdt%hde tiwares thd ciy, s)`nn`nm h`g ariune ̀ n

gd w`th thd gus`%";4avd yiu hdare aciut thd 2drgans7: ]`n fdgan wh`s)drde" 4d fdant birwares ane ta))de thd

sèd ib h`s nisd";"""& havd a br`dne, sdd":;2iie bir yiu, ]`n fdgan""":Uhigas rd)f`de as .arah wavde ane cd% inde h`g ti $i`n hdr cy thd

stamd" ;"""wd aff ndde br`dnes":;4d tdffs gd thdy ard ta `nm ca% thd .deatinfanes' ane yiu niw what that gdans7: ]`n fdgan

ra`sde h`s dydcriws ane sg`fde, dx)is`nm a riw ib ydffiw tddth, hdav`fy sta`nde cy tica%%i' as ̀ b h`s

br`dne shiufe niw";& ein‐t %ard aciut thd .deatinfanes""":Uhigas rd)f`de niee`nm tiwares .arah cdbird mfan%`nm ca%

at ]`n fdgan bir a cr`db gigdnt";"""&t‐s buff ib dthn`% 2drgans anyway":;(ut `t %iufe gdan war": ]`n fdgan mas)de, aga6de that h`s nd`mhciur %iufe cd si e`s`ntdrdstde cy

su%h a rdvdfa in";]ar & tdff yiu@:;4iw %an anyind th`n aciut war""":Uhigas rd)f`de w`th a sg`fd" 4d std))de away tiwares h`s w`bd

cdbird shiu nm ca% ";"""ds)d%àffy in a eay f` d tieay7:


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;(ahh@: ]`n fdgan sn`Mde" 4d wat%hde Uhigas mrac h`s w`bd brig hdr nd)hdw ane cdm`n sw`nm`nm

hdr ariune `n gd w`th thd gus`%" Sifb $i`nde h`s bathdr ane githdr, tii h`s a%%ireìn ca% , ane

cdman ti )fay afinm a9dr 4dnr` )`% de u) h`s 1eefd"Uhd %h`ferdn %fa))de ti thd gus`% as Uhigas ane .arah ean%de ariune thd maredn' infy ife gan

4iM fii de mfug' h`s giuth turnde eiwn at thd %irndrs as hd wat%hde thdg"

*s thd cr`mht sun %ast finm, cfa% shaeiws a%riss thd gan`%urde fawn h`s birfirn dx)rdssìn sddgde

afgist as ear " 2ranebathdr 4iM hae travdffde thd )rdvìus eay w`th thd bag`fy brig 8ifhynà ̀ n thd

dast, hdrd ti ]ifa a sgaff sucurc ib ]arsaw" Uhdy arr`vde w`th thd`r ̀ nstrugdnts ane sigd %asds

stuMde w`th higd/mriwn vdmdtacfds brig thd`r sgaff hife`nm"

4dnr`, .arah‐s crithdr `n Oaw, hae )rdsdntde Uhigas w`th a %asd ib higdgaed vie a, ds)d%àffy

e`s ffde cy mrane)a gu%h ti Uhigas‐ sur)r`sd, bir thd )arty" *s thd`r shaeiws mrdw finmdr, gar `nm

thd )rimrdss ib thd a9drniin, thd .aneis ` ane 4iM bag`f`ds wdrd a !uartdr way thriumh thd %asd"?ir cith bag`f`ds, satde cy biie ane `ntix`%atde hdav`fy cy cii6d ane thd gus`%, f`bd %iufe nit mdt

any cd dr" *9dr ean%`nm Uhigas saw thd ife gan s`+nm in h`s iwn ane, iut ib %iggin %iurtdsy,

thiumht hd‐e than h`g bir thd vie a" 4d a))ria%hde 2rane)a 4iM w`th a sg`fd ane rd%d`vde a

td)è sn`M ̀ n rdturn";Uhan yiu bir ga `nm thd dMirt""": Uhigas saè si9fy, award ib thd `riny, as `t was hd whi was

ga `nm a su)drhugan dMirt a))ria%h`nm thd g`sdracfd ife gan";"""& niw thd $iurndy `s e`K%uft bir yiu at yiur amd' si .arah ane & ard mratdbuf that yiu %agd" Uhd

vie a was a n`%d thiumht afsi":;&t was 4dnr`‐s ̀ eda": Uhd ife gan gugcfde a9dr a finm thiumh


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Uhd ife gan wavde h`g away ane turnde h`s ca% ama`n wh`%h gaed Uhigas sg`fd" 4d shrummde ane

turnde sdd`nm .arah wat%h`nm h`g brig a%riss thd maredn" Uhigas ftde h`s hdae ti ind sèd ane

%rissde thd yare ti $i`n hdr" =n%d hd hae hdr `n h`s args thd wirfe ane dvdryth`nm `n `t sddgde

)drbd%t"Oatdr whdn thd sun hae sdt, .dfdnd ane 4dnr` sfd)t in thd s)ard ga rdss w`th cacy #inrae, wh`fd

Sifb ane 2ranebathdr 4iM wdrd c`ffdtde ̀ n thd s)ard riig" Uhigas %arr`de .arah ̀ nti thd )r`va%y ib

thd`r cderiig ane thdy hae gaed )assìnatd fivd"*ward that thd`r cde hae %rda `nm s)r`nms ane a fiisd hdaeciare, wh`%h canmde in thd waff dvdry

gd thdy givde, thdy hae thriwn thd !u`ft inti thd >iir ane savamdfy a a% de da%h ithdr‐s ciey"

Uhdn, whdn sa s1de, thd`r crdath hit ̀ n da%h ithdr‐s dar, hd hdfe hdr mhtfy ̀ n h`s args" &n that

gigdnt thdy wdrd ind, $i`nde f` d tw`ns `n a wigc' `n a unìn ib mrane )assìn"

Uhisd wdrd thd eays, thd eays ib fivd ane >iwdrs, ib miie hugiur ane tdg)dr" &t was finm cdbirdthd stirg' whdn aff was wdff ane a))darde un%hanm`nm"Uhigas thiumht ca% ti that %dfdcra in eay ane su% de thd e`rty a`r `nti h`s funms" 4d %iufe bddf thd

rats n`ccf`nm ama`n ane mr` de h`s tddth ti s >d a s%rdag' infy h`s rd%aff tii h`g away brig that

`nbdrnaf )fa%d" (a% ti thisd hdaey eays, rdgdgcdr`nm thd wargth ib thd s)r`nm sun, ane h`s f`bd

cdbird thd %hais"

Lhaptdr 3Uhd 4iM‐s hae fd9 bir 8ifhynà sigd eays fatdr, Uhigas rdgdgcdrde h`s s`stdr `n faw `ssde h`g

miiecyd ane sg`fde `n that %h`fe`sh way ib hdrs as shd %f`gcde `nti thd`r ife van" .arah stiie cdsèd

h`g ane hdr 1nmdrs sf`))de das`fy `nti h`s iwn";-iu gust %igd ti us `n .d)tdgcdr""": .dfdnd shiutde ivdr thd siune ib thd dnm`nd, s`+nm ndxt ti

hdr huscane, shd )uffde thd eiir %fisde ane sg`fde" Uhd ife gan, whi was s`+nm cdh`ne hdr, fii de

away ane )uffde that mfug ba%d' ̀ g)a dnt ti rdturn higd ane %in nud h`s %hddsd ga `nm" ;"""&t‐s 4dnr`‐s c`rtheay in thd DLst":;]d w`ff cd thdrd""": .arah shiutde as thd vdh`%fd )uMde a %fiue ib sgi d ane ra fde iM `nti thd

e`stan%d";"""]d )rig`sd":

Hust thdn a s%rdag ranm iut ane Grs ]`n fdgan a))darde at thd bdn%d that sd)aratde thd .aneis `

)ri)drty brig thd`r nd`mhciurs" Uhigas ane .arah wat%hde thd`r bag`fy‐s vdh`%fd e`sa))dar ariune a

cdne `n thd riae ane thdn a dnede ti thd s%rdag`nm wigan";Gr" .aneis `7: Grs" ]`n fdgan s%rdagde afgist hystdr`%affy" 4dr cfud a)rin >a))`nm `n thd s)r`nm

crdd6d, hdr rde ba%d )ddr`nm iut brig unedr thd hdaes%arb shd afways wird, thd humd wigan )uMde

ane )antde urmdntfy";_fdasd hdf) Gr .aneis `, gy huscane has baff`nm eiwn thd wdff":


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;Uhd erun dn biif": Uhigas %ursde unedr h`s crdath" 4d wdnt ti h`s maredn shde ane %iffd%tde a rddf

ib ri)d, wh`%h was d)t bir s%af`nm thd bru`t trdds eur`nm thd suggdr, ane thdn waf de inti thd

]`n fdgan )ri)drty" &t was sigdth`nm Uhigas hae eind cdbird ane hd‐e )drbd%tde a riu nd wh`%h

dK%`dntfy, ane !u`% fy, rds%ude thd erun dn gan"=fe Grs" ]`n fdgan was eds)dratdfy sfa))`nm hdr hanes ama`nst hdr %hdst as shd $i`nde h`g, tdars

cr`gg`nm ̀ n hdr dyds, ane thdy !u`% fy %rissde thd maredns";4urry )fdasd Gr .aneis `, `t has ra`nde rd%dntfy, thd wdff `s edd) w`th watdr":Uhigas shii h`s hdae ane a))ria%hde thd wdff wh`%h was surriunede cy a sgaff cr`% waff" 4d

%iufe hdar ]`n fdgan‐s vi`%d d%hi`nm iut ib thd hifd ane hd eè nit siune )ar %ufarfy `n$urde ir `n

any e`K%ufty" 4d was s`nm`nm fiuefy ane s)fash`nm aciut `n thd watdr"

!ds"l"d #ifsja n`d "m`n$%a,

&`dey gy 'ykdgy.

(i nag icla pr"dgil w"`$%a,

\"acf) iec`dr"dgy.

*ars", gars", +)criwsj`, "`dg` w%isj`dk ei #ifsj`.a twi`g pr"dwiedg%)l"yg s`$ " nariedg.

;4iw eè yiu mdt eiwn thdrd7: Uhigas as de, fii `nm eiwn `nti thd )`t ane sna))`nm thd gan brig

h`s rdvdfry, h`s nd`mhciur cur)de fiuefy";4d was er`n `nm Gr .aneis `""": ]`n fdgan‐s w`bd rd)f`de bir hdr huscane" ;"""thdn hd sat in thd

waff ane $ust bdff `n ca% wares":;Ein‐t wirry" & w`ff mdt h`g iut ̀ n a gigdnt": Uhigas rd)f`de w`th a si9 sg`fd" Uh`s sddgde ti rdfax

thd wigan ane shd rdturnde a cdn`mn, afcd`t tiithfdss, sg`fd"

#r"dke"`dg `s%$, pr"dke"`dg art$,

/$e"`dg #ifajag`.

+a% nag pr"yj%ae /inapartd,

!aj "wyl`$'a? gagy.

*ars", gars"...!aj ("arn`dlj` ei #i"nanà

#i s"wde"j`g "acir"d,

+fa ikl"y"ny ratiwanà

r1l`g s`$ pr"d" gir"d.*ars", gars"...


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;]`n fdgan@: Uhigas shiutde eiwn ̀ nti thd wdff" ;.ti) s`nm`nm ane f`stdn ti gd":;*h,Uhigas""": ]`n fdgan shiutde w`th an a`r ib sur)r`sd" 4d fii de u) ane wavde a ci fd ib vie a

`n thd a`r cdbird )fa%`nm h`s `nedx 1nmdr ti h`s f`)s";"""Ein‐t fdt gy w`bd niw &‐g eiwn hdrd, shd w`ff th`n &‐vd )`ssde `n thd er`n `nm watdr ama`n, fdt `t

cd iur sd%rdt":;& win‐t tdff hdr""": Uhigas rd)f`de w`th a sg`fd as ife Grs" ]`n fdgan fdt iut a ny ydf) ane sfa))de

hdr %hdst ama`n" Uhigas fiwdrde thd dne ib thd ri)d `nti thd wdff ane shiutde eiwn";"""hdrd, mrac thd ri)d ane d `t aciut yiur wa`st, & w`ff )uff yiu u)":;-iu w`ff )uff gd u)7: ]`n fdgan rd)f`de w`th a sn`M" 4d sw`mmde brig thd ci fd ane shii h`s

hdae cdbird shiu nm";3dvdr, mdt yiur hirsd, fdt h`g ei `t" & w`ff cd tii hdavy bir yiu":;& ein‐t havd a hirsd""": Uhigas rd)f`de sha `nm h`s hdae" ;"""]ra) thd ri)d ariune yiur wa`st":;-iu ein‐t havd a hirsd7: ]`n fdgan shiutde ca% fii `nm %inbusde" 4d s%rat%hde h`s hdae ane

saè;_drha)s & was th`n `nm ib gy w`bd" -ds, mdt thd bat %iw ti hdf) yiu":;& thiumht yiu eè nit want hdr ti niw7: Uhigas shiutde eiwn ane wat%hde h`s nd`mhciur‐s

rda% in" Uhd gan w`n de ane nieede ane sg`fde ane eran cdbird w`n `nm in%d gird ane m`mmf`nm";Ein‐t tdff hdr & )`ssde `n thd er`n `nm watdr": 4d saè w`th a sn`mmdr";]`n fdgan7: Uhd ife wigan shiutde eiwn thd wdff a9dr hdar`nm th`s ndws";.ti) gdss`nm ariune, Gr" .aneis ` `s try`nm ti mdt yiu iut":;2i in thdn""": Uhd erun dn gan rd)f`de, ty`nm thd ri)d ariune h`s wa`st, ane tumm`nm in `t" ;""")uff gd u) `b yiu %an":

Uh`s was saè w`th an a`r ib rds`mna in, niw`nm h`s aevdnturd was ivdr, thd ife gan mrugcfde ane

wa`tde bir thd ̀ ndv`tacfd"4d curst `nti sinm, as thd ri)d tdnsde ane Uhigas cdman ti )uff, )fa%`nm ane ind biit `n brint ib thd

ithdr hd waf de h`gsdfb u) thd sèd ib thd wdff" Uhd tas was dasy w`th Grs ]`n fdgan‐s hdf),

Uhigas hae nit dvdn as de, whdn shd tii thd ri)d ane yan de in ̀ t"Uhigas was sur)r`sde cy thd ife wigan‐s strdnmth ane %insèdrde thd tas ̀ g)iss`cfd w`thiut hdr

hdf)" *ff thisd ydars %arry`nm thd erun dn biif u) ti cde hae gaed hdr `ggdnsdfy strinm ane shd eè

nit dvdn fii iut ib crdath as, w`th ind fast tum, thd erun dn gan bdff ivdr thd wdff waff ane inti

thd maredn mrass"

;Oii at thd statd ib yiu, ]`n fdgan@: Uhd ife wigan shiutde as hdr huscane r`mhtde h`gsdfb anecurst ̀ nti sinm in%d gird" .hd std))de ivdr ti thd )ristratd gan ane, gu%h ti Uhigas‐ sur)r`sd,

ane `n ind wdff/)ra% %de givdgdnt, hurfde hdr huscane ivdr hdr shiufedr ane %arr`de h`g ca% ti

thd hiusd"

!u' tag ikl`dl ei swdk /as`

*1w` "ap%ajany 3

\%ulhak kdni, pini nas`

/`k) w taracany.


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*ars", gars"...

Uhigas wat%hde as thdy e`sa))darde ̀ nti thd cu`fe`nm ane thd siune ib h`s nd`mhciur‐s vi`%d

d%hide thriumh an i)dn w`neiw' !u`% fy biffiwde cy thd siune ib =fe Grs ]`n fdgan‐s hane

sfa))`nm hdr huscane‐s ba%d" &n thd s`fdn%d that biffiwde Uhigas gaed h`s way ca% higd ane ti thdfiv`nm args ib .arah"Uhd biffiw`nm eay, as thd cr`mht s)r`nm sun, f`t thd maredn ̀ n ̀ ts warg mfiw" Uhigas was )uff`nm wddes

ane ey`nm h`s )fit w`th a hid whdn hd hdare thd siune ib sigdind try`nm ti a ra%t h`s a dn in

brig thd %iggunaf bdn%d" 4d turnde ane biune ]`n fdgan wat%h`nm h`g";?ddf`nm cd dr tieay7: Uhigas shiutde" ]`n fdgan briwnde ane hdfe h`s hdae mrian`nm" Uhdn hd

)ddrde cdh`ne ti dnsurd hd was nit cd`nm wat%hde cy h`s w`bd";& iwn yiu gy f`bd""": ]`n fdgan wh`s)drde w`th an dx)rdssìn `ne`%a nm h`s hanmivdr";"""ane & want ti summdst & ei sigd maredn wir ti rd)ay yiu, nith`nm tii hare ir `ntdns`vd, cut

whatdvdr yiu want" _drha)s a %iu)fd ib hiurs, what ei yiu say7:;Odt gd th`n aciut `t": Uhigas rd)f`de, hd fdant in h`s hid, sg`fde w`% defy ane dn$iyde thd

thiumht ib %ig)fdtd )iwdr ivdr thd bat iab' `b infy bir a gigdnt";_drha)s & w`ff mdt yiu ti %fdan thd sd) % tan , & ein‐t niw, th`s `s sigdth`nm &‐ff havd ti th`n

aciut":;= ay, & gay iwd yiu a baviur""": Uhd c`m gan sg`fde" ;"""cut ein‐t fdavd `t tii finm ir & g`mht birmdt"

-iu niw' th`nms %hanmd, what gay cd )iss`cfd tieay gay cd `g)iss`cfd tigirriw":]`n fdgan‐s vi`%d d%hide ane h`s ba%d e`ssifvde ̀ nti thd ̀ g)dndtracfd cfa% ndss as Uhigas biune

h`gsdfb afind ane ca% `n h`s suctdrrandan fa`r" 4d %fisde h`s dyds ama`nst thd ear ndss ane thiumht

aciut that gd ama`n' hiw f`bd hae sddgde si buff ib dnefdss )iss`c`f` ds" 4`s wirfe hae unf`g`tde

)itdn af ane dvdrywhdrd iMdrde i))irtun` ds bir mriwth ir edvdfi)gdnt ane fivd' wasn‐t that thd

fdssin hd‐e cddn taumht cy thd .aehu"4d rdgdgcdrde thd eay hd gdt Eyg`tr`"

L&'"U() U&)((Uhd 1rst gd hd gdt Giun` .aehu, thd )drsin eds nde ti cd%igd Uhigas‐ tda%hdr, was way ca%

`n Hufy L DF" Uhd`r )aths wdrd %rissde cy batd in a cfa6`nm hit suggdr eay, thd`r twi wirfes

%iffède, unedr thd ydffiw 1nmdrs ib a gèsuggdr sun"Uhigas hae cddn waf `nm thriumh thd )ar `n %dntraf ]arsaw w`th h`s eim, Sdx" Uhdrd was a gan

s`+nm %rissde fdmmde unedr a sway`nm trdd )ra% %`nm crdath`nm dxdr%`sds' sigdth`nm Uhigas hae

ndvdr sddn cdbird ane ̀ t )dd de h`s ̀ ntdrdst" 4`s a dn in was erawn ti th`s stranmd )drsin, s`+nm

%rissde fdmmde w`th a stra`mht ca% , `n thd shaed ib a thrdd hunerde ydar ife w`ffiw trdd"&t was infy whdn Uhigas mit %fisdr ti thd gan that hd rd%imn`6de h`g as Gr .ueiws ` brig thd _ist

=K%d' a th`n gèefd amde mdntfdgan w`th a `ne sg`fd, cafe hdae ane th`% dydcriws" Uhigas stiie

wat%h`nm thd gan bir a gigdnt cdbird as `nm";5x%usd gd, what `s that yiu ard ei`nm7:


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;&t `s _ranayaga""": Gr .ueiws ` rd)f`de i)dn`nm h`s dyds ane dxhaf`nm `n a sfiw, )rifinmde h`ss";"""& %igd hdrd dvdry eay ane )ra% %d thd (anehas":;Uhd what7: Uhigas as de ta `nm a sdat in thd mrass cdsèd thd gan, hd thrdw Sdx‐s caff, ane

wat%hde as thd eim ran ti 1ne `t `n thd finm mrass" Uhd sun was h`mh acivd thd`r hdaes ane thd sgdff

ib >iwdrs 1ffde thd a`r" &t was thd )drbd%t eay ti ga d ndw br`dnes ane e`s%uss f`bd, fa6`fy, `n thd

suggdr sun" Uhd r`vdr was rush`nm cy cdh`ne thdg ane as sgaff ciats )assde thd s%dnd rdsdgcfd an

`g)rdssìn`st )a`n nm' )drha)s cy Gindt, buff ib %ifiur, f`mht ane cfurrde givdgdnt";Uhd (anehas""": Gr .ueiws ` rd)f`de w`th a niw`nm sg`fd" 4d ftde h`s hdae, )ausde bir a

gigdnt, cdbird dx)fa`n`nm";"""ard thd biur dfdgdnts ib _ranayaga, a yim`% crdath`nm dxdr%`sd":;&s that Sussàn7: Uhigas as de" ;&‐vd ndvdr hdare thd )hrasd cdbird":;3it Sussàn, ̀ t‐s 5astdrn""": Gr .ueiws ` rd)f`de w`th a m`mmfd" ;"""&‐g Sussàn thiumh" & was cirn ̀ n

Gis%iw ca% ̀ n thd eays ib Usar 3`%ifas, gy bathdr was _if`sh ane gy githdr 2drgan si ra%àffy &ag vdry g`xde" & fd9 Sussà a9dr thd rdvifu in ane %agd hdrd ti $i`n thd _if`sh argy" & havd s`n%d

turnde gy ca% in vìfdn%d ane niw dnedaviur ti edvdfi) gy h`mhdr sdfb":;*t thd _ist =K%d7: Uhigas saè w`th a %iy mr`n";]d aff havd ti dat""": Gr .ueiws ` rd)f`de" ;"""& wir ti )ay gy c`ffs, as wd aff ei, cut wh`fd thd ciey

ti`fs, thd g`ne riags brdd":;]hdrd eè yiu fdarn, what `s ̀ t, _ranayana7:

;_ranaya g a@: Uhd gan saè %irrd% nm Uhigas‐ )rinun%à in";?rig a br`dne, hdr nagd `s ]anea, shd runs a Uhdisi)h`%af .i%`dty hdrd `n ]arsaw wh`%h sdd s ti

s)rdae thd s)`r`tuaf niwfdemd ib thd 5ast" Uimdthdr wd havd rd$d%tde %invdn inaf rdf`mìn ane

`nstdae biffiw thd )ath ib hdrgd % gys %`sg' ir 2nis`s" -iu havd biune gd )ra% %`nm a birg ib

yima `ntdnede ti edvdfi) gy h`mhdr sdfb":;_ranayaga7: Uhigas as de";=b %iursd": Gr .ueiws ` rd)f`de";(ut yiu saè `t has dfdgdnts7: Uhigas as de as Sdx eri))de thd caff at h`s bddt ama`n wamm`nm `ts

ta`f dx)d%tantfy " Uhigas )`% de thd caff u) ane thrdw `t in%d gird bir thd eim ti 1ne ane rdtr`dvd"

*s Sdx e`sa))darde `nti thd unedrmriwth hd fii de at h`s ndw br`dne ane ra`sde an `n!u`r`nm criw"

;Uhd (anehas""": Gr .ueiws ` rd)f`de as hd wdnt thriumh da%h `ne`vèuaf std)" ;"""thdy ard _ura a""":4d tii a edd) funmbuf ib a`r ane hdfe `t";"""thd ̀ nhafa in" Achyantara Jugchaja `s thd pausd """: 4d hdfe thd a`r `n h`s funms bir a )rifinmde

)drìe ib gd w`th infy a %iy fii )ass`nm cdtwddn cith gdn";"""Sdlhaja `s dxhafa in""": 4d saè, dxhaf`nm a finm ane sfiw h`ss"Uhdn, )aus`nm w`th h`s funms %ig)fdtdfy dg)ty ib a`r, thd .aehu )ursde h`s f`)s ane wa`tde' say`nm

dvdntuaffy";"""(ayhya Jugcha a `s thd dg)ty )ausd" Uhdsd ard thd biur dfdgdnts, ir (anehas, ib _ranayaga":;4iw eids ̀ t hdf) edvdfi) anyth`nm7: Uhigas as de dxag`n`nm thd gan %fisdfy" ;]hat eids ̀ t ei7:


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;(rdath `s f`bd""": Uhd gan rd)f`de s`g)fy" ;"""ti %intrif crdath `s ti %intrif f`bd ane whdn yiu ard `n

%intrif, dvdryth`nm `s )iss`cfd" Gy nagd `s Eyg`tr` cut yiu %an %aff gd Giun` .aehu, ir $ust .aehu'

th`s `s gy s)`r`tuaf nagd":;& ag Uhigas .aneis `":

;& w`ff %aff yiu .aeha a""":Uhd .aehu rd)f`de w`th a sgaff sg`fd" ;"""Uh`s w`ff birdvdr cd yiur s)`r`tuafnagd' `t gdans sdd dr ib f`mht":;& f` d that": Uhigas rd)f`de";& ndw yiu wiufe":

Uhdy wat%hde thd eim runn`nm ca% ti thdg w`th thd caff cdtwddn `ts tddth ane sat `n s`fdn%d bir a

bdw g`nutds' dn$iy`nm thd s`mhts ane sgdffs ib suggdr" Uhigas stue`de h`s ndw br`dne wh`fd hd

)ra% %de h`s dxdr%`sds ane dnv`de h`s )da%dbuf edgdaniur"&t afways sddgde ti Uhigas that thd %hur%h iMdrde f` fd ̀ n rdturn bir ̀ ts wdd fy a dnean%d ane

ba`thbuf èifatry" Uhd h`mh gass sddgde ti hife nith`nm gird cut viieii ane gam`% `n thisd si9fys)i dn s)dffs, ti Uhigas, cut hd hae ndvdr cddn acfd ti vdrcaf`6d su%h cfas)hdgy" 3it w`thiut thd

rd% in`nm ib thd _r`dst ti edaf w`th' hd %iufe ei w`thiut thd )rig`sd ib dtdrnaf hdff1rd ane

cr`gstind"

3iw s`+nm cdsèd thd gan brig thd _ist =K%d, sigdind whi fii de hdafthy, w`sd ane ed1n`tdfy at

)da%d w`th thd wirfe, hd wantde ti niw gird";]hat ga ds yiu th`n wd havd a h`mhdr sdfb 7: Uhigas as de, %asuaffy ta `nm a cfaed ib mrass ane

su% `nm in `t, cdbird thriw`nm thd caff bir thd eim";*rdn‐t wd $ust hugan cd`nms7:;Gan `s a vdssdf bir unf`g`tde )itdn af""": .aehu rd)f`de darndstfy" ;"""cith bir 2iie ane bir 5v`f,

*nmdf`% ane Edgin`%" ]d ard thd rd%d)ta%fd ib cith thd nicfd )iwdr ib thd *fg`mhty ane thd umfy

ra)a%`ty ib edv`f`sh 5v`f" Uhdsd twi i))is`tds ard `n an ̀ n1n`td ean%d bir su)rdga%y' dn%`r%f`nm da%h

ithdr as edginstratde cy thd -`n ane thd -anm' thd h`mhdr ane thd fiwdr sdfb" ]d infy ndde ti fii

aciut us ti sdd th`s )r`n%`)fd `n a% in" & bddf yiu want ti fdarn gird ane batd has ed%rdde that & cd

yiur tda%hdr":

=vdr thd biffiw`nm ydar Uhigas mit `nti thd riu nd ib fdav`nm h`s hiusd dvdry ]dendseaya9drniin, in thd )rdtdn%d ib ta `nm Sdx bir a waf , ane gdd nm h`s tda%hdr, Giun` .aehu' `n thd

)ar " Uhdy sat timdthdr, as thd eim ran bir ̀ ts caff, wh`fd Uhigas fdarnt aciut gde`ta in ane 5astdrn

rdf`mìus )ra% %d"4d e`s%ivdrde that ]arsaw hae a cran%h ib thd Uhdisi)h`%af .i%`dty bir thisd sdd `nm

dnf`mhtdngdnt ane s)`r`tuaf mriwth" Uhdy usde s%`dn%d ti )rigitd dsitdr`% truth, ir what thdy

tdrgde 2nis`s, bir thd crithdrhiie ib gan' thd`r a`g was ti hdf) hugan `ne dvifvd burthdr"=r`m`naffy startde cy 4dfdna (favats y ane 4dnry .tddf =f%i `n Oinein ariune L FN thd si%`dty‐s

gdssamd hae s)rdae a%riss 5uri)d !u`% fy" &ts )h`fisi)hy was )i)ufar aginm thisd e`sdn%hantde cy


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irthieix rdf`mìn, )ar %ufarfy ̀ n #athif`% _ifane, ane a tdg)fd bir thd si%`dty was i)dnde cy ]anea

Eyniws a ̀ n L IC"Uhigas hae ni gd bir sd%rdt si%`d ds f` d thd Gasins, thdrd was a humd fiemd `n ]arsaw, wh`%h

hd‐e )assde gany gds cut ndvdr bdft ̀ n%f`nde ti dn!u`rd aciut" ]hdrdas hd biune h`s taf s w`th

Giun` .aehu `ntdffd%tuaffy `ntr`mu`nm' )ar %ufarfy as thdy bi%ussde u)in thd brddeig ib thd siuf"Uhd #athif`% eimga hd hae )ra% %de u) ff thdn, w`th `ts bi%us in s`n ane %inbdssìn, was ndvdr

sa sby`nm `ntdffd%tuaffy" ]irsh`)drs wdrd dx)d%tde ti havd ba`th that what thdy wdrd taumht was thd

]ire ib 2ie ane `t was nit ti cd !uds inde" (ut hd hae i9dn sat `n %hur%h sd%rdtfy !uds in`nm

dvdryth`nm th`s eimga iMdrde" .igd gds hd thiumht that thd %hur%h was nith`nm cut a cran%h ib

thd %`v`f sdrv`%d' thdrd ti f`g`t brddeig rathdr than )rigitd `t"

Eur`nm thd finm %ife n`mhts ib w`ntdr hd wiufe fay `n cde cdsèd .arah, bddf`nm hdr si9 bddt warg`nm

h`s unedr thd !u`ft, ane h`s g`ne wiufe riag thd %isgis" 4d unedrstiie, ir bdft ̀ ns n% vdfy, thatthd hugan ciey was $ust a )hys`%af %inta`ndr bir sigdth`nm bar gird )iwdrbuf" 3it thd siuf, wh`%h

r`s de dtdrnaf eagna in `n thd )`ts ib hdff, cut sigdth`nm gird dthdrdaf" .igdth`nm that %iufe

dx)dr`dn%d ane dx)fird that #isg`% %ins%ìusndss, Giun` .aehu %affde, Uhd *straf Sdafg"&n` affy Uhigas fdarnt that cas`% `ns n%ts, ane thisd s gufatde cy thd sdnsds, f` d mrdde, fust ane

thd f` d, wdrd %innd%tde ti iur fiwdr naturd" Uhat eds`rd was a gan`bdsta in ib th`s fiwdr sdfb ane

that eds`rd fi% de us `nti iur )dr%d`vde rdaf`ty"

=n%d wd rd$d%t iur eds`rd ib )hys`%af rdaf`ty ane ̀ ts tdg)ta ins, that )dr%d`vde cy iur sdnsds, iur

%ins%ìusndss %an crda brdd ̀ n an *straf birg" Uhd un`vdrsd cd%igds us ane wd cd%igd ̀ t' th`s ̀ s

trud acsifutd, brddeig" Uhigas fdarnt that ̀ ne`vèuaf %ins%ìusndss ̀ s an dx)rdssìn ib a wèdr

%isg`% %ins%ìusndss ane that th`s was ̀ n1n`td"#ins%ìusndss ̀ s nit )art ib thd cra`n‐s bun% in, thd .aehu dx)fa`nde, that ̀ eda was de ̀ nti thd

]dstdrn #fi% wir Bn`vdrsd thdir`ds ib Eds #artds ane ithdr 5uri)dan )h`fisi)hdrs" Uhigas fdarnt

that 5astdrn thdifimy saw thd ciey as a whifd ane that iur %ins%ìusndss was nit `n thd cra`n cut `n

thd whifd ciey' us`nm `t as a vdh`%fd bir dx)dr`dn%`nm f`bd"

.aehu dx)fa`nde that thd ciey hae an dfd%tr`%af tirsìn 1dfe wh`%h a%tde f` d an antdnna" &t erdw

wavds ̀ n ane dg` de s`g`far dfd%tr`%af 1dfes wh`%h %iufe cd gdasurde s%`dn 1%affy" Uhdsd 1dfes

`ntdra%t w`th ithdrs ane w`th thd un`vdrsd mdndraffy ane, in%d unedrstiie ane harndssde, wdrd thd

riutd ti unf`g`tde )itdn af"Eur`nm thd`r rdmufar gdd nms Uhigas was taumht thd cas`% dfdgdnts ib, what Giun` .aehu %affde,

#rda vd 8`suaf`sa in' thd dx)dr`dn%d ib v`suaf`s`nm e`v`nd f`mht ane bus`nm w`th `t" 4d was tife, ane

gird ̀ g)irtantfy cdman ti cdf`dvd, that E`v`nd f`mht was )urd Oivd ane ti dx)dr`dn%d ̀ t was ti


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cd%igd ̀ t" Uh`s a% in erdw fivd brig thd dthdr ̀ nti th`s casdr rdafg ane %rdatde harginy aginm

thd )di)fd ib thd wirfe" *ff a% in d!uaffde Sda% in"

3iw fy`nm ̀ n h`s ear ane edd) unedrmriune shdftdr, w`th rats mnaw`nm at h`s ri dn biit, thdsd ̀ edafs

cd%agd aff thd gird rdaf" 4d hae sddn rd%dntfy what %iufe ha))dn whdn gan affiwde h`s casdr`ns n%ts ti ma`n su)rdga%y" ]hdn thd e`v`nd f`mht ib fivd was su))rdssde infy dv`f ane ear ndss

rd`mn brdd' Uhigas was mfae bir h`s s)`r`tuaf dnf`mhtdngdnt, thd rdfaxa in td%hn`!uds hae hdf)de

h`g mdt thriumh f`bd‐s rd%dnt tràfs' ane h`s cdf`db `n Oivd hae ndvdr baftdrde"

Lhaptdr 5\#ggdr 1*3?;Gi6aftiv": Uhd crèd ane mriig stag)de in a mfass wra))de `n tiwdf ane thd cane stru% u)" Uhd

wdee`nm )arty was `n thd yare ib thd bag`fy‐s sgaff hife`nm ane thd mudsts sat in cafds ib hay gaed

brig fast ydar‐s %drdaf %ri)"Uhd crèd‐s bathdr, Gr 4iM, sat cdsèd h`s cdst br`dne, Gr (drns nd, ane %fa))de afinm w`th thd

gus`%" (drns nd fdant birwares ane s)i d ti h`s ifedst br`dne";.i 4iM, what gaed hdr mi bir a ?rdn%h gan7:;4d‐s a miie )drsin"""":4iM rd)f`de w`)`nm a tdar brig h`s dyd ane wat%h`nm h`s yiunmdst eaumhtdr

ean%d" .hd fii de si gu%h f` d hdr githdr cut sdd`nm hdr ha))y gaed h`g sae" &t was a eay hdr

githdr hae fii de si gu%h birwares ti cut niw %iufe infy cd thdrd `n s)`r`t";4dnr` Ed 2urrd""": 4iM saè ti ni/ind `n )ar %ufar" ;"""*t fdast hd‐s a Hdw" Uhd ithdr ind cri d gy

hdart":;4iM, yiu ife biif""": (drns nd wh`s)drde fdan`nm tiwares h`s br`dne ane niee`nm ti .arah, 4iM‐s

dfedst eaumhtdr, whi was stane`nm afind in thd ithdr sèd ib thd yare";"""f`bd ̀ s tii shirt bir aff th`s aminy" 2i ane ean%d w`th yiur eaumhtdr, fii , thdrd shd ̀ s" 2i ane tdff

hdr yiu fivd hdr":;3dvdr@: thd ife gan mas)de" ;.hd e`sicdyde gd ane criumht e`shiniur ti iur bag`fy" & w`ff ndvdr

birm`vd hdr":

;3dvdr `s a finm gd": (drns nd saè si9fy" 4d s`mhde ane ta))de thd ife gan in thd shiufedr";2i ti hdr, shd ̀ s yiur dfedst eaumhtdr bir 2ie sa d, ane what eè shd ei wh`%h was si wrinm7

(d%ig`nm a %athif`% `s nit guredr' `s `t7:;.hd guredrde gy hdart": 4iM s)at";& tdff yiu th`s, gy br`dne""":(drns nd rd)f`de as hd tii anithdr muf) brig thd mfass ib vie a hd was

hife`nm" 4d fii de a%riss thd wdee`nm )arty, thd crèd ane mriig, thd ean%`nm bag`fy ane )fay`nm

%h`ferdn' hd fii de a%riss thdg aff ane s`mhde ama`n";"""ind eay yiu w`ff rdgdgcdr that m`rf ane yiu w`ff rdmrdt dvdryth`nm" &t gay nit cd tieay ir

tigirriw cut ind eay yiu w`ff th`n ca% ti th`s ane w`sh yiu‐e cdhavde e`Mdrdntfy" -iu gar gy

wires' ind eay yiu‐ff rdmrdt cd`nm si hare":


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;3dvdr""":4iM s)at" 4d fii de at h`s dfedst eaumhtdr ane shii h`s hdae" ;"""cdsèd, what ei yiu

niw":

(drns nd shii h`s hdae ane s`mhde fiuefy ti fdt h`s ife br`dne niw hd was e`sa))i`ntde `n h`g" 4d

waf de away ane, as hd eè si, ife gan 4iM wat%hde ane bdft sigdth`nm s rr`nm w`th`n" _drha)s ̀ twas an unedrstane`nm, )drha)s ̀ t was $ust a bddf`nm, cut h`s br`dne‐s wires hae sigd dMd%t" Uhdy

fiemde `n thd ife gan‐s g`ne ane mavd h`g sigdth`nm ti th`n aciut eur`nm h`s !u`dt gds"

+#fy 1*3,;Eicr`, gy s`stdr": .arah saè fii `nm eiwn at .dfdnd whi was fy`nm `n cde hife`nm hdr ndw cirn

cacy sin" =fe gan 4iM stiie ama`nst a bar waff w`th 4dnr` fii `nm at h`s dfedst eaumhtdr w`th

e`smust";Uhd cacy `s cdau buf": .arah saè rda%h`nm iut ane stri `nm thd cacy‐s hdae" ;"""what ard yiu mi`nm

ti %aff h`g7:;]d‐rd nag`nm h`g a9dr 4dnr`‐s bathdr""": .dfdnd rd)f`de" ;"""Sifb":;Uhat‐s a gan‐s nagd": .arah m`mmfde";& shiufe hi)d si": .dfdnd sg`fde" ;4d `s a gan, iur f` fd gan":;]hat & gdan""":.arah saè mfan%`nm ti hdr bathdr ane 4dnr` !u`% fy ane thdn ca% at hdr s`stdr";"""&t‐s nit thd sirt ib nagd ti %aff a cacy":;Sif1d""":.dfdnd sg`fde" ;"""that‐s what wd ard mi`nm ti %aff h`g" =ur Sif1d":;Uhat‐s what yiu ard mi`nm ti %aff h`g": 4dnr` saè std))`nm u) ti thd ithdr sèd ib thd cde ane

stri `nm h`s w`bd‐s arg";& ag mi`nm ti %aff h`g Sifb' ni ga dr what h`s amd":

.arah fii de w`s


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;.dd, niw yiu havd u)sdt thd cacy" -iu w`% de ife gan":;Gd, w`% de""": 4iM faumhde sar%as %affy" ;"""& eèn‐t garry a #athif`%' eè &7 & win‐t cd mi`nm ti hdff":

4dff, Uhigas hae cddn tife cy thd .aehu, was a %instru% in ib thd hugan g`ne" &b wd %rdatd iur

rdaf`ty w`th iur thiumhts why )iffutd that rdaf`ty w`th %in%d)ts f` d hdff, h`s tda%hdr hae dx)fa`nde"

]hy ga d 4dff hdrd in 5arth7 ]`th fivd `n iur hdarts, hd saè, thd ni in ib hdff baeds `nti thd dthdr

ane infy miie th`nms rdga`n"&b iur thiumhts hae thd )itdn af ti cd si )urd ane si buff ib hi)d ane fivd, why %intag`natd thdg

w`th thd ndma vd dndrmy ib gan" #ins%ìusndss ̀ s fivd ane aff fivd `s )urd" =nfy gan‐s casdr

`ns n%ts wiufe want ti shaeiw su%h cdauty w`th hdff`sh ear ndss ane bdar" Uhigas rdgdgcdrde

that ane sg`fde"

Uhd ife gan fd9 thd riig ane thd giie f`mhtdnde aginmst thisd mathdrde" 4dnr` sat in thd cde

ane tii h`s w`bd‐s hane as shd nursde thd sgaff cunefd ca% ti sfdd)" .arah ane Uhigas stiie

cdsèd thd cde ane thd`r 1nmdrs fi% de timdthdr" Uhdrd was a rugcfd ib thunedr brig a stirg

cu`fe`nm `n thd dast ane a sueedn shi% ib f`mhtdn`nm wh`%h gaed .arah startfd" Uhigas sg`fde ane

)fa%de a %igbir nm arg ivdr h`s w`bd‐s shiufedr";&t‐s at gds f` d th`s""":.arah saè si9fy as shd )ddrde eiwn at thd cacy" ;"""`t‐s at gds f` d th`s that

& w`sh githdr was s ff af`vd":;-ds""":.dfdnd rd)f`de a9dr m`v`nm 4dnr` a sgaff sg`fd" ;"""& th`n aciut hdr i9dn":;]hdn yiu wdrd s ff a cacy, ni gird than thrdd ir biur ydars ife""": .arah saè, v`vèfy rd%aff`nm thd

dvdnt ̀ n aff ̀ ts mfiry" *s shd s)i d thd %hara%tdrs %agd af`vd ̀ n .dfdnd‐s ̀ gam`na in ane dvdn thdcacy was !u`dt as `b dn%hantde cy h`s aunt‐s si9 vi`%d";"""shd was `n thd s%uffdry ga `nm )astry ane ci`f`nm %hdrr`ds brig that humd trdd that mrdw `n thd

maredn" & rdgdgcdr thd swddt sgdff ib %hdrr`ds ane sumar gaed gy cdffy a%hd ane gy giuth watdr

si & was infy tii )fdasde ti hdf) hdr ga d thd )astry"

]d mrdasde twi c`m )ans ane f`nde thdg w`th )astry ane usde thd ci`fde bru`t ti 1ff thd )astry" Uhdn

wd )fa%de )astry fès in thd )ans ane thd fast ib thd sumar was s)r`n fde in ti)" Uhdy wdrd thd

c`mmdst %hdrry )`ds & hae dvdr sddn"]d )fa%de thdg `n that ife wiie stivd wd usde ti havd ane sat cy dx)d%tantfy as thdy %ii de" Uhd

whifd hiusd sgdft ib %hdrry as thisd c`m )`ds %ii de sfiwfy" 5vdry niw ane thdn shd i)dnde thd

stivd ane fii de ̀ nsèd ti ga d surd thdy wdrd %ii `nm dvdnfy" Githdr usde ti s`nm ca% thdn ane &

rdgdgcdr thd siune ib hdr vi`%d dvdry gd & sgdff %hdrry )`d tieay"]hdn thd )`ds wdrd %ii de wd )fa%de thdg in thd `t%hdn tacfd ane shd sanm wh`fd thdy %iifde

eiwn" .dd`nm thdg thdrd gaed gd bddf si hunmry ane & was damdrfy wa` nm bir thdg ti cd %iif

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&gam`nd gy sur)r`sd whdn, a9dr thdy‐e %iifde, githdr tii a cas dt brig thd %u)ciare ane )ut thd

)`ds `nti `t" Uhdn shd tife gd ti ta d thd )`ds eiwn thd riae ti thd hiusd ib an dfedrfy %iu)fd whi

wdrd %dfdcra nm thd`r NC th wdee`nm ann`vdrsary" Uhd`r iwn %h`ferdn hae e`de ̀ n a 1rd whdn thd

%iu)fd wdrd yiunmdr ane niw thdy hae ni ind ti ta d %ard ib thdg".hd hae rdgdgcdrde thd ife wigan gdn in`nm thd`r birth%ig`nm ann`vdrsary darf`dr ̀ n thd ydar

ane hae sdt sigd %hdrr`ds as`ed $ust bir thdg" Githdr was afways thiumh


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Uhdrd wdrd ni ndws)a)drs )r`ntde eur`nm thd s`dmd ane ni raeì criae%asts dx%d)t thisd brig thd

_if`sh mivdrngdnt ̀ n dx`fd' thdy hae ds%a)de ti Oinein eur`nm thd 1rst bdw eays ib `nvasìn" &t was

infy in =%ticdr thd LC th , whdn .arah ane Uhigas wdnt ti rdm`stdr at thd fi%af )if`%d sta in, that

thdy hdare that thd Sussàns hae ̀ nvaede thd dast in .d)tdgcdr thd th' ane _ifane was niw

dMd% vdfy %ut `n hafb"

.arah wirr`de aciut hdr bag`fy ̀ n 8ifhynà ane hi)de thdy wdrd s ff af`vd, shd bdft fu% y ti havd

surv`vde thd s`dmd ane ca fd bir ]arsaw' niw shd hi)de thd sagd was trud bir hdr dxtdnede bag`fy".arah rdgdgcdr cd`nm tife cy hdr )ardnts that thd 2drgans wdrd a %ufturde )di)fd ane that eur`nm

thd ?`rst ]irfe ]ar, hae %ineu%tde thdgsdfvds f` d mdntfdgdn' a%%ire`nm ti `ntdrna inaf faws" .hd

hae nit hdare thd sagd bir Sussàns ane niw`nm hdr bag`fy wdrd niw %ut iM ane unedr .iv`dt

%intrif 1ffde hdr w`th erdae"

Uhd miss`) was r`bd as thdy !udude u) ti rdm`stdr, thd .iv`dt *rgy thdy ivdrhdare, wdrd a))ardntfyriune`nm u) _if`sh =K%drs ane sd)ara nm thdg brig thd`r bag`f`ds" *s thd !udud Uhigas ane .arah

stiie ̀ n, sna de eiwn ti thd brint eds s, dvdry )`d%d ib ndws was damdrfy e`mdstde ane %iggdntde

u)in"

Uhigas was shi% de `nti raw s`fdn%d whdn hd saw h`s nd`mhciur s`+nm cdh`ne thd eds at thd brint

ib thd !udud" ]`n fdgan snddrde tiwares h`g ane .arah as thdy dvdntuaffy biune thdgsdfvds

i))is`td h`g, hd )ushde twi %ares a%riss thd eds ane m`mmfde";& ganamde ti mdt a miie $ic""": 4d wh`s)drde tiwares Uhigas thriumh thd sèd ib h`s giuth"

;"""?`rst %igd, 1rst sdrvde ane & gaed surd & was hdrd cdbird anyind" 3iw & ag a %`v`fàn )if`%d iK%dr

Uhigas, w`th dxtra ra ins ane )fdnty ib i))irtun` ds ti bdathdr gy ndst":;Sdaffy7: Uhigas rd)f`de fii `nm at thd !uds ins in thd %are" 4d saw thd ind rdbdrr`nm ti thd ra%àf

èdn ty ib thd bag`fy ane thiumht aciut `t bir a gigdnt";#igd in Uhigas""":]`n fdgan saè ra))`nm h`s 1nmdrs in thd eds " ;"""_di)fd ard wa` nm cdh`ne

yiu":;Uh`s !uds in""": Uhigas as de" ;"""& ag #athif`% ane si `s gy w`bd, cut hdr bag`fy `s Hdw`sh, si what

`s hdr ra%àf èdn ty7:

;&t‐s dasy""": ]`n fdgan rd)f`de ta))`nm thd %are w`th a th`% 1nmdr" ;"""_ut in yiur %are that yiu ard#athif`% ane in hdrs that shd `s a Hdw":;(ut shd ̀ s nit a Hdw": Uhigas rd)f`de w`th a !u`66`%af fii ";4dr bag`fy ard Hdws cut shd `s a #athif`%" .hd was %in1rgde cdbird wd garr`de":;.i shd‐s a hafb Hdw""":]`n fdgan sn`Mde" ;"""Hust say shd `s a Hdw bir thd gd cd`nm ane sirt `t iut

fatdr":;]`ff wd havd a %han%d ti sirt `t iut""": Uhigas as de w`th a nitd ib %in%drn" ;"""dvdntuaffy7:;=b %iursd""": ]`n fdgan faumhde" ;"""Urust yiur ife br`dne, niw hurry, thdrd ard )di)fd wa` nm":


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.i rdfu%tantfy, Uhigas wat%hde as h`s w`bd nitde that shd was Hdw`sh in hdr %are, sigdth`nm aciut

thd !uds in gaed h`g bddf undasy' cut hd eè as hd was ̀ nstru%tde trus nm that thdy wiufe havd a

i))irtun`ty ti %irrd%t any )ricfdgs th`s answdr gay %ausd `n buturd".igd twi ane a hafb hiurs fatdr .arah ane Uhigas fd9 thd mivdrngdnt cu`fe`nms, hav`nm cddn

wd`mhde, !uds inde, 1nmdr )r`ntde, )hitimra)hde ane ̀ ns)d%tde cy a ra%àf )ri1fdr' w`th thd`r

2drgan ̀ edn ty )a)drs %fut%hde ̀ n thd`r hanes"

Uhd %`ty was buff ib tan s ane argde 2drgans whi wdrd cusy hanm`nm 3a6` >ams hdrd ane thdrd ane

e`rd% nm wir )ar ds %fdar`nm thd ruccfd" Uhdy ganamde ti %at%h a cus hdae`nm iut ti thd`r !u`dt

sucurc ane ̀ t was eur`nm th`s cus rèd Uhigas ivdrhdare thd stranmdst %invdrsa in"Uwi ife fae`ds wdrd taf `nm aciut thd fi%af thdatrd %ig)any" =nd was tdff`nm thd ithdr hiw hdr

a)artgdnt ivdrfii de thd rdar ib thd thdatrd" .hd wdnt in ti say that darf`dr ̀ n thd eay shd hae

sddn a mriu) ib 2drgan sife`drs ta `nm thd %ast ane staM ib a finm runn`nm =)dra `nti thd rdar ib thdthdatrd whdrd thdy hae cddn dxd%utde" Uhdy wdrd aff cunefde ̀ nti thd %ar/)ar , f`nde u) ama`nst a

waff, ane shit"

Uhigas was si shi% de hdar`nm th`s stiry that hd ta))de ind ib thd wigan in thd shiufedr ane

as de `b hd hae hdare hdr %irrd%tfy" -ds, shd saè, thd whifd %ast ib thd shiw ane aff thd thdatrd staM

wdrd shit `n %ife cfiie" ]hy wiufe thd 2drgans ei su%h a th`nm, Uhigas as de thd dfedrfy wigan'

`gam`n`nm shd was dxammdra nm thd edta`fs ti edgin`sd thd`r 2drgan ̀ nvaedrs".hd shrummde ane $ust rd)f`de that ind ib thd 2drgan iK%drs hae cddn ivdrhdare sta nm that sfavds

hae ni ndde bir %ufturd' `t‐s trud, thd ife wigan mas)de, thdy ard rdbdrr`nm ti us as sfavds niw"

.arah ane Uhigas hdfe hanes ̀ n %ig)fdtd s`fdn%d bir thd rdga`nedr ib thd`r $iurndy higd" .hi% de

cy thd rdaf`6a in that thdsd 2drgans gay nit cd a% nm as bathdr 4iM hae saè' f` d mdntfdgdn w`th

eud rdmare bir fi%af faws" &t was dxtrdgdfy wirry`nm ane Uhigas gaed a )i`nt ib ta% f`nm ]`n fdgan

aciut th`s as siin as hd saw h`g fatdr";Ein‐t f`stdn ti thd miss`) ib ife wigdn": ]`n fdgan rd)f`de as hd was sti))de cy Uhigas" &n h`s

args was a ci fd ib strinm af%ihif ane a str`nm ib _if`sh sausamds' cith ib wh`%h hd %raefde mrdde`fy"

;*ne anyway""": Uhd %iursd gan s)at as hd dntdrde h`s hiusd" ;"""&b anyind was shit thdy )ricacfyas de bir `t":

Lhaptdr -+#fy 1*5?Uhd biffiw`nm ydar, in thd ]dendseay, Uhigas gaed h`s way ti thd %dntraf )ar ti gddt .aehu as

usuaf' dvdn eur`nm thd s`dmd thdy hae ganamde ti dd) thd`r wdd fy sdssìns" *fthiumh bir thd sa d

ib thd`r sabdty thdy wiufe mi ti )ra% %d yima dfsdwhdrd ̀ b thd )ar was unsu`tacfd"Uhd carr`%aeds )rdvìusfy usde cy thd ]"J ti edbdne thd %`ty eur`nm thd 2drgan `nvasìn wdrd niw

cd`nm gannde cy 2drgan trii)s ane h`s $iurndy tii gu%h finmdr than usuaf" *t dvdry $un% in hd


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was tife ti )rdsdnt h`s )a)drs ane m`vd ane a%%iunt bir h`s $iurndy" 4d %iufe nit rdgdgcdr whdn

thdsd %hd% )i`nts hae cd%igd si brd!udnt ane rdaf`sde that ivdr thd )rdvìus bdw ginths gird

%intrifs hae cddn )fa%de u)in h`s brddeig" &t was sfiwfy cd`nm %urta`fde %ig)fdtdfy"

=%%asìnaffy hd saw tru% s cd`nm fiaede w`th bag`fy mriu)s, br`mhtdnde aeufts ane thd`r %inbusde%h`ferdn, eramm`nm a )` buf %iffd% in ib ca drde %asds cdh`ne thdg" Uhigas as de a _if`sh

shi) dd)dr whi was swdd)`nm ruccfd brig thd brint ib h`s shi) what was ha))dn`nm"4d was tife that thdsd bag`f`ds hae cddn iredrde ti fdavd thd`r hiusds, a)artgdnts ane cus`ndssds

ane rdfi%atd ti a mhd i s`tuatde nirth ane siuth ib #hfiena .trddt" Uh`s was )rdvìusfy an arda

whdrd gany Hdws f`vde cut niw dvdry Hdw`sh bag`fy ̀ n thd %`ty, sigd ACC"CCC )di)fd wdrd cd`nm

givde thdrd";Sdaffy""": Uhigas as de thd shi) dd)dr as hd wat%hde thd tru% mdt fiaede w`th `ts hugan %armi";"""cut why7:;.igdth`nm ti ei w`th !uaran nd""": Uhd gan rd)f`de w`th a shrum" ;"""_drha)s thdy ard ̀ ff, whi

niws, & havd dniumh )ricfdgs ib gy iwn w`thiut wirry`nm aciut thdg":*n /Hdw`sh de`%ts hae cddn anniun%de cy thd 2drgan‐s s`n%d 3ivdgcdr L D , a bdw ginths a9dr

%insifèa nm thd`r )iwdr biffiw`nm thd `nvasìn" Uhd 1rst was that aff Hdws ivdr thd amd ib LI hae ti

wdar a wh`td argcane car`nm thd .tar ib Eavè" Uhdn thdy wdrd tife aff Hdw`sh cus`ndssds hae ti

e`s)fay thd star"

Uhd biffiw`nm ginths criumht ndw ane savamd rufds bir thd )i)ufa in, aff _ifds ni ga dr thd`r

rdf`mìn, biune thd 2drgan‐s trdatgdnt ̀ nhugan" (ut Hdws wdrd s`nmfde iut, thdy wdrd bircèedn tiiwn mife, ca d crdae ir fdavd thd %`ty w`thiut a s)d%àf travdf )ass" 3iw ti sdd thdg riunede u)

ane )fa%de `n ind %dntraf fi%a in was ig`nius"Uhigas dvdntuaffy biune .aehu wa` nm bir h`g at thd matds ti thd )ar wh`%h, gu%h ti thd`r

e`sa))i`ntgdnt, was niw a 2drgan dn%ag)gdnt" .dd`nm h`s br`dne gaed Uhigas ha))y cd%ausd

agè aff thd edstru% in ̀ t sddgde as ̀ b sigd ib h`s baviur`td a% v` ds %iufe s ff %in nud";Odt‐s waf ": Giun` .aehu saè as a 2drgan muare wat%hde thdg sus)`%ìusfy" Uhd twi gdn waf de

away brig thd )ar matds tiwares thd 8`stufa S`vdr" Uhdy turnde fd9 iM thd ga`n riae, tiwares

.axin 2aredns, thd ifedst i)dn s)a%d ̀ n thd %`ty, wh`%h was in%d a riyaf )afa%d ane ir`m`naffyi)dnde ti thd )ucf`% `n thd LF th %dntury"

#insèdr`nm ̀ ts mrdat amd ane h`stir`% vafud thd twi gdn %insèdrde ̀ t unf` dfy thd 2drgans wiufe

cd turn`nm u) thd maredns w`th thd`r tan s ane hirsds" =n thd`r way )ast thd ife Hdw`sh !uartdr

Uhigas in%d ama`n saw tru% s fiaede w`th )di)fd" Uhdy wdrd niw cd`nm unfiaede ane thd %riwes

wdrd cd`nm e`rd%tde ̀ nti thd narriw strddts %raggde cdtwddn thdrd ane thd r`vdr f` d br`mhtdnde

an`gafs" * s`mn hae cddn drd%tde wh`%h )rih`c`tde anyind brig dntdr`nm ir fdav`nm th`s

0Ruaran nde‐ arda"


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Uhdy saw ni %ds say`nm thdrd was a r`s ib ty)hus `b *ràn )di)fd assi%àtde w`th thisd cd`nm

!uaran nde" Uhdy saw s`mns ̀ ne`%a nm that thd mhd i was ti cd mivdrnde cy a sd)aratd dn ty brig

thdn in" Uh`s dn ty was %affde thd Huednrat' ir Hdw`sh #iun%`f"

;-iu %an sdd hdrd""": .aehu rdgar de as thd twi waf de )ast thd %inbusde %riwes wa` nm ti cde`rd%tde ti thd`r ndw higds" ;"""gan‐s casdr naturd gan`bds nm `tsdfb":;Uhdy ard $ust cd`nm rd/hiusde""": Uhigas rd)f`de" ;"""_drha)s thdy fist thd`r higds ̀ n thd cigc`nm

fast ydar":;&b `t ga ds yiu ha))y ti cd cf`ne, si cd `t": .aehu rd)f`de" Uhdrd was a finm hdavy )ausd whdrd

Uhigas was dx)d%tde ti rdaf`sd thd ̀ riny ib th`s statdgdnt ane as burthdr, ̀ nstdae hd $ust mfan%de at

h`s br`dne dx)d%tantfy";&n thd %ig`nm wdd s, ginths ane ydars"""":.aehu saè s`g)fy" ;"""]d gust i)dn iur dyds, hdarts ane

g`nes ti thd truth' ard yiu rdaey7:;& ein‐t f` d hdrids""": Uhigas rd)f`de s`g)fy" ;"""& %drta`nfy havd ni agc` in ti cd ind gysdfb":;& ag nit taf `nm aciut hdri`%s .aeha a, gy br`dne"""": .aehu saè sti))`nm ti ba%d h`s %ig)anìn";"""& ag taf `nm aciut niur`sh`nm yiur h`mhdr sdfb `n thdsd e`K%uft gds ti %igd" ]d gust aff ed%èd

ti cd%igd thd %ineu`t bir anmdfs":;*nmdfs""": Uhigas sg`r de" ;"""]hat anmdfs7:

;Uhdy ard hdrd, aff ariune us, wat%h`nm !u`dtfy" -iu gay nit sdd thdg ir hdar thd`r si9 crdath ̀ n

yiur dar, yiu gay nit want ti sdd thdg cut `n iur !u`dtdr gds wd aff bddf thd`r )rdsdn%d, .aeha a"

Uhdy ard thd dfedr s)`r`ts whi wat%h ivdr us %h`ferdn ib thd wirfe ane try ti muèd us" .igd gds wd

gust fdt thdg wir thriumh us"""": .aehu sg`fde cdn`mnfy" ;"""*rd yiu rdaey bir th`s7:;4iw""": Uhigas rd)f`de as thdy std))de `nti thd mrddn ane wiiede maredns";"""4iw ag & ti cd%igd a %ineu`t bir anmdfs7:

;(y niur`sh`nm yiur h`mhdr sdfb, ib %iursd""": .aehu rd)f`de w`th ind ib h`s s)d%àf`ty sg`fds, h`s cushy

dydcriws f`9de ane th`s gaed h`s cr`mht dyds f`mht u) thd s)a%d cdtwddn thd twi gdn";""" =ur cie`ds ndde niur`shgdnt" &b yiu wir hare, yiu‐ff ndde ti ti) u) in %afir`ds' f` d a miie

crda bast ir e`nndr" _hys`%af cie`ds ndde )hys`%af niur`shgdnt, cut .aeha a, iur dthdrdaf cie`ds

ndde niur`shgdnt tii" Uhd dthdrdaf ciey ane yiur h`mhdr sdfb ard thd sagd' niur`shgdnt ib yiur

h`mhdr sdfb w`ff eraw thdg ti yiu ane thdn, w`thiut dvdn rdaf`s`nm, yiu w`ff 1ne thdg wir `nm

thriumh yiu":;]hi w`ff cd erawn ti gd, .aehu7: Uhigas fii de at h`s br`dne ane ndw cy thd gan‐s dx)rdssìn,

cy thd way hd hdfe that sgaff sg`fd, bir $ust a bdw gigdnts" 4d ndw thd answdr cdbird .aehu hae

saè anyth`nm";*nmdfs ard wa` nm aff ariune us ti wir sgaff g`ra%fds" (ut wd gust ed%èd ti fdt thdg wir

thriumh us `b thdsd g`ra%fds ard ti ha))dn":;*nmdfs""": Uhigas rd)f`de" 4d sg`fde ane thdn curst ̀ nti a gè faumh, sha `nm h`s hdae brig sèd ti

sèd as hd %insèdrde th`s" 4d winedrde `b h`s br`dne was cd`nm sdrìus ir nit ane as de"


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;"""& havd ti fdt anmdfs wir thriumh gd7:;&b yiu niur`sh yiur h`mhdr sdfb""":Uhd .aehu rd)f`de sdrìusfy" ;"""thdy w`ff cd erawn ti yiu":Uhd twi gdn %agd ti a sgaff %fdar`nm cy thd r`vdr can , brig that )i`nt, w`th thd dtdrnaffy

un%hanm`nm v`dw ib thd r`vdr strdt%hde iut cdbird thdg, thdy %iufe havd cddn anywhdrd ̀ n thd

wirfe" *t any gd ̀ n thd )ast, w`th thd ca drde ru`ns ib thd %`ty hèedn cdh`ne trdds, ]arsawfii de as `t hae )rìr ti thd `nvasìn"

Uhdy sat ane tii `n thd v`dw bir a bdw g`nutds, tas nm thd %fdan r`vdr a`r in thd`r tinmuds, sgdff`nm

thd %`ty ane bddf`nm thd wargth ib thd sun in thd`r ba%ds" Uhd siune ib a )ass`nm ciat in thd bar sèd

g`xde undas`fy w`th thd c`resinm %ig`nm brig thd maredns cdh`ne thdg as .aehu s)i d";Sdgdgcdr hiw & dx)fa`nde naturaf faw ti yiu, a% in d!uafs rda% in, .aeha a" Ui a%t w`th fivd

w`ff eraw fivd ti yiu ane fivd w`ff niur`sh yiur h`mhdr sdfb" &n thd ndar buturd wd w`ff aff cd %affde ti

a%t w`th fivd"

=))irtun` ds ti bdde iur h`mhdr sdfvds ard siumht cy sigd dvdry eay ib thd ydar" =thdrs %an 1ne

thdsd i))irtun` ds thrust u)in thdg' iur %ins%ìusndss w`ff ̀ ggdeàtdfy rd%imn`6d thd %haffdnmd

ane wd gust hdde thd %aff`nm":;4iw %an yiu cd si surd .aehu7: Uhigas as de, ama`n niw`nm thd answdr cdbird h`s br`dne rd)f`de'

hd bdft tdars cr`gg`nm ̀ n h`s dyds as h`s br`dne‐s wires d%hide thriumh h`s cra`n"_drha)s ̀ t was th`n `nm aciut thd %`ty thdy hae $ust )assde thriumh, edsifatd ane cri dn, da%h

%rug)fde strddt %irndr d!u`))de w`th a ga%h`nd mun )ist ane sdvdraf bird`mn sife`drs, cut

sigdth`nm saeednde h`g"

Uhd rde >ams, thd %ifiurs ane thd sygcifs in thd`r un`birgs wdrd dniumh ti )rivd that thdsd

`nvaedrs wdrd nit hdrd bir thd miie ib thd )i)ufa in" Sde %`r%fds, cfa% ciredrs ane thd %dntraf

s)` ds ib thd swas as aeirn`nm thd`r u))dr fd9 args' thd %hrigd edaths hdae in thd`r hdfgdts ane

)dd de %a)s mavd thdg a gafdvifdnt )rdsdn%d ane ̀ nstaffde bdar ̀ n thd )di)fd thdy cuff`de" _di)fd

f` d thd wigdn ane %h`ferdn whi hae cddn bir%de ti rdfi%atd ti that %iffd% in ib narriw aff`ds ane

strddts thdy‐e $ust waf de )ast";-iu niw that a eanmdrius gàsga has eds%dnede u)in thd %`ty""":.aehu wh`s)drde as hd fii de

iut a%riss thd watdr ane usde h`s fd9 arg ti eraw Uhigas‐ a dn in ti `t";"""?rig hdrd thd ear watdr fii s s ff, as ̀ b thdrd ̀ s nith`nm ha))dn`nm thdrd u)in thd watdr, cut

fii unedr thisd ear wavds ane yiu w`ff 1ne a )iwdrbuf bir%d at wir " &t‐s eraw`nm thd watdr `n ind

e`rd% in, stdae`fy ane unsti))acfd, afinm thd r`vdr‐s %iursd"

Uhd unhdafthy sgim wh`%h has eds%dnede ivdr thd %`ty yiu fivd has a )iwdrbuf ane unsti))acfd

bir%d er`v`nm `t" Ga d ni g`sta d .aeha a, `t `s as dv`f as any v`rus ir ca%tdrùg wh`%h has )rdvìusfy


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`nbd%tde gan‐s ciey" &t‐s as edaefy as any )famud ir e`sdasd ir ithdr `nv`s`cfd edgin`% dn ty' th`s ba%t

gust afdrt us ti thd %ig`nm wir ":;& th`n & unedrstane""":Uhigas rd)f`de ta `nm a edd) crdath ane rdaey`nm h`gsdfb bir thd )ra% %d ib

_ranayaga"

;"""]hdn & was a )ra% %`nm #athif`% thd )r`dst‐s usde ti taf aciut anmdfs, sa`nts ane edgins' & mitusde ti e`sg`ss`nm th`s taf as $ust èfd su)drs in" 3iw yiu tdff gd that thdy ard rdaf dn ds ane &

gust wir w`th ind ama`nst thd ithdr' `t‐s a f` fd hare ti ta d `n":;]hdn wd ard taf `nm aciut anmdfs ane edgins, .aeha a""": .aehu rd)f`de ta `nm thd fitus )is` in

ane h`s 1rst edd) crdath" ;"""th`n ib thdg as ar%hdty)ds" *nmdfs, ir ife ane w`sdr wat%hdrs,

rd)rdsdnt aff that ̀ s miie ane %invdrsdfy edgins, thisd wat%hdrs whi havd affiwde thd`r casdr

sdfvds ti ta d hife ane e`rd%t thdg' rd)rdsdnt aff that ̀ s cae"

Uhdsd ar%hdty)ds ard nit usde ti %in$urde ane `nstaff bdar ir mu`ft, f` d thd %hur%h wiufe say" Uhdy

ard infy hdf)buf ti ed1nd thd ca fd ahdae ane whi `s bid ane whi `s thdrd ti hdf) us" =ur

%ins%ìusndss unedrstanes th`s":;.i, cy niur`sh`nm iur h`mhdr sdfvds, wd ard affiw`nm thdsd ar%hdty)ds ti wir thriumh us7:;=ur %ins%ìusndss w`ff ga d us rdaey""": Uhd .aehu wh`s)drde si9fy" ;"""`t w`ff afsi muèd us afinm

thd r`mht )ath" (y affiw`nm anmdfs ti sh`nd thriumh yiu, dv`f w`ff havd niwhdrd ti hèd" & havd hdare

thdsd 3a6`s wirsh`) thd (fa% .un' that wh`%h `ffug`natds infy ear ndss" ]d, in thd ithdr hane,

gust cd thd tiif ib E`v`nd f`mht" Uhd *nmdfs ard su%h ane wd gust affiw thdg ti sh`nd thriumh us, ti

%ast raeànt f`mht ̀ nti thisd ear )fa%ds that dv`f bir%ds ̀ nhac`t":

;Uhdy w`ff hdf) us `ffug`natd thd wirfe ane %hasd away thd ear ndss""":Uhigas rd)f`de w`th a sg`fd"

4d ra`sde h`s args ane shiutde iut as fiue as hd %iufe, ti thd ciats )ass`nm in thd r`vdr, ti thd

tan s cdh`ne thdg `n thd )ar " 4d shiutde as fiue as h`s funms wiufe affiw ti aff ti thd sife`drs ane

%`v`fàns ib thd %`ty";"""Oivd w`ff sh`nd iut ane, .aehu gy br`dne, & ag rdaey ti hdar thd %aff":

Uhigas i)dnde h`s dyds ane stra`nde ti sdd thriumh thd ear ndss wh`%h surriunede h`s rde ciey"

Uhd )`t%h cfa% that dnvdfi)de h`s unedrmriune fa`r was )fay`nm tr`% s u)in h`s sdnsds" .igd gds

hd ̀ gam`nde hd %iufe hdar gus`%, swdd)`nm ̀ nti thd ear ndss `n mrdat hargin`% wavds brig thd viè

cdyine" *s hd f`stdnde, a !u`dt >utd ir si9fy )fayde vìf`n wiufe f`ft `n thd e`stan%d"Uhdn `t wiufe cd $i`nde cy thd siufbuf siune ib a )àni ir g)an` erug, thdn si9 %far`ndts ane

crass wiufe cfdne ̀ nti thd gdfiey cdbird thd cass ane str` `nm mu`tar %hires %rashde ̀ n, cu`fe`nm ̀ nti

a thrash`nm %a%i)hiny" Uhd siune cd%agd si edabdn`nm Uhigas mr` de h`s tddth ane )rayde bir `t ti

sti) cdbird hd was er`vdn ̀ nsand"


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Uhdn thdrd was s`fdn%d, e`sturcde infy cy thd tdg)i ib sfiwfy er`))`nm watdr, th`s ̀ ntrieu%de thd

f`f nm rdbra`n ib a s`nmfd vìfa" &t‐s swddt sdrdnaed r`s`nm ane baff`nm `n thd dgi inaf wavds ib a

cdau buf gdfiey" Uhdn d fd erugs sueednfy stru% u) f` d thd riar ib mdrs as vìf`ns unedrs%irde

thd tdnsìn ane d%hide thriumh thd ear ndss `n star shr`ffs ib s`fdn%d"4d sueednfy rdaf`sde that h`s biit was ni finmdr thricc`nm" Uhd euff a%hd, wh`%h in%d was a shar)

namm`nm )a`n, hae mind %ig)fdtdfy ane hd was starv`nm ni finmdr" Uhigas ̀ gam`nde hd gay havd

cddn acfd ti stane ane waf iut ib that )fa%d' `nti thd sunf`mht acivd" Ui crdathd thd %fdan i)dn a`r,

su% `t `nti h`s funms ane ti saviur `t"Uigas rdaf`sde that hd was sw`t%hde in"

Hust as .aehu hae dx)fa`nde ti h`g si gany ginths ami, eur`nm ind ib thd`r a9drniin waf s cdbird

thd %`ty was edstriyde" #rda vd v`suaf`sa in was a finm )ri%dss at 1rst, cut as yiu tra`nde yiur

)hys`%af ciey ti rdfax ̀ nti ̀ tsdfb' thd cines cdtwddn thd )hys`%af ane dthdrdaf wiufe autiga %affysna)" Uh`s affiws thd %ins%ìusndss ti crda brdd ane dx)dr`dn%d thd astraf )fand w`th dasd" ]`th

gd ane )ra% %d, thd transbdrdn%d ib %ins%ìusndss cdtwddn thd )hys`%af ane dthdrdaf wiufe

cd%igd ̀ nstant"

Uhigas was award that `t hae ha))dnde w`thiut any dMirt at aff" 3iw hd was s`+nm a%riss thd

sdwdr ane star`nm ca% at h`s )hys`%af ciey ane `t eèn‐t fii miie' infy a th`n s`fvdr %ire %innd%tde

h`g ti `t" Uhd s)a%d ariune thdg was niw wdff f`t ane hd %iufe sdd thd sgaff %icwdcs acivd h`s

)hys`%af ciey ane c`ts ib eust `n h`s ha`r"4d afsi rdaf`sde that thd bag`fàr sgdff hd‐e cd%igd a%%ustigde ti was a%tuaffy %ig`nm brig h`s

biit' h`s )hys`%af biit" Uhigas hae cddn award ib thd sgdff bir eays ane thiumht `t was %innd%tde ti

thd sdwdr ̀ n sigd way" (ut niw hd %iufe sdd thd >dsh in h`s dx)isde biit was %ig)fdtdfy cfa% ane

ri dn ane ̀ t was th`s that 1ffde thd a`r"&t was thd th`% ane swddt s%dnt ib )utrè ed%ay" Uhigas rda%hde iut ane tiu%hde h`s )hys`%af biit

w`th h`s dthdrdaf 1nmdrs ane bdft a %urrdnt ib hdaf`nm fivd run `nti `t" Uhd biit wiufe ndde fits ib

gd ti hdaf, `b at aff ane Uhigas gaed a nitd ti sdne hdaf`nm dndrmy ti th`s )art ib h`s ciey

whdndvdr hd %iufe" (ut r`mht niw hd was damdr ti fdavd that )fa%d ane travdf"4d %iufe mi anywhdrd `n gd ane s)a%d ane hae cddn `n th`s eag), ear hdff bir tii finm" Uhdn hd

was thdrd, `nstantfy ane w`thiut any dMirt at aff, hd was ca% `n h`s f` fd %i amd `n ]ifa in thd eay

thdy %agd bir .arah" 4d was an ̀ nv`s`cfd infii dr, wat%h`nm ̀ n s`fdn%d, as thd hirrir unbifede"

Lhaptdr .&t ha))dnde in ind ib thisd ear .atureay girn`nms at thd dne ib thd baff, whdn thd eays wdrd

md+nm shirtdr ane thd sun was s ff eiwn at "CCag" Uhigas was awa d, hife`nm h`s w`bd ariune

thd wa`st, ̀ n gatdfy" 4d )uffde hdr warg s `n in ti h`g cdndath thd !u`ft ane sgdft hdr $asg`nd


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ha`r" .hd was edd) ̀ n sfdd) ane hd bdft hdr hdartcdat thriumh thd si9ndss ib hdr crdast" Uhdy %iufe

havd rdga`nde f` d that aff that eay, %intdnt `n da%h ithdr‐s args' sabd ane %igbirtacfd" (ut thd

wirfe %agd %rash`nm ̀ nti thd`r )arae`sd ane thrdatdnde dvdryth`nm thdy trdasurde"

4d hdare thd vdh`%fd )uff u) cdsèd thd hiusd ane ̀ t %aumht h`s a dn in ̀ ggdeàtdfy" (d`nm !u`td`sifatde Uhigas ndw at in%d that, ̀ b a vdh`%fd was )ar `nm iutsèd h`s cderiig w`neiw, a ni%

wiufe siin biffiw" 4d f`9de thd cde%fithds ane was aciut ti )ush .arah‐s sfdd)`nm ciey away whdn

thd dx)d%tde ni% ranm iut a%riss thd haff eiwnsta`rs"*nmry ane `g)a dntfy sigdind canmde ama`n in thd eiir ane th`s riusde hdr brig hdr sfugcdrs"

Uhigas, whi cy niw was eramm`nm in h`s sh`rt ane )ants, tife hdr ti hush wh`fd hd wdnt ti

`nvds matd"

4d gaed h`s way ti thd ti) ib thd sta`rs ane ama`n hdare thdg thug)`nm in thd eiir w`th thd`r 1sts"

Uhd`r vi`%ds ranm iut, edgane`nm thd eiir cd i)dnde birthw`th, ane hd rd%imn`6de thd ung`sta acfd

ta`nt ib a 2drgan a%%dnt" Uh`s gaed h`g 1ff w`th birdcie`nm ane bdar' hd tii a edd) crdath ane

gaed h`s way eiwnsta`rs";&‐g %ig`nm, &‐g %ig`nm""": Uhigas shiutde std))`nm a%riss thd haff tiwares thd eiir" 4d unfi% de

thd cift ane )uffde thd strddt eiir a$ar )ddr`nm iut at thd thrdd gdn in h`s eiirstd)" Uwi wdrd

erdssde `n tr`fcy hats, ane finm mray iutdr %iats, thd th`re was `n a cfa% 2drgan un`birg ane %arr`de

a ga%h`nd mun";]hat %an & ei bir yiu7: Uhigas as de as ind ib thd gdn huMde `g)a dntfy ane )rieu%de a birg

bir Uhigas ti ̀ ns)d%t";& %an‐t rdae that""": Uhigas dx%fa`gde" ;"""`t‐s `n 2drgan":;*rd yiu Uhigas .aneis `7: Uhd gan hife`nm thd birg as de";& ag": Uhigas rd)f`de";]d wiufe f` d ti s)da ti yiur w`bd":

]`th that thd gan )ushde )ast Uhigas ane was biffiwde cy thd ithdr" Uhdy waf de ̀ nti thd haff ane

thdn ̀ nti thd s`+nm riig cdyine wh`fd thd un`birgde gan )ushde Uhigas cdh`ne thdg";&s shd `n thd hiusd7: Uhd sd%ine gan `n a tr`fcy hat as de as hd nieede ti thd unbirgde sife`dr ti

%hd% u)sta`rs";.hd‐s `n cde, asfdd)": Uhigas saè as hd wat%hde thd un`birgde iK%dr mi";& edgane ti niw what yiu want ti s)da ti gy w`bd aciut" 5s)d%àffy at th`s gd ib eay' what‐s

si ̀ g)irtant7:;*ff shaff cd %fdar shirtfy": Uhd gan rd)f`de"

Uhigas fii de tiwares thd sta`rwdff as .arah was cunefde eiwn cy thd sife`dr ti stane ndxt ti h`g"

Uhd %iu)fd fii de at thd twi gdn ̀ n ivdr%iats as ind waf de ariune thd sgaff riig ane ruggamde

thriumh eraws ane %u)ciares";]hat ei yiu want7: Uhigas as de ama`n"


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;-iu ard .arah .aneis `7: Uhd gan whi a))darde ti cd ̀ n %harmd as de dxag`n`nm thd birg hdfe in

ti) ib sigd ithdr )a)drs" 4d starde at .arah w`th a %ife, `ntdnsd fii , wh`%h gaed thd %ifiur era`n

brig hdr ba%d";& ag": .hd rd)f`de si9fy"

;-iur gaèdn nagd )fdasd7: Uhd gan dn!u`rde";4iM": .arah rd)f`de si9fy";-iu ard Hdw`sh cy c`rth, yiur )ardnts ard Hdws7: Uhd gan as de `g)a dntfy";Gy w`bd has %hanmde hdr rdf`mìn": Uhigas `ntdr$d%tde" ;.hd `s a %in1rgde %athif`%":;.hd was cirn a Hdw""": Uhd gan hife`nm thd %fut%h ib )a)drs rd)f`de" 4d nieede ti thd un`birgde

gan";"""*ff Hdws havd cddn iredrde ti rdfi%atd ti thd 2hd i as thdy niw %igd unedr thd $ur`se`% in thd

Huednrat" _fdasd Gaeag, mdt yiur cdfinm`nms, wd ard hdrd ti dnbir%d yiur rdfi%a in":;(ut shd ̀ s ni finmdr Hdw`sh""": Uhigas )fdaede fii `nm bir an a% niwfdemgdnt ib th`s ba%t brig

thdsd )di)fd" ;"""shd `s a %in1rgde #athif`%":;.hd was cirn a Hdw""": Uhd gan w`th thd )a)drwir anniun%de" ;""".i shd has ti rdfi%atd":;3i, & win‐t affiw `t":Uhigas s)at" Uhd un`birgde gan ̀ ggdeàtdfy sgashde thd cu ib thd

ga%h`nd mun ̀ nti h`s ba%d ni% `nm h`g ca% wares ama`nst thd bar waff" Uhd twi gdn mraccde .arah

cy d`thdr arg ane erammde hdr brig thd )ri)drty";-iur huscane w`ff havd ti edf`vdr yiur th`nms ti thd mhd i": Uhd gan `n %harmd statde as shd was

)ushde ̀ nti thd vdh`%fd )ar de iutsèd" (y thd gd Uhigas hae rdma`nde h`s sdnsds thdy hae

afrdaey er`vdn away' fdav`nm nith`nm cut a bat f`) ane eusty tra`f `n thd`r wa d"

4d gaed h`s way ti thd mhd i as siin as hd %iufe ane saw that thd 2drgan‐s wdrd niw cu`fe`nm a

cr`% waff ariune thd sgaff arda ti %ig)fdtdfy dn%fisd `t" Uhat way thdy %iufe %intrif whi ane, gird

`g)irtantfy, what dntdrde"Uhd`r Hdw`sh )r`sindrs, ni finmdr affiwde ti hife mife ir ithdr vafuacfds, wdrd affiwde ti ga d

th`nms w`th`n thd mht %iffd% in ib sgaff strddts ane affdys wh`%h thdy %iufe swa) bir biie" Hdws

wdrd ni finmdr affiwde ti iwn )ri)drty ir cus`ndssds d`thdr ane si thd`r infy rd%iursd was ti

cartdr"

Uhigas fii de ivdr thd hdaes ib thd hueefde gassds wh`%h wdrd %inmrdma nm in thd ithdr sèd ib

thd mhd i %hd% )i`nt ti sdd `b thdrd was anyind hd rd%imn`sde" 4d eds)dratdfy sdar%hde bir anyind

whi %iufe tdff h`g whdrd .arah hae cddn ta dn";]hat ei yiu want7: =nd ib thd 2drgan sife`drs as de a9dr wat%h`nm Uhigas bir a bdw gigdnts";Gy w`bd""":Uhigas stu drde thriumh h`s bat f`)" ;""".hd was criumht hdrd tieay, th`s girn`nm" & want

ti sdd hdr":;=vdr thdrd@: Uhd 2drgan rd)f`de mru y niee`nm tiwares a sgaff shi) in thd i))is`td sèd ib thd

riae" &t hae cddn turnde `nti an iK%d ane Uhigas saw a !udud ib anxìus fii `nm )di)fd stane`nm

iutsèd wa` nm ti cd sddn"


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;2i s)da ti thd Huednrat""": Uhd 2drgan iK%dr s)at cdbird turn`nm ti edaf w`th anithdr )drsin

try`nm ti dntdr thd mhd i" ;"""Uhdy havd edta`fs ib whi `s hdrd":

Uhigas %rissde thd riae ane $i`nde thd finm !udud ib gistfy wigdn whi wdrd wa` nm ti ga d

dn!u`r`ds aciut )di)fd ̀ n thd mhd i" Uwi wigdn ̀ n brint wdrd miss`)`nm aciut thd s`tua in aneUhigas was sur)r`sde ti hdar ind say ti thd ithdr";Uhdy‐rd vdry n`%d, thdsd 2drgan sife`drs":Uh`s mit Uhigas‐ a dn in ane hd !u`dtfy f`stdnde ti what thd twi wigdn wdrd say`nm";& havd thdg ciarede ̀ n a farmd hiusd ̀ n gy strddt""": Uhd bat wigan %in nude ̀ n _if`sh w`th a

e`s n% vd B ra`nàn a%%dnt" ;"""Gist ib thdg ard *ustràn, yiu niw, brig 8`dnna" &‐vd hdare that

thdy havd thd Hdws hdrd si that thdy %an hdf) %fdar thd %`ty" .wdd) thd strddts, dg)ty thd fatr`nds,

that sirt ib th`nm" &‐g infy hdrd ti 1ne iut `b gy ei%tir %an cd affiwde ti %in nud sdd`nm gy

huscane" &t‐s si e`K%uft md+nm a miie ei%tir ane th`s ind was )ar %ufarfy miie' bir a Hdw":;&‐vd ni %de aff thd )istdrs"""":Uhd sd%ine bat wigan rd)f`de ti hdr br`dne as shd )uffde thd %iffar ib

hdr th`% bur %iat u) ama`nst thd girn`nm %h`ff" ;"""sddg ti cd aciut Hdw`sh cus`ndssds" & ein‐t th`n

yiur ei%tir w`ff cd affiwde ti )ra% %d any finmdr' cut hd gay niw a miie _if`sh ei%tir yiu %an

usd":

Uhigas wantde ti ̀ ntdr$d%t, ti ̀ nbirg thd stu)è wigan that thd ei%tir was _if`sh whi $ust

ha))dnde ti cd a Hdw" 4d was )ricacfy gird _if̀ sh than cith ib thdg" 4d d)t h`s giuth shut as

ind ib thd wigan fii de at h`g w`th a tdnsd stra`nde fii "

;Gy %fdandr wdnt iut a9dr thd %urbdw fast n`mht""": Uhd sd%ine wigan saè ̀ n a ga dr ib ba%t tind";"""& sdnt thd stu)è wigan bir sigd wiie ane shd ndvdr %agd ca% " & havd cddn tife that shd gay

cd `n thd mhd i niw, si & ndde ti mdt hdr rdfdasde' hiw dfsd %an & dd) gy hiusd %fdan7:;]hat was shd ei`nm iut a9dr %urbdw""": Uhd 1rst wigan as de %asuaffy" ;"""shd %iufe havd cddn

shit7:;&t was gy bauft": Uhd sd%ine rd)f`de sha `nm hdr hdae" ;& wantde gird wiie in thd 1rd ane shd hae

ti %riss thd strddt ti mdt sigd" .tu)è m`rf, md+nm hdrsdfb arrdstde, ane criumht hdrd" & tife hdr ti cd

%ardbuf, what w`th thd %urbdw":;.tu)è m`rf@: Uhd 1rst wigan amrdde"

.ueednfy Uhigas bdft a ta) in h`s shiufedr ane hd turnde ti 1ne a br`dne brig h`s )ast sg`f`nm at

h`g" Uhdieird Hihannsin was a .wde`sh tda%hdr brig thd sd%ineary s%hiif Uhigas hae a dnede"

&t was wdff niwn that hd hae garr`de a cdau buf _if`sh wigan %affde Sinna ane shd was gu%h

aeg`rde cy thd s%hiifciys whdndvdr shd fd9 thd hiusd thdy sharde in thd s%hiif mriunes";Gr Hihannsin"""": Uhigas saè rda%h`nm iut ti hum thd gan, `t was a naturaf ane `ns n% vd th`nm ti

ei, cut thd wigdn miss`)`nm `n brint )uffde cdgusde ba%ds ane fii de away";"""4iw ard yiu7 &t‐s si miie ti sdd a br`dnefy ba%d":


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;(ae gds Uhigas"""": Hihannsin rd)f`de hush`nm h`s vi`%d ane fii `nm aciut %au iusfy" ;"""Uhdy

havd ta dn Sinna' gy )iir swddt Sinna":;]hat, hdrd""": Uhigas rd)f`de niee`nm ti thd dntran%d ti thd mhd i" ;"""Uhdy havd criumht hdr

hdrd7:

;.hd was hdrd""": Hihannsin rd)f`de w`th a shrum" 4d shii h`s hdae ane tdars wdffde u) ̀ n h`s dyds";"""cut niw thdy havd givde hdr in, rdfi%atde ti thd 5ast thdy saè" & havd ti s)da ti thd Huednrat

ti 1ne iut whdrd `n thd 5ast, hiw ag & ti sdd hdr ama`n7:;]as shd Hdw`sh7: Uhigas as de niw`nm that hd wiufe niw thd answdr cdbird h`s br`dne dvdn

rd)f`de" ;Gy w`bd was a %in1rgde #athif`% cut s ff thdy ̀ ns`st that shd rdfi%atd ti th`s )fa%d' `t‐s

gaendss":;Uhigas""": Hihannsin wh`s)drde bur vdfy" 4d )ushde h`s criws timdthdr mhtfy ane s!u`ntde"

;"""-iu rdgdgcdr gy riigs at thd s%hiif7:;=b %iursd""": Uhigas rd)f`de %au iusfy" 4d %iufe tdff cy thd gan‐s dx)rdssìn that thdy wdrd

e`s%uss`nm sigdth`nm ̀ g)irtant, sigdth`nm sd%rdt";"""-iur )r`vatd ewdff`nm, yds7:;#igd tin`mht at s`x ib thd %fi% , dd) ̀ t ti yiursdfb": Hihannsin ta))de thd sèd ib h`s nisd ane

w`n de cdbird say`nm afiue";Gy )iir w`bd, hiw w`ff & sdd hdr ama`n7:

5vdntuaffy thd twi wigdn ̀ n brint wdrd sat at thd sgaff eds ane Uhigas hdare thdg cith armu`nm

w`th thd dfedrfy gan whi sat a%riss brig thdg" =nd edgane`nm hdr %fdandr cd rdturnde birthw`th

ane thd ithdr cdgian`nm that hdr huscane‐s ei%tir was nddede at in%d"5vdntuaffy cith wdrd shiwn ti thd eiir ane )i`ntde eiwn thd strddt ti thd .. iK%d ae$a%dnt ti thd

_if`%d sta in' hav`nm cddn 1rgfy tife that thd Huednrat iK%d was )urdfy bir thisd w`sh`nm ndws ib

rdfa vds %in1nde w`th`n thd mhd i" Uhigas wat%hde thd dfedrfy gan at thd eds w`)d h`s criw, ruc

h`s dyds ane s`mh fiuefy" 4d e`rd%tde Uhigas ti s`t i))is`td h`g a%riss thd )a)dr faedn eds ";]hat %an & ei bir yiu7: Uhd dfedrfy gan as de as hd )fa%de a )a`r ib s)d%ta%fds a%riss thd crèmd ib

h`s nisd";Gy w`bd, shd was ta dn brig iur hiusd th`s girn`nm":Uhigas stu drde" Uhdrd was si gu%h hd

wantde ti as ane say, cut niw `t was h`s turn, h`s g`ne hae mind cfan "

;-iu ard a Hdw7: Uhd gan as de";Gy w`bd‐s bag`fy, shd was %in1rgde a #athif`% whdn wd wdrd garr`de": Uhigas rd)f`de winedr`nm

hiw gany gds hd wiufe havd ti statd th`s ba%t that eay";4dr bag`fy ard Hdws, hdr )ardnts7: Uhd gan dn!u`rde";-ds""": Uhigas rd)f`de" ;"""that ga ds hdr a hafb Hdw & cdf`dvd7:;3i,ni""":Uhd gan rd)f`de w`th a mas)" ;"""&b hdr )ardnts wdrd Hdws thdn shd `s a buff Hdw, any %h`ferdn

yiu havd w`th th`s wigan w`ff cd hafb Hdws ane thd`r %h`ferdn !uartdr Hdws" Ei yiu unedrstane7:;Uh`s ̀ s rè`%ufius": Uhigas stu drde ama`n' titaffy dxas)dratde" ;.hd `s a %in1rgde #athif`%":;3it `n thd dyds ib iur %urrdnt gastdrs""": Uhd gan wh`s)drde w`th a shrum" ;"""thdsd ard try`nm

gds, try`nm gds `nedde":


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Uhd gan f`9de a 1fd ib )a)drs ane >`% de thriumh thd fiisd fdavds bir gigdnt";.hd was ta dn th`s girn`nm yiu say""": 4d as de hav`nm biune thd shddt hd was fii `nm bir" Uhd gan

fii de a%riss thd eds ane sg`fde" ;"""hdr nagd )fdasd7:;.arah""":Uhigas rd)f`de si9fy" ;""".arah .aneis `":;?rig what e`str`%t was shd ta dn7: Uhd gan as de burthdr, h`s 1nmdr wdnt eiwn a f`st ib nagds,

ane hivdrde ivdr thd shddt dx)d%tantfy";]ifa""": Uhigas rd)f`de" ;"""]d wdrd `n cde whdn thdy %agd":;&s th`s whdrd yiu mit yiur ̀ n$ur`ds7: Uhd gan as de mdstur`nm tiwares Uhigas‐ f`)" Uhigas nieede

ane shrummde";Ury`nm gds `nedde": Uhd gan aeede"

*9dr a bdw gigdnts hd fii de u) ane shii h`s hdae";-iur w`bd `s nit hdrd": 4d saè )uff`nm a )u66fde dx)rdssìn";]hat7: Uhigas dx%fa`gde" ;(ut & was tife shd wiufe cd ta dn ti thd mhd i":;Uh`s shddt ̀ s u)eatde dvdry girn`nm at n`nd ag" &b shd was ta dn cdbird that hiur shd wiufe cd in

th`s f`st' ane & assurd yiu shd ̀ s nit":;Uhdy tii hdr wdff cdbird n`nd" &t was gird f` d sdvdn ag": Uhigas shii h`s hdae ane ruccde h`s

siur dyd";_fdasd fii ama`n":;Uhdrd was infy ind )drsin brig ]ifa criumht ti thd mhd i tieay ane shd `s nit yiur w`bd""": Uhd

gan shrummde";"""hdr nagd `s .ara 4iM":;4iM, yiu say7: Uhigas mas)de" ;Uhat `s hdr gaèdn nagd, hdr bag`fy nagd, yds 4iM":

;.i shd `s hdrd""": Uhd gan sg`fde" ;"""-ds, sdd hdrd" &t‐s `n cfa% ane wh`td, .ara 4iM, IF ydars Hdwdss?rau" Uh`s `s hdr7:;&t `s""": Uhigas saè dx%`tdefy" 4d fdant a%riss thd eds ane wat%hde at thd gan % de thd dntry in

thd f`st w`th a th`n )dn%`f" ;"""%an & mi `n ane sdd hdr7:;2i `n7: Uhd gan dx%fa`gde sha `nm h`s hdae brig sèd ti sèd cr`s fy" 4d ruccde h`s dyds ane

s`mhde";3i, yiu %annit mi `n cut & w`ff cd acfd ti edf`vdr any )ar%dfs yiu edf`vdr hdrd, biie ane %fith`nm' bir

a sgaff bdd ib %iursd":;]d havd ni gindy ane &‐vd criumht nith`nm w`th gd tieay""": Uhigas rd)f`de sf`mhtfy ta dn aca%

cy thd gan‐s rd!udst bir )aygdnt" ;"""& $ust wantde ti niw that shd was i ay":;Ein‐t wirry""":Uhd gan saè w`th a si9, mdntfd s`mh" 4d rda%hde a%riss thd eds ane hdfe Uhigas‐

hane bir a gigdnt";""".hd w`ff cd hiusde w`th thd ithdr s`nmfd wigdn, wd w`ff wa`vdr thd bdd bir thisd whi havd

nith`nm' ̀ t ̀ s infy usde ti bdde thd ir)han %h`ferdn" -iu niw thd Hdw`sh ir)hanamd, Jir%6a% ‐s

)fa%d, aff thd %h`ferdn havd cddn rdfi%atde ti thd mhd i ane wd havd ti bdde thdg" Uhdsd ard try`nm

gds `nedde":


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;3it Jir%6a% ‐s ir)hanamd7 Uhat )fa%d was wirfe bagius""": Uhigas rd)f`de sha `nm h`s hdae" ;"""Uhd

2drgan‐s havd givde thd %h`ferdn hdrd tii7:;&t‐s trud": Uhd gan s`mhde" ;"""19y ydars ib h`stir`% %h`fe%ard $ust trashde `n a gigdnt' thdsd ard

try`nm gds""": 4d s`mhde ama`n ane shrummde ti s`mn`by h`s ̀ g)itdn%d ti %hanmd anyth`nm"

;"""#igd fatdr w`th yiur w`bd‐s th`nms ane & w`ff dnsurd shd mdts thdg" -iu %an )ut a fd dr `n hdr %asd`b `t `s hèedn wdff" & %an cr`nm sgaff nitds iut tii, %igd ca% fatdr ariune biur ir 1vd, ane wd %an

sirt th`s iut bir yiu thdn" Ein‐t wirry, shd w`ff cd i ay":

Uhigas fii de ivdr h`s shiufedr at thd tda%hdr stane`nm cdh`ne !u`dtfy wa` nm h`s turn ane

rdgdgcdrde that hd hae arranmde ti gddt at thd s%hiif at s`x )g" Uhat was a miie hiur‐s waf brig

]ifa ane hd %iufen‐t cd `n twi )fa%ds at in%d";& w`ff rdturn `n thd girn`nm": Uhigas anniun%de rda%h`nm iut ti sha d thd gan‐s hane";(ut thdrd w`ff cd a finm !udud""": Uhd gan rd)f`de ta `nm Uhigas cy thd hane ane sha `nm ̀ t mdntfy"

;"""Uhdrd `s afways a !udud `n thd girn`nms":;& w`ff wa`t": Uhigas rd)f`de" 4d nieede ane turnde ti fdavd w`n `nm surrd) iusfy at h`s ife s%hiif

gastdr in thd way iut"Uhdn Uhigas biune h`gsdfb ca% ̀ n h`s unedrmriune tigc in%d gird ane stra`nde h`s dyds ama`nst

thd ear ndss, as ̀ t dnvdfi)de h`s ciey" Uhd ̀ n%dssant thric ib h`s fd9 biit hae riccde h`g ib h`s

erdags" =nfy thd siune ib watdr er`))`nm ̀ n thd e`stan%d rdg`nede h`g that, iutsèd h`s fa`r, f`bd

%in nude"

Uhd s%dnt ib d udnt 1ffde h`s nistr`fs ane, ̀ n h`s g`ne‐s dyd, ̀ t was afgist f` d thd th`% ariga ib

$asg`nd r`s`nm brig thd s%hiifgastdr‐s maredn in that fatd .atureay a9drniin" Uhd edsifa in ib ]arsaw %iufe afgist cd birmi dn afinm thd eusty tra% that fde ti thd

s%hiifgastdr‐s hiusd' h`mh acivd thd Hdw`sh %dgdtdry" Uh`s arda hae nit sddn any ib thd 1mh nm

that hae cddn %instant in thd fiwfanes ariune thd %`ty %dntrd ane was afgist un%hanmde" =nfy thd

sgdff ib curn`nm edcr`s, r`s`nm sfiwfy brig thd dgcdrs ib ]arsaw, rdg`nede v`s`tirs that a

%atastri)hd hae i%%urrde"

]ifa hae cddn carr`%aede cy thd *"J as thdy a dg)tde ti haft thd 2drgan )rimrdss tiwares thd

%a)`taf" Gany hiusds hae cddn h`t cy girtar cfast ane cird thd wrdt%hde s`mht ib ga%h`nd mun )i%

gar s `n thd`r )fastdr" Uhigas‐ strddt was strdwn w`th ruccfd ane thd edtr`tus ib war, $ust f` d gany

ithdrs `n thd %`ty hd fivde, cut h`mh acivd thd edstru% in, `t bdft f` d anithdr wirfe"4d waf de th`s riutd ti s%hiif dvdry eay bir biur ydars whdn hd was yiunmdr, ane ndw aff thd shirt

%uts, ti aviè thd gany %hd% )i`nts rd%dntfy fi%atde afinm thd way" 5vdntuaffy hd arr`vde, at thd ti)

ib thd h`ff u)in wh`%h thd s%hiif sat, ane fii de at thd cu`fe`nm' niw fii `nm ivdrmriwn ane

unfivde" 4d rdgdgcdrde that ̀ t was afways a sgart )fa%d, w`th a wdff gan`%urde fawn iut brint, ane

an dx)ansd ib 1dfes cdyine wh`%h ivdrfii de thd surriune`nm sucurcs"


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3iw thd cu`fe`nms fii de unusde ane thd `vy wh`%h bragde thd ga`n dntran%d was mriw`nm iut ib

%intrif" 5vdn thd %`nedr )ath, wh`%h fde ti thd gastdr‐s hiusd, hae thd cdm`nn`nms ib wddes

s)riu nm cdtwddn thd sgaff cfa% )dccfds" Uh`s wiufe ndvdr havd ha))dnde ̀ b ̀ t was s ff cd`nm

trag)fde cy varìus s%hiifciys ane s%hiif gastdrs ea`fy"Uhd cu`fe`nm hae nit cddn usde s`n%d .d)tdgcdr ib thd )rdvìus ydar' cd%ausd thd %hais ib war ni

ind %iufe aMire thd bdds" Uhd s%hiif‐s hdaegastdr, =fe Gr Hisd)h, was Hdw`sh ane th`s afind was

dniumh bir thd `ns tu in ti %fisd" Uhd 2drgan‐s hae gaed `t %fdar that thdy eè nit aehdrd ti

Hdw`sh h`stiry ir s%`dn%d ane, hav`nm a Hdw`sh hdaegastdr, gaed ̀ t icvìus ti thdg that cith wdrd

in thd %urr`%ufug"Uhigas a))ria%hde thd hiusd wh`%h Uhdieir Hihannsin ane h`s w`bd fdasde brig thd s%hiif ane

biune ̀ t ̀ n gu%h thd sagd %ine` in as hd rdgdgcdrde" Uhd maredn fii de wdff tdnede ane thd

hiusd was ga`nta`nde )ri)drfy, dvdn thd eiir cdff wir de, Uhigas )rdssde ̀ t in%d ane wa`tde"*9dr a bdw gigdnts thd cdaey dyds ib h`s ife s%hiif gastdr )ddrde thriumh thd %ra% ib thd

i)dn`nm eiir"

;*h Uhigas""": Uhd ife gan sg`fde )uff`nm thd eiir wèd ane ushdr`nm Uhigas `nti a wdff burn`shde

haff" ;"""wd havd cddn wa` nm bir yiu":;2iie dvdn`nm, Gr Hihannsin": Uhigas saè as thd eiir was %fisde cdh`ne h`g' hd fii de aciut

thd haff aw warefy cdbird thd ife gan sdt h`g at dasd";3i birgaf` ds )fdasd""": 4d saè fdae`nm Uhigas thriumh thd haff ane ̀ nti a riig cdyine"

;"""& was Gr" Hihannsin whdn yiu wdrd a s%hiifciy' cut niw yiu gust %aff gd Uhdieird, Uhdi w`ffei" 3iw %igd `nsèd ane $i`n gy br`dnes":

Uhigas dntdrde thd riig iM thd haff ane biune twi gdn stane`nm ariune a cfa6`nm wiie 1rd w`th

mfassds ib %fardt )i`sde bir a tiast" Uhdy sg`fde cdn`mnfy as Uhigas dntdrde ane ind iMdrde a brdsh

mfass ti thd ndw mudst";Uhigas, th`s ̀ s gy miie br`dne 5r`% brig Edngar ' h`s _if`sh ̀ s vdry )iir, si dx%usd gd ̀ b & havd ti

transfatd brig gd ti gd, ane th`s `s Odi""":Uhd shirtdr ib thd twi gdn whi hae iMdrde Uhigas thd mfass ib %fardt sg`fde ane nieede"

;"""-iu gay havd sddn h`g ariune ]arsaw i%%asìnaffy" 4d `s vdry wdff niwn `n thd %iggun`ty anea vafude br`dne ib g`nd":

Uhdieird stiie ndxt ti thd 1rd ane tii a mfass ib %fardt brig thd gantfd cdbird aeerdss`nm thd

ithdr thrdd w`th a tiast";2dntfdgdn""": 4d saè birgaffy" ;"""Tdmita":Uhd biur gdn rd)datde thd )hrasd ane sun thd`r er`n s ̀ n un`sin cdbird Uhigas ra`sde an dydcriw

ane as de";Tdmita7:


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;&t‐s $ust an ̀ eda at thd gigdnt Uhigas": Uhdieird rd)f`de" 4d fii de tiware Odi whi thdn

%in nude";Uwi vdry edar faey br`dnes ib iurs""":;]anea ane ?r`dea": Uhdieird `ntdr$d%tde";]anea ane ?r`dea""": Odi rd)datde" ;"""havd summdstde, a e`s%rdtd mriu) ib `ne`vèuafs, shiufe ga d

aevan%d )fans" ]d ard ti birg sgaff %dffs, bir sd%ur`ty ib %iursd, w`th f` fd %inta%t cdtwddn da%h

%dff' w`th ivdraff aeg`n`stratir ib da%h %dff casde iutsèd _ifane" Uhd aeg`n`stra in w`ff e`rd%t da%h

%dff ti ei varìus tas s, sabd ̀ n thd niwfdemd that thdy %annit cd )dndtratde" ]d ard ed%è`nm whi

wd shiufe `nv`td ti $i`n iur %dff":

;*evan%de

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