DEDICATION

To my creator and savior GOD. To my mother who always encourages me to do my

best, my daughter who always believed in me, my husband who always been a supporter

of all I do in life and to my family and friends that have supported me in the making of

this book and in life. Thank you and I will never forget you.

ACKNOWLEDGEMNTS

Thanks you God, for giving me the ability to read and write, thank you all of staff of Publish America for giving me a chance of a life time and the opportunity to be heard.

Thank you for being a friend and helping me become a better poet Marcia.

Very special thanks to my family and friends that always believed in me and in everything, that I do in life. Thanks to all the bookstores that hold my book for others to enjoy, your support means so much to me. Much love to mother who created me and never stopped believing in me, To my special friends I will never forget your words of encouragement.

I am especially grateful to my daughter Kadiya Smith whom, sat down with me each week and read all my poems out loud for me and told me “Mom these are great, I can’t wait until your book comes out” and last but not least my husband who encourages me every day to be a better wife, mother and happy person. I love you so much.

Fiordaliza Charles

LOVE INDEED...

Not spending your nights aloneYou want to redo everything

Their words activate your soulYour days are no longer cold

Time seems to go so fastFeel complete when they get back

Taste their kisses in the windYou think of futuristic things

Awakening with them on your braincan't go a day without talking to them

Feels like something is missing the whole dayUntil the moment they show up again

You believe in them, no matter what others sayNo one can't break you apart

You know they are your soul mate from the startThey will forever, remain in your heart

IS OVER WHEN...

There is nothing left to be saidWords that you said can't be replaced

You wish the day was overThey give you their cold shoulder

You wish that you was elsewhereWhen you look at them, there is no one there

Nothing else they say make you smileYour mind is filled with so much doubt

Arguing becomes the new way to talkYou want to take shorter walks

You don't miss them throughout the dayYour heart is filled with cry-full pain

Everything becomes more than what it isPuzzled with questions deep within

When your body no longer wants their affectionand your heart is no longer at attention

SORRY...

I thought you had my backuntil the very end

as I would done for youyou was my own best friend

Your sorry, for no thinkingbefore your actions

you hope that I forgive youbut got a different reaction

Trust is so hard to obtainbut, harder to maintain

It all went down so fast for uslike a house burning down in flames

Please don't go, you asked mebut, I never felt this hurt

I was not good enough for you thenSorry, will just not work

THE GAME...

Is in this gameYou were so mixed

Believe it you was thereShe took your soul everywhere

She fooled you into believingYou needed her to survive

But, she destroyed your man hoodWith everything you tried

At the point, that you met heryou were married to the streets

instead of your lonely wifeWho what’s there for you in need

In the game, you got lostand she still remains the samethat's the last we heard of youmessing around with cocaine

TORN...

From the moment we met, you took my heart and ran with it

I should of listened to my friends when they said you was no good

but, I thought real deep with-inThat you was just miss-understood

I should of seen it coming apart, because of all the lies

You played games with my heart and had the perfect alibi

I can’t believe what you saidand that you just made me sad

You left me so puzzled and all I wanted was your love

I wanted to stay in your arms but, what can I do now

Sit around and wait againFor you to come back somehow

I know we lost all that we had, how could I ever be mad

I finally get to say goodbye, poof !!! be goneNo, I don't feel angry any morebut, my heart feels like is torn

C.H.A.R.I.T.Y

Coins, dollars and water bottlesI see y'all give them away

I'm hungry and thirstyMay I please have some today?

I apologize, did not see your thereI want to go home but, where?

The train and buses I do not ownbut, where else can I call home

I need some money, is not for drugsCan you see that I am just lost?

I need to feed my childrenbut, I can’t afford the cost

Tomorrow is another dayI'll stop begging y'all for nowThank you for all you givingand see you again somehow

DON'T SAY GOODBYE

Where there is love, there is a tomorrowIt is your love that I will fallowPlease be mines without a fightPromise you'll make it alright

I will love you alwaysI will never leave your sight

Please say that you will be minesand love me until the end of time

No one will ever replaceThe good and the love we share

It will never fade awaybecause, it will always be there

It is you that I adorePlease don't you walk out that door?Don't say good-bye, don't you leave

I need you here for eternity

WITH YOU

The sun never been this brightthe skies never seem so clear

the winters never been this warmuntil the day you appeared

My days never felt so shortmy heart never been this jumpy

I ache at the thought of your kissesyour lips is what I been missing

Thank you, for all that you give mefor your words of courage and wisdom

for being so thoughtful to meand giving me your love endlessly

Without you, I feel so emptymy days never the same

I pray, you will always be hereand our love forever remains

I'M YOURS

I give you my allheart, body and soul

tell you my best kept secretsand anything that's missing

I give you myselfcomplete and truthfullyI'll give you anything

and everything you need

I pray for us each dayI say each prayer with grace

I finally found someonewho puts a smile on my face

I am yours, today, tomorrow and alwaysyou cannot be replacedyour all I'm thinking ofeach day that I awake

BODY OF LOVE

My FaceLights up lights up when I see yours, smiling back

at meMy Eyes

Will not blink for a second, because I don't want to miss anything

My NoseLoves to have you close to me so, that I can smell

your cologneMy Legs

Tremble at the thought of you and the sound of your sexy voice

My HandsHave to hold your hands each day so, that I can

feel safe againMy Lips

Can't wait to kiss yours again because they are as sweet as candy

My EarsLike to hear you say my name because, it sounds

special coming from youMy Heart

Feels so empty when we are apart because, you carry pieces of my heart

DEEP

I gave up on loveI said I'll never love again

Love was long gone from my systembut, you showed me what I was missing

I felt it deep in my heartMaybe, everything else was apartNow, I'm swimming like a doveCan you blame me I'm in love

Love never entered this wayMy heart never felt this greatI thank God for you each day

and, that I found in you my soul mate

Deep into this ocean of loveI never thought I would dive so hard

Now, there is nothing we can dobut, wish that we never part

REST IN PEACE

All this time I tried to change youI should of loved you for you

You always loved me the sameDespite of what we've been through

They say you never knowWhat you got until is gone

You were a star to many of usWho now feel so alone

You made a difference in our livesOur hearts will never forget you

You are one of a kindNo one could ever replace you

Our hearts are now brokenNo one could mend it together

I know, today I have to say goodbye to youbut, it will not be forever

CAPTURED

You have something of minesThat I guarded all this time

Your words broke down my wallsI feel just like a new born

How can I ever go backMy heart loved you from the start

Loving you made me feel so completeWith out you I can not breath

You make me feel I can flyLike the world belongs to us

I feel like a child at playFor the first time in a park

Tell me you will never leave meThat our love will always stayToday, tomorrow and always

We will forever remain

SCARED

Some say love hurtswell, I feel the pain

I can't get the feeling out my brainThe one that makes my heart strain

You say that you love me, In conclusionHow come I can't see it ?How come I can't feel it ?

All I seem to know is confusion

I feel lost and aloneNo reason for us to remain

All we have is painful memoriesOf what we had to sustain

I thought we would never endYou and I was were never meant

Now all I do is regretThat day that we ever met

WHAT IF...

We did not ever meet

Held on to each other deep

Apart we were meant to be

Togetherness never comes

It was all a physical attraction

Forever is not what we want

We do not see eye to eye

Hurting each other more every time

Always make each other cry

True love we never find

It was not all that we expected

Forever we get lost in the world

We had no one to blame for our actions

How can we ever forgive each other

All that we had fades away

Today we change our ways

If we let our love go to waste

Friends we will remain

LOST -N- FOUND

We stared at each other for a brief moment

The world just stopped moving

Maybe it was me

but, when you looked at me, I just knew it

I found myself a real soul mate

I miss you more each day

Can not wait to have you by my side

I fallen so deep, I cannot lie

You've showed me a new way

You make me feel so complete

Maybe, it was just for that night

but, everything felt so right

My love will always be yours

Where ever you are, I'll follow

Because in you I found myself

and hope for tomorrow

WHY SHOULD I CARE...

Can you give me a reason

why tears have not stop falling

why my mind is still in shock

and my heart you were controlling

You want to continue or restart

like this love of ours is a game

why should I care what you want

If all you do is break my heart

Giving all my love to you

respecting your wishes and trusting you

I gave you my heart to hold forever

You take it for granted? Never

I'm glad we ended this fight

everything will be alright

I'm done with living a lie

I no longer want to try

I SHOULD OF KNOWN

If I listened to my heartIt was visible like a star

you will never be true to meshould of known that from the start

Deep feelings of regrets and beyondI should of went with my thoughts

said it will not last foreverI guess I was not that clever

Now I'm sitting here. Alone and confusedlost for words and feeling used

but, I have to think of tomorrowto a place where there is no sorrow

I never should of took it thereeven though my heart for you still caresbut, now I have to make it back home

without you, I should of known

GOODBYE NEW YORK

Goodbye New yorkCity of SorrowI'm moving on

Happiness I will fallow

Hello sweet countrygreat things all around

Is a different air and a solid groundI feel all the love now

Love is in the airI know I feel it all

I declare today, I will never returnGoodbye again New York

THE ONE

He is not short, nor too tallI perfectly fit into his armsHis smile drives me insane

I melt away when I hear his name

He is one of a kind and so uniqueHis smile make me so weak

He makes me feel extra specialGlad I found my hidden treasure

He never argues or complainsHe wants to give me his last name

I'm number one in his lifeHe pleasures me with his mind

The one, reaches my soulHe makes my body feel whole

He is all that I ever wantedSo lucky my wish was granted

ABC OF LOVE

A-Are we there yet.? I hope that we make it last

B- Because I'm ready to start loving you all over again

C- Come give me all your love as I will give you mines forever

D- Don't ever leave my sight because you are the one

E- Everyday we have each other and all that life unfolds

F- Forever I will remain yours completely

G- Give me all you have to offer don't cheat me

H- Have trust in me and that I wont hurt you

I- In deep oceans of love we will always swim

J- Juggling our hears together and never dropping any part

K- Kisses from the heart that we share together even when we're apart

L- Loving each other like the love of romeo and Juliet

M- Making it last for eternity, thanks for being heaven sent

N- No one can break us apart, we are meant to be together always

O- Only you hold the key that can open my heartP- Perfect match made in heaven, no one can break

us apartQ- Questions of doubts never enter our minds, the

truth our heart holdsR- Righteous and sacred the love we share and it

will always be thereS- Smooth and silky skin that asked to be caressed

T-Together forever and always we will always remain

U- Unbreakable like no other our love will always remains

V-Valentines never been a holiday, because every day is the same for us

W-Without you I feel lost and confused, I know that you feel it too

X- X is to cross off the word pain, which we will never feel

Y-You are my everything and more than I ever imagined

Z- Zippered I am to your heart and I am glad we never grew apart

IT WAS LIFE...

It was a beautiful dayI notice the way you spoke

I felt the love in the airIt was stronger then I ever known

I continued to see the lightI held my fears inside

I did not want to hurt againI felt that once in my life

I wondered what you were thinkingI looked at you as you started speaking

I gave you all that you neededIt all started on that weekend

I am sitting hear reminiscingI love the way my heart meltsI am so glad that I found you

It was life that I felt

“HOLD ON”

Whispers of sweet loveYour kisses is all I wantedNo one compares to you

Like a wish you was granted

I spent all my life awayNow, I'm here by your side

I pray that we never partI know you wont break my heart

I will always be here for youAs long as you hold on too

The night that you said “I love you”All my wishes have came true

So unreal, this feelingMy heart feels so brand new

I cant imagine lifewithout the sight of you

NEVER PART...

The day finally arrivedand boy, was I surprised

I looked into his eyes and felt so pleasedthen he got down on one knee

He asked me, will you marry me?I said yes, instantly

There was nothing to think aboutI love him without a doubt

The question was answeredAs the days went by we elopedYou can see we truly are in love

Everyday we see it grow

Now we completed each otherWith every piece of our heart

We took a bow to love one anotheruntil death, do us apart

LOVE HURTS

Some say love is like a pleasurethat it feels like a hidden treasure

can you truly love someoneand not have been through the pressure

Love can hurt you in so many wayslove can leave you in a dazeget prepared for was aheador it can leave you for dead

Love never feels like is realIs like you been drench by the rain

don't be surprised your in loveIt will never be the same

If is real love, you will nearly go insanelove will never leave your brain

It will never save your heartThat's why it hurts from the start

S.T.R.A.N.G.E.R.S

Our paths will always bring us backthe love we shared was made to lastit will never seized from our soulsbecause we still care through it all

Separated since an early ageeveryday that passed we felt the pain

today, tomorrow and alwayslets not wait until is too late

For many years my tears they flowedIt showed me that our love was strong

never imagined that it will take this longto be together now that we are grown

I saved myself for youMy heart will never be untrue

face the fact that your in-love with meand strangers we'll no longer be

REAL LOVE

The night was still youngbeautiful as our new love

we held each other for so longIt was magic all day long

Our spirits joint togetherour mind,body and souls awoke

we knew it from the startthis love was meant to embark

We were both gentleas we should have acquired

falling into a deep ocean of loveand full of wet desires

As we joined together as onewe said, I love you at once

I'm glad we saved the best for lastwhen I love you said it back

E.M.O.T.I.O.N.S

Like the bees and flowerstogether we go

whispers from the windbring us back home

Surrender your heart to mebecause, I will never hurt youmy words reveal my true soul

Our love will always grow

The winters are never coldOur love makes the sea blue

no matter what we go throughmy heart will belong to you

I'll look for you when I'm lostbecause you are my guideI want to be by your sideeven if we both shall die

NOT A DREAM...

Standing in front of meI could not blink my eyesAfraid that if I close them

I will lose this beautiful site

I just wanted to be heldyou did and then you left a spell

throughout the years our love grew strongerour hearts knew who was their owner

Now here we are in lovesome where to call our ownin your arms I feel so warmwishing I never be left alone

The memories of this momentwill always remain in my heart

it was real at first sightand this love for you I can't deny

UNHAPPY HOME

HappinessWhat is that ?

You smile for a while then back to a frown

There is no happiness, not in this homefilled with no trustand no one to hold

Trying to remember, the good times we sharedand it brings me right back

to the days that you never cared

Happy home is what I'm afternow I just want to go back

to the happy home we once had

I FEEL IT

I feel it, deep with inyou got me, under your spell

a love like this I never feltyou stole my heart right from under my belt

I can not concentrate on nothing elseI cant sleep when we are apart

finally found someone that makes it lastthank you for being the best I had

I said I would never love againbut I cant imagine my life without youeverything has changed for the betterI will be with you in every weather

I feel the love deep inside my soulI know that you are the one

please, don't give my love awayand we will forever remain

HEALING

Needing affectionwanting to be caressed

I felt so luckyunlike the rest

Tell me your secretslets talk about usgoodnight kisses

and midnight hugs

Is like valentinesthrough out the years

no more sadness insideor unhappy tears

healing has begunthe one I truly feel safe with

I thought you knew that I was blueHealing can only come from you

IS IT OVER ?

Can we talk?the world has became so cold

no need to stick around and feel strangeour love is now filled with pain

Do we really need to forget?Our body language says we not ableSeeing each other feeling miserable

will not make it go away

Don't you wish that we've never met?I never felt this sad inside

How will I ever replace what we hadMy heart wants to forget you last

Is it over, will it last ?Will we just regret our past

our love is to strong to be outgrownLets just go back to the place we used to call home

ALL, I HAD

I gave you my ALLbut you took everything I HAD

this love we shared turned into PAINI just no longer feel the SAME

I'm giving up on us once and for ALLI miss my past and all I HAD

the chain is now broke I'm no longer in PAINand you are free to roam, is never the SAME

Today I freed my heart, I done with it ALLI said goodbye to a love I HAD

wish I never felt the PAINI'm done with fighting to keep feeling the SAME

Think of me, I will forget it ALLwhen you miss the joy in your life we HAD

when you feel alone and in PAINI will never go back to the SAME

I NEVER KNEW

When love is gone it takes your soulnothing you do makes you feel wholeIt takes your heart and flips it away

You never trust the same again

I opened my eyes, to find your not thereNo one looking at me, no breathing on my neck

only the molds of your body where you once laidthe bed is so cold, I felt like if I was dead

I haven't been the same since you leftI thought we were inseparable

that nothing will ever get between usI never saw it coming, Now stop and think

I am here to declare my loveI never knew I would feel this way about you

I cant help the way I feel so coldplease bay will you just come back home

BABY BLUES...

I can not wait to see your smileYour soft hands holding my finger tight

waking up endlessly through out the nightjust to make sure that you alright

I want to kiss your little cheekssitting there so rosy and pink

you as cute as a button with beautiful skinkeeping you safe from hurtful things

I want to give you daddy's last nameand my last will be the same

I will love you foreverno one could ever replace you

I am crying out to the worldsend me an angel from above

until that day comes, I will just be blueand sit right here and wait for you

MY ALL

I wrote you a letterthought it was much clever

to tell you how I feelthe love I have for you is so real

Do you love me for mebecause, I love you for youyour all that I ever wantedlike a real dream come true

You are my everythingI will never cause you pain

take me in your armbefore I go insane

Give me all of youIll give you mine all in return

For you I will conquer the worldbecause, you are my all

MY DEFINITION OF LOVE

Saying the words through your eyesyour heart speaks from itself

being apart makes you want to crybecause you need them by your side

knowing that one day is not enoughfeeling they are completely yours

you cant wait to sign on the dotted linewhere your name becomes one of a kind

Never having to say your sorryNot feeling emotionally usedJoy and laughter comes easy

Never feeling confused

Feeling like you won the lottobeing together for today and tomorrow

everyday feels like a glove

knowing they were sent from above

HE MAKES ME...

He makes meSmile, cry and dream all in oneLaugh, joyful and happy insideThis one really stole my heart

He makes meFeel like the world is always ours

Feel like I'm under misty rain showersFeel secure about tomorrow

He makes meStop thinking negative thoughtsUnderstand the woman he lovesFeels as pretty as an angel above

He makes meWant more of his love each day

Look at the stars in a different wayLove myself and love him the same

MISSING YOU

Sitting here reminiscingwhat could I have done different

we can just turn back the hands of timeto a place where you was mines

Things have changed between usthere is no denying that

look back at the times we sharedit was ticking like a clock

I want it back, me and youuntil the time stop ticking again

I want everything to remainI will love you until my dying day

I miss you baby, please come back homegive me your heart, body and soul

don't leave me out in the rainwith out you I'll go insane

STOLE

I remember at one timeNo one could get to my heart

It was not that I was shyI just did not want to cry

My heart was blocked from abusedFeeling lost and misused

You made feel you was trueand I never felt confused

This was not supposed to happenWhat have you done to me?Loving you is so easy to do

My days with you are never blue

I wanted this for so longMy heart feels like it's own

I'm stronger then I've ever beenThankful that my heart you stole

BROWN EYES

I look into his brown eyesand I see our future indeed

clearly and so much that I couldn't beforethis is the man that loves me forever more

I look into his brown eyesand it makes me realize wow

many days that went byand I never felt how I feel now

I look into his brown eyesand he looks deep into mines

memories come back of our many happy timeshe has never made me cry

I look into his brown eyesall that I can do is smile

he makes me feel brand newlike a new born baby child

FEELINGS...

What are they really formost people just

leave them at the door

Why make up then is all overtowards the end

reality bites so hard that you can evenbe their friends

why should anyone caresoon enough they disappear

all the years wastedwith nothing to show but tears

If love is not what you wantdon't keep that person aroundmake sure they keep a smile

and not making them just frown

Feelings that is all we haveyou can place them in your path

never to return backsay goodbye and just leave it in the past

UN-PRETTY

Yes, you have a long noseYes, you have some big lips

what about the beautythat only grows from within

Looking for perfectionfor the world to never see

what about what your aboutcan they see that in a crowd

Everyone seems big on beautyoutside in the public eyes

what about that heart of goldthat we all possess inside

Can people see that you crycan people see your aloneis not for them judge youonly the one from above

TEMPTATION

There you was, standing before melike someone who did not know me

but, I knew I wanted you to be minesIt was all over my face and mind

You looked at me and I looked awaydid not want you to see that it was written all over

my faceI wanted you for just a while

you always make me want to smile

I kissed you once in a dark alleybut, it was all just a dream

then you woke me up when you said my namebut, I never felt the same

As you told me, you had the same dreamI wanted to be your fantasy

giving myself to you as I mentionedbut it was all just a temptation

TAKE ME AWAY

Take me awayFrom all this painfrom all the stressfrom all the cries

I want you nowone day at a time

in a class of our ownwhere are bodies will unfold

Give me all of youstay by my side

make me feel good insidetake me to ecstasy with your eyes

Take me in your new worldkeep me safe from harm

don't ever leave or let me golets go to places nobody knows

A POEM FOR MY CHILD

Tiny feet and tiny handsI promise to love you with all I have

I'll make sure your always safe and warmYou are unique, like no other one

You are such a beauty inside and outmy memories of you will never fade

from the first time I held youI knew you were specially made

Growing up now, so fast in this cold worldI hope that you will always remember

mommy, loves you no matter whatbecause you are a piece of my heart

DEAD WITH IN..

Where is my heartwhere is my soul

you took it alland then you was gone

I feel nothing insidemy tears all cried outangry is not the word

I'm torn up in pieces you know

Finally I came to realizeyou never loved me

how cant I be so blindnow I'm sitting here lonely

Dead with inmy souls in not completehow can you be so cruel

and tell me that you love me

NOT ANYMORE

You said it firstI saved your soul

bur, I love you was just wordsyou showed me how to be so cold

you filled me with broken promisesyou told me this would not happenhow come I feel lost and confused

bruised heart and confused

I thought you loved me for realbut that's not how I feel

my thoughts got to painful momentsall this seems just unreal

Give me my heart backI don't want to be with you

we are not meant to belook at what you put me through

MY LOVE...

Is unconditional, is so unrealI give you my heart and soul

You can make it all yoursforever, is all I know

Give me your heart to make my ownI will never let you down

you will smile like a clownI will always be around

Sweet kisses and hugsmake you feel secure each dayI will never try to change you

and be here for you always

My love, is what you wantmy loving good from the startno one will ever change that

because you are my better half