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If I Could Go
Back In Time OneShot Story By PollyNomial
Copyright 2012 by PollyNomial Stories
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Note: Kapag may nakita kayong ganitong symobol “~~~” ibig sabihin, start and end ng flashback. Naka-italized rin yung mga flashback.
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“Shena, be ready okay. Dadating na ang tito at tita mo mamaya.” My mom knocked at the door and said it to me.
I was in great shock when I knew that tito and tita are going back from states. And for some time, their going to live with us.
The reason why I’m shocked was because of their son, Tedric.
Tedric was my first love. Way back last year, he confessed his feelings for me. He told me that he loves me but I was a foolish back then. I didn’t know what I want in life. I was stupid. I’m scared of being in love. Kaya naman binasted ko siya. And I asked my mom na bumalik na kami dito sa Pilipinas. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko yun ginawa pero naduwag talaga ako ng sobra. After nun, wala na akong balita sa kanya.
And then this day came. Babalik na rin sila dito sa Pilipinas. Dito na rin sila maninirahan. And worse sa bahay pa namin. Could this get any better? Alam nang natatakot akong harapin ulit si Tedric eh. Tas eto pa mangyayari?
“Shena!” sigaw ng mama ko.
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“Yes, mom! Pababa na po!”
Nagready na ako para sa muling pagkikita namin ni Tedric. I never knew that inspite of the fear that I’m feeling because of seeing him again, I can also feel excitement. After almost one year, makikita ko na ulit siya. I missed him so much. I hope he missed me too.
“Tulungan mo na si Manang na maghanda ng pagkain. Tumawag na ang tita mo at malapit na daw sila.” Utos sa akin ni Mommy.
Mayamaya lang ay may bumusina na sa labas ng bahay namin.
“Amiga, Amigo! How’s your flight.” Narinig ko si mommy na nagsalita.
Asa kusina ako kaya hindi ko nakita kung sino ang kausap niya. Until I realized na yun na sila Tita. Andyan na sila. Oh my gosh!
“Where’s my inaanak, Shena?”
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“Oh, she’s in the kitchen. Naghahanda ng kakainin natin.”
“Really, wow masipag na bata.”
“Yeah. And look at your son Tedric. Ang laki laki na. Almost one year lang tayong hindi nagkita pero ibang iba ka na ngayon.”
At yun na nga. Narinig ko na ang pangalan niya. Andito na talaga siya.
“Tita, ganun pa rin naman po ako. Kagaya pa rin ako ng dati.”
Oh God. I miss his voice. That voice who always say my name in a beautiful way.
I want to see him na. Pero natatakot akong magpakita sa kanya.
“Wait there okay. I’ll just call my daughter, Shena.”
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Tinawag ako ni Mommy. Wala naman akong magagawa kundi ang sumunod.
“Oh my! Shena, ang laki laki mo na. Tingnan mo honey oh. Ang laki na ng inaanak natin.” Sabi ng mommy ni Tedric nang makita nila ako.
“Yeah, you’re right hon.” Nakangiting sabi ni Tito.
“Hey, Tedric. Look at Shena. Isn’t she lovely?”
“Yeah, yeah. Right.” Walang ganang sabi ni Tedric. Tiningnan ko siya. He’s looking at me, coldly. And I can’t blame him for that.
The whole day past na sila Mommy, Tito at Tita lang ang nag-uusap. Tahimik lang kaming dalawa ni Tedric na nakikinig sa kanila. Minsan kakausapin nila kami pero after nun tahimik na ulit kami.
Umakyat na ng kwarto sila tita. Maraming guest room dito sa bahay namin kaya dito muna sila tumuloy. Sabi kasi ni Mommy, hindi pa daw tapos yung bahay na pinapagawa nila tita kaya dito niya muna sila pinatuloy instead na sa hotel.
Ako naman, hindi na ko nakatanggi. There’s a part of me kasi na gusto silang dito mag stay. At yun ay dahil kay Tedric. I want to grab this opportunuty to tell him the things that I should have said after I left him.
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I was in my room and I cannot sleep. Someone is bugging me and you know who.
Kaya naman bumaba muna ako galing kwarto to get some snacks and drink. Pampatulog ko na rin kasi yun.
Napatigil ako sa pagpunta sa kusina when I saw a shadow outside our house. Sa may garden.
Naisip ko na agad kung sino yun.
Lumabas ako.
Nakita kong naglalakad lakad siya. Ang lalim ng iniisip.
Gusto kong magsalita pero parang may nakabara sa lalamunan ko.
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“H-hi.” That’s all I can manage to say.
Tumingin siya sa akin.
Ngumiti siya. But it didn’t reached his eyes. I can feel that I’m the reason why he’s like that.
“Kumusta?” I started a conversation. I want him to be comfortable with me first for me to be able to say the things that I wanted to tell him ever since I left him.
“Okay lang. Ganun parin. Ikaw?”
What does he mean na ganun pa rin? Maybe I’ll ask him later.
“Okay lang din.”
Natahimik kaming dalawa. Walang gustong magsalita.
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“How’s your life? Tagal din natin di nagkita eh no? Dami na sigurong nangyari sayo.” I need to break the silence between us.
“Yeah. Okay naman. May nag-iba nga lang.” Yun lang ang sagot niya. He didn’t bother to explain kung ano yung nag-iba na yun.
“Ganun ba?” wala na rin akong masabi. He’s all guarded. Parang ang layo niya sa akin ngayon.
“Shena.” My heart beats fast when I heard him say my name. Wala pa rin nagbago. Ganun pa rin ang epekto sa akin kapag binabanggit niya yung pangalan ko.
“Yes?”
“Uhh,” I know he wants to say something to me. “Gabi na ah. Hindi ka pa ba matutulog?”
“Ahh. Yun ba, hindi ako makatulog eh.”
Ngumiti siya.
“Kagaya ka pa rin ng dati. Sige na. Matulog ka na.”
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Bakit ba parang pinapaalis na niya ako?
“Sige. Goodnight, Tedric.” Wala na talaga akong magagawa. Alam ko iwas siya sa akin. At hindi ko siya masisisi dun.
Tumalikod na ako sa kanya. Paalis na sana ako nang may maramdaman akong yumakap mula sa likod ko.
“Shena,” he whispered in my ear. His voice full of pain. “What happened to us, Shena?”
“I’m sorry, Tedric. I’m really sorry.”
“Do you know how much pain you’ve caused me? When you leave me there without saying anything.” Hindi pa rin niya inaalis ang yakap niya sa akin.
Napapikit ako. I know I love this guy. Way back even before he confess his feelings for me. Pero naging tanga nga ako. Kaya iniwan ko siya without saying goodbye.
“Tedric, I didn’t mean to do that.” A tear fell from my eyes. I closed my eyes and feel his body against mine. How I missed this guy. And I know that he missed me too.
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And the flashback from our memories went back.
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“Hey, stop crying. I promise hindi kita iiwan.”
“Talaga? Promise mo yan ha.”
“Yeah. Promise. Tayo pa ba mag-iiwanan, Shena? Eh tayo na nga lang magkakampi dito.”
Lagi akong binubully sa school ko at si Tedric lang ang nagtatanggol sa akin. Siya lang ang laging nandyan para sa akin.
“Tumigil ka na nga sa pag-iyak mo. Pumapangit ka na oh.” He held me in his arms.
“This is the first time I saw you crying. At hindi ko na gugustuhing makita ulit ito. Promise me that you won’t cry again.”
“Okay. I promise.”
“Halika na. You’re parents are waiting for you.”
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~~~
Iniharap niya ako sa kanya. He saw me crying.
“Shena, I thought you promised me that you won’t cry anymore?” he wiped my tears. “You broke it.”
“Tedric, I’m sorry.”
“Shhh. Don’t talk. Let me just hug you. Just for now. Please, Shena.” And then he hugged me so tight. Just like the first time he did that. It seems that he doesn’t want to let go of me.
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“Yes! Summer na rin. San gusto mo pumunta?” he asked me while his eyes are on the way. His driving me home.
“Pumuta?”
“Yes. Outing tayo. Hmm, ano bang magandang place dito? Wala akong alam! HAHA!”
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“Ako din eh. Sama nalang tayo kela Mommy.”
“Yeah you’re right. Mukang may plano na sila eh.” and the he smiled.
I just watched him while his driving. I love looking at his face.
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“I’ve always thought that you also love me Shena. But it came out that you’re not. You broke my heart into peaces. But still, I’m here, loving you.”
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“Shena!” tawag sa akin ni Tedric. I really love the way he say my name.
“Bakit?”
“Let’s go to the park.” Yaya niya sa akin.
“Bakit? Anong gagawin natin dun?” I love to go with him. Pero siyempre, konting pakipot muna.
“Fall na kasi eh. Masaya manuod ng naglalagasang dahon mula sa mga puno.”
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“Eh? Maganda ba yun?” nagtaka ako bigla. Kala ko pa naman magdedate kami. Yun pala manunood lang ng mga dahon na nalalagas. Ano ba yun?
“Oo naman no. Lalo pa’t ikaw kasama kong maununod nun.” He said to me while looking straight into my eyes.
I blushed.
And then we walked together in the park. Tedric was right. Masayang panuorin ang fall. I’m with him kaya mas maganda iyon.
He held my hand. Para akong nakuryente sa ginawa niya. Napatingin ako sa kanya. Nakita kong nakatitig rin siya sa akin kaya nailang ako.
I heard him chuckle.
“You’re blushing Shena. I love it.”
I love it daw! Eh ako kaya love niya?
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“Tedric, mali ang iniisip mo. Kung yun ang akala mo nagkakamali ka. Natakot lang talaga ako.” I told him. Still I can’t stop from crying.
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“Yes! December na rin! Christmas na.” I said while putting Christmas decorations in our house.
**kring kring**
I heard my phone ringing. I answered it.
“Hello?”
“Shena! Kita tayo!” si Tedric pala yun. Parang bigla akong nawalan ng gana.
“Bakit?”
“Basta. Sa may park ha. Hintayin kita.”
“Kailangan ba talagang magkita? Gabi na oh. Ang lamig pa.”
“Oo, Shena. I have something to tell you.”
When he said that he has something to say to me, I can’t help to feel excited. Pero mas nangingibabaw pa rin yung takot ko.
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Nagpunta akong mag-isa sa park. Napakalamig ng panahon. Nag-iisnow pa.
“Shena!” I saw tedric. Naglakad siya palapit sa akin.
“Ano bang meron?”
“Umupo ka muna.” Pinaupo niya ako sa bench.
“Ano bang sasabihin mo? Ang lamig na eh. Gusto ko nang umuwi.”
“Uhm, ano kasi, Shena,” paputol putol niyang salita. “I have something to tell you.”
“Oo nga diba, Kaya nga ako nandito. Sabihin mo na kasi. Ano ba ka—”
“I love you.”
Hindi ko na natapos ang sinasabi ko dahil bigla siyang nagsalita. At napanganga ako sa sinabi niya. Ano daw? He loves me?
“A-anong s-sabi mo?” nauutal na tanong ko.
“I love you, Shena. Matagal na kitang mahal. Mula pa nung una kitang makilala.”
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“HAHA! Tedric ano ka ba! Wag ka ngang magbiro ng ganyan. Joke yan nu? HAHA! Nakakatawa talaga.” Nagkunyari akong tumatawa. Pero deep inside, may sakit akong nararamdaman.
“No, Shena. It’s true. I love you. Mahal kita.”
“NO! Hindi pwede! Magkaibigan tayo! Hindi mo ko pwedeng mahalin!” at nagtatakbo ako paalis.
Pagkatapos ng araw na yun ay hindi na ako nagpakita kay Tedric. Kahit anong pilit ni Mommy na magpakita na daw ako sa kanya, ay hindi ko ginawa. Hindi alam ni Mommy kung anong dahilan kung bakit. Basta hinayaan na lang niya ako.
Hanggang sa niyaya ko na siyang bumalik ng Pilipinas.
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Inalis ni Tedric ang pagkakayakap niya sa akin.
“Then what’s the reason, Shena?! Why did you leave me?! Why didn’t you tell me that you love me?!” sigaw niya sa akin. Halos manghina ako sa kinatatayuan ko.
“Because I’m scared of loving you!”
“Why? Why, Shena?”
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“Natatakot akong saktan mo ako. Natatakot akong baka kapag ibinigay ko ang pagmamahal ko sayo, eh saktan mo ako. Natatakot akong baka kapag nangyari yun, mawala ka sa akin. Natatakot akong mawala ang friendship natin. Ang dami kong kinakatakutan Tedric.” Umiyak na ako ng sobra. Napaupo na rin ako sa kinatatayuan ko.
“Hindi ko gagawnin yun Shena. Sobra kitang mahal para gawin ko sayo yun.” Lumuhod siya sa harap ko. Niyakap niya ako.
“I know. Kaya nga nagsisisi ako. Hindi na lang sana kita iniwan. If only I could go back in time, hindi ko gagawin yun sayo. If only I could go back to the time you confessed you’re feelings for me, sasabihin ko rin na mahal kita. If only I have the chance, I’ll go back to December and make it all right.”
“Shena..”
“If you said that you love me again, I swear I’d love you right. If only I could go back in time and change it. Aayusin ko lahat. But I can’t, Tedric. I can’t.”
“No, Shena, there’s no need in going back. ‘Cause I’m here now. Andito na ako sa harapan mo. You don’t need to turn around and go back in your past. Because the past have come to you Shena.”
“Tedric.”
“Just tell me you love me, Shena.” He pleaded.
“I love you Tedric. Mahal na mahal kita.”
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“Mahal din kita, Shena. Mula noon hanggang ngayon ikaw lang.”
“Tedric…” halos hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko sa kanya. Ang saya ng nararamdaman ko ngayon.
“From now on, don’t be afraid, Shena. Hinding hindi kita sasaktan. Cause I’ll love you for the rest of my life. I promise that.”
Then he sealed that promise with a kiss.
The moment our lips met, I realized that I’d love this man forever. I never felt happy until now.
I never felt whole until this man came to my life.
The End.
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Hi po!
Ako po si Polly. Sana po nagustuhan niyo ang story ko. Inspired po ang story na ito sa kanta ni Taylor
Swift na “Back To December”. Hope you like it. Maraming salamat sa pagbabasa. Wag niyo po sanang
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