Out of my Heart

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Out of My

Heart

Beneth Musiime a .k.a Akoola

2009-10 Poem c ollec tion


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Beneth Musiime

Out o f my hea rt is my first

book! It s a c ollec tion of p oems,

ma inly about love and life in

general.

Am mostly insp ired by my

surround ing s, hoverer some

poems, just hit my mind and I just write them down.

I have b een running a b log

http :/ / akoo la .wordpress.c om for over a yea r. And

am so p lea sed with all of you that pa id me a visit

and most of all written to me enc ourag ing me to

keep writing.

Out o f my hea rt is my g ift to you to share w ith

those a round you.

Thanks for being there, and pushing me on. Ma y the

good Lord ric hly bless you.

Beneth.


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Look a t me

Sitting here all p retty yet you don t see

The fa c t tha t Im d oing nothing with my life

Im no t anyone s wife, instead Im ha ving fun

My life is not done, a t lea st a m b etter tha n you

And there s nothing you can say or do

Gosh a m tired of lies,

You say am good when you d on t believe in you

ow n words.

You ha te the fac t tha t Im alive,

Yet a m trying to survive,

I strugg le like any othe r ma n on earth

You re my numb er one fa n,

Instea d of ha ting the fa c t,

Just emb rac e it,

Denying it won t chang e a thing.

Am p retty, wha t a p ity

Your loss no t mine

So look a t me now.

By Beneth, 12/ 05/ 2010


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Am shining

Am like a litt le b ird ,

Tha t has just lea rnt to fly,

So many words a flapping in my mouth

I wish you w ere listening in.

I don t have a ll I need,

Yet I b lame no bod y,

I don t know if I should hate this or love it?

For Happ iness is a lways c ut short b y SAD moments

Am shining,

May be not for long ,

Anyhow, who c ares?

This is my moment,

If am to bright

Dont b lam e me,

Get shades

By Beneth, 12/ 05/ 2010


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A c ry of my heart

My fa c e is sta ined with tears,

I don t think you und erstand me,

For you think I have a ll you c ould eve r wa nt

I need to know how it feels,

To be a wife,

To b e a mo ther,

To ra ise a family of my own

To b e a cknowled ged and known

Are yo u still wond ering?

Wond ering , why I c ry?

I ha ve told myself to stop c rying ,

I wish I could listen

Is tha t too muc h to ask?

How long must I wa it?

No short c ut,

So I got to wa it,

Just like a baby wa its for sunrise to p lay

Help me Lord ,

As I wa it fo r the sun.

By Beneth, 12/ 05/ 2010


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The one and only

I felt my hea rt drop ,

As I wa tched you go

It s like I d ied that moment.

My hea rt, poor hea rt,

Nothing ma tters anymore!

No laughter, joy, or ha pp iness

May be am g iving up too fast?

May be he w ill come bac k?

Was tha t the one and only one for me?

Did I lose my cha nce for ha ppy-ever a fter ?

These questions a re killing me.

Oh God, Tell me

Was he

Was he one a nd only?

I hop e he wa s not,

For I have a grea t love to sha re.

And still I need love in my life.

By Beneth, 12/ 05/ 2010


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Mr. Gentle Hash

He c ame to my life,

Like a wind tha t harms no p lant,

Gently my hea rt opened ,

Like a flower opens to the rain

Soon, everything was fishy,

The c are, faded awa y,

Without warning !

My hea rt was left hang on a sp ider rop e

Assured of fa lling and b rea king

I don t even have a c hanc e to p lea my c ase

Or even a sec ond hea ring.

Something will forever be misund erstood ,

I wish our eyes can see into the hearts of o the rs,

Ma y be then I will understand

All the questions he left in my heart

Muc h as I want a knife in my hands

All I c an d o is to shake o ff the mad,

Life seems to have more in sto re.

By Beneth, 12/ 05/ 2010


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Tired of love songs

Every time I turn on the rad io,

A love song is playing .

Every time I turn on the TV,

A love song is playing .

Am tired of the love songs,

Am tired of love shows,

ta lks, books, ads, moves

Whatever, am tired of it

As lovers enjoy each other s c omp any,

Exc ha ng e hugs, kisses and a ffec tion,

Does anyone care what the lone ly do?

Am tired of the love songs,

They ma ke the lonely more lonely,

And they c a ll them love songs!

I would love to listen to the rad io,

Watc h the TV,

But not the love songs,

Am tired of love songs.

By Benie 01/ 02/ 2010

Am not sure where I got the insp ira tion to write this


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Old b ed of mine

Moved to a new a new house,

Running from our house,

Our memories

Our house

where a ll our memories were c rea ted

Memo ries I have fa iled to push behind .

This old bed of mine,

Lying on it,

Takes me to wha t I was running from

This old bed of mine,

La id the w ay you want it,

The p illows

Placed where you wa nt them,

On this old b ed of mine,

I feel you lying b eside me,

Yet as I mo ve to hold you,

Ma y be to kiss you,

All I touc h is a p illow!


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To forget you,

I ha ve to lose,

All tha t I sha red with you

Memo ries make me lonely,

Yet a m not rea dy to forget you,

I will keep this old b ed of mine,

Hold ing on to a hope,

That one day,

We ll sta rt where w e stopped .

By Benie

01/ 02/ 2010

Music c an d rive you to any imagina tion

Well tha t is wha t I c ould write a fter a song.

I forgot the title though ma ybe it was Past

memories


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Crush

My heart skipped

At a glance at you

You c aught me looking a t you,

And the best I c ould was to smile

That a ttrac ted you to me.

Hard ly d id I know

Tha t, that little thing would end up into sleep less

nights

All I think of is, you

All I d ream of, is you

All I see, is you

In everything I set my eyes on

I have tried to fight this

As well as enjoying the mo ment

Of this c razy feeling


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However it ha s c rossed the line,

Am losing my mind ove r you

It s d riving me c razy

And I have to fight it,

This time,

Ge t rid of it

And free my soul

I got a c rush on you,

But one question is

When will it go a way?

Wish I ca n turn pa ges backwards,

I wo uld op en to before I met you.

By Benie

29/ 12/ 2009


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Love sec rets

Years have passed

Me and you as best o f friend s

Ma y be tha t is a ll I am to you,

A b est friend ,

And a m gra teful

For ha ving you a s a friend

Today I have to sha re

This sec ret o f mine with you

Am in love with you,

For a long time,

You have b een that to me

Today,

You needed to know

This love sec ret of m ine,

By Benie

29/ 12/ 2009


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Sec retos de Am or

Han pasado los aos

Yo y usted lo mejor de los amigos de

Pued e ser que es todo lo que soy para ti,

Un mejor amigo,

Y estoy muy agradec ido

Para c onta r c on usted c omo un am igo

Hoy tengo q ue comp artir

Este sec reto de la mina con ustedes

Estoy enamorad a de ti,

Durante muc ho tiempo,

Usted ha sido que a m

Hoy,

Usted nec esita saber

Este sec reto amo r mo,

Por Benie

29/ 12/ 2009

The d ay am to lea rn a new langua ge,

it w ill be Spanish.


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One night to remember

The wind is c alm

Your ha nd in m ine

We ta ke the slope

The sta rs a ll shining

Birds singing softly

And it s just you a nd I

Looking a t you

You re smiling

Am c omforted

Step by step

You g uide my feet

In every move I ma ke

Holding on firm to my little hand ,

And c arrying me up

For the steps I missed

Tha t is one night to remember,

You c aring and p rotec ting me

By Benie

28/ 12/ 2009


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Just for me

With strips on your bac k

I was hea led

With three na ils,

I was saved

You re rejec ted

For me to be loved

You d ied ,

For me to live

All tha t just fo r me,

Tha nks for loving me.

By Benie,

01/ 12/ 2009


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Long , long time

Long, long time

Is what I have wa ited for

Counting

From sun rise to sunset,

From moonlight to d awn

I have wa ited .

Long, long time

Is how long I have wa ited for you,

Just to sha re this life with you

I have wa ited ,

From one season to a nother,

From one harvest to another,

From me to us,

I have w a ited for eac h moment

It ha s been a long, long time

By Benie

01/ 12/ 2009


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Shine on

Every c and le shines,

No matter the size,

Small or la rge

Every cand le burns down,

It melts to the hea t,

Yet it lights up the darkness a round it,

And c ompla ins not

Shine on,

I say to you,

I say to myself,

Work at our best,

And shine o n, and on.

Burn down,

It can t be a voided ,

Shining is worth the hea t,

So lets shine,

Shine on.

By Benie

28/ 11/ 2009


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Hopeless, Hope on.

Hopeless is a ll tha t is sa id,

Yet to hop e-less

Is to a c c ep t dea th,

To live is never to g ive-up,

But to hope on

The wa lls press in,

Closing you within,

But you hop e on.

Hopeless,

Walk in the sto rm,

You drow n the rag ing wa ves,

But to hope is to hold on

the weakest p lant

to save your life

Hopeless, look,

The tower c rumbling on you,

But hope

runs to a sa fe c orner

By Benie

28/ 11/ 2009


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You g ot to slowdown

I feel like a b ird in the a ir,

Eager to fly high and higher

He says, you ha ve to slow down

When the music is roc king

And I feel like shaking it o ff,

He says slowdown

When my hea rt is burning with anger,

And Im b iting my lips to keep c a lm

He says slowdown

When a m pressed in a c orner,

My sea t is getting hot,

And I fee l like sc reaming on top of my voic e

He says, Slow down

When I feel like fighting,

With every litt le streng th I have

Crash eve rything d ow n

He says slowdown.

You ha ve to slow down, baby

you do nt want to do anything

you may regret.

By Beneth

04/ 09/ 2009


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Protec t me

Prote c t m e

dea r lord .

Prote c t m e

from this enemy within me.

He is strong

and he fights from w ithin me.

His words hurt me,

they pierc e me

like sha rp knives into my skin

And he spea ks with no end .

My heart feels torn apart

and so wea k.

This enemy lord ,

has a lready broken

into my kingdom.


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And he ha s left me with

no escape door.

Protec t me lord

from myself,

guide my thoug hts,

speech

and ac tions.

Protec t me lord

so tha t I ma y serve you

faithfully.

For serving you is

what I want to do.

By Beneth

01/ 09/ 2009


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Fallen

We have fa llen,

A fa ll

Tha t we re no t proud of,

One not w orth to boost ab out

Or wish for others,

It d oesn t matter if we fa ll anywa y

It d oesn t matte r if we spoil our garments,

The only thing tha t matters is,

We ha ve to stand up ,

Clean up and move on.

By Beneth,

29/ 08/ 2009


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My Sweet Aroma

A sc ent of you

ma kes my heart

yea rn for you.

You re so colorful,

smooth,

and b right

I hardly resist the

urge to get to you,

and the d esire to have you.

In winter you keep me worm

and in the night you

keep me c omfort me,

And in the evening,

you g ive yourself to me.

Oh my sweet c offee,

how I love you.

By Beneth

On 29/ 07/ 2009


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You Quenc h My Thirst

You bless me with freshness

in every b it o f you.

With an ice cold kiss I rec eive you,

As you fill my mo uth w ith b ubb les

As I rea c h out for mo re a nd more,

I feel fresh, and thirst no more.

You a re so sweet,

And cool,

As I hold you up in my hand s.

You fill me with c olor,

Tha t te lls everyone,

I enjoy every moment w ith you.

Sweet Mirind a ,

You q uenc h my thirst

By Beneth

On 16/ 07/ 2009


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I would like to love you.

You knew me first,

And you c hose to love me,

Even in my weakness

You desired to love me

I would like to love you,

As muc h as you deserve,

So deep and so strong

So passiona te , so c lose, and so pure

I would like to t rust you,

With no questions or doub t

Follow your p lan

Even w hen I don t know what it is


Just like you d eserve,


Fee l you within me,

For tha t is where you live,


Just like you love me

For it s the only reward worth

By Beneth On 16/ 07/ 2009


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Am with you,

I smell you in eve ry b rea th I take,

I hear the sound of your footstep s, in ever move I

make,

I when I fa ll I land on you.

I rise with you,

You rise with me,

You wa tch every move I ma ke,

Every word I speak,

And ea c h tea r I shad e,

I c ry with you.

In the darkness,

You don t c lose your eyes,

And you watch me sleep

As you c ontrol my brea th

You re suc h a friend ,

A p rovider,

A g uider,

Tha nk you Lord .

By Beneth,

19/ 08/ 2009.


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I lose myself

I lose myself,

And I find myself in

you.

I lose my wa y,

And you find me,

Yet questioned me not

In search of myself,

Am left a lone ,

Yet you d raw c loser

My fee t a re frozen,

I let go of myself,

I let g o o f my choic es,

For yours lead

I let g o o f the roc k,

For you to hold me

In you,

I stand

In you,

I belong

In you

I find myself,

In you

I find my a ll,

I lose myself,

To find myself in you


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The oil of joy

My eyes a re red ,

As my heart b leeds,

My voice is going low, and low,

And I fee l a ll a lone.

Ra ising my eyes,

I see you,

Like a b right light from horizon,

Rea c hing out for me,

With tend erness and love

Your a rms c omfort me,

Your voic e c onfirms the truth,

You re no t a lone , and never will you !

My tears a re d ry,

As my lips lighten w ith a smile,

Sprea d ing to a b righter fac e,

I feel my heart restored .

It feels like a drop of oil,

Sprea d ing a round ,

Covering every piec e it can.


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Am a ll c overed ,

I feel worm,

As your love and tenderness c omfort me,

I fee l a lot mo re tha n my words c an exp la in,

You re my oil,

My o il for joy,

Tha t c lears my pa in,

Even in morning times.

Even w hen I don t know it,

You re a lways there for me,

Always there fo r everyone,

As a d rop of oil,

The oil fo r joy

By Beneth,

On 23/ 07/ 2009


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My Petition

To you my king ,

I c ome,

For you re full of mercy and grac e

Nothing is too muc h to ask be fore your throne

To you, I bring my hearts desires,

To you, ask for peac e, love,

Prote c tion, know led ge a nd wisdom

You a lone have p rovided a ll I have,

The owner of a ll I see and don t see,

Your kingdom c overs the earth a nd heaven,

To you I ask my king .

The g iver of a ll

I b ring a basket,

Just my heart a lone in it,

And a will to serve you

My king, loo k a t me one more time ,

With grac e a nd merc y,

My fee t a re slipp ing off the roc k,

Give m e streng th to hold on,

And your hand to lift me up


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Fill my basket,

Acc ord ing your merc y and grac e,

Accord ing to your ric hes,

And ma y it never run d ry

Im not a fa ithful servant,

I may not d eserve a ll tha t I ask of you

Acc ord ing to the law of the land,

But you a re full of love,

And I believe in you

Tha t is wha t I ask of you my king ,

And here I stand wa iting for your word ,

For tha t is not too-muc h before your throne

By Beneth

on 12/ 08/ 2009


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Mirror Beautiful Me,

Every moment,

You g ive me a new

look,

A bea utiful loo k

A smile

A rem inder,

Yo loo k wond erful

As I leave

I forget

I c ome b ac k,

Aga in and again

Looking in yo eyes

Making fac es

Laughing

I te ll myself

Yo look Good Ga l

Mirror Beautiful me

My go od friend ,

You spea k well of m e.

Am bea utiful

we ll meet ag a in soon.

Composed by Beneth

on 28/ 07/ 2009

Just thinking


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Mysterious Eyes

Your eyes a re so d eep ,

They sparkle every time I look a t them

So d eep I go,

Trying to find , and know

What you re thinking about

Your shyness,

Alwa ys b loc ks my way,

When a m just about to see beyond the line,

You turn away with a smile.

As you smile,

I ca n t hold ba ck

The desire to ho ld your c hin

And look straight in your eyes.

In your eyes,

There lies a beautiful myste ry,

A m ystery tha t I long to know


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A plac e so c alm,

Yet so ha rd to rea c h,

Filled with emotions

Tha t I long to know

And feel.

Make a way for me,

To know you,

To get c lose to you,

To sha re with you

Mysterious Eyes,

Just trust me!

By Beneth

On 20/ 07/ 2009

just 4 just


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I have loved

I have loved ,

With m y hea d over the hills,

And my feet in a ir,

As though am swimming in c louds.

With a sip of love in my month,

So g ood to let g o,

And so hot to swa llow,

I c ry.

Tears in my eyes,

Comfort in my heart,

Happiness in m y soul

Sadness in my sp irit,

I c ry, again and aga in.

I have loved ,

Felt g uilty of wha t I fee l,

Wrong a t hea rt,

Yet the powerful within.

I have d one right,

Yet felt wrong,

In a right p lace,

Yet felt lost,

Wa lked with many,

Yet fe lt lonely.


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I have loved ,

A d ifferent test of love ,

Swee ter tha n before,

Smooth, yet powerful.

I have loved to shout it loud ,

Yet none is listening ,

I look up in the sky,

Sta rs a re shining brighter and brighter,

I feel Ang les a re listening.

It s burning me inside,

Gently touched by joy

Fills my heart w ith happiness,

For onc e I felt good .

As i hold my tongue,

Not to say anything a t a ll,

I smile,

I smile,

As I feel myself move,

From moment to moment,

Like a small butterfly,

Moving from flower to flower,

I smile aga in and aga in.


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No more, do I fee l guilty

Nor sad to c ry

Or too hot to em brac e

I have loved ,

To emb rac e the moment,

Cherish the memories,

Live the d ream,

And smile, within myself.

I have loved ,

Simply,

With nothing else inside,

Just love.

Composed By

Beneth Akoola

On 24th June 2009


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When I saw her

She was danc ing with he r hair in the a ir,

With the sun set raises dashing through it

Turning a round a nd a round ,

I c ould not stop looking a t her,

I sa id to myself, wha t a beauty?

For a mom ent my b rea th wa s swept away,

And felt my heart p lay softly,

To music , my ea rs ha d never hea rd

I looked a t her aga in,

She w as danc ing to the rhythm of my hea rt,

I moved forth to say hullo,

And I heard myself say,

Hullo bea utiful?

As though there wa s a d ifferenc e between m e and I.

Her eyes were g lowing as thoug h

There w as a flame in them,

Her lips so soft and so beautiful,

She sa id, Hi, strang er!

Do you have time? I asked ,

Time to know m e,

For I c ould not help being a stranger in her eyes


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At that moment I knew,

I ha d found my missing rib ,

A piec e of me,

Mad e by God

We wa lked in the g arden tog ether,

Hand in Hand, Smiling ,

As our hea rts danced ,

And our souls met for the first t ime.

As I saw her leave to the horizon,

I d id not a sk her name! I rem embered ,

Seemed too la te for me,

I had lost my rib aga in!

But one thing I knew , for sure,

I will meet her aga in and w a lk throug h that g arden.

Composed by

Benie Akoola ,

On 09/07/2009.

(Just Imagining)


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If Today is Tomorrow

Today, you te ll me lots of grea t things about me;

How m uch you love m e,

And how c ute I look

Today I trea sure

every moment we share tog ether.

The n I ask myself;

If today is tomorrow ,

Will you still say tha t to me?

If today is tom orrow ,

Will I still believe in wha t you say,

just like I do now?

They say tomorrow never comes,

But I wa nt tomo rrow to be as bea utiful as tod ay,

I want us to b e together,

Just a s we a re, right now.

If today is tomorrow ,

I will still wa nt what we have now!

Composed by,

Beneth on 30th June 2009.


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One Moment

A moment will c ome

When d reams will stop

And life b egins,

Me a nd You tog ether

One m oment will

come

when we will say

Good bye no more

but welcome

That mom ent,

It w ill be just

You a nd I

A moment will c ome

When our lives will be

born aga in,

And sta rted a fresh

No w ind , nor storm

should draw us apart

No fight, nor should

challenge take our

smiles away

Today it s a d rea m,

But one day,

It w ill be our life.

I look forwa rd to that,

And a m wa iting for

Nothing else, but

Tha t mom ent!

Composed by,

Beneth

on 30th June 2009.


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T hank youBeneth Musiime

a.k.a. Akoola

http://akoola.wordpress.com

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