Introduction to the Importance of God's Word in Our Life

Meaning Every Word Said by the Lord in the Holy Bible

It is a Message Offered by The Virgin Mary and it is the

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One day I saw Virgin Mary again in a vision as if I was already in

her house or in the place where she was in the paradise. This

happened when I was in a retreat for one year as I did not leave

home at all. I was as if really dead and my spirit was there. The

Virgin Mary remained talking to me for a long period, may be for

days. Her talk was exactly the following, as God gave me to

remember every word of hers:

My son, the Holy Bible says:

"Stand in the ways and see… Where the good way is, and

walk in it; Then you will find rest for your

souls" (Jeremiah 6:16)

The Holy Bible is a message from God to every human being.

Every word in it gives life to man. He is the way Himself. I mean

that whoever wants to reach God must walk in this way which is

His words. This means that every word of God's words is a

step on the way that we have to live if we want to reach God

at the end. So, we should first of all be interested in and seek to

understand the meaning of every written word as it is written,

"Only let your conduct be worthy of the

gospel of Christ" (Philippians 1:27). This means that these

words are an obligation from God put upon us to live every word

as a true practical life. The word only means that indeed every

word is written neither to clarify a concept nor to open the mind

on a case but it is an action, a struggle and a work that man must

do. It also means that God explains in His entire book the way i.e.

how to reach Him as a practical life. I mean what we need to do

in steps to reach perfection. The more we live each word the more

we get close to God because every word is a step on the way.

That is why the more we live every word the more we get close to

God and thus we obtain more life in Him. Therefore, God told us,

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"Man shall live by every word that proceeds from

the mouth of God" (Matthew4:4). God's word is the lamp for

the way. Without understanding every word we will be like blind

people who cannot see as it is written, "Your word is a lamp to

my feet and a light to my path" (Psalms 119:105). When man

lives every word he then takes a step on the way i.e. he gets closer

to God to restore Adam's image. Therefore, he is born of water. I

mean he becomes pure. This means that every word in the Bible

will give the true birth to man after death in which we were born

and which is the captivity. It is written, "Of His own will He

brought us forth by the word of truth" (James 1:18). It is also

written, "Having been born again, not of corruptible seed but

incorruptible, through the word of God" (1 Peter 1:3, 23). Every

word written by God is spirit and life that God is capable to plant

in us as a seed that when dies and becomes buried will bring true

fruits at the end of a long path. Of course this happens in one

condition which is the availability of the prerequisites of

agriculture. God wants us just to desire. He will open our minds

to teach us the meaning of every word. We will then know what

to do to live His words. The matter is absolutely dependant on

man's will as it is also written, "Receive with meekness the

implanted word, which is able to save your souls" (James 1:21).

Whoever keeps asking God to reach Him will keep asking about

the meaning of every word as it is written, "Holding fast the

word of life" (Philippians 2:16). This will only happen when we

trust that every word indeed gives life to man. Therefore, the

Lord said, "The words that I speak to you are spirit, and

they are life" (John2:63). When we realize and understand

every word, it will also be armor for us. No one can shake us or

distract us from the way because we understand the word as it is

written, "Therefore take up the whole armor of God … and the

sword of the Spirit which is the word of God" (Ephesians

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6:13, 17). Of course this will happen after God plants within us

His word by Himself because He promised us saying, "Every

plant which My heavenly Father has planted no one can uproot

and every plant which My heavenly Father has not planted will be

uprooted" (Matthew15:13). It is also written, "For no other

foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is

Jesus Christ" (1 Corinthians 3:11) which is God when He came in

the image of man and lived every word by Himself. That is why

Jesus life became the foundation and the only way that leads

to God. This means that whoever realizes that Jesus life is the

image that God wants us to be in and to reach and which God

created us to take, then Jesus life will be the purpose that he must

seek to live and to accomplish in order to reach Him. I mean he

has to walk just as Jesus walked. Also, He is the foundation i.e.

the corner stone by which man can start building the temple of

the Spirit of God which is he himself. I mean he will start walk

just as Jesus walked. Likewise Noah built the ark which was a

symbol of Jesus life i.e. the struggle that the Lord went through

and not, as some thought, that the ark is the symbol of Jesus.

When Noah started building the ark this was a symbol of a man

who started to walk just like Jesus walked so that when he

finished its building with full struggle he was saved because he

entered the ark. The same happens with the struggle of man,

which likens the Lord's struggle i.e. in the likeness of the Lord's

death, as the Spirit of God will start to be born in him and to

grow little by little until He is fully developed within him. Thus

the nature of the flesh and its captivity will absolutely die and he

will then become one of God's members. Therefore, Jesus

practical life will be the way i.e. the manner that brings us to God,

the foundation and the corner stone without which nobody

would be able even to start building to reach this image. The

corner stone is the foundation of building any house. If

God puts this foundation in our life as the corner stone by

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supporting us along the way then even if rains fall, winds blow

and floods come they will not be able to shake or destroy it as it is

founded on this rock that God himself established and planted

within us.

The Holy Bible is God's word i.e. the way itself, the way's

practical steps that lead any man to God if he lives every word in

the Bible. Therefore, one has to understand every word in order

to live and to reach God. The Bible is God's words that explain to

us how to reach Him and it is divided into three parts:

is the Old Testament which explains the way

as a life with symbols. For example in pharaoh's dream and

Joseph's advice to him to store up one fifth of the produce of the

land to save the world (Genesis 41:34) the Lord explains to us the

way through making the sense of taste fast. He showed us,

through a live story, that if we do not stop get satiety through one

of the five senses we will become hungry exactly like if Joseph

would not store up one fifth of the grain the entire people would

be hungry in the years of famine. He also showed us that when

someone starts his walk on the way, the flesh will fight him

exactly like what happened with Rebekah when she conceived

and the two children struggled together within her and a conflict

for forty years started between Esau, who symbolizes man's flesh,

and Jacob, who symbolizes the Spirit of God who started to be

present within man (Genesis 25:22). As for Rebekah, she

symbolizes man's soul and mind. Without this story which

happened in reality the spiritual matters that happen in man's

life would not be clarified in such a way. God wanted to show us

what happens in spiritual life through a live story to make

clearer the spiritual matters that happen in the life of the one

who starts to struggle. When we read the conflict between Jacob

and Esau for forty years we can understand more and more what

happens in our spiritual life and the struggle that will be initiated

by the flesh when one starts prayer and fasting. It also makes us

see very clearly the spiritual matters in the form of live life in

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Praying with a dead slain flesh is the only way through which man

can make God touch him

order to increase our understanding of what will happen with us

with full precision.

We see that when Jacob sought to obtain the blessing he

symbolized man's pursuit to reach God and get closer to Him.

Rebekah in this situation symbolized the Spirit of God who had

grown up in the man who wanted to obtain God. The Spirit of

God (Rebekah) then guided this soul to slay the two goats

(Genesis 27:9) which represent the death of the flesh and ego so

that through them man puts the skins of the dead slain animal

(Genesis 27:16) on his hands and neck. Without doing this, man

would not be able to approach God and obtain the blessing i.e.

the promise of obtaining satiety from God's good forever. The

skin of the dead slain animal put on the smooth-skinned hands

is the flesh that had been slain and through which man was able

to effect a connection between him and God, i.e. he was able to

touch God. Therefore, Jacob would not be able to obtain Isaac's

blessing without putting the skin of a dead slain animal on his

hands. Thus, God was able through this realistic story to show us

clearly this truth:

The skin of a dead slain animal put on the smooth-skinned hands

is the symbol of a man who crucified his flesh, started to lift up

his hands to God and to really touch Him. This skin represents

the slain body [the first goat] that had been crucified with Christ.

When one lifts up his hands in prayers he starts to touch God and

God starts to touch him like when Isaac blessed Jacob as soon as

he touched his hairy hands saying, "The hands are the hands of

Esau" i.e. the hands of the carnal man who crucified this flesh and

started to connect with God. It seems in the story that Isaac loved

Esau more than Jacob although Esau was one with Jacob as Esau

represented the flesh of this soul. God wants to tell us that He

wants the hairy hands of Esau, i.e. He wants us to struggle and

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pray with this carnal flesh after we slain and crucify it, "Even

though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being

renewed day by day" (2 Corinthians 4:16), "For he who has suffered in

the flesh has ceased from sin" (1 Peter 4:1) and "he who is absent

from the body is present with the Lord" (2 Corinthians 5:8).

As for the skin of the dead slain animal put on the smooth-

skinned part of the neck of Jacob, who had of course to bow

before his father to allow him to touch it, is the soul who bowed,

humbled and mortified herself before God [the second slain

goat]. Only through death and slaying the second goat, which is

mortifying the ego, one can touch God, i.e. can make God touch

him. Without putting the skin of the dead goat Jacob would not

be able to obtain the blessing from his father who symbolizes

God. The one who does not slay his flesh and his ego can neither

get closer to God nor make God touch him even in the beginning

of his struggle, i.e. even if his flesh did not completely die. But if

man just starts to struggle he will start to touch God because

Isaac said, "The voice is Jacob's voice, but the hands are

the hands of Esau (i.e. the flesh is the flesh of Esau)". This

means that the flesh did not yet die completely and it was still

alive but the inner voice Isaac heard was Jacob's voice meaning

that although one did not die completely in flesh yet the Spirit of

God [Jacob's voice] started to talk, grow and live within him.

Isaac blessed him exactly like God who blesses all those who

begin slaying their flesh and ego and He will then touch them. At

the end of the struggle of Esau and Jacob they met each other.

This is a symbol of ending the enmity between the flesh and the

spirit. The flesh will no more resist man [i.e. the Spirit of God

who dwelled within that man]. This assures that our old man had

been crucified, that the body of sin had been done away with,

that the captivity had died and that we have died to what we

were held by. Therefore after the desires, authority and hunger

of the body died it was not able to fight anymore against man.

God showed us this through a live life like the acceptance of

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Jacob by Esau in order for us to realize and get insight in what

happens in a very clear way.

Without this story that God mentioned in His Bible man would

not be able to clearly realize what happens in real life. God was

explaining to us the way in the Old Testament through these

stories. What is then the benefit lying behind knowing events that

happened thousands of years before?!! Most probably they seem

to have no meaning or spiritual benefit like for example the story

of Lot marrying his two daughters!!! The one who does not

understand the spiritual meaning of this story becomes most

probably ashamed to read this chapter (Genesis 19) although it is

one of the deepest lessons and meanings God wants us to know,

i.e. being born of water [Lot marrying his first daughter] and

being born of the Spirit [Lot marrying his second daughter]!!

Without wine the two daughters would not be able to lie with

their father. The same happens with man who without God's love

and attraction cannot be saved, "No one can come to Me unless the

Father who sent Me draws him" (John 6:44). And as the two

daughters lied with their father by cunning, God does the same

as He said, "Being crafty, I caught you by cunning" (2 Corinthians

12:16).

That is how Rachel was able to steal the idols (Genesis 31:32) and

Jacob did not know. The same happens with the Spirit of God

[who is born within us and unites with us]. He put to death every

slavery present within us and every worship to anything in the

world and we do not know how this happens like what the Lord

told us, "The kingdom of God is as if a man should scatter seed on the

ground and should sleep by night and rise by day and the seed should

sprout and grow, he himself does not know how" (Mark 4:26-

27). In fact God works in us in order to make us will (Philippians

2:13) and He draws us to Himself because He has need of us

(Luke 19: 31) like what He said to his two disciples when He sent

them to bring the tied colt. This colt represents every man born in

captivity. God does this out of His great infinite love because we

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The Second Part

The Third Part

are in fact members of His body as it is written, "For by grace

you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the

gift of God" (Ephesians 2:8).

of the Holy Bible is the four Gospels that

are Christ's practical life, i.e. the way as a practical life lived by

the Lord himself. He gave us a live model and example. He used

to withdraw into the wilderness and pray. He grew and became

strong in spirit. He showed us by Himself how to struggle to

reach the likeness of God for which we have been created. He

showed us how to struggle, first to free ourselves from the

captivity in which we have been born and to be resurrected from

the death brought upon us by our sins that we commit due to our

captivity.

is the epistles which are explanation of the

way in a clear way. We are told in this part about the way as

commandments. For examples when it is said, "I have been

crucified with Christ" it is meant that we must be crucified like

Christ. It is also said, "For if we have been united together in the

likeness of His death, certainly we also shall be in the likeness of His

resurrection knowing this, that our old man was crucified with Him,

that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer

be slaves of sin. You are that one's slaves whom you obey. For he who

has died has been freed from sin. Now if we died with Christ, we believe

that we shall also live with Him. For when we were in the flesh the

sinful passions which were aroused by the law were at work with our

members to bear fruit to death. But now we have been delivered from the

law, having died to what we were held by so that we should serve in the

newness of the Spirit and not in the oldness of the letter". We are told

here frankly and clearly about the practical steps of the way and

what we should do. It is said that Christ, "suffered in the flesh

leaving us an example that we should follow His steps". We are told

everything so that we have no excuses. The Lord showed us the

way to come back to Him, i.e. the way of struggle through the

stories of the Old Testament which are symbols of the things and

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events that happen during man's struggle on the way. He

explained to us the way in the four Gospels through the life of

Christ itself Who practically lived the way. Through the epistles

He explained to us frankly in a clearer way what we must do, "If

we died with Him we shall also live with Him. Even though our

outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by

day. We do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which

are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things

which are not seen are eternal. While we are at home in the body we are

absent from the Lord. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be

absent from the body and to be present with the Lord. For our light

affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more

exceeding and eternal weight of glory". God's commandments and

advices were so clear so that no one would have an excuse.

God did not only teach the way but came and lived it

practically. That is why no one will be excused at the last day.

The Lord said, "And this is the condemnation, that the light has come

into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their

deeds were evil" (John 3:19). It was probable that God would tell us

about the way like He did with Moses or He would come and

teach us about the way. He rather came and lived the way by

Himself and this is the greatest evidence that this is a matter of

great importance. After that, God wrote for us His life on earth

which is the of the way, i.e. the manner that

brings us to salvation and perfection. Therefore, God's word is

"living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing

even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow"

(Hebrews 4:12). Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every

word that proceeds from the mouth of God. Whoever started to

get insight and to know the truth will find his constant satiety in

God's words and will even meditates in them day and night

(Psalms 1:2). Man needs continuous satiety. If he finds his

pleasure in God and His words, then His words will be sweet to

his taste as what the prophet said, "Your words were found and I ate

them. I have seen the consummation of all perfection, but Your

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commandment is exceedingly broad" (Jeremiah 15:16; Psalms 119:96).

He said that because he realized that every word is a practical life

and a step that will get him closer to God if he lives it exactly like

Christ. Man ought to understand every word and meditate in it

in order to guarantee that he will live it. As for the one who is

still in the flesh, food is still his energy and satiety. Thus he does

not find any taste, pleasure or satiety in God's word because he

grows in flesh. God has incarnated, descended to earth, lived as a

man and wrote in His book for our sake how He was living in

order to assure us that every word written in His Gospel [i.e. the

tidings He left for us] is a life that will give life to us. Therefore,

we must live every word of life as this is the way that leads us to

God. That is why God said to us, "I am the way" (John 14:6). This

means that whoever walks like the Lord will arrive [like the Lord

who arrived when He was showing us the way as a man]. He will

be completely full of God and will be in His likeness. God

showed us by Himself what is God's likeness by acquiring our

nature to Himself to assure us that we can arrive. God asked us to

reach His stature when He was in the flesh. Thus it is written, "...

to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ" (Ephesians

4:13). Christ is the image of God which God created us to be in.

He descended by Himself acquiring our same nature in order to

show us how to reach this image (i.e. the image of the Son that

God desired us to take ) and to emphasize to us that through our

weak corruptible nature that God likened us in, we can reach

perfection which is God's image. Thus He gave us a

commandment, "Look to Me and be saved" (Isaiah 45:22). Therefore

whoever wants to arrive must then ask. The practical life of

Christ is the way itself. Whoever walks in the same manner the

Lord walked and dies in the likeness of His death is thus walking

on the way i.e. he gets closer to God more and more. Also every

word in the Bible is the way. It assures us that the struggle which

the Lord struggled is the only way to obtain salvation, freedom

and resurrection. There is no other way to achieve salvation and

reach God except through the struggle and life lived by the Lord.

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It is composed of forcing oneself and struggling in fasting and

prayer which God came by Himself to show us. This means that

Christ's life is the way and that every word in the Bible is also the

way because it emphasizes that we must walk in the same

manner the Lord walked i.e. it emphasizes that struggling in

fasting and prayer is the only way to salvation and no one can

with any other mean be saved as long as no other foundation can

anyone lay than that which is laid, which is the practical life of

Jesus Christ. God incarnated not only to complete redemption but

also to fulfill another essential purpose which is to teach us the

way by Himself to free us from captivity which is the origin of

the illness. The Bible emphasized that Christ suffered in the flesh,

thus we need to arm ourselves also with the same mind. Jesus

lived death in the flesh, not only to save us but also to leave us an

example that we should follow His steps. The Lord everlasting

promise is incline your ear, and come to Me. Hear and your soul

shall live as I am the way, the truth and the life.

Let us leave not the barley in the head lest it would be struck

(Exodus 9:31).But let us work with all our power to measure six

ephahs of barley from our God, our Honor (Ruth 3:15) so that we

go up with the Lord after six days (Mark 9:2) to be glorified with

Him; to fill our six water pots with water so that God transforms

our tasteless nature into true wine (John 2:7); to be captured by

His beauty and pass through the six days of creation (Genesis 1)

to become new creature, to become in God's image and likeness;

to go into our room in privacy with Elizabeth for five months

(150 days) (Luke 1:24); to be able to conquer Goliath with five

smooth stones (1 Samuel 17:40) which God established in our

organs so that we deprive our enemy from his honor to make him

taking off his shoes having no authority over us anymore (Ruth

4:8); to make God who is the father of every majesty (Boaz)

redeem our bonds and ties (Ruth 4:4); to make the world's water

get out after five months (150 days) (Genesis 8:3) so that our ark

rests on Ararat (which means the opposite curse) after five

months (150 days) (Genesis 8:4); to mortify the old curse which is

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our captivity to our flesh and to become God's slaves (Galatians

3:13). Thus our five lamps will be filled with the Spirit of God

and we will not become foolish (Matthew 25:3). We will also wait

73 days (Genesis 8) keeping God's words in all His scriptures

until the tops of the mountains become seen (Genesis 8:5) which

are the saints.

My son, a very important thing is that every man in this life

needs only to know three very important things which are the

entire truth. This is of course for whoever seeks the truth, seeks to

live in it and does not want to live in vanity. When our Lord was

incarnated, He stated, testified and assured that, "For this cause I

was born, and for this cause I have come into the world, that I should

bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth hears My

voice.” (John 18:37). He refers to everyone who wants to live in

the truth i.e. to live the purpose and the goal for which God

created him. God will declare the truth to whoever asks to know

it. These three things are:

Firstly, every man must know why he was created by God i.e. the

purpose that made God create him and grant him this existence.

The second thing, he must know what is the way to reach this

purpose he just knew and how to achieve the goal God created us

for. If someone lives all his life and dies without knowing the

purpose of his existence in this life, he will thus live in a

purposeless way and of course he will not seek to achieve this

purpose ... Whatever he does in this life is vain for there is no

benefit in the whole life of man who does everything for the sake

of this vain world as this world will vanish. He looks like

someone who grasps the wind and runs after a phantom. There is

no difference between such a man and any other creature

whether an animal, a bird or a plant because God did not create

us for this world!!

Secondly, he must know where he is present now in relation to

God. I mean that every man must know that he is born now of

flesh i.e. he is not born in the image in which God created man in

the beginning but man's nature had been totally transformed.

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He had become like an ill person or a slave. Therefore every man

needs to know now what is the image the first man was in, what

is the illness that entered to him and what is the image Adam

has been transformed to i.e. what was Adam's image after the

sin, how it has been transformed and why?!!

Thirdly, after all that, man needs to know what is the way that

leads him to God. I mean he must know first what is the way that

restore him back to the image of the first man when he was

created. Then he must start asking about the way that leads him

to the purpose for which he was created by God. This means that

now the way to God becomes two stages.

Firstly, THE FIRST STAGE in the way is the way to restore the

first image in which the first Adam was. One must know what is

the remedy every man born in flesh must take in order to be

totally cured and restore the freedom in which Adam lived i.e. to

become pure like how Adam was in order to be able to enter the

second stage.

Secondly, THE SECOND STAGE in the way is the way or the

work God created man for. It is the purpose Adam ought to seek.

When God created Adam he was a very pure man. We can

prescribe him at that time as born of water. He was free and not

ruled by any law i.e. he was not captive or under the rule of a

captivity controlling him and pushing him to do what he did not

desire like what we do now or like how Adam became after He

submitted to Eve's law who made him really knowing not what

he was doing and caring not for his death or for breaking God's

commandment. Any man is now born of flesh looks like a

paralyzed patient. A bed ridden patient cannot ascend to the

summit of a high mountain. A man who is chained in a prison

under the ground cannot reach the top of a mountain even if he is

required to. If he wants to reach the mountain's top, he must pass

through the first stage which is the stage of freedom from

captivity in which he lives. He must be well cured from his illness

to be able in the future to fulfill the purpose set for him. Everyone

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born in flesh is born in captivity and illness that make him

impure because of the evil present with him.

Everyone must know that the way to the purpose for which he

was created by God is now two stages: the first stage is BEING

BORN OF WATER. It is restoration of the image of the first

Adam who is considered to be born of water. This expression

indicates and symbolizes that one is totally cleansed from all his

sins. This happens when the origin of the illness, which is the

captivity in which we have been born, dies. After that, when one

is restored to the first Adam's image he becomes able to be born

of the Spirit i.e. to start being filled with the Spirit of God. When

the first man was created by God he was like a very clean vessel.

This was the state of Adam. After that we became like a dirty

vessel that we cannot fill with good wine. We must first, as a first

stage, wash and cleanse it well to be able to start the second stage

which is being filled with the Holy Spirit. Moses was a symbol of

the first stage which is the delivery from captivity in which we

had been born. But Joshua was the symbol of the second stage.

How one can enter the land of Canaan while he is still in Egypt in

the hand of the original illness?!! Thus God showed us that Moses

life was 120 years: the first forty years were in Pharaoh's palace,

in the second forty years he was tending the flock of Jethro and in

the third forty years he was leading the people of Israel. This was

a sign that the first stage includes the three days that man is

resurrected at its end. The first forty years ended up with Moses

wanting to walk with God refusing to be called the son of

Pharaoh's daughter and it is the first step which is THE WILL.

The second forty years are his struggle in the wilderness and his

marriage which represents man's unity with God and the

beginning to live what is written, "After two days He will revive us"

(Hosea 6:2). At the end of these years he saw the bush, heard

God's voice and started to talk with Him. This happened because

RECONCILIATION started between him and God through

repentance and purification. The third forty years are the

separation from sin through death of captivity. Thus, Moses took

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the people out of Pharaoh's captivity until he reached the borders

of Canaan and these are the three quarts of barley (Revelation

6:6). As for Joshua, he symbolizes Christ who is the only one

capable to give us birth of Spirit. The Lord told us in the Bible

that one of the Midianites' army (the enemies) saw a dream that a

loaf of barley bread tumbled into the camp of Median; it came to

a tent and struck it so that it fell and overturned, and the tent

collapsed (Judges 7:13). This was a symbol of a man who passed

the first stage, i.e. he was born of water and became pure, and

was able to conquer all his enemies because what he was held by

has died (Romans 7:6).

Also, John the Baptist was a symbol of the first stage. That is why

God planned that John the Baptist would baptize with water as a

sign and symbol of passing the first stage to make anyone

understand that the way requires two stages. Thus John the

Baptist cried, “Prepare the way of the Lord, I indeed baptize you

with water but He who is coming after me will baptize you with the

Holy Spirit and fire” (Matthew 3: 11). The word baptism means

pigmentation i.e. that the man must become first in the real

image of Adam as if he is a piece of fabric put in a pigment to

take its same color. Thus man must be completely purified at first

and must totally restore Adam's image i.e. must become without

sin as it is written in the Bible, "Whoever has been born of God does

not sin and he cannot sin" (1 John 3:9). This happens when the

origin of illness dies like what is said in the Bible, "But now we

have been delivered from the law having died to what we were held

by" (Romans7:6).

Now we had been born ill and in order to achieve the purpose for

which God created us which resembles a mountain, we must

escalate it. This requires that everyone becomes totally cured. If

one is not sound and cured, like how was Adam in the beginning,

he cannot even start because the way is so difficult!! He needs to

resist up to bloodshed. How can one, who is captive in Pharaoh's

horrible prisons and enchained in bonds in the depths of earth,

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fight in Canaan?!! If he really wants to fight and conquer he must

first pass the first essential stage as there is no other way or path

except it [without it one cannot live the purpose for which he was

created by God]. This stage is obtaining freedom at first and

then escaping away and reaching Canaan to begin the war.

Unless one washes his dirty vessel he cannot benefit from filling

it with good wine because this wine will be polluted soon and

will be unusable!!

Now, every man needs to know, he rather must know, this third

matter which is the most important and which states that we are

born now with a nature that is totally different from the one God

created us in. We became like an ill person incapable to move and

who is required to reach the top of a mountain. How would he

start doing anything?! I mean that whoever wants to live the

purpose and the goal for which he was created by God needs

first to pass the first preparatory stage which is a first stage that

was prescribed by John the Baptist, "Prepare the way of the

Lord" (Mark 1:3) and through which one returns to be totally

cured, sound, free and pure. He then becomes able to start the

second stage which is the essential stage i.e. the goal for which

God created us which is to be born of Spirit. This occurs when

one already reaches the first man's image i.e. the image of a cured

person who was born first of water and became very pure exactly

like Adam. He is then capable, in this state only, to begin the

work that God created him for and is able to seek the purpose

Adam ought to do and live for. Without this first stage no one

can reach the zero point which is the only point at which he can

start. The Israelites had to pass through a preparatory stage in

order to enter Canaan with Joshua. This stage is composed of

God's exodus of the people out of Pharaoh's hand with an

amazing power, strong hand and a lot of strokes. Then the people

had to walk with Moses for forty years in the wilderness and this

was a symbol of the first stage which was the preparation. All

these people did not enter Canaan because they were symbol of

the old man which is the illness present within man. They died in

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the wilderness and this was indicating that man's old nature had

to die first before his children came (they are the first image of the

first sound man that was present in Adam). Thus these children

alone were capable to start the work God requires from every

human being. This is the image of a man born of water i.e. has

been delivered from his captivity. Thus, he was able to become

without sin as if totally washed and this was Adam's image.

Moses was a symbol of the man who was able to help whoever

desired to pass through the first stage. He also resembled John

the Baptist who was sent by God to baptize with water in order

to prepare everyone born of flesh to be restored to the image of

the first Adam. As for Joshua, he was a symbol of Christ who is

the only One capable of baptizing with Spirit whose

winnowing fan is in hand. God leads this stage by Himself

because no man can fill another man with the Spirit of God.

That is why the meaning of the word Joshua is the same meaning

of the word Jesus i.e. the savior or God's salvation "Jehovah-

saved".

Everyone must know where he stands from the Lord now in

order just to be able to start. I mean that everyone who is born of

flesh looks like a prince who was living with his father the king in

a great palace. This prince was about to build a big tower upon

his father king request. Some wicked people envied him and

kidnapped him because he was not keen to close the doors of his

house and the place where he was spending night. They stroke

him and after he lost consciousness they threw him in a place

very far away from his palace, his city, his country and his

continent. When this man was resuscitated, he found himself in a

desert. He was unable to realize where he was [like anyone now

who is born of flesh]. If this prince truly wants to return to his

home, which is his father's palace present in Europe, in order to

fulfill the order and the goal his father asked him to do he must

then pass through a preliminary very important stage without

which whatever he does will be useless. As this prince became

like a prisoner chained under the ground, he does not need now

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to know the goal set for him which is the task his father assigned

to him because he became like a prisoner put in chains. He cannot

build the tower his father asked him to build. But he really needs,

first of all, to know the way to return to his father and how to

walk. This is the goal that must be currently set for him. I mean

that how can he think he is able to start building the tower his

father ordered him to build while he is now lost in desert?! He

thus needs, first of all, in this state, to know where he is i.e. he

must pass the first stage which will be the most important stage

and the base in his life. This stage is essential and inevitable and

composed of knowing his place in relation to the place in which

he was present before. After that, he has to know the way i.e.

how to return to his father. After the prince regained his

consciousness and found himself lost in the wilderness he had to

be preoccupied, above all, with one only thing that constituted a

goal for him that he ought to achieve through resisting up to

bloodshed. This goal would be how to return to the place in

which he was present before. This is the only goal that after he

would achieve he would be really able [if he really desired] to

achieve the goal which is the task his father asked him to fulfill.

After he comes back to his father and actually arrives to his first

place he will be then able to start the second stage which is

achieving the goal i.e. the work of building the tower assigned to

him by his father. But can we ask the prince now, while he is lost

in the wilderness and possesses nothing except the delusion that

he can build the tower, saying: start the work your father

assigned to you?! He has no building materials and his father

ordered him to build the tower beside the palace in the king's

city. This person does not know where he is and does not know

how to return back i.e. what is the way, how to reach his father

and what is the manner to come back to his father. How can we

ask him, while he is lost in the wilderness and does not know his

place in relation to his father's place, to start building the tower?!

The tower cannot be built except in the city of his father king.

The prince needs now and above all to know where he currently

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is i.e. the exact place in which he is present now. For according to

his current place in the wilderness his way will be determined

i.e. his work in the first stage, through which he must pass, will

be determined. If he firstly knows that he is in the desert of Egypt

he will then know that his way will be to cross the Mediterranean

Sea in order to return to Europe. If he knows he is in America his

way will be then to cross the Atlantic Ocean. After the prince

knows his place he will start looking for the food he needs in the

wilderness and determining the time that will be taken in order

to know all what he will need. This looks like what happened

with Noah when God asked him to take food for himself and for

every animal present with him inside the ark. So, when the

prince regains his consciousness and finds himself in the

wilderness he needs (1) to inquire seriously, first of all, to know

where he is if he really wants to return back because if the prince

does not want to return back to his father he will not then ask

about the way and he will not also ask about where he is. (2) to

ask about the ways of transportation that will bring him back to

his father's palace.

Therefore, the whole matter depends totally upon whether the

prince really desires to achieve the goal and the task his father

king has assigned to him or not. According to this desire the

whole issue will be determined. Therefore, the whole matter is

totally dependent upon one condition which is the true desire

of the prince to return to his father. If he wants he will then

start, first of all, to ask where he is. For, according to his place, he

will know the way through which he will return back home. He

needs to know how he will return back and to know everything

about the way that will lead him. If the prince is reluctant in

seeking to pass the first stage, which is coming back home, he

will bring upon himself a lot of sufferings and tribulations. But if

he resists up to bloodshed with all his power, passes the first

stage and comes back to his father's palace he will then be able to

start his work which is the purpose his father assigned to him to

fulfill.

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Likewise, we who are born in this world need, first of all, to know

the purpose for which God created man like the prince who knew

that the supreme purpose required from him was to build the

tower. In order to fulfill this purpose, he ought to pass the first

stage. The same applies to us. We must now know that God

created us to be in His image and His likeness if we become

members in Him. But we cannot currently fulfill this task because

we are born as slaves in captivity to the flesh and the ego. There

is no benefit now from desiring to be in God's likeness as long as

we have been born in an image and nature totally different from

the image and nature Adam was in. Thus we need to know what

was Adam's nature, what was the illness that entered to us until

our nature became as such and changed from the nature Adam

was in, and what the remedy is. Therefore, we must know where

we stand in relation to God and thereafter, we can start passing

the first stage which is the stage of being restored to the first

nature and the first image in which Adam was created like the

prince who ought, first of all, to be restored to his first rank.

Likewise, we also need to know that we need, first of all, the cure

and purification that make us restored to our first health and

nature in which Adam was created. This means that we must

pass the stage of being born of water in order to be restored to

Adam's image to start the task God assigned to us i.e. to start

living the purpose and the goal for which God created us which

is to be filled with the Holy Spirit and born of Him. How comes

that a man who just regained his consciousness and found

himself in wilderness asks about the task assigned to him by the

king?! He will then look like a foolish one given some seeds to

plant in a ground. When he knew that he had to water the

ground everyday he started to water it, to put strong effective

fertilizer in it and to expose it to sunlight. But in foolishness of

mind and heart he did not, firstly, bury the seeds given to him

by the king.

What is humanity doing now?! We look like a bed ridden patient

who heard that he must escalate to the top of a very high

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mountain and this task needs a perfect struggle to complete the

entire way to the summit like what the Lord said, "You shall be

perfect" (Matthew 5:48). This perfect struggle needs a perfect

strength. How can this man think that he can even start to move

while he is paralyzed, blind and totally unable to move?! How

this poor miserable man imagines while he is in such a state and

cannot stand on his feet that he can ascend to the top of the

mountain?! Does not he know that the perfect struggle needs a

perfect strength?! Even if he can stand up he still cannot see.

Likewise everyone living now in the world must know, first of

all, even before knowing the purpose of his existence in this life,

that he became in full slavery and captivity that make him

ignorant of what he is doing and not doing what he desires

(Romans 7) i.e. his nature has been totally turned away from the

image in which God created man because he is born of flesh. He

must ask first: What happened?! I mean:

(1) What was Adam's image?! What was his nature?!

(2) What happened to him?! What did he do?! What was the

change and illness that entered to him?!

(3) We must know first the remedy of this illness so that after

all we return back in good health like how Adam was. Then we

know how to start achieving the purpose God created Adam to

fulfill. This looks like the prince who was assigned by the king

to build a tower and found himself in a desert. He must first

pass the first stage which is the stage of preparation in order to

achieve the purpose he was ordered by the king to complete.

Therefore, every man born of flesh must knowthe truth which is:

1) What is the purpose for which God created man [i.e. Adam]?!

2) What was the first man's image and nature in which he was

created by God?!

3) What happened to Adam and what change affected him i.e.

what is our nature now?! I mean what is the illness that affected

Adam and was inherited by the entire humanity and what is the

remedy that we need in order to be restored to Adam's first

image?! What is the way that leads us firstly to Adam's image

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and that we must first of all walk in?! This way is the first stage

without passing through which firstly we cannot achieve the

purpose God created us for. Thereafter, comes the way i.e. the

second stage that leads us to the purpose God created Adam to

fulfill. We cannot currently achieve the purpose God created

Adam for because we need firstly to be prepared i.e. remedy

i.e. freedom because all humanity now looks like the prince who

regained his consciousness and found himself in the desert

because some thieves kidnapped, injured and left him near

death. We are now born in flesh i.e. we are ill, slaves and even

like an earth without form and void; like the deep on which

there is darkness. We thus need remedy and freedom first of all.

Every man must know that the entire Bible talks only about these

two stages. God explained the way in the first chapter of the

Holy Bible as it is the six days of creation. Unfortunately, many

people lived and died without realizing why the Lord

resurrected on the third day specifically that He did not spend

three entire solar days in the tomb [i.e. He did not spend 72

hours]. He remained in the tomb for only few hours of Friday

and may be for only one hour of Sunday because He aimed to be

in the tomb on Friday and Sunday and it was not important for

him to remain there for the whole day. This looks like someone

who went to a certain place on Sunday for only few minutes to

fulfill an important task in this place and this task had to be

fulfilled on this specific day but he was not in need to stay there

for the whole day. This emphasizes that God was denoting three

essential steps that we ought to live and to fulfill each step of

them. He did not mean to remain in the tomb for actual three

solar days. The period of His presence in the tomb was denoting

a certain toil man must go through which takes three steps and

stages and cannot start unless the first step totally comes to an

end. All this aims at bringing us to a state that God wants us to

arrive at which is the state of resurrection from death i.e. the

death in which we were born which is the death of captivity that

makes us sin all the time and makes the evil present with us.

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Nevertheless, whoever got freedom from this captivity [through

passing the three days i.e. the three steps that constitute the first

stage] will stop committing sin because he will start being born

of Spirit. Whoever is born of God does not sin because God will

be the head that leads him after he gets freedom from captivity

to the ego and the flesh i.e. after he denies himself and God

becomes his life, ego, head and mind that will direct him. This

was the image of the first Adam. God seeks, by all means, to

make us pass this stage in order to bring us to freedom and to

restore us to the state Adam was in when he was created. We

must firstly reach this image in order to begin the task God

created Adam for which is to be born of Him i.e. to become a

member in Him. Now, if someone who is born of flesh wants to

become in God's likeness i.e. to be born of Spirit he will be

unable to because he is under captivity that makes him unable to

do what he wants. But if he, firstly, gets freedom from his

captivity and is restored to the image of the first Adam (i.e. if he

is resurrected from the death of sin by passing through the first

stage symbolized by the first three days of creation which ended

up by creation of the fruits and flowers of the earth and is a

symbol of man's resurrection from the death of captivity and

sin) he will then be able to become a member in God. All stories

in the Old Testament were denoting the third day. They were

used by God to teach us that the way to reach Him is to struggle

to pass the three days which constitute the first stage of the way

and which is the stage of preparation that ends up by restoring

one to the image of the first Adam. This means that we must,

firstly, reach the third day in which we rise from death. The

people of Nineveh as well as Esther fasted for three days. Abram

found the place where he would slay Isaac after three days. We

find the word "the third day" repeated in every story in the old

testament even in the dreams of some people like the chief

butler who saw three branches of a vine and the chief baker who

saw three baskets (Genesis 40: 10, 16) and it happened after three

days that the chief butler was released out of jail. Also, Joseph

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retained Simeon for three days. There is no place in the Holy

Bible where this word is not present. It is present even in the

book of Acts. This is because God wants to emphasize that in

order to come back to Him one must pass through the first stage

which God called being born of water. It is fulfilled through

three steps or three stages that God denoted in the first three

days of creation. The Old Testament is a symbol of the first stage

while the New Testament is a symbol of the second stage. God

could not say in the first stage, i.e. in the Old Testament, "Love

your enemies" (Matthew 5:44) because man was ill, enslaved, lost

and imprisoned in Pharaoh's prisons. How would he then reach

the top of Canaan's mountain?! How can we ask unburied

seeds to bear fruits?! Loving the enemies is one of the best and

supreme fruits of the Holy Spirit. It is the perfect love. God, the

whole wisdom, would not be able to ask man, who became ill

and captive and did not pass the first stage yet (because he was

like a paralyzed and imprisoned man), to ascend to the summit

of a very high mountain. But He can ask for this in the New

Testament, which symbolizes a man who passed the first stage

i.e. who had been cured, delivered and come back home like the

prince who returned to his father's palace. I mean after he was

resurrected in the third day with the Lord i.e. after he was

resurrected from his illness, was totally delivered from his

captivity and became no more lost because he was restored to

the first Adam's image. He was resurrected after he was totally

washed. There is no more captivity that makes him sin as it is

written in the Holy Bible, "But now we have been delivered from the

law, having died to what we were held by, so that we should serve in

the newness of the Spirit and not in the oldness of the letter" (Romans

7:6). This means that the Bible tells us that we will be delivered

from the old captivity of Adam when we struggle in the likeness

of the Lord's struggle i.e. when we walk like he walked as the

Bible also told us, " For if we have been united together in the

likeness of His death, certainly we also shall be in the likeness of His

resurrection ... Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we shall

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also live with Him ... knowing this, that our old man was crucified

with Him, that the body of sin might be done away with,

that we should no longer be slaves of sin" (Romans 6: 5-8). Thus

one must be well prepared to start the way in order to be able to

continue it i.e. to start the way, Adam ought to begin and

continue. This is the way of perfection. Therefore in order for the

people who were enslaved to Pharaoh to fight against Canaan,

they ought firstly to pass the first pass-over with Moses i.e. the

Red Sea and to walk for forty years until Joshua, who

symbolizes the second stage, comes to pass with them the

second pass-over which is the river of Jordan. The two pass-

over took place through great amazing wonders. Also, John the

Baptist was a symbol of the first stage which is the stage of

preparation, wash out and purification from all illness that

affected Adam and every man currently born of flesh. As for

Jesus Christ, He is a symbol of the second stage i.e. the man who

returned to the zero point after he was born of water and his

vessel became pure after his vessels became void of the old

intoxicating wine [i.e. the illness that entered to humanity]

which is the captivity that man seeks to be delivered from. He

filled his water pots with pure water i.e. he was totally washed

and thus God was able to transform his water (i.e. his nature

that arrived to the zero point which is Adam's first image) into

good wine i.e. into God's image. This means he became a

member in the Lord who became the source of his life like the

body who is the life source for each member.

Therefore, the whole Bible talks about nothing except the way i.e.

the two stages. We thus find that the Lord gave satiety to the

multitudes with two fish which are God's satiety, richness and

power that support whoever passes the two stages. Also the

Bible talks about the two Denarii the Lord gave to every person

left on the road half dead when God was the good Samaritan

man who was passing by and came to save the wounded who

was about to die. He is also the same, yesterday and today. He

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offers His richness now to everyone which is His grace i.e. His

support to everyone in order to be able to pass the two stages. It

is also written that when the Lord started His service "He saw

two boats standing by the lake" because the disciples were not

able to fish anything "Then he got into one of the boats, which

was Simon's" (Luke 5:2-3). This is a symbol of the soul who was

standing without knowing how to start but wanted to pass the

two stages i.e. the way. The lord started then to do His work

with this soul who wanted to reach Him in the first stage

meaning that He started to pass the first pass-over in the first

stage with this soul for it is written "He entered one of the boats".

This means that He entered with this soul the first boat of the

two boats to support her and give her all His power in order for

her to be able to pass the first stage. He, Himself, will pass with

her and lead her. Therefore when the Lord sent His disciples He

sent them two by two. He delivered Rahab by two spies. The

lord delivered the donkey and the colt that were tied to the door

of the city waiting for somebody to free and deliver them. The

Lord sent the two disciples to them. Also the Lord delivered Lot

by sending two angels to him. In order for Noah to enter the ark

and to be delivered from the flood he ought first to build the ark

taking one hundred years. This is a symbol of the first stage

which is the perfect struggle of man in walking in the likeness of

the Lord's walk who came to teach us the way to be restored to

Adam's image i.e. how to be delivered from captivity. After

Noah completed the ark, i.e. after he fought the good fight up to

bloodshed and competed according to the rules, being a symbol

of the life of Christ Himself, he was able to enter the ark i.e. to be

at home with God and a member in Him. Many thought that the

ark was a symbol of Christ alone. How comes then that one can

build Christ Himself?! But the ark was a symbol of the life i.e.

the struggle of the Lord that was given to us as a model. Noah

was a symbol of a man who walked in the same way and the

same life lived by Christ who is the incarnated God who came to

teach us how to pass the first stage i.e. the stage of preparation,

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remedy, freedom and purification. It is the stage of being born

of water as Christ gave us a model to follow His steps. Noah is

a symbol of a soul that followed the Lord's steps and walked like

Him. Building the ark by Noah means that he struggled exactly

like the Lord i.e. he died in the likeness of the Lord's death, thus

he was able to unite with the dead Christ and became one body

with Him and in Him. Therefore he was also resurrected with

Christ because he walked the same way that God came by

Himself and taught to us. Therefore, the ark was a symbol of

Christ’s life itself which was the first step that He came to teach

us in order for us to be resurrected from the death of sin. That is

why God ordered Noah to build the ark in a specific way. He

asked him to make it with three decks: lower, second and third.

He was actually explaining to this soul the way that leads her to

salvation in case she implements and accomplishes it. Therefore,

this soul started to struggle the same struggle taught to us by the

Lord Himself. At the same time while the soul was in this

struggle, the Spirit of God was growing in her little by little.

After this stage, which is the first one, ends the Spirit of God

becomes fully developed within man tike the embryo who was

fully developed. That is why he was able to be delivered from

the carnal being in which he was living and to be in home with

God becoming a member in Him exactly like Noah who entered

the ark. At this time, the ark resembled Christ i.e. the Spirit of

God who was fully developed within him through his struggle

in the likeness of the Lord's death. All this happened because

this man walked exactly like Christ i.e. he took the same way

Christ took by Himself. Therefore, he became the image of

Christ Himself with a long struggle that took one hundred years.

He built up this image by taking the way to be restored to

Adam's image which was taught to us by the Lord and lived by

Him. The Lord simulated this way to the tower that must be

built. After Noah built the ark, which was the symbol of Christ’s

life Himself, he passed the first pass-over i.e. he was resurrected

like Christ who was resurrected after he took Adam's first

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image. That is why it is written, "For if we have been united

together in the likeness of His death, certainly we also shall be in

the likeness of His resurrection ... Now if we died with Christ, we

believe that we shall also live with Him" (Romans 6:5, 8). Therefore,

Noah, i.e. this soul, after a long struggle in the difficult way in a

struggle according to the rules taught to us by God, and after a

full development of the Spirit of God in him, was able to become

a member in God and to enter the ark from its side door. This

looks like Christ whose side was pierced in order for us to enter

to Him and to become members in Him starting the task Adam

ought to accomplish. Christ is the gate through which we can go

in and out, be saved and find pasture. He is the door who will

save us when we pass through i.e. through His life which is the

way He taught us. Through His dead body we die in the

likeness of His death, we unite with Him, we become dead with

Him and in Him and we rise with Him. Therefore, we start the

second stage which is being born of Spirit. That is why both

water and blood came out from the Lord's side as it is written,

"This is He who came by water and blood, Jesus Christ; not only by

water but by water and blood" (1 John 5:6). Water aims to purify us

firstly by being baptized with the first Baptism to take Adam's

first image in order to be delivered from our captivity. We are

then able to enter the Ark like Noah i.e. to return back and enter

into the Lord like Noah in order to become members in Him.

After we pass the first pass-over we start passing the second

stage which is birth from the Spirit in order to become members

in the Lord. This is the symbol of blood that came out from the

side of Christ. This means that His blood flows in all our being

because we became members in His vine after we passed and

came back to the zero point i.e. the image in which we were. The

Lord's word says to us, "This is He who came by water and blood,

Jesus Christ; not only by water but by water and blood" (1 John 5:6).

This means that God's purpose is not to take away our sins and

wash us, as some people say, but to become members in Him in

order to be in His image and likeness. No one can become

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member in God and part of Him while he is still member in his

own flesh and under its captivity.

If one does not accomplish the first stage, through which he is

restored to Adam's image, he cannot begin doing the task God

created us for. If Noah would not build the ark one would find

nothing to enter as it is written, "And when they ran out of wine the

mother of Jesus said to Him: They have no wine" (John 2:3). God

cannot put His good wine, which is His Spirit, i.e. to become

members and branches in His vine, while the old wine is still in

the six water-pots which are the nature of the man who was

created on the sixth day with animals. His source of life was

plants before starting communicating with God and before God

became the source of his life. Therefore, the soul had to struggle

with Jacob till bloodshed seven years in order to get Rachel

[which means goat]. She symbolizes the Spirit of God to Whom

the soul wanted to unite in order for God to become her God

and the head that leads her. After the soul passes the first stage,

she starts a struggle for another seven years i.e. the full struggle

until she completely obtains God.

What do we think? Is it possible for someone to enter the ark

before building it?! If Noah would not build the ark how would

he enter it?! There would be nothing to enter in as a shelter.

How would he be saved if there was no a tool of salvation?! Let

us ask ourselves: Is this possible?! Can we be in Christ while we

are still slaves, ill and even enemies as the worldly mind is enmity

against God (1 John 2:15; James 4:4) and "The carnal mind is death

and enmity against God" (Romans 8: 6-7). Building the ark

requires full struggle, struggle up to bloodshed (Hebrews 12:4)

and struggle according to the rules (2 Timothy 2:5). This is the

same methodology, i.e. steps, the Lord took. What a difficult

walk to walk on the difficult way!! This is what the Lord came

by Himself to teach us. This is the way that leads us to be

restored to Adam's image. If we do not walk like the Lord's

walk and build an ark, i.e. if we are not restored to the first

image by passing the first stage that prepare and deliver us

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and if we do not take His image, we will perish by all means.

All this happened because man was totally carnal, became in

enmity with God and had no other way to have a real

communication with God except through the Spirit of God

Himself. We became now like a seed and everyone is required to

bear fruits. How can one start?! Many people think as soon as

they irrigate the seed with water it will immediately bring fruits.

They do not know that there is an initial stage that needs a long

time before the plant grows up. In order for the dead seed,

which we currently look like, to be connected to the source of its

life, which is water, it needs a way through which it gets

connected to water because its nature cannot connect to water

by itself. This way is the root. The root does not develop unless

the seed is buried in the ground. Likewise, the Spirit of God will

not be present within us unless we mortify the flesh. In this case,

He will become a way of communication between us and God

like the root through which life starts in the plant to help it pass

the first stage, rise up and get out of the ground. Likewise, when

we crucify the flesh the Spirit of God starts working in us.

Hence, a real communication between us and the Spirit of God

begins and a true life begins. When we begin the way and the

struggle God taught us, we then start to be delivered day by day

from the captivity and at the same time the Spirit of God fills us.

Therefore, we must pass the first stage in order to reach the

stage of bearing fruits. One has not to deceive himself thinking

that he can start communicating with God the Spirit while he is

still like a dead seed. He must start the difficult way i.e. start

crucifying the flesh. Thereafter, the Spirit begins to be within

him. This will not be achieved unless one passes the first stage

which is delivery from captivity through the death of our old

man who is our captivity. The seed remains for a certain amount

of time under the ground before it rises up and gets out of it.

This is what the Lord referred to in John 12 saying, "Most

assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground

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and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain" (John

12:24).

The Lord told me that the way to return back to Him is

composed of two stages. In the first stage one has to disobey the

desires of the flesh. This is the true fasting, toil and struggle in

prayer too. This is the way of restoration of the first image in

which God created man. It is being born of water. God

descended to earth to live this way. He toiled the full toil in

fasting and prayer. The entire Bible declares this way i.e. this

toil. Jesus life is the way. The Holy Bible emphasizes and

declares this way saying, "And those who are Christ's have crucified

the flesh with its passions and desires, you are that one's slaves whom

you obey" (Galatians 5:24; Romans 6:16). If the first man became

enslaved to his flesh once he obeyed it, then the way of

restoration and salvation from this captivity lies in stopping

worshipping and obeying the flesh. This is the conclusion of

the way i.e. the first stage. The angel shouted in heavens in the

book of Revelation saying, "A quart of wheat for a denarius, and

three quarts of barley for a denarius" (Revelation 6:6). Let humans

wake up and understand what they must do. Let them read the

Holy Bible to search for the wheat and barley in the entire Bible

in order for them to pass the stages with God's richness which is

the two dinarii and His satiety which is the two fish. This

happens through the first baptism i.e. baptism with water of

John the Baptist, then the second baptism which is the baptism

of the Spirit. God's side was wounded and from it came out

water to firstly wash us from the illness that entered to

humanity then we start being filled with the Holy Spirit and

become members of God and His blood flows within us. God

will enrich and satisfy anyone with His richness and satiety in

the two stages through which man will reach God. Barley is a

symbol of the first stage which is the stage of death of the flesh

whose old nature must die. Wheat is a symbol of the grain of

wheat in the whole Bible and it is the second stage in which one

becomes a member in God and starts growing more and more to

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be filled with the fullness of God to become in His image and

likeness i.e. he likens Christ who is God's image in the flesh

made of dust. This is the reason that made God ask us to be

filled to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ who

is Himself God's image and in Whom we were created to exist.

The Passover in the Old Testament, which was the lamb that

everyone had to eat, was a symbol of the satiety of the first

stage. When one starts the second stage the flesh of the Lord

becomes his satiety because God has become the only source of

his life as he started to walk in the Spirit. The Communion

denotes the satiety obtained from God who desires to become

our satiety and the only source of our life. This is achieved when

one becomes a member in Him in order to become in His image

and likeness. This is the purpose for which God created man.

The Lord's flesh is the satiety of whoever starts walking in the

second stage.

It is also written that when the Lord went to call Peter, He saw

two boats standing by the lake and He got into one of them.

This denotes the chance and capability God grants to every soul

in order to pass the two stages through which he reaches God's

image which is the purpose He created us for. The two boats are

a symbol of God's power given to every man in order to pass the

two stages. Peter was one of the souls that God realized they

desired to pass and they would pass. But, without the Lord no

one can start. That is why the two boats were standing by and

the Lord entered one of them meaning that He started working

with this soul in order to pass the first stage. God did not write

a single non useful word in the Bible. Every word that comes out

of the Spirit of God must be a live life and a first step in the way.

The same is found in the story of Micah's mother (Judges 17) who

asked to obtain two images a carved one and a molded one. The

carved image was a symbol of the man born of water after

struggling up to bloodshed which was symbolized by God by a

piece of stone that was carved until it gained a specific unique

shape. Likewise, before we walk in the way, we had no shape.

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We began to become God's image but we didn't become a

member in Him yet. As for the molded image, it is a symbol of

the soul that became God's likeness like a piece of mineral that

is put in the fire and molded in a template to take the exact

shape of this template. The molded image is the one born of the

Spirit i.e. the one who became a member in God. This happens

not out of his toil but in fact by the grace like the molded image

made of melted mineral taking the same shape of the template in

which it had been put after the curse of God was put upon us

(Judges 17:2) and the two images' cost was two hundred shekels.

Likewise, when God planned the rite of Communion, He took

bread, broke it and gave it to the disciples then He gave them

the cup to drink. One cannot partake of the Body and Blood in

communion in the same time (Matthew 26) unless he becomes

one with the Lord and a member in Him and walks in the Spirit

like the hermits for whom God became the head that was

leading them and the Being they lived through. The church

assumes that the priest is also the image of God and is ordained

in the rite of Melchizedek. God wants us to understand, get

insight and take heed of the truth that the way we must take

starts with an initial stage. This initial stage is the stage of the

death of captivity to flesh in order to purify and deliver it. We

must eat Him and take Communion of Him when we are

crucified and mortified in the likeness of His death. When we

unite with Him in the likeness of His death, we become one

flesh with Him and we become as if really dead because we

unite with the dead flesh of the Lord. Taking communion and

uniting with the dead flesh of the Lord are considered to be the

death that fulfills the divine justice. But this will not happen

unless we die in the likeness of His death i.e. we discipline and

crucify the flesh meaning we start the way the Lord came and

taught us by Himself. Day by day, when we reach the zero

point, we become completely delivered from captivity to flesh

and ego and we are restored to Adam's first image. Taking

Communion of the blood of Christ reminds us that we have

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become members in Him and that He became the only source of

our lives. This looks like the member in the body and the branch

in the vine. This is what all saints did. We should not say, "These

are saints!" as if they are born saints in another world having a

different God!! St. Moses the Black was not born in light but he

realized the truth and the way to reach it later on. Therefore,

God said to all the souls that united with Him, had been

restored to Adam's image and became members in Him: O

beloved friends, eat, drink and become intoxicated (Song of

Solomon 5:1). If taking Communion was not denoting the two

stages one pass through, the Lord would then put the wine in

the bread saying to His disciples, this is my flesh eat it. It is a

natural thing that the flesh of anyone is not separated from his

blood i.e. one's flesh is always united with his blood. It is clear

evidence that God wants to explain to us a spiritual matter by

giving to His disciples His flesh first then His blood separated

from the flesh. He denotes an important issue. Taking

Communion of the Flesh is the remedy, the way and the door

that bring us to God especially that the rite planned by God's

Spirit does not allow one to take Communion of the Blood

unless he takes the Flesh first and the priest gets sure that no

single particle of the Flesh is remaining. Taking Communion of

the Blood is a signal of beginning a new stage after the first one

ends completely i.e. after we are totally delivered from any

captivity we were fallen in. God wants to say to us that His

death as a man was the only way for us to pass the first stage

and to be able to fulfill the task God created us for which is to

become members in Him and to fully enjoy Him.

The man born of flesh must realize the truth and know the origin

of the case. God's word is the lamp without which nobody can

see or know where he goes. Through God's word we will realize

and see the way. Therefore, we will be able to walk in it and

reach God. When one starts walking on the way he will start the

birth of above and his nature will start to be changed. He will

start being delivered from the captivity he was born in when he

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stops obeying the flesh. Thus the Bible says, "Having been born

again, not of corruptible seed but incorruptible through the word of

God which lives and abides forever" (1 Peter 1:23). It is also written,

"Of His own will He brought us forth by the word of truth, ... receive

with meekness the implanted word which is able to save your souls"

(James 1:18,21). This means that whoever accepts, humbles

himself and wants to walk like the Lord, to be crucified with

Him, to die and to walk the three days, like what the Lord

showed to us by Himself, he will be restored to first Adam's

image because he will be resurrected from the death i.e. from the

death of sin that came up because of the captivity he was born

in. When Jesus was a boy, He left His parents without telling

them and stayed in the temple.

First, the Bible says, "After three days they found Him" (Luke 2:46)

to emphasize that nobody can find God i.e. feel Him and be in

true reconciliation with Him unless three days pass (Genesis 1).

This is the first stage through which he is restored to first

Adam's image where God becomes his real god and his only

god. The evidence that one does not reach the zero point yet, i.e.

has not been fully delivered from his captivity, is that he still

commits sin for it is written, "For whoever shall keep the whole law

and yet stumble in one point, he is guilty of all" (James 2:10). This

means that as long as one is still committing sin he is then under

the law and the captivity to flesh and ego. Therefore God cannot

become his god because he cannot become a member in God.

How can a member in God fall in sin? This person will be like an

enslaved member in a being that conducts him even if God has

started to work in him like the root under the ground and the

embryo who started to develop. As long as the embryo has not

been born and resurrected yet, then we cannot say that he has a

true being in this life. Whoever wants the truth must know it.

This truth is that no other foundation can anyone lay than that

which is laid which is Jesus Christ. This means that Jesus life is

the way itself through which we can reach Him. Therefore, it is

also written, "After two days He will revive us; on the third day He

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will raise us up that we may live in His sight" (Hosea 6:2). He

emphasizes that on the second day, i.e. the second step of the

first stage which is the preparatory stage in which one begins

struggle to crucify his flesh after he wanted on the first day to

walk with God, the Holy Spirit starts to be present in him.

Therefore, he will begin obtaining life. This is the meaning of the

Bible's words, "After two days He will revive us". At the end of the

third day (Genesis 3:18), on which waters under the heavens

were gathered together into one place, the dry land appeared

the old man died and the one we were held by died i.e. man

was totally delivered from his captivity and he is resurrected on

the third day. Also God said to Moses, "Let us go three days'

journey into the wilderness" (Exodus 3:18). God wants, through

all this, to emphasize that the way He walked was not for His

own sake but He rather gave us a model to follow His steps. The

six days of creation were symbol of the entire way to perfection

and to God's image. The first three days are the first stage in

which man passes from below zero to zero points i.e. in which

he is delivered from death in which he was born because of the

captivity that made him fall in sin and because he was still living

in the flesh. But at the end of the third, day man will be

resurrected from death, be delivered from his captivity, be born

of water and will restore Adam's image and after that, he will

continue his struggle to reach the perfection of God's fullness.

Second, God showed us when he was a boy that the whole mind

must be captive to the obedience of God for Whom we were

created so that we do not look backward like the young man

who wanted to go and bid them farewell who are at his house.

Also, as the Lord taught us and His mother by saying to her,

"Why did you seek me? Did you not know that you, everybody and I

must be about My Father's business?" Jesus was not in need for

salvation. He came by Himself and accepted to become a human

being not filled with the Holy Spirit. This is really very amazing.

Thus it is written, "And the Child grew and became strong in spirit"

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(Luke2:40). This means that He was like an empty vessel that as

much as He was in contact with God as much as He became

filled and strong in spirit. How comes that God accepts to

become man but rather a boy in need to be filled?! How comes

that God the Creator, who is the Spirit himself, accepts to

make Himself of no reputation to that extent?!! How comes He

makes of Himself an unfilled being?! All this happened to

assure us that we must follow His steps, realize the way and

know how to reach Him. Thus no one would have excuse.

How comes that after the Creator was incarnated, made

Himself man, lived the way and lived death in flesh for 33

years in order to give us a model to follow, we do not walk

like He walked?! Let us condemn ourselves!! How do we think

we will answer God on the Last Day when He will ask us: For

whom was I praying?! For whom was I fasting?! For whom was I

incarnated? And why?! Was I in need to live mortified in flesh?! How

will we answer Him?!!

Let us not forget a very important thing. In the entire Bible,

which is God's word that is the lamp, God told us that He came

and died for the sake of the entire world, nevertheless whoever

reads God's word with precision it will be a lamp and light for

him. Thus he will be able to walk. The Light tells us that there is

a prerequisite in order for Christ to die for our sins which is our

death with Him and in the likeness of His death. The purpose of

taking the sin away is not just taking it away but the death of

the Lord is a door He opened like His side was opened. He did

this to explain to us that He opened the door of hope for us. This

means that the purpose is not just to take the sin away because

there is still captivity that makes man always sin. What is then

the benefit of taking the sin away while the illness, which is the

Law who rules us, and the captivity are still there?! Thus the

Lord showed us that the way of salvation from this captivity is

the essential goal of the first stage in which one puts to death the

origin of the illness that leads man to sin i.e. in which he

crucifies and disciplines his flesh like Jesus who lived in a

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mortified flesh. All this aims not only to the resurrection of the

soul but also to the deactivation of the flesh of sin like what

God’s lamp told us, meaning deactivating the control and

imprisonment of the captivity to man. Whoever aims at being

delivered from captivity, restoring first Adam’s image and

beginning the task for which we were created by God, which is

to be born of the Spirit in order to become members in Him and

fully enjoy Him, must pass through the first stage which is being

born of water in order for the Spirit to dwell in him. When God

permits him to bear a certain cross, he accepts it and crucifies his

own will thus the ego’s authority dies as well. When he takes

communion of the body of the crucified Lord, the Lord will then

die for him in the sins he committed.

The man for whom God became the purpose, walked in the way

which God came by Himself to taught him, started to put the

only foundation that there is no foundations other than and

started to walk like the Lord, this man alone would benefit from

the Lord’s death because he fulfilled the prerequisite that the

lamp told us about saying, “For if we have been united together in

the likeness of His death, certainly we also shall be in the likeness of

His resurrection” (Romans 6: 5,8). The Bible did not say that

Christ was crucified and cleansed us from our sins therefore we

became alive but said, “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no

longer I who live” (Galatians 2:20). The Bible did not say that

Christ was dead and buried on our behalf but said, “Buried with

Him” (Colossians 2:12). Also the Bible did not say that Christ

died on our behalf and thus we will be resurrected with Him but

said, “If we died with Christ (only in this case), we believe that

we shall also live with Him” (Romans 6:8). Why?! The Bible,

which is the Lord’s lamp, continues saying to us:

“Knowing this that (i.e. knowing why we live like Christ and

mortify our flesh) our old man was crucified with Him, that the

body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer

be slaves of sin” (Romans 6:6).

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Therefore, the purpose is not just to take the sin away but to be

delivered from captivity and to become no more enslaved

because captivity makes us sin all the time. What is then the

benefit from taking our sins away by the Lord?! God’s plan is to

restore first Adam’s image to man so that he becomes able to

fulfill the task for which He created us. Many people lived and

died without realizing all this. They were far away from God’s

plan saying about the Lord that He fasted and suffered on our

behalf!! They did not benefit neither from the incarnation of the

Lord nor from His redemption. The evidence for this is that they

did not become neither saints nor perfect ones like what the

Lord asked us to become. They were unable to live the Lord’s

commandments. Let us examine ourselves. Are those who

believe that they are cleansed and renewed by the Blood capable

of praying all the time?! Are they ready to forsake all their

possessions to fulfill the Lord’s prerequisite to become a disciple

of Him as what He said, “So likewise, whoever of you does not

forsake all that he has cannot be My disciple” (Luke 14:33). Do

we do the same thing the Lord did when He washed His

disciples’ feet saying, “I have given you an example, that you should

do as I have done to you” (John 13:15)? Do we have the true love

that makes us really humble feeling that we are slaves of all

people like what God asked us saying, “Whoever desires to be first

among you, let him be your slave” (Matthew 20:27)? Let us examine

ourselves to know whether we worship God i.e. we obey His

commandments or not?! Thus we can know whether we are

Christians or not. The Christian is only the one who walks like

Christ. God’s worshiper is only the one who obeys Him. The

Lord said, “If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet,

you also ought to wash one another’s feet... Most assuredly I say to

you, a servant is not greater than his master; nor is he who is sent

greater than he who sent him. If you know these things, blessed are you

if you do them” (John 13: 14, 16-17). This means that whoever has

no the love the Lord told us about and does not wash his

brethrens’ feet according to the Lord commandment, he is then

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saying that he is greater than God because there is no actually a

servant who is greater than the master!!! When one refuses to

wash his brother’s feet he is then thinking that he is greater than

Christ for Christ is the true Master who said that it is impossible

for a slave to be greater than his master. Being arrogant and

disobeying the commandment are evidences that we are slaves

of our ego rather than slaves of Christ. God wanted to motivate

us in this issue through words and deeds because of the

importance of this thing for it is the only door that guides man

to God. As God accepted to be incarnated and to live the entire

way because He realized well the importance of this thing, He

motivated man and made him ashamed before this amazing

God who in His true love suffered a lot in order to teach us

through becoming of no reputation. He hoped that after all that,

man would be ashamed and would start living the way. By this,

God would achieve the goal even if only one person in the entire

world would live it as a response to God’s love and would make

God’s practical life a strong motive for himself. Even if God

realized that there was only one person would be motivated by

this, this would then be enough for the Lord to be incarnated for

His love is indescribable, infinite and incomprehensible!!!

Did man ask himself why he was unable to fulfill God’s

commandments?! And why was he unable to forsake all what he

had and become perfect?! Or why is he unable to do good to

those who hate him and to love his brethren like himself?! Why

did not he become light to the whole world?! Let us then

awaken to see the truth before it is too late.

We must remember that all the Sacraments and rites of the

church that God permitted to be present are a completion of the

Bible and means to help us walking on the way and they neither

are the way itself nor the Bible we must live. We must watch the

fact that it is the Bible alone that we must live for it is written,

“Only let your conduct be worthy of the Gospel of Christ”

(Philippians 1:27), and also, “For your sake we are killed all day

long” (Romans 8:36) and we must discipline the body and bring

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it into subjection (1 Corinthians 9:27). This means that if we

obtain a lamp along the whole way it will be clear for us and we

will always walk in light. As long as we are connected to God by

continuous disobedience to flesh there will be a continuous

growth like what was written about the Lord when He was

incarnated, “And the Child grew and became strong in spirit and

increased in wisdom and stature” (Luke 2:40, 52). This means

that the way leading us to God is living the Gospel that talks

about the practical life of Christ who is also the way. Whoever

considers the rites to be the way may not arrive at all because

they are not the true way. For example, when God told us about

the way through which we complete the connection with Him

he said, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls

into the ground and dies, it remains alone” (John 12:24). This means

that one must accept, be humble, surrender and walks like the

Good Shepherd. The word falls denotes the man’s break of his

own ego and will and his subjection to the Lord by refusing to

continue in obeying his hungry flesh and by resisting it, forcing

it to be crucified and mortifying it through disobeying it in order

not to continue worshiping it. Also the Lord said, “But you,

when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your

door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place” (Matthew 6:6).

Mere presence in the church, whether in a mass or in hymns,

and being in communion with believers are not in fact a relation

with God in the secret place because man did not shut the door

on himself like the grain of wheat that died and was buried.

Whoever depends only on being present in the church and

practicing all the rites thinking that he is walking on the right

way will be deceived for this is not the way shown to us by God

himself. The way is the life of the Lord who used to withdraw in

the wilderness and pray without gathering with His disciples in

each time He prayed. He wanted to teach us that the connection

between the soul and God needs withdrawal from people in

order for a real connection to be effective for this is the true

Sacrament and the true rite.

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Another important thing is that the lord, although He is the

incarnated God who made Himself of no reputation, before

appearing in the image of man was himself the way i.e. His

life was in itself the way for it is written that the Child grew

and became strong in spirit. This means that growth must be

present i.e. whoever does not grow spiritually and does not

increase in stature every day is not then walking on the way.

As the way was only the Lord’s life, the Lord was then the ideal

model for us. This means that the Lord’s life He lived is the

only mean He showed us through which we can reach Him

Whoever is preoccupied with rite, as if it is the model and the way, will never reach the goal because in a system of rites, like fasting for example, after fasting for two entire months in asceticism and continuous crying and when the feast’s day comes we find that, according to the rite, no one can fast any more. That person who is forced to fast (because he is not realizing the importance of fasting and because God is not his purpose that is why he is not walking on the way), such a person will compensate the deprivation he suffered during the previous days and will make his body enjoy and will give him pleasure as much as he can like what the sons of Israel did in the wilderness as they were in full gluttony (Numbers 11).. Even the one who wants to walk on the way and go to the Lord, if he is preoccupied only with that rite he will never arrive because how

can he do this? Where is then the growth if the person comes after all this fasting and gives his flesh all what it desires? If this person says, I am walking on the way he must know then that the way is the Gospel which says, “For your sake we are killed all day long”. The Bible did not say mortify your flesh for a while then return again to obey your flesh. Any written word in the Holy Bible is a life that must be lived continuously and not for a specific period. For it is written, “I discipline my body and bring it into subjection” (1 Corinthians 9:27)... This does not mean that one disciplines his body for a while and then he regresses by obeying him. This has nothing to do with growth at all but it is regressing back to a point far away from the point of beginning. Whoever does not walk on the way, i.e. the one who just fasts to obey the rite, is only forced to fast. Therefore, fasting will

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engender in him gluttony and strong desire to the pleasurable food he was deprived from. This person who does not walk on the way and is forced to fast, when the day of breaking the fast comes, he will feel gluttony and desire to food that he never experienced before. Fasting will engender it in him. Therefore, fasting and rite become for him a regression rather than a

growth. This means that rite becomes a curse rather than a blessing.

Where is then the growth when a person continues for years and years to live under the rite, when fasting comes he fasts and when breaking fasting comes he breaks fast? Fasting for a person who does not walk on the way will be a mere change of food and stopping eating meat; and as long as he does not realize the importance of disciplining flesh and crucifying passions and desires, i.e. he does not understand the case, then it will be a very natural thing that he will try by all means to make the vegetarian food more delicious by adding spices and dressings that make food delicious exactly like the non-fasting food. I mean by making it delicious he finds it pleasurable as if he is eating meat. Where is then this growth which is one of the criteria of the way that leads to God, this way that God lived by himself? Where are the words of the Bible that we must live all the time? Where are the strait way and the narrow gate in the eyes of those who do not walk on the way, I mean those who do not walk in the likeness of the Lord’s walk and all those who do not live the life that God came by himself to live and show to us? Where are the Bible words that say, “Let no one judge you in food or in drink or regarding a festival or a new moon or Sabbaths” (Colossians 2:16)? Do those who walk according to the rite and think that they are walking on the way realize that they became slaves to rites and they are falling under a law that condemns them? The evidence of this is that there is no growth at all in their life. Rite is not the way because God did not live in such a way. But rite is a wonderful way that helps the one who wants to walk on the way especially in the beginning of the way because a beginner cannot continue fasting without stopping since the beginning. But when this person practices rite, then the rite forces him to fast for a long period. But if he remains in such a state for 10 years, i.e. when fasting comes he fasts and when breaking fasting comes he regresses by obeying and

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worshipping his flesh, he will never grow up. But the one who wants to come back to God will ask God and God will open his mind and will give him understanding that there is a way through which he can return back to Him and there are specific means and struggles that deliver him from his captivity. This way is the one the Lord lived and about which it is written in the Bible, “Christ was put to death in the flesh” (1 Peter 3:18). The way is actually crucifying the flesh with its passions and

desires; and this is the door of the beginning. Of course this person must live the Bible in a continuous way if he wants to continuously grow. This is the way as long as Christ was continuously growing. The Bible, which is God's words, tells us that the life of Christ can be only manifested in our dead flesh. So, it is a must that we always surrender to death. Every person must know that any delicious or even palatable food will stimulate his saliva. This saliva, which God managed to make present in the entry of man, i.e. in his door, is the way through which man will show whether his worship to God by stopping obeying his flesh and stopping giving it whatever he desires or his continuous worship to his hungry flesh. When one gives his flesh any pleasurable thing, even if it is minimal, he is then obeying his flesh and worshiping it.

But what happens in the body of man?! When one gives his body any delicious food this saliva will then start to be secreted. This means that the salivary gland will secrete this fluid once one tastes any delicious thing. This saliva, which is a viscid fluid secreted by salivary glands, will go into man's body and will be the cause of all corruption and the beginning of ruining everything.

This is what happened to Adam. Once he took a bite from the fruit that was pleasant to the sight his nature has been totally

transformed. Few minutes before, he was an innocent child who was unable to realize any of the carnal issues. But once something delicious stimulated his salivary glands his saliva was secreted and started to be poured in his body. This was what made Adam hungry. I mean that he became at once in a bitter captivity. He started to feel how flesh feels because he dwelt completely in it as flesh is always in an infinite hunger because it is void of God. Therefore, Adam started to feel hungry, his eyes where opened and he started to know Eve.

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Therefore, when saints wanted to come back to God, He opened their mind to see the way, i.e. the way to come back, meaning the way of a struggle which will restore us to the first pure image of Adam when he was free. This is the way that God came, was incarnated and lived by himself to show us what is the image of God and what is the way to reach this image i.e. to show us the way to reach the goal for which God created man. This way God lived by Himself and he was put to death in flesh in fasting up to the highest degree of disciplining flesh i.e. putting it into subjection. The Lord remained in the wilderness for long days in order to teach us that we also must not give the flesh any pleasure because when we give it a rest he revolts against us. This revolution comes about when saliva is poured into it, increasing its hunger towards any other thing making it seeking with all its power to satisfy its hunger through its five senses. It seeks satisfaction either from the side of food in order to satisfy the sense of taste, from the side of any other flesh to satisfy the sense of touch or the side of any other flesh to satisfy the sense of sight through which he seeks to satisfy all his hungry being. Therefore, the Lord said to us in his reviving words that the one who refuses to come back to God excused himself saying, “I have bought five yoke of oxen, and I am going to test them” (Luke 14:19). These are the carnal senses of man who became in a complete hunger like an animal’s nature. This man wanted to go to test everything in the world i.e. to satisfy every sense through it. He even sought to double his testing of it that is why he said five yoke of oxen. Thus the Lord showed us the remedy by living the way by Himself and He commanded us to discipline our body and bring it into subjection.

Why? It is written, “While we are at home in the body we are absent

from the Lord” (2 Corinthians 5:6). This means that as long as

man still lives in the body and the body is the being where he is

at home then the body will remain his god that rules him. The

man will then be estranged from God and even will be in enmity

with Him. It is also written, “For if you live according to the flesh

you will die” (Romans 8:13). The Lord means by according to the

flesh according to its rules, law, judgment and captivity. If man

remains dwelling in the flesh which remains his god who rules

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him he will then remain committing sin and evil will still be

present with him. Thus the result will be that he will bear fruits

of death because it is also written, “When we were in the flesh”.

The Bible means that we were dwelling in it meaning that it

remained the god that ruled us. Therefore, all our deeds would

be according to the will of this hungry flesh. Then all our deeds

would be sin. When we were in the flesh all passions of sin were

present according to its law, i.e. it ruled and controlled us. Its

authority worked in all our members and the result would be,

“to bear fruits to death” (Romans 7:5). Therefore the first step and

the first stage we ought to seek is salvation from captivity

through stopping obeying it in anything it desires or wants i.e.

stopping worshiping it in order to be able to start worshiping

God because man cannot worship two masters at the same time.

A member cannot dwell in two bodies, i.e. in two beings, at the

same time and remains capable of living and moving by them

both.

Those who already desire to be in Christ must crucify the flesh

with everything it desires or wants. Salivary glands start to

secrete saliva not only when man gives his body, i.e. the sense of

taste, any delicious food but also once man smells its odor. This

made God warn us, “Keep your heart with all diligence” (Proverbs

4:23). God enlightened us with His lamp when He told us that

the fruit was pleasant to the eyes and that once one looks at

delicious food he starts seeking to eat it even without

movement, meaning that even if man does not go to reach that

food saliva will start to move in the beginning. Thus we realize

the importance of God's advice to us when he said, “The heart is

deceitful above all things...Who can know it?” (Jeremiah 17:9). That

is why it is written, ““Keep your heart with all diligence” because

Christ’s life does not manifest except in a dead flesh (2

Corinthians 4:10-11). Therefore, God started His words in the

New Testament by saying, “Do not worry about your life, what you

will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put

on” (Matthew6:25); “For all these things the nations of the world seek

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after ... But seek the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be

added to you” (Luke 12:30-31).He therefore started His words in

the New Testament by this saying because when one feeds his

body in the beginning of the way through any food that is not

delicious, i.e. when he disciplines his body and crucifies it in

everything it desires, the saliva stops. This is evidence that this

person started to stop obeying his body and therefore he

stopped worshiping it. Whoever did not start to stop obeying

his flesh, especially the sense of taste, he did not start yet the

way because he did not enter through the door. Crucifying the

flesh is the door of the beginning. Whoever did not enter

through it, did not start the way yet like the seed that was not

buried and therefore did not start growing, i.e. life did not start

in him yet.

Therefore, the seed that is not buried yet did not start the way

through which it can become a full tree bearing all fruits.

Whoever did not start stopping obeying his flesh by

crucifying it to anything it desires, especially the sense of

taste, i.e. he did not start in mortifying his flesh meaning

crucifying his flesh in whatever it desires and wants, he did

not enter through the door yet meaning that he did not yet

start the way that leads him to God.

Man who did not start true fasting, which is crucifying his flesh,

did not enter through the door yet.

Whoever did not enter through the door till now did not yet

start the way.

Saints walked in the same way Christ walked. Therefore, they

were filled to the whole fullness because they were always in

contact with God. This is the way that leads us to God because

they struggled to fulfill the prerequisites of being in contact with

God. Whoever wants to walk in the truth must focus on the real

purpose. The purpose of practicing any rite must be to reach

God and to help us on the way that leads us to this purpose

which is filling our temples with God. Rite is neither the goal

nor even the way. It is not the only way but a helping tool that

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one can discard it if he succeeds well to fulfill the task. The goal

is to become full of God. The mean to reach this goal, i.e. the

way to this goal, is putting man’s flesh into subjection by

disobeying it in anything it desires and struggling in prayers.

This is the way itself. The rite alone is unable to offer us the way,

i.e. the rite is not the exclusive mean that leads us to God. The

way is disobeying the flesh in anything and struggling in

prayer that must be secret. The ultimate goal of the Holy Bible

is to assure us that we get our salvation and reach God through

this and that this is what God did by Himself. If man can

practice this mean, i.e. if he can walk the way without help, he

then walks by himself the way that God, all saints and hermits

who reached the highest levels of sanctity walked. This way is

the first stage that raises us up from the dead and from death in

which we were born.

The captivity that makes us sin is the old man that we must

crucify with the Lord. This happens only when we become

united with Him in the likeness of His death i.e. as He taught

us by Himself that we can conquer death by this death through

putting to death our carnal lusts and our ego and by being

delivered from their captivity, disobeying them and forcing

oneself to pray. This is how we can conquer death in which we

were born. This is the entire way. All the rites are nothing more

than helping tools for us that help us to walk on the way. They

only help whoever starts to walk on the way i.e. who just started

to die in the likeness of the Lord's death by stopping obeying

and worshiping his flesh. Only the person who starts the way by

putting to death his flesh in the likeness of the Lord's death is

the only one who gets benefits from this rite. Rite was planned

by God Himself as nothing in this world can happen without

His permission. What many people did not realize is that rite

looks like the strong fertilizer and like the sun’s warmth and the

atmosphere that surrounds the seed helping it to grow up. What

do you think about a man who did not burry the seeds in this

ground which contains the fertilizer and all the helping

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circumstances? He will surely benefit nothing like thousands of

people who attend the church without walking the strait way.

They do not even know God and are still worshiping the flesh,

the ego and the world. How they deceive themselves thinking

that they are worshiping God? No one can worship two masters.

The evidence is very clear that you do not find another St. Paul

or enlightened people who are shining now in the image of God

on earth. The strait way is the base which is dying in the likeness

of the Lord's death. I wish you wake up before it is too late.

Even Christ's flesh and blood which is like the reviving water

will not help seeds which did not die and was not buried.

Therefore, you find thousands of people practicing the rite of

taking communion as a mere habit and just as a practice rather

than as a life of dying with Christ. Therefore, they do not live

the life of satiety with God and through God. Everyone must ask

himself if he became in the image of God. Does he bear the fruits

of the Spirit like love for enemies? Does he shine with the light

of Christ in the entire world? Can he obey God in all

commandments like for example selling all his possessions or

praying all the time? As long as man cannot obey God's

commandments then the golden divine rule in the Bible, which

is you are that one’s slave whom you obey, will apply.

Everyone must stand before the mirror everyday to see his state

and to find out where he is. Didn't you hear about the mirror till

now? It is written, “But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a

mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same

image”.

You have no excuse, my children, in being ignorant of the way.

There is no excuse, my son, in not understanding the way and in

not reaching the image of God. Remember that on the Last Day

people will come to the Lord saying, we ate and drank in Your

presence (these are the servants taking only the form of servants.

These are the servants of the altar and the church, and the

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preachers who were working for salary. They are many people

who think that it is enough to give the tithes and practice rite

without having the minimum relationship with their God

without walking the narrow way which is the only way that

leads to life). All these people who did not live the Gospel have

no excuse in their ignorance of the truth. They mixed the goal

with the way and were fanatic to their denomination saying that

we alone possess the truth and we alone are God's sons.

Therefore, ask for the light from the God of the light to become

the sons of the light before it is too late.

Do not forget what is written, “Put on the whole armor of God

because those who are in the flesh cannot fight. Though we are in the

flesh yet we cannot fight according to the flesh because our armor must

be spiritual as long as we will wrestle against principalities and powers

of darkness”. How comes that a man, who is in the flesh, can fight

against a devil who is a spirit as it is written, “If the righteous one

is scarcely saved”? I wish you remember the life of saints who

were in a fully struggle. Ask yourselves, Why did they struggle

this entire struggle and toil all this toil about which it is written,

“They wandered in deserts and mountains”?

O son, I hope that the whole world remember the truth uttered by the Lord Himself when He said, “Narrow is the gate and difficult is the way”. He did not say that the gate is just narrow. The mere love of money makes the gate like the eye of a needle and makes man in the size of a camel. The Lord did not say this to make you frustrated, upset and scared. He rather wanted to motivate you. He said that the way is so difficult because it is long, yet very guaranteed because the Lord is the way Himself and He will perfect, establish and settle you as His Yoke is easy when you taste Him.

Ask yourself: Are the words narrow and difficult apply on practicing all the rites?!! The way starts with a so narrow gate and with a prerequisite of resistance to bloodshed. On the contrary, practicing rites like for example taking communion or baptism does not involve resistance to bloodshed. It is not a narrow gate like the eye of a needle. There is no any type of toil, suffering or pain in practicing it. This is the sure evidence that

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rite is not the way i.e. it is not the difficult way that leads to life. How comes that the entire world forgot the truth and light that God came to live and say by Himself?! Where is the Gospel now as a vivid life?! Where is the life of Jesus?!! Are these words obscure and unintelligible my son?!!

The Lord’s word is the truth itself and is like the two-edged sword that pierces to the joints and marrow, the whole armor of God. This word says, “He who loves his life will lose it, and he who hates his life will keep it for eternal life”. Therefore, you have to ask yourself: Is practicing all the rites everyday is a way to hate one’s life that engenders a feeling of being entrapped in the eye of a needle and of resisting up to bloodshed?! Examine yourself to see if after practicing all these rites you can forsake all your possessions, love all your enemies, pray for them and pray unceasingly?!!

For example, the rite of Communion is not the life of getting satiety from the Lord. The most important is that it is neither the life of mortification nor the cross. Practicing rites does not mean that one becomes crucified, mortified, dead, slain and united with the Lord. But the rite itself just augments the faith of he who starts the way. When we partake of the Lord’s flesh and blood we get sure that we become united with Him i.e. our union with Him is like the death that satisfies the Divine justice because we become united with the dead body of the Lord and thus our sins are taken away. The rite helps to increase our trust that we have already united with the Lord’s body and that He has taken away our sins. Nevertheless, the rite is not the way

itself because the way is composed of our toil to disobey our flesh i.e. not to worship it. This is the only way through which we are delivered from the origin of the illness that makes us sin which is the captivity. This is the way the Lord came to live and gave himself as a model to us. If the rite is the way then the Lord would, from the beginning of His ministry, ordain priests, set liturgies, start to pray every day with His disciples, take Communion with them, feed them and say to them this is the way through which you can reach Me and you must do this. But the Lord did not live like this. He did not struggle in such a way but He just withdrew in wilderness and prayed. He emphasized that this kind (i.e. our old nature) can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting. This is the only way through

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which we restore the image of the first Adam in order to pass the first stage. The Lord said, “For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you” (John 13:15). The Bible said and emphasized that the Lord lived mortified in flesh leaving us an example to follow His steps. It is an example of the toil and struggle that lead us to Him. This is the way itself.

St. John the Baptist did not live according to a specific rite yet he reached the degree of the greatest among those born by women. St. Paula, St. Karas, St. Hermina, Abba Nofr, St. Marina, St. Mary of Egypt and the majority of hermits did not live according to rites. All of these saints walked the way which is the Lord’s life itself though some of them took Communion at the end of their lives. Nevertheless, some others never took Communion like St. John the Baptist, St. Paula, St. Karas and a lot of fathers who along the period of their struggle never practiced rites. God wants to assure us that these rites help those who walk in the difficult way which is the only way leading to life.

The way that leads any man born of flesh to God is stopping obeying flesh i.e. worshipping flesh. Thus, the first commandment God gave to man was eating not from a specific tree. The commandment seemed outwardly to be forbidding him from eating a fruit but it was in its essence disobeying one’s own will and disobeying flesh. This is the way which is disobeying any other being because man becomes enslaved to whatever he obeys, “You are that one’s slave whom you obey” (Romans 6:16). God wanted Adam to worship Him by worshipping not any other being whether Eve, his flesh or his own will. This is the beginning of the way to worship God. We were born enslaved to the flesh and day by day the flesh of sin vanishes i.e. the control and authority of flesh on us diminishes. At the same time, one must struggle in private prayer to God. In such a case, he resembles the seed that had been buried. God will start working in him and be present within him by His Spirit like the embryo that starts to be present. When man partakes of the Lord’s body he unites with the dead body of the Lord and his faith that he became united with Him increases. This is considered to be the death he experiences because he became one flesh with the Lord as he was crucified with Him i.e. he crucified his flesh to any

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desire or lust. He also walks on the way shown to us by God and thus he starts to die in the likeness of the Lord’s death. Day by day the flesh of sin is abolished i.e. the captivity to the flesh. When God permits that he suffers any humiliation or illness he then starts, through the Holy Spirits that fills him, to realize that when he accepts God’s will and refuses to complain i.e. when he denies his own will the authority and enslavement of the ego will also die. Therefore, the root of illness will die. By continuously remaining in contact with God, what he was held by dies and he will be totally freed from the captivity he was born in. Thus, he will return to his purity like Adam. I mean he will be born of water i.e. he will pass the first stage and will come back to the zero point i.e. he will come to the image of Adam when he was created. By continuing praying, he starts to be filled with the Holy Spirit i.e. God will start to be the head that guides him and the only source of his life. By being filled with the Holy Spirit through continuous contact with God he becomes satisfied with Him. From the first day he starts to crucify his flesh, the Spirit of God starts to dwell in him. By forcing himself to true fasting God starts to give him satiety. Day by day, and after he is totally delivered from the captivity to flesh and to ego, God becomes the only source of his life after his flesh was the origin of life to him and his ego was the head that guided him as he was dwelling in flesh. After he starts dwelling in God by reaching the image of first Adam God starts to be the source of life to him and he starts to live like heavenly people and according to the state he will live in heaven. This is how all our saintly fathers behaved. God became all their satiety like St. Pishoy the Perfect Man who spent many years without food or drink because God became the Being he dwelt in and the only source of life to him. This is the whole way to the eternal life.

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After this vision in which I have been told all this by the Virgin I woke up but I became a different person. I remained for days and weeks as if I was not belonging to this world. First, I kept trying to collect my mind to understand again every word I heard in order to write it down. God already gave me this memory and this grace and no single word was missed. I then started to plunge into every word. No one spoke to me before with such depth. These are the words of eternal life with all their depth and secrecy. It is the way with full clarity. I remained astonished for many days.

After few months, I desired to know more about the three days that symbolize the practical struggle to reach resurrection on the third day. I also desired to know the place of this in the Holy Bible whether from the side of symbols or from the practical side. I prayed for days and finally I was answered. I felt the same feelings that I felt on the day of the miracle as if I was getting out of myself or as if my soul was getting out of me. I remained asleep, or rather dead, for a whole three or four days. I saw myself in the same palace in which the Lord was present in the first time and in which I saw myself in the first time. I saw the Virgin in the same place in the beginning. She was looking at me as if she was waiting for me. She was holding in her hand the same picture she was holding on the day of the miracle which the picture of the Good Shepherd. I said to myself, is there no other picture in the palace except this one?! The Virgin smiled because she knew what I was thinking about and she made a signal asking me to approach her. She then asked me to sit down in a place on the wall of the palace. It was like a sofa made of marble and she said to me: The picture of the Shepherd is the way itself. It is also the Gospel as well as the life I lived because I remained like the sheep wherever the King took me I went denying myself. That is why the King brought me here and through His grace I became a member and a part in Him and I became one with Him. I am not me. I am not the person born of flesh about whom the Bible spoke. I rather became a new creature i.e. I acquired a non human nature. This issue is hard to prescribe and explain to your mind. However, I am not the same lady who was in Bethlehem of Nazareth. But actually who speaks with you now is God who dwells in me. You will understand this later on. The

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person named the Virgin Mary had already perished. She is no more present as regard her ego, emotions, and all the bonds of human feelings. I am no more me by all measures and meanings like what the Bible said. I became now part of the infinite Spirit of God i.e. I became a member in Him, not me alone but also whoever becomes a member in Him. We became one flesh i.e. one being which is God’s being. While you talk to me now every saint, like Elijah, Daniel, Elisha, or St. Shenouda the Archimandrite, feels us. All of us became one. We are no more a group. We are no more human beings i.e. autonomous beings. Actually this is the purpose for which God created us. As every one of us was preoccupied with this purpose with all his heart, with all his mind and with all his strength during our earthly life i.e. during the period given to us as a chance to choose, we became now one in God. Through the grace of God we achieved this purpose because we realized how we ought to die, be crucified and be estranged from this flesh in order to take off the old man and live no more in flesh. Our outward man, which is the carnal nature in which we were born, perished and we became capable to be delivered and to dwell in God after our soul was released like the embryo which gets out of his mother when he is fully developed. This looks like the bird which gets out of the egg when his development is completed after a period of growth and a long toil. We were able to dwell in God and to be born in Him. This is the actual meaning of the Bible’s words, “to be in Him”, “to be born of Spirit” or “to be born of God”. Every one of us, including me, was an autonomous being separated from God, living and moving by flesh to the degree that if he would not feed his flesh he would die because flesh was the source of our life. Before that, I was not living like the heavenly people and I did not become a member in God yet. But after God opened my mind to see the purpose, and after I knew the way leading to this purpose I started struggling to be estranged from this flesh and to be delivered from captivity. At the same time, the Spirit of God was growing in me like the embryo which develops before he comes out to life. I struggled, walked for three days and died with Christ i.e. my old man died because he was crucified with the Lord. I was resurrected with Him i.e. the Spirit of God present within me was resurrected. I mean that the development of the Spirit of God in me was

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completed and this made me capable to become a member in Him. My struggle took two aspects. The first one was to be delivered from captivity through fasting, repentance and contrition. Then the second aspect was struggling in continuous prayer in order to develop the Spirit of God within me. At the end, God resurrected me after He delivered me. Therefore, I became a member in Him, not only me but also all those who struggled with me. Whoever did not understand because he did not ask and remained all his life in the flesh lost a huge loss. He even lived without life. He lived in death as long as he lived in flesh as it is written, “For if you live according to the flesh you will die” and also, “Those who are in the flesh cannot please God”. This refers to those who remain living with this flesh without understanding the purpose, without benefitting from God’s incarnation and without benefitting from the life given to them as a chance to reach this purpose.

The words of the Virgin were for me like the sunlight that shines in a void dark land because I never heard before this truth in this way which is a reality. At this time, a real light actually appeared inside the palace and was transformed into the King. I saw the King in front of me in a far high upstairs place. He was like the first time I saw Him when I ascended to Him and gave Him a hug. He made a signal to the Virgin and to me to go near to Him. I went to Him quickly and became frozen in my place while I was gazing at Him. The Virgin came and prostrated before Him and I did the same. The Lord was standing in front of an open wall in the palace like an open window that was 15-20 meters wide and 5 meters long. This opening looks on an extended very beautiful green land that made me feel that I never saw colors before! I saw far away a chain of wonderful mountains that had different colors like light pink, light scarlet, light purple and light gray as if precious stones like diamond were scattered all over the mountain. I was as if I have never seen colors before. The green land was divided into two portions. A small river was flowing in its midst. The river width was 2-3 meters. The Lord then said to me: This is the heavenly Jerusalem and these mountains are the greatest saints. I created man to be part of Me, the Unlimited, but because you did not experience this thing you found difficulty in understanding it. I

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said in my last prayer as a man to teach you what you must say, “I want them to be one just as We are one”. I became the Mind that rules all these saints. As they accepted to fully deny themselves, they became tools in my hands wherever I moved them they moved. They felt nothing in this being except what I exactly feel. They felt nothing except my sorrows and my joys. I became their entire life. This is what is written, “For to me, to live is Christ”. When a member of your body suffers when injured, you find that all your body suffers too because he feels the same pain the suffering member feels. Likewise, all saints became members in me like dissolved sugar in water. One cannot see sugar after it dissolves as it has no more an independent autonomous being. It totally disappears as it becomes one with water. A lot of people lived and died without realizing this fact which is the true purpose you were created for. This happens because many people do not ask. This is the mystery St. Paul denoted when he said, “You may understand my knowledge in the mystery of Christ” and also when he said, “That Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith... that you may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God in order to reach the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ”. Actually, this is the goal and I wrote about it in Ephesians 3 and 4. Even the word Ephesians means [the full purpose and the ultimate very beloved goal to me] because the entire Epistle talks about a certain meaning i.e. it explains the way in a certain manner that adopts a certain case in order for you to finally understand the whole issue. Whoever asks will take and according to your desire to be filled with Me I will give you until you reach the image of God and His likeness. The meaning of “My likeness”, which is the purpose, is to be like Me in everything although I am unlimited. Nevertheless, those who were in the Spirit, i.e. those who became part of My infinite Spirit, became an image of Me like any member in a body that takes its nature. Likewise, whoever becomes a member in me takes my nature. This is the purpose for which I created you. Unfortunately, what makes me so sad is that a lot of people did not inquire about this image that I want them to be in and how to achieve it. Therefore, a lot of people lived and died without understanding. Thus, they did not struggle and did not arrive.

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Everyone ought to ask why I fasted 40 days?! Actually, I wanted to show you the ideal image as a practical life that I desired every man to live which is living not in flesh but living and moving with My Spirit. How comes that till now you trust that a plant created by me will give you life? How comes you do not understand and trust that the creative power of My Spirit is capable to give you life so that you live with My own Spirit?! Of course this can be achieved through struggling up to bloodshed as it is written; which is the struggle in the narrow way i.e. growth in My Spirit. I showed you this by Myself when it was written about me, “And the Child grew and became strong in spirit”. I showed you by Myself how to struggle in a practical way in order to reach this image i.e. this nature by walking in Spirit and making no the flesh the source of your life. This can be achieved after you are delivered and estranged from the flesh in which you were born and living in and through stopping being dependent on it as a source of life and forcing oneself in prayer and fasting because through prayers you become filled with me. My Spirit begins to fill your spirit’s vacuum and therefore your flesh also begins to be satisfied as it is one being with your spirit. Man then starts reducing his dependency on the flesh as a source of life, and day after day your outward man perishes. How comes then that a man who still lives in the flesh and by it thinks that he can become a member in Me, the Spirit?!

When the Lord said this, He looked at me and put his hand on my shoulder saying: There are a lot of things you did not know yet but I will explain them to you gradually. Also, as much as you ask you will be given and I will grant you a lot of graces. I am standing at the door knocking and begging but this does not mean that I expect to take something from you, because you have nothing, but in fact I beg for a look from you, a desire and a will so that I give you all the wealth which is life in Me. The measures of My love to you are that I stand at your heart’s door begging for a look from you i.e. I seek that you look at Me so that I give you the entire life because I know your good as I created you to find the full joy and satiety in Me. Whoever does not come to me will die. Therefore, I stand during your entire life saying, “Open for Me, My sister, My dove, My perfect one”.

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will make the Virgin continue what she started to explain to you about the way because you asked for this.

The Lord stopped talking, closed His eyes and turned into light then He disappeared while putting His hand on my shoulder. I felt severe sadness but the Virgin said to me, “You cannot be with Him all the time as seeing Him is a grace He gives to you to make you taste His beauty to attract you to Him but you are not ready yet to be present in His presence all the time. He also wants you to walk in faith. The disciples lived with Him in flesh on earth and walked by sight. Therefore the Lord said to them, “It is your advantage that I go away”. The Lord wants you to walk the entire way by faith and Spirit. He pushes you to run the way to search for Him in order to reach Him quickly. I want now to answer your question about the first three days that lead to resurrection. Everything is explained in the Bible in a very precise way but the scripture is sealed with seven seals. Nevertheless, whoever asks the Lord will open its seals for him. He will then discover that everything was written in front of him but he was like a blind one having the sight but not the insight.

The Lord had explained the entire way in some situations and parts of the Holy Bible. For example, the six days of creation have a full precise explanation about the entire way and the entire Bible i.e. they are a summary of the entire Holy Bible. In Noah’s narration the Lord explains again the entire way. Building the ark which was composed of three levels was the three days leading to resurrection. Painting the ark with tar from within and without is the prerequisite to be prepared for the way. Also, Joseph’s life, dreams of Pharaoh’s beaker and butler are the entire way. Buying the grain with silver, sheep and land is also the entire way. The conflict between David and Saul in First Samuel is the conflict between the flesh and God’s Spirit. The conflict between David and his son Absalom and all his enemies is the conflict of man with his emotions, ego, flesh and all those who surround him and this is the entire way. I will start explaining to you in details the first three days of creation.

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“1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. 3 Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. 4 And God saw the light, that it was good; and God divided the light from the darkness. 5 God called the

light Day, and the darkness He called Night. So the evening and the morning were the first day” (Genesis 1:1-5).

God knows all His children with all their levels since the beginning. Therefore, He put everyone in the suitable time, place and position because He knows the souls He created.

When God created man He gave him a totally free will to choose for himself the way he desires whether the way of sanctity, evil or all spectrums between both. Out of His love, He gave him all commandments and said to him, “For this commandment which I command you today is not too mysterious for you, nor is it far off. It is not in heaven, that you should say, ‘Who will ascend into heaven for us and bring it to us, that we may hear it and do it?’ Nor is it beyond the sea, that you should say, ‘Who will go over the sea for us and bring it to us, that we may hear it and do it?’ But the word is very near you, in your mouth and in your heart, that you may do it’’ (Deuteronomy 30:11-14). [It is meant by the heavens and earth all the spiritual levels that man can reach and were put in front of him by God. He has the freedom to choose the earth that was not put in pleural because God is not preoccupied with levels of evil which are equal for Him].

The instructions given to us by God in order to reach perfection do not start from zero point but from under zero to the infinite. He did not write instructions to reach perfection for a man who would start from the first stage but wrote them for an evil man that no human mind can imagine his wickedness. Even if one lives in evil and hopelessness and begins with God step by step he will surely arrive like how the Lord raised Lazarus from dead after there was a stench as He is the resurrection and life. All what the Lord asked man to do is to take away the stone i.e. to remove all obstacles that hinder reaching to God like the stones

of offence. It was said that the earth was without form. This was out of sin

that affected man who was created in God’s image and likeness. This image is beautiful, pure according to sanctity of His temple. The Bible reminds us that sin has cast down many wounded,

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and all who were slain by her were strong men. He did not say that they were slain by sin because they were weak but rather because they were strong and were not watchful. Gradual development of evil within man brings ruin. This word is used to prescribe a house destructed by fire or flood and ruined by them. Likewise, David was a saint full of God but he did not take heed to watch his relationship with the Lord. Although he was like the cloud he became lukewarm, fell down on the ground, became a mud and was ruined and destructed by sin. This is the meaning of without form.

The word void means that sin made this soul void of the Holy Spirit, His work and any goodness. The Holy Spirit is like a fire that when one abandons it he becomes quenched. Therefore, the Holy Bible says, “Do not quench the Spirit”. The man ruined by sin cannot do good as he becomes void of the source of goodness. He cannot bring fruit because he is empty and void of life.

And darkness was on the face of the deep. God is the source of light and He is the light of the world. Whoever walks another way will walk in darkness. The deep is the union of water with earth 50 % each. It is composed neither of full water nor of full earth. It is a mud or a deep in which anything can plunge. This deep is inconvenient to construct buildings, walk or plant.

This is the image of man who, in his foolishness, abandoned God and got away from Him and His way. It was a sure end for him to become a void, without form and dark earth. But as the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward those who fear Him. Despite all these states man reached yet the Spirit of

God was hovering over the face of the waters. He, in His compassion, left heavens and His throne. In His purity, justice and wisdom He could not dwell on earth. Therefore, He dwells between heavens and earth. He is ready to convert whoever calls upon Him like how He converted Moses the Black and Mary of Egypt.

The Bible said He was hovering over the face of the waters. He stands before us all these years waiting for a look from our side as if He is begging. Jeremiah asked with sad suffering heart saying, “Why should You be like a stranger in the land, and like a traveler who turns aside to tarry for a night? Why should You be like a man astonished, like a mighty one who cannot save? Yet You, O Lord, are in our midst, and we are called by Your name” (Jeremiah 14:8-9).

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He asks in wonder why God accepts such a situation in which He is like a stranger waiting for someone to accept Him in his house as a traveler who turns aside to tarry for night because He has no shelter, “But the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head”? This means that neither the world nor His children received Him in their hearts (He really had no true house to tarry at night). Therefore, the Lord asks us, “Look to Me, and be saved, all you ends of the earth” (Isaiah 45:22). He waits for our entire life. He looks at us with His compassion supplicating us to look at him. Although He is the almighty God, yet our salvation cannot be achieved against our will. This salvation is God’s will to save everyone. He is the King of kings whom angels fear and the entire heaven is impure in His sight. He accepted to take the image of man and is begging us for the sake of our salvation.

God assumes that the ruined earth desires to live with Him, get rid of sin and restore her first image in order to live in light as this is the natural state of any wise intelligent man that finds himself destroyed by sin. Our heavenly Father desires that we return back to Him. Therefore He says to us, “Return to Me,” says the Lord of hosts, “and I will return to you,” (Zachariah 1:3), “Now, therefore,” says the Lord, “Turn to Me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.” So rend your heart, and not your garments; return to the Lord your God, For He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and of great kindness; and He relents from doing harm” (Joel 2:12-13). We only have to return to Him and then He, as the Holy Bible said, will say, “Let there be light” as He is almighty and capable of sending darkness away. We can do nothing like what He said, “For without Me you can do nothing” (John 15:5).

And God divided the light from the darkness. It is not supposed that the one who returned back to God returns again to his previous state or even stays in the same place that reminds him of sin. He rather must leave it. The word divided means that everything was divided into two portions in a process of separation. This means that the first portion is brought away from the second one. They are no more as they were before. St. Mary of Egypt, the repentant, cannot after her repentance turn back to the place she used to live in before that reminds her of her sin. Therefore, the angels who came to save Lot said to him “Escape for your life! Do not look behind you nor stay anywhere in the plain” (Genesis

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19:17). Thus, Lot got out of Sodom and Gomorrah because they were about to be burnt.

The commandment of Jesus Christ to us and to His disciples, “Greet no one along the road” (Luke 10:4) means we must listen not to whoever hinders us for even one step in the way. Jesus Christ said to the wealthy young man who desired to follow Him but after he bid them farewell who are at his house, “No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God” (Luke 9:62).

And God saw the light, that it was good. God was joyful about this salvation about which the Bible said, “there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents” (Luke 15:7). Here, God gave a lot of sacrifices in order to restore man to his first image. He took the image of man and slave, was humiliated, was spitted on, was scourged, was counted among sinners, the whole garrison gathered around Him, stripped Him of His clothing and finally crucified Him like sinners. All this happened because He is love and the source of all love. Therefore, the divine revelation expressed this by saying, “God is love”. “6 Then God said, “Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.” 7 Thus God made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under the firmament from the waters

which were above the firmament; and it was so. 8 And God called the firmament Heaven. So the evening and the morning were the second day”

(Genesis1:6-8)

On the second day means the second step which is the very

important stage of purification in one’s life. Imagine stagnant

water or putrid pool whose water has been rotten along years

and years and where insects, reptiles and animal had died and

disintegrated in its water. Then, how much would be this water

filthy making no one able to look at it or even walk near to it

out of its stench although its original first nature is just water

i.e. pure water coming from union of Oxygen with Hydrogen

which are extremely light gases? Water is transparent and

colorless. Likewise man had been created pure and clean but

his nature had been totally transformed through the awful sin.

Who can imagine that this polluted fetid odor water can be

restored to its first pure image, not only that but also to be

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transformed into water vapor that forms white clouds like ice,

and even brighter than ice, that flies over earth having no

weight and reflecting the sunlight that delight eyes? But how

can this be achieved?

For with God nothing will be impossible

All this can be achieved when the strong sunlight falls upon

this putrid water raising its temperature. Thus, the very pure

water will be evaporated ascending to the highest in a very

wonderful physical process because hot air ascends up because

of his low density. As the process continues, clouds are formed

by the action of the continuous vaporization process. The Bible

reminds us saying, “They have all turned aside. They have together

become corrupt; there is none who does good, no, not one” (Psalms

14:3). , “Just as through one man sin entered the world, and death

through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinned”

(Romans 5:12), “But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in

that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us” (Romans 5:8),

while we were enemies we were reconciled with God “that

whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life”

(John 3:16). He is the hope of those who have no hope, the help

of those who have no helper, the comfort of the fainthearted

and the harbor of those in the storm.

The vaporization process is itself the work of the Holy Spirit in

man. For I was brought forth in iniquity, and in sin my mother

conceived me but the power of the Holy Spirit is capable of this

hard transformation process through repentance, confession

and partaking of the Lord’s flesh “that we should no longer be

slaves of sin” (Romans 6:6). As much as man get closer to God as

much as the Holy Spirit works strongly in him like the sunlight

that falls upon the putrid water to vaporize it. Thus, the

purification process is completed.

God said, “Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters”, which

is the space that separates the water below it (the old man)

from the water above it (the new man) about whom Jesus

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Christ said, “who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh,

nor of the will of man, but of God”. The one who is born of flesh

took actually life from his mother but this life is an earthly life.

He becomes a carnal earthly being born while carrying the first

sin of man. But the new birth given to us by God is from on

high and He said about it, “unless one is born again, he cannot see

the kingdom of God.” (John 3:3). The one born of Spirit becomes

spirit, a part of God or a son of Him by the true nature. The

most amazing is that we become partakers of the divine nature

(2 Peter 1:4).

And God called the firmament Heaven. This is one of the stages of

heavens that God put before man in the beginning of creation

to choose with free will the level he desires to ascend to.

Nevertheless, there is a very important hidden thing. After

cloud is formed, when faced by a cold surface, it is condensed

and turns into drops of water that falls on ground by gravity

forming rains.

This is a very dangerous thing. The water drops cannot ascend above the firmament because they have high density and when they fall down they will turn again. At first, the drops keep their purity in air despite they lose their light, bright white and capable of flying beautiful nature. Nevertheless, they lose not their purity. As soon as they fall down on earth may be they fall in the same putrid pool from which they ascended before and mix with its fetid water again taking its same putrid nature. After this amazing transformation and purification, they turn back again. Even if they fall on the ground, they form unclean mud and sludge because they lose their image that was brighter than ice. Therefore, the Holy Bible reminds us that sin has cast down many wounded, and all who were slain by her were strong men. The Holy Revelation says, “Conduct yourselves throughout the time of your stay here in fear” (1 Peter 1:17), and “See then that you walk circumspectly, not as fools but as wise” (Ephesians 5:15). The book of Revelation tells us about the vision of the four creatures around the throne that are full of eyes. The one, who had been purified, transformed, became brighter than ice like cloud and knew heavens, must be watchful,

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vigilant and full of eyes. He must not think that he arrived and that he will never fall again. The cloud met a cold surface, became water and fell down. Therefore, the Lord warned us not to be lukewarm, to always vigil and to know from where we fell down in order to always get up. The Lord commandment to us in the book of Revelation is, “But hold fast what you have till I come ... He who overcomes shall be clothed in white garments, and I will not blot out his name from the Book of Life ... to him I will give power over the nations ... He shall rule them with a rod of iron ... I will make him a pillar in the temple of My God” (Revelation 2, 3); “Behold, I am coming quickly! Hold fast what you have, that no one may take your crown” (Revelation 3:11).

The words Hold fast what you have means that if the thing I hold in my hand slips down I will lose it. It is a very dangerous thing that one falls after all this toil, transformation and brightness. Therefore, the Lord warns us continuously saying, “Watch therefore, and pray always that you may be counted worthy to escape all these things that will come to pass” (Luke 21:36).

After each day the divine revelation says, “So the evening and the

morning were...” This means regardless of the degree of perfection we reach in every step or stage, we must remember that we were darkness and became in light. We must remember that if we follow the Lord we will then surely arrive to the heavenly city which is our original homeland. We must always remember His saying, “Look to Me and be saved”. Whoever walks not in His way will never reach life for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction.

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There is a very important thing that one must not neglect. The

prerequisite that made the Lord say, “Let there be a firmament” was

that man ought to show the sincerity of his own will by

separating between light and darkness i.e. after he totally went

away from everything that contradicted God’s will as for example

bad friends or any other evil place. Seriousness is required in such

a case. In the beginning, man’s nature will remain in severe hunger

and he will be attracted by nature to the world and the earthly

things in which he used to find pleasure before. If he does not

escape from all these things, standing not in this entire circle, he

will continue committing sin because he is still weak and is in

severe hunger. This was the commandment of the two angels to

Lot. When one offers this sacrifice to God showing it by a full

separation, He pours upon him the grace of struggle and the

power to be transformed, through the grace of God, from water

below the firmament, i.e. bad, rejected, dark, earthly water and

formless void nature, to water above the firmament i.e. to flying

cloud not subjected to gravity like was the first Adam. The words,

“God said, Let there be a firmament” (Genesis 1:6) are meant to

emphasize that the Lord alone is the one capable to grant us the

power to struggle. Therefore, it is written, “For by grace you have

been saved not of works, lest anyone should boast” (Ephesians 2: 8-9).

Through the grace of God, we are capable of everything and

without Him we can do nothing. But His grace is preconditioned

to completion of the first stage of the way which is separating all

old things in our lives for the Lord asked us, “No one, having put his

hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God” (Luke

9:62). The Lord granted cure to the bleeding woman when she

broke through all people forcibly and showed her desire and will

through refusing to continue in her illness in which she was born

which is the weakness i.e. the captivity and curse we were born in

because of the darkness we were walking in. But when she

approached God and touched Him, she was granted the grace of

cure. Whoever really wants to reach God must show the sincerity

of his own will through hard toil, and first of all through

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separation from everything that brings sin to his memory. For it is

written, “How long will you falter between two opinions? If the Lord is

God, follow Him; but if Baal, follow him” (1 Kings 18:21). Also, “The

heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked; who can know

it” (Jeremiah 17:9). The nature of man has been born in hunger.

Because she was not yet satisfied with God in the beginning of the

way she remained hungry. First of all, she must get away from

anything in the world she used before to find her satiety in like the

seed that accepts to be buried. This is the only prerequisite in order

for water to give it life like what the Lord told us, “Most assuredly, I

say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it

remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain" (John 12:24).

Without being buried water cannot even start working in it.

Likewise, whoever does not begin dying to the world and

whoever refuses to separate himself from darkness, the Lord

cannot say to him, “Let there be a firmament” i.e. He cannot start

granting him the grace of struggle and the power of perseverance

through which he can conquer in order to begin walking in the

narrow way in which all saints walked when the Lord granted

them insight and light. They escaped from the world and went to

die to it through the good insight God gave to them. They proved

the sincerity of their will. Therefore, the Lord said to them, “Let

there be a firmament” and granted them grace and power to

struggle in the way as it is written, “Now if we died with Christ, we

believe that we shall also live with Him. For if we have been united

together in the likeness of His death, certainly we also shall be in the

likeness of His resurrection” (Romans 6:8, 5). God pours all this grace

and power upon each man in order for him to struggle in the

likeness of the Lord’s death i.e. to walk like the Lord in the narrow

way not only to get forgiveness of sin but also to be delivered from

the origin of illness which is the weakness that makes one sin all

the time and makes sin present for him. Therefore, it is written,

“Knowing this, that our old man was crucified with Him, that the

body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be

slaves of sin” (Romans 6:6). Everyone must remember that the

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prerequisite of God’s work with man is his struggle to separate

himself from what he used before to find his satiety in, and from

everything that influences and attracts him i.e. the fake satiety

which he thought before that it would bring him satiety. Man

has been created to get satiety from God alone. Therefore, he will

never find his satisfaction in anything else. Whoever drinks from

the world’s water will be thirsty again. Through the insight given

to man by God he will realize the truth. God says everyday to

every soul, “Let there be light” like when He sometimes sent the

angel to stir up the pool’s water. This pool’s water is the nature of

every man born in captivity but the Spirit of God hovers over

every man and stir up by His two wings the water of his life’s old

pool. Whoever responds to the Lord’s knocking and steps in water

first after the stirring of the water will be made well of whatever

disease he has. Whoever opens the door to the Lord will go into

light and this will be the beginning of the way to salvation, cure,

life and resurrection. Then, he will realize that all his last life was

death and perishing. If he would not open his door to the Lord he

would perish. But when he opens to the light he will be convinced

that he must be separated from every darkness like what Moses

the Black, Mary of Egypt and Saul did. God has the power to

transform anyone whatever his sin and weakness, i.e. his captivity,

are. He is the One who will say, “Let there be light”. He grants

power and grace to whoever opens to Him. When He says, “Let

there be a firmament” He is also the One saying, “Let there be and

it will be”. The Lord, even, said to Saul, “It is hard for you to kick

against the goads” meaning that it is hard for you to resist My work

in you which looks like goads i.e. like a strong power that enslaves

and tortures man to make him follow God. But all this happens to

the one who responds to the Lord and begins to prove the sincerity

of his desire. We need only to go to Him and trust that He will put

mud on our eyes which is the creation of insight that God granted

to all saints. It is really a second birth because on the day one sees

the truth he is really born. Before that day, he was like dead people

and like the seed before it is buried. Whoever desires to live in the

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Lord in order the live the purpose God created him for needs only

to open the door to the Lord in order for light to enter and needs to

start giving proofs that he is serious through dying to the world as

it is written, “Since you died with Christ to the elemental spiritual forces

of this world, why, as though you still belonged to the world”

(Colossians 2:20). The Lord said, “You do not belong to the world ...

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things

above, where Christ is, seated ... Set your minds on things above, not on

earthly things ... as it is utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless.

What do people gain from all their labors at which they toil under the

sun? All of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind” (John 15:19,

Colossians 3:1, Ecclesiastes 1:2, 3, 14). What people gain from all

their labors other than reaching God?

The word firmament was mentioned five times on the second day

of creation in order for the Lord to emphasize that we must

struggle to purify our five senses to become like the five wise

virgins who symbolize the soul whose five senses were

enlightened with Christ’s light. This happened because the soul

was filled with the Spirit of Christ through crucifying her flesh and

disciplining it in order to get the world’s water out of every sense.

This is the beginning of entering through the narrow gate through

stopping getting satiety from the first sense which is the sense of

taste and satiety with food. Thus, the Lord told us that when the

famine came during Joseph’s time he told Pharaoh that he ought to

store one fifth of the grain lest all the people would perish in the

seven years of hunger that symbolize the full hunger. One fifth of

the grain represents abstinence of people from eating this part of

the grain. It would be logic that Joseph would store half of the

grain in the first seven years and eat the second half in the seven

years of hunger. Yet, the Lord ordered to store one fifth of the

grain which symbolizes stopping getting satiety through the first

sense. This represents the true fasting through which one saves

himself because through fasting the authority and captivity of the

flesh start to die by stopping obeying it i.e. worshipping it.

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When one disciplines, enslaves, crucifies, becomes estranged from

and put to death his flesh he will become like a man who grinded

the grain to make it flour. Therefore, it will be transformed into a

material capable of mixing with water, and will become bread

that brings satiety to him and to others like the five loaves of

bread that symbolize a soul that has crucified, disciplines, grinded

and put to death her flesh. Therefore, she became able to mix and

unite with God like the seed which was buried and thus started to

be in connection with the source of its life which is water that

started to give it life. Likewise we do. As long as we care for the

flesh, we are in enmity with God as the mind governed by the

flesh is hostile to God because we remain worshiping another god.

How will there be reconciliation between us and God if we obey

another god which is the flesh whose passion we obey?!! As long

as we remain worshiping it we cannot then worship God.

The third day is divided into two parts. In the first part, God

ordered waters to be gathered together into one place in order for

the dry land to appear. This means that He orders with His power

because everything comes to being only by His grace. This is the

full death of man to everything in the materialistic world and his

total separation from the sea of the world. On this day, God

likened the world with the sea and likened man with the land in

which God wanted to plant His word in order for man to bear

fruits. But, because of the dwelling of man in the world and his

mixing with its sea he became like the mud and the deep.

Nevertheless, whenever he starts his struggle by the death of his

flesh i.e. by perishing his outward man he then starts getting the

water of the world out of him day by day. Therefore, the captivity

starts to die and the flesh of sin is abolished i.e. he is delivered

from captivity which is the origin of illness that makes man always

sin. In that day, man’s desire and ego die, those through which he

chose to obey his flesh, Eve and the chief of this world i.e. to

forsake God. Ego’s desire which is the origin of every ruin

destroyed man. Because of obeying his ego’s desire, man obeyed

his flesh and Eve to fulfill his own desire. This means that captivity

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to the ego leads one to obey his flesh, others and anything else. It is

the origin of ruin. Therefore, whoever desires to be restored to

Adam’s pure image must deny himself. This means that one must

not have any special desire but his only desire must be to live for

God and by Him and thus he will live according to God’s will and

not according to his own will i.e. he will obey God’s will and not

his. Therefore, he will no more worship his ego but will start to

worship God in truth. He will then be able to become a member in

God as God becomes the head that leads him not his own will.

How can one who still obey his ego, i.e. worship it, think that he

started worshiping God?!! Therefore, the Lord told us, “If anyone

desires to come after Me, let him deny himself”. This means that if

anyone desires to become a member in Me, i.e. to follow me and

dwell in me, he must not obey his own will anymore and must not

have any other desire in this world except obeying God’s will. This

means he must live for God alone i.e. he must live the purpose that

God gave us existence in order to fulfill. The one who remains

obeying his own will in the minute thing did not yet start

worshipping God as no one can worship two masters at the same

time. Likewise, a member cannot be part of two being at the same

time, i.e. it cannot take orders from two beings. The end of one’s

journey in the narrow way is to deny himself which starts on the

second day after he puts to death his flesh in which he dwells

because flesh is like the wild excited animal that must be tamed

first. While one proceeds in the second day in putting his flesh to

death by disobeying its desires, he at the same time starts putting

to death the worship of his own self. While he crucifies and

disobeys his flesh he also crucifies his own will. This is how the

worship of the flesh and the worship of one’s own self are put to

death. Adam became enslaved to his flesh at the very moment he

obeyed it by obeying his own will. Through stopping obeying the

flesh on the second day, its worship with all its contexts will be

abolished and the Holy Spirit will start to be born and developed

within us day by day. This is, actually, what God came to teach us

and this is what all saints did as they crucified and disobeyed the

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flesh and this was the cause of insight through which God

enlightened them. Thus, they actually started obeying their selves

during the second day. The Holy Bible said, “Even though our

outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by

day” (2 Corinthians 4:16). This means that as the seed has been

buried within the ground, water will begin working in it giving it

a true life instead of the death it was living in. Likewise, the Spirit

of God will be born in this soul that everyday puts to death her

outward man which is the flesh. Also, one’s own desire will die.

This looks like an embryo that starts to grow day by day like the

root that starts to develop as long as the seed remains under the

ground. Likewise, the Spirit of God will start developing within

man after He was born on the first day he crucified his flesh and

his own will i.e. after he stopped worshiping these gods which he

found himself worshipping when born. That is what the Lord

Himself taught us when He lived for 30 years putting His flesh to

death. He grew and became strong in spirit meaning He was

teaching us that the way proceeds gradually. As much as He put

His flesh to death day by day, as much as the Spirit grew day by

day until He was able to accept humiliations; He was oppressed

and He was afflicted, yet He opened not His mouth. He wanted to

show us that when one is filled with the Holy Spirit after He had

been developed within him through a long period of struggle

during the second day, he will then be able to bear any humiliation

with contrition and without opening his mouth. This happens in

order to make him obey God’s will and to refuse obeying his own

will even when all others humiliate and slap him. In order for man

to bear any suffering coming upon him from another one, he must

have a spiritual credit first. Therefore, when one is trained to

crucify his flesh on the second day, the Spirit of God will grow

within him and through this Spirit he will be able, on the third

day, to bear any suffering and to disobey his own will by not

complaining from anything i.e. he will obtain the ability to

discipline his own will and will obtain insight that while he is

doing this he obeys God’s will and not his own one. At this

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specific time, he started to be delivered from captivity by

disobeying his own will as one is enslaved to whom he obeys.

Nevertheless, one cannot stop complaining in the hardest

situations unless he is full of the Holy Spirit. God taught us that in

order for one’s own will to die on the third day, one needs a long

struggle for 30 years after which he becomes able to bear

humiliations silently. This is what the Lord showed to us

practically in Himself to teach us the way of struggle to be

delivered from the origin of ruin and illness and from the captivity

in which we were born. Therefore, it is written that Christ had

suffered in flesh leaving us an example, that we should follow His

steps. This means that the Lord showed us the practical steps that

deliver us from the curse we were born in.

Therefore, the world’s sea will get out of man on the third day, day

by day. The dry land will appear i.e. man will become like a dry

land in which God can plant His word like how Saul of Tarsus was

born and transformed into St. Paul. After the embryo develops for

a certain period, the time due of his birth comes i.e. his

resurrection from the tomb he was in. Thus, the seed, that started

to develop for a certain period under the ground through the root

that sprouted by the power of the effect of water in it, looks like

any man in whom the Holy Spirit started to work. After a certain

period of struggle on the second day toiling in crucifying the flesh

and the ego, and after the outward man perish completely day by

day, the inward man [which is the Spirit of God that started to be

born on the second day through crucifying the flesh] will be

renewed and resurrected on the third day like an embryo that is

born and gets out of his mother’s womb, and like the seed that

sprouts out of the darkness in which it was living to be

transformed into a plant that takes its way to light after three days

of struggle. Likewise, our Savior resurrected from the tomb on the

third day in order to teach and remind us with what He has

written in the Bible that achieving the first image, i.e. returning

back to Adam’s pure image in which he was free, is completed

after three days of struggle up to bloodshed. After that, one can

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bear fruits of the Holy Spirit. Likewise, God’s word was implanted

in Saul who was transformed into Paul and who was dead before

like the dead seed. But when he put himself to death like the seed

which was buried, the Holy Spirit started to work in him. After he

made his outward man perish, his inward man was delivered until

he was resurrected on the third day with the Lord who promised

us, “For if we died with Him, we shall also live with Him ... For if we

have been united together in the likeness of His death, certainly we also

shall be in the likeness of His resurrection” (2 Timothy 2:11;

Romans 6:5). No one can deny himself, i.e. can pass the third day,

except after passing the second day. No one can have a desire

other than God’s desire and become fully humble except through

the work of the Holy Spirit who dwells in him for a certain period

on the second day through continuous fasting and prayer.

Humility is one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit i.e. is a consequence

of the work and dwelling of the Holy Spirit within man after a

long period of struggle. This was what happened with many

people like Saul of Tarsus who started to bear the fruits of the

Holy Spirit when he preached all over the world after he was dead

at first. He also started to preach because these are the fruits that

come after a long stage of struggle. This is the light that enlightens

the world with Christ’s light that filled all his soul like what he

himself said, “It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me”

(Galatians 2:20). But he said this after he said, “I have been crucified

with Christ” i.e. I started to live, move and exist through Christ

who was born in me.

When the Lord says, “Let there be light” and man’s heart sees all the

truth, he can no more return back to the world or get his satiety

from it again. He clearly sees the truth that states that all the

world’s water and desire are destructive because they increase

captivity. This means that as much as man seeks his satiety from

the world as much as his captivity to his flesh increases. Therefore,

whomever God enlightens feels ashamed to return back to eat the

pods and to accept remaining enslaved to gods that are not gods in

nature. He cannot accept again to remain like beggars who beg for

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alms out of severe poverty and hunger in which he was before

seeing the real wealth and the only satiety which are the pleasure

of the Lord who can give satiety to every man born in hunger. This

was what the unjust steward said when God enlightened him, “I

am ashamed to beg” (Luke 16:3) and I cannot dig i.e. I cannot

search for another job after I realized that I must work only not for

the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to

everlasting life i.e. I must struggle to reach the purpose for which

God created man. This is the mystery that made all saints

escape from the world in the moment their insight was

enlightened and they realized the truth as it is written,

“And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free” (John

8:32). On the day when all saints escaped, God said to them, “Let

there be light”. He shone upon them with the full truth. Therefore,

they saw the entire truth which states that the entire world is

meaningless and vain like the wind and that seeking to obtain any

worldly thing looks like one who runs after a phantom or who

tries to grasp the wind. This whole life is a mere period of testing

and choosing. It will pass like a shadow that man can obtain

nothing in. As it is written “grasping for the wind”, saints realized

that unless they struggle in the narrow way they will compromise

the eternal presence with God just for the sake of a shadow.

Therefore, they forsook the shadow in order for themto remain

with the Truth. They refused to remain begging in hunger and

poverty after they discovered the full satiety and weath.