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Within all of us
Joshua Jay Herman
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Contents
I After Antephil 7I dont know . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 9
Gutters . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 10The revolution was never good . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 11Lunatic . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 12I wish . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 13Us humans . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 14Clothe me with these white robes. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 15Grace . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 16Kiss upon the nerves . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 17Sylvia . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 19Clothe me . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 20Sleeping Upon . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 21
Dead Romantic . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 23White Queen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 24Lets rise . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 25Your breast . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 26Chalk Me up . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 27
II After La Belle Dame... 29Never leaving . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 31Orbital . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 32
Bargain . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 33Black Queen, Silver sword . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 34For all of you . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 35I? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 36Let me lie . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 37White Queen . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 39Abstract nonsence . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 40Voile You . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 41
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Psychosis . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 42
Lonelyness . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 44You are . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 46Wishing . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 47Life isnt simple . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 48Schadenfreud . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 50From The Waste Land (In responce to T.S.Elliot) . . . . . . . . . . 51Ones mind . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 52Notes from Zegota . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 55libero dorma . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 57From nothing emerges an angel . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 59You have my eyes . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 61
Of suicide women . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 63(Here) Be Girlish Sins (of jenny) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 65Desires of a pastry maker . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 67January Twenty-Second . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 68White Office Sestina . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 69Thought Villanelle . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 71Piercing Ring . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 72Perception . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 73Walking Across the Shores . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 75Rain Before . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 76
Sitting on laurels . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 77Walking Across the Shores . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 78Looking for a muse . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 79Dead Romantic . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 80A Finite Amount of Time . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 81The horse you never rode in on . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 82La Belle Dame Avec eloigne pactole . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 84Accepting Missions . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 85Wondrous . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 87
III Before La Dame... 89Free Radical . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 91Listen to the sound of silence . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 92Rain only falls once . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 93Fractures in the void . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 95Realitys Reflections . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 96Sweet Destiny . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 97Lost sunshine . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 98
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Mirror of quicksilver . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 99
The knights tour . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 100D i s o r d e r . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 1 0 1
Mortal Melody . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 102
The Tint of life . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 103
F l ow n t he C oup . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 104
Echos from the ocean . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 105
Br ok e n flow e r . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 106
Ethernal blade . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 107
Lavender Haze . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 108
What is weakness? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 109False truth . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 110
Forgotten Tune . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 111
Foreground, Backound . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 112
The scheme . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 113
The wind of change . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 115
An Discord To Eris . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 117
A speech of discord . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 119
Wishing for Forgetting . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 121
Laurels . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 122Blue rose . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 123
Duality . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 124
E t he r al Bl ade . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 130
F ur t i v e Danc e . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 131
Ki ngs Sw or d . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 132
Love white dreams . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 133
Marble Orchid . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 134
New year . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 135
Purple Frog . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 136Tenement . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 137
R e al i t y Lost . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 138
Sak ur a R hapsody . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 139
A Valentine . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 140
Valkrye Stopped . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 141
Vorpal Blade . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 142
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IV Afterward 145
V Thoughts 147
VI acknowledgments 149
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Part I
Escape
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Escape To be free Not bound Not owned
We born with humanity know it?two faced people living in the worldCrying FREEDOM! But yearning for conformityCrying JUSTICE But just wanting a better dealWhen we all know we want to be rulerBut we seem to only get to be mediocre.And these are the things I think I have seen
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I dont know
I dont know whats goin on I wish, i could motivate you
I wish I could be more motivated
Im trapped in this cage
And I dont know the out
My heart beats And I cant let it free
I cant seem to live
But I almost see how to live
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Gutters
Drowing out the sorrows I feel sometimes I will live in flith anddie in it
The gutters filled with blood
I remember when I had an apex of desire
And life was a mere rose to behold
But remember the thorns are there
And the petals are mere poison
I watch as, people say
That life is a mere utopia to behold
And that cacaphony of voices
Seems off key
Destiny and fate Didnt condemn me to this
I want out Cant you help me?
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The revolution was never good
The insurrection is occuring on youtube Its never going to giveyou up Yearning to break free of the net
It wont be on facebook or myspace or cnn
You need to lurk moar. For the players They have no name Nofaces to find
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Lunatic
Perhaps escape from the moon,
With the abnormal (Musing upon normals) Lamenting, dazed,longing for Just some respect...
Discharge, requires one to let go of that difference!
And conform To the golden mean
And instead Just do as one is told and stay average.
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I wish
Sometimes, remembering holding you I feel warmth
With that breath on my ear
Hitting that hammer sounding my heart
But you are there And this correspondance
Is of truth?
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Us humans
Us humans, are fragile pathetic things.
Wasting away, on a some cold, wet rock
That circles some burning flame.
A fission, burning a way over few million years.
Choosing to bask in light; or sulk in sorrowful darkness.
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Clothe me with these white robes.
Instead of nakedness of rulers On roads traveled Dont quietlysubmit, loudly reason
On villainy and heroism On love and hate
Let us try to go forward In to truth.
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Grace
Let us find a grace, a place 1
Those dead liars and living layers
Lost is the living in tunnels
Lets find a new one around death and our life
Away from golden rivers and windswept allies
Let us stop existing in reality
And go away to our own
1Response to Poes Take this kiss upon the brow
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Kiss upon the nerves
Take this, this kiss upon your nerves
upon those curves, upon those words
[Should we part or shall we stay?]
This day this hour this year this life
Mere flight of fancy ,Mere words of flight
If hope beacons back let me ride!
If hope beckons back let me fly!
(If my weeping could be heard...)
Would it give me a tighter grasp
[On what we call reality, on this
agreed upon dream all call existence?]
If the hours and the days turned to dust
[And the years spent and future years
extinguished?!? Where would I find myself?]
Somewhere outside of time , outside of all of reality.
Everything is merely some fake
figment of collective consciousness
But wouldnt that extend reality?
[Maybe a negation of reality
doesnt make much sense?]
Hope, flows away, of my vision
Of reason, of choices, of existence!
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(Is merely an imagination shared...)
I stand amid all of this
realizing that I know shit
Absolute garbage, I have no wit.
This illusionary existence
This fatal game, this final hour
In all of this illusionary existence
You have been the one thing that is real
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Sylvia
Racing on a thought, a whim (The math said no? but The lovesaid yes!)
Cherry trees in wondrous bloom A reigning trance of pink petals
This is her forest! Full of all of her feelings
Of her love, of her poles
And her dances and her prose
I see all of these things
round this wood nymphs head
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Clothe me
Clothe me with the robes of innocence.
Let me not dance naked in the lands of our fathers
Let us not go quietly in to that far night
Of villainy and pestilence
Let us try to go forward
In to truth, into our own order.
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Sleeping Upon
Sleeping upon submarines
and fighter planes
In the brain of the borrowed
In the mind of the weak
Making tunnels upon tunnels
Skin becoming thicker and thicker
Infinite rawhide shells
Snow as thicker
than comprehension
And yet for all of his troubles
Foibles and faux pas
Gaining nothing for
his ventures
Some have said
better to have loved, instead to never.
And yet still needing
A pure brain
Let him spread the recent ashes of old
As his hand is taken
As the worlds variables are taken down
Tasked to record every slightest gesture
Whispering to the Delphic oracles
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For his reasoning
Gave the truth
About facts yet to occur
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Dead Romantic
In this mind beats the heart of a dead romantic
Summer time wont bloom for him
But his words still speak through time
And I know what he thinks is true
Rediscovering his thoughts I saw what I lacked
How to judge what is beauty in the realm of the real
Its not in the complexity of it all
With lies that leave you empty
But in the simplicity of what we hold dear
That is where beauty lies
To seek it is to love, and to deny it hate
And single thought that truth is beauty
And that is all you need to know
To change reality into a extension of the imagination
Using your heart to sow the seeds
To see what dreams may come
Maybe it was an old romantic ideal
That made me realize what I was lacking
And what I could become.
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White Queen
White queen, golden mother
Of love unspeakable
Desire uncountable
The unbounded love I hold
Descriptions are meaningless
Lor es of love dont comp air
You reign oer me
Like your unbounded grace
May I me stop hiding
My love for you
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Lets rise
Fallen angel
Wont you let
down you hair
Let us find
A new grace
A new place
Where the dead
Stop lieing
Where the living
Can lose themselves
Lets build
tunnels
Around the death
Around the life
A far cry
from the golden river
From the windswept vallies
let us stop existing for a moment
And exist in some type of reality
of our own.
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Your breast
Your breast
isnt hiding
a cold heart
Not merely
blood coursing through
Yet it is cold to me
If I could crack my chest open
And remove my faults
You, are that
fire escape
Out of my
own hell
It seems I can never
warm your heart
Or any heart ; at least
the ones I have tried
I have failed.
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Chalk Me up
Chalk me up
As an failure
As an casualty of society
Dont ask me as I bleed
If I am in pain
Dont ask me if I am okay
As my pale face
Shows I am knocking
On deaths door
Dont offer me help
As I lay hanging there
Now stop bothering me
As I ready my noose
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Never leaving
I never want to leave you
Holding onto the piece
of you
While you are near
my heart increases
in size, in speed
Since you have picked
my heart from its perch
Your the kind of girl
that I could hold onto
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Orbital
Come with me
All of you
To ask of friendship from
the living, beating heart from
Fools reconing in
Purple etching
on my mental slate
Across my temporal lobe
Let me sway
your path, your orbit
In my direction
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Black Queen, Silver sword
The free spirit
The boundless lover
Hookup, hookoff
All is fair
No sacrosanct actions
In your domain
Coloring you own reality
Making symbols to sentances
Analyzing the voice
of humanity
Grammars without context
Vocal phonemes
Using the silver sword
To cut my engulfing darkness
For it is in your touch
In your warmth
In your spirit
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For all of you
For all of you there exists an desire unbounded
If you are around then my heart races
If you are near then I become happier
There exists an hope that love will be returned
Which has uncountable cardinality
My trust in you is greater than others
and my trust is greater for you than anyone.
Therefore I love you
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I?
What am I to you?
A smiling bag of meat?
A filthy animal begging
for your own attention?
Why do I exist?
For your amusement?
For your pleasure?
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Let me lie
Let me lie across
poppy fields
Crying with the sinners
And laughing at the saints
Doesnt death come
for those who deserve it
Doesnt death come
for those who want out?
Wont you let me die with honor
Without pieces, without strife
Let the end
wash over me
Let life start
once again
My decay is merely
An passing state
Let me reconstruct
Myself again.
End it all
Maybe I am doomed
to unrequited love
I fear not rejection
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Since it can be assumed
Let me rid myself
Of this thorny crown of love
This unending torment
The hell of my own design
End my sickness
For others are hell
Let me instead
Count the ways
It hurts inside
Burning ripples in my brain
Like ants
under an lens
Hand me the key
That lets out
This caged mind
This tortured soul
Cure my sickness
Let me end it all.
Let me
out
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White Queen
White queen, golden mother
Of love unspeakable
Desire uncountable
The unbounded love I hold
Descriptions are meaningless
Lores of love dont compair
You reign oer me
Like your unbounded grace
May I me stop hiding
My love for you
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Abstract nonsence
Functors of natural transformations
Using Yonedas lemma to prove
My diagrams dont chase themselves.
Invoking hilberts invariant theory
Mere theology in mathematical clothing
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Voile You
She Lays, and has lied
(near) Park ash L(n)
(By) braze(n) oak
Her hazel peaks
(Washing across my consciousness)
Her Rooks bites
my able bets
hitti(n) her zeal
Bash O Ash
Seize a sizeable
Area (from an)
Alpha Seers Sky
(While) zealot hobbies
On sizeable bale bozos
(Merely take away
the self)
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Psychosis
Mental death,
(with grand
delusions).
Mere serpents
(eating away
at sanity)
and sancity
[Polymorphic swords
Dichromatic beatitudes
Dicdacictic monosylabic ERSTAZ]
All mere trifles
Compaired to the highs
Of your own design
merely a demon
(festering in
your own head)
Yet it can
inspire
You to reach
your farthest
goals
your deepest
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thoughts
Exploring
edges of your
brain
Although eventually
all you want
is out
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Lonelyness
Lonelyness isnt
next to happiness
or godlyness...
Just adjacent
to sadness
and sickness
Shall I die
alone
Lamenting the past?
[Leading a life
without meaning]
Without self?
Let my demise
wash over me
And yet
an beating
heart
Sounds for you
Not yet woken,
[(still silent])
Having thrown
down my love
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You are
You are
the one
Who is more
beautiful
Than my
memory
Since your
beauty
is impossible
to be recalled
Not one word
describes you
Not even a countable
or a uncountable set
Filled with words
Your look
your mind
That something
which is you
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Life isnt simple
Life just doesnt
get simpler
And there is no easy way out
You shall always
fear failure
(And tend to forget
your success)
Darkness in our
hearts
comes and goes
(But light
may stay)
Friends fade
And enemys
are always
at your door
When we long
For an easy
way out
Are we not
losing out
on what
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might be
beyond
dark times?
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Schadenfreud
I take pleasure in the most dreadful things
The mashing of fingers
The crys of pain
No delight in my perfect world
No crys of joy
Only darkness to engulf them all
If this is wrong
I delight in this madness
This pain without pleasure
If this is sickness
Then I wish for no cure
For when the bombs fall
And the last breath echos
That would be true peace on earth
And I could reside happy
Knowing that the end isnt near
But it has already begun
And take one last breath
To smell the death
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From The Waste Land (In responce to T.S.Elliot)
The third one is Azariel
(Who burns my mind)
Making my fleeting flights of sanity
Turn into dust , guiding me
(to the point of prophecy)
Beckoning me back
To where I desperately
want (to be)
And sending them back
(to where they came)
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Ones mind
Ones mind
shouldnt stray
near stars
For like feather
wings
Bound with wax
It too can melt
Degrading
into a surreal
mind
With only
ones will
Keeping it from
self digestion
Only from truth
will a new mind
be born
Falling from Grace
Losing
my innocence
Wasting away
my time
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on myself
Distracted by
the grace
of unrelenting
unrequited love
Then as I
finally fell
While hearing
an angels
voice
call out
to me
The noise
With evil
overtones
desiring
a soul
The choice
I
had to make
Was either
to atone
for my sins
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or remain
in twisted
logic
Using false
rationale
I was put
in a place
to force
the decision
my own (personal)
mirrored
firing squad
I chose
truth
over delusions
Then
everything
wasnt lost
And my
angel
was at
my side
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Notes from Zegota
I (am)
a sick man
Devoid of hope
Of passion
An unattractive
man
I know
my brain
is diseased
Let it degrade!
Let it rot!
I
still respect
modern medicine
I rather
reject it
and stop embracing
my struggles
So long
I have searched
for the sublime
and beautiful
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So I shall flush
my medicine
Forget my
therapies
And lie
sulking
waiting for my
insanity
to take
control
And then
I shall be
truely lost
Since my passion
has died
I will
go along
with it.
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libero dorma
While I
felt my mind
burn
As I was turning
into dust
You cooled me
with memories
of your kindness
And that
fixed me
by giving me
joy
And now
that I
am still here
I am too fond
of you
to not tell
you
how I feel
As I
put our
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fate
in your hands
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From nothing emerges an angel
When I
was at lunch
was sitting alone
Looking into
nothingness
You
came in
floating like an angel
that I
was waiting for
I see your
subtle curves
that are as smooth
as silk
I
am imperfect
Without a pure
part inside
of me
In a place
that I
never belonged to
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You
gave me control
To stop the pain
of being alone
I wish
you would notice
me a little more
I wish
I could give back
to you
what you
have given me
I hope
that you will never
feel alone
And you are a lifesaver
Now that I
know you
I
can believe
in anything.
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You have my eyes
You
have my eyes
Looking at
your perfect skin
Or a body
that I drown in
So beautiful
that words barely
scratch the surface
That flirts
with my mind
And takes me to
foreign lands
But it is truly
that something I can tell
That makes you
what you are
And that is
Your kindness
the warm touch
that helps me realize
What I am
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And carves
silky smooth
ripples in my mind
It is in these memories
that I cherish
And hope to revisit
Like a wind
at my back
And a friend
at my side
That something
(thoughts I hold of her)
That no one sees
that I desire
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Of suicide women
The age
of eye aversion
(At painted
ladies)
Has faded into
absurity
And the obscene
Is merely things
That is found
In your local
media
And eden
is all around
For it is in
these pictures
That we find a beauty
(not all acknowledge)
better than blue
rhapsodies
Break out of your
groupthinking shell
Eating away at
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the blessed parts
And teach your children
These sacred blessings
As you watch your childrens
children spread rich blessings
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Desires of a pastry maker
Today at my day job,
Making pastries and rolls
In the urban sprawl
of this thin new city,
I wished I was a member of the old money,
My food liquefied by my butler;
Noting the sybolism in my Renior painting
And watching a private screening of Yes, Virginia
Where I am currently dating the lead actress.
Yet this daydream liquefies into nil
And I am faced with the reality
Of a hum drum existence
ANd I am forced to exchange old money
For a single cinnamon roll....
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January Twenty-Second
The streetlights flickered and fade
with the steady beat of the city
as we walked down Harlem Avenue.
We had come for the theater;
My mother, still frugal, paid our way.
Our laughter echoes
As the jazzy music still rattles
In our step, in our minds
We hum the syncopated beat
On her giddy moment of play,
A young passerby stood on a dirty street corner
Twirling a balloon.
As I watch I slowly realize
The yearning within me
And how I am torn between two ideals
At eighteen, I am too old
To enjoy a single balloon,
Too young to enjoy drinks with my mother.
I stood there watching the cars go by,
The horns refusing to stay silent,
Loud as a thunderstorm.
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White Office Sestina
In the white office sits a chair
Safe from the rain
Some company if given by a mouse
Who lives inside an old brown shoe
With a table made from, and eraser
A thimble as the mouses hat
The mouse goes out looking for a new hat
Beyond his boundaries marked by the chair
Then he is startled by a falling eraser
From the sky like the rain
He wishes he was back in his shoe
Then he meets another mouse
This new friend a lost mouse
Far away from his house (a hat)
They both venture back to the shoe
In the white office with the chair
As you look outside the window there is rain
When they reach the shoe they sit at a eraser
They plan where they will go next, beside the eraser
They will find the home of the other mouse
Their pitter patter of their feet sounds like the rain
As they both travel with thimbles on their heads used as hats
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Moving past the various office chairs
They can barely make out he shoe
As they depart in the distance stands the old brown shoe
They pass by an eraser
And come up to a chair.
Both of them rejoice like baby mouses
They finally reach their destination, a fedora hat
That has been barely touched by the rain
This dreary office lets in the rain
Unlike the white office with the shoe
The office does protect the fedora hat
That has many erasers
Both of them wish each other well (like a good mouse)
As the mouse departs for the old brown shoe near the chair
As we end this tale of chairs and mice
One lives in a shoe while the other a hat
We should all wish to be safe from the rain and to stay free fromour erasures.
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Thought Villanelle
I open my eyes and fight with my head
As my thoughts attempt to destroy me
Sometimes I wish that the world would end
I know if I could just mend
My wayward thoughts that twist and turn
I could open my eyes and not figtht with my head
But my thoughts go their on way instead
Thoughts which make no sense, I cant agree
Sometimes I wish that the wold would end
I want to flee the thoughts that I dread
To a time when life was full of glee
But I must open my eyes and fight with my head
At times I scream until my ears ring
Or wish I was a lime tree
Sometimes I wish that the world would end
Is life just a means to an end?
I need my mind true and free
I open my eyes and still fight with my heads
Always wishing that the world would end
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Piercing Ring
The piercing ring of the cell phone destroys the silence
Nonstop chatter picks away at my peace
As I yearn for a quieter time
When I could read this battered book in peace
A silent moment is something to cherish
Like the echo of your own laughter
It calms, it relives, and it can inspire
Like a warm summer breeze
I wish to grab the next phone I see
And rip it apart pieced by piece
As vicious as a pack of wolves
There will be no more remains
Then I will have my peace;
(tranquility that is all my own)
Enjoying the sound of silence
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Perception
Perception is a powerful thing
It is in perception that we see ourselves,
and what we see in the world.
(it is in this that we base our lives)
Like a feeling that we hold onto,
when times arent as fair.
Or the meaning of words on a page.
(secrets that we shall never tell)
Our perception reflects what we believe
What we know and what we value.
Truths that we hold dear to ourselves
and outlooks on what life means.
Experiences determine our perception
(like picking flowers on a warm day)
With the breeze carrying the petals away
As you sit beneath a fern tree
Our own unique personal look
On how we should live our lives
(what our dreams our made of
and how we feel inside)
Perception is a powerful thing
(Either seeing the day like a bright open morning
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or a gloomy day filled with washed out clouds)
Composed of the interpretation from our sences,
with the values that we hold dear.
Perceptions is what makes us who we truely are,
and what determines what we can become.
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Walking Across the Shores
Have you walked across the shores?
In the moonlight, while holding a gaze
That no one could break
Because you had that something
The thoughts of a plan of a life you might lead
And places you will go
The things you will do
Did you still remember them?
When heartbreak comes
And your judgment is clouded
While you carry regret and anger
Fury begotten from unbreakable feelings
Because of things you couldn Aot control
And the tempest rose and destroyed those shores.
While time seemed to slow down
For your life almost escaped you
As you were washed away by the crashing waves
But you survived it all
And the storm was gone when a calm begot the new land
And the only thing you had left
The only thing you carried with you were your dreams.
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Rain Before
It iss the rain that you have felt from a day long past
Remembering the rhythm of a somber melody
You hear as the droplets caress your face
Blown by the cool autumn breeze
That whispers of a sadness not seen
For this is the day when love expressed itself in sacrifice
And now you lament the fate that she now holds
For the last bell has rung
And her part in your life has closed
Although her heart has stopped beating
She still has yours
And now with the flowers in hand
Her favorite bouquet a dark rose...
You use them to remember
The only thing you can still love
Its her memory in your heart
Making you still go on
While she still holds a part of your soul
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Sitting on laurels
Sitting on laurels
Lamenting on my monotone days
Where each one seems like the other
I look back on the days I left behind
And wish I had done more
Instead of the bare minimum I did
When I let the Hours waste away
The broken dreams I left behind
I try to revive them
To give them life that they didnt have before
And I look back on those days
Not with sorrow but instead looking forward
Trying to catch up with my dreams
And stop wasting the days that may come
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Walking Across the Shores
Have you been walking upon shores?
In the moonlight, while holding a gaze
That no one could break
Because you had that something
The thoughts of a plan of a life you might lead
And places you will go
The things you will do
Did you still remember them?
When heartbreak comes
And your judgment is clouded
While you carry regret and anger
Fury begotten from unbreakable feelings
Because of things you couldn Aot control
And the tempest rose and destroyed those shores.
While time seemed to slow down
For your life almost escaped you
As you were washed away by the crashing waves
But you survived it all
And the storm was gone when a calm begot the new land
And the only thing you had left
The only thing you carried with you were your dreams.
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Looking for a muse
Looking down a bygone time
Remebering that sweet burgundy rose
That beckoned me back to find my muse
She is a calliope of wonderful places
Stories to be told to the people I see
Wherever I go I always will remain
In her heart, in our gaze
I thought in my bad memories
My sight would be lost of her
But that day has not come
Since I have known her
She stops the sorrowful days
By letting me venture forward
With the memories I keep
And the imagination in her heart
I ventured forth with her
And I found I was in a dream
Imagined and yet still known
On a path I still walk down
Searching for the long lost verse
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Dead Romantic
In this mind beats the heart of a dead romantic
Summer time wont bloom for him
But his words still speak through time
And I know what he thinks is true
Rediscovering his thoughts I saw what I lacked
How to judge what is beauty in the realm of the real
Its not in the complexity of it all
With lies that leave you empty
But in the simplicity of what we hold dear
That is where beauty lies
To seek it is to love, and to deny it hate
And single thought that truth is beauty
And that is all you need to know
To change reality into a extension of the imagination
Using your heart to sow the seeds
To see what dreams may come
Maybe it was an old romantic ideal
That made me realize what I was lacking
And what I could become.
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A Finite Amount of Time
A Finite Amount of Time
When our posessions break, our beauty fades,
When our health is a fond memory,
We realize money is meaningless.
And the seconds tick by
Like a testament to mortality,
We realize what we really need and want is time -
A moment to confess our love,
Minutes to write the verse.
Or a day to walk through the forest
With the trees all fading into colors
Waiting lazily for the end of the day
To watch the stars dance in the sky.
We realize the implicit beauty of creation:
That we only have a finite time -
But the things we can do
Are infinite.
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The horse you never rode in on
While you have been riding off in the distance
Trying to find those golden cherubs
Your gallop seems to echo
Your pace tells of the sorrow that follows
But hope is on your face
And yet you still are lost
You listen to the sound
The wind always had
That you have never heard
It dissolves into a quiet forest
And then you hear a blue birds song
With blackbirds singing the bass line
Where you stand seems to strike a chord
That melts the tissues in your mind
You stare at the oak where the gig was
West the sun sets with red yellow dance
With the white knights that drop slowly on the day
It clears by its absence and the singers fly off
Something Reminds of feelings that catch up
Doves that fly away linger in your mind
Remembering that sweet rhapsody that lingers still
The melody made of that something inconcievable
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You stopped when the chords went wrong
And yet you still stand
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La Belle Dame Avec eloigne pactole
Black roses, upon black roses
Cease of existence means nothing
and cold is a mere friend
Losing the game
a mental game
a childs game
a mans game
a womans game
odds not faced
times not written
Leading into halls of mirrors
Not knowing the self
Held by daemons,
held by sinners,
And realizing that
balance is everything
But what we do
in borrowed time
isnt a finite number
Just an uncountable one
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Accepting Missions
taking
back
orest
f of
you
t
h
Remaking my
m o
e w
of image b
(me, through ld god
[ x = o
[ = c h
( Since an as t
exile
[Tearing
myself
apart]
(to *find*
what matters)
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t
o h
T row
away
the c
h
a
f
f
Let it begin V
(For the
r
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t
h
of this man)
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Wondrous
You wondrous creature,
you kindred spirit,
thriving in snow
Feeling you close, holding you dear
through the wireless
Lets travel, lets take flight
exploring places only imagined
Hoping you can see the real me
While I can see the real you
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Before La Dame...
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Free Radical
In the struggle we find ourselves in pain
Being washed away by the tempest
And we can never break its spell
And then we find ourselves changed
An adaptation made during the battle
But we still are alone
But then someone gives us
Their hope from their heart
A sweetness unseen a melody not heard
Thats in your mind that I have seen
Which took my heart away
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Listen to the sound of silence
Can you hear my heart that beats?
Did it dissolve the void within?
Listen to the oracles whim
Its the destiny that shall come to pass
But sometimes our lives have other paths
Do your lingering feelings still stand?
Something of you will always linger in my mind
Dont feel sorrow for me
When I almost let you slip threw
My grasp that was longing
And yet I found you
To fix the hole inside me
And my sorrow started to end
For the pain just stopped
When I saw what you had
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Rain only falls once
Its the rain that you have felt
That you remember from a day long past
The rhythm of a somber melody
You hear as the droplets caress your face
The cool autumn breeze
Whispers of a sadness you hear
For this is the day
When love expressed itself in sacrifice
And now you lament
The fate she now holds
Her last bell has rung
And the song you shared has ended
Although her heart has stopped beating
She still has yours
Now with the flowers in your hand
Her favorite bouquet
The rainbow of roses that shown of her
Purity her beauty her grace
You use them to remember
The only thing you still can love
Its that something
That makes you go on
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While she will always have a part of you
She gave you her spirit in her final hour
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Fractures in the void
It seems a fractured life
To walk it all alone
To fly without a friend
And cry without a shoulder
A fear of most it seems
But who asks us to change the song
To change the minor key
We think a knight in shimmering armor
Shall come to save us
But when we do find them
We either fear them
Or dont even persue them
Even when we know we should
Reach out to them
And try to change our lives
To make something out of
The void that is
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Realitys Reflections
Sweet dreams child
May you awaken to them
The sights you shall see
Where the poets dream the muses dance
And the faerys kiss you in the distance
Or those long walks with your lover
That you would kiss in front of all
Under a cherub tree of lavendar
Or a fall tree of amber
For it is the dreams inside
That make the reality we see
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Sweet Destiny
Sometimes my broken heart
Makes me feel like a lonely rose
Out in an autumn rain
Hoping that winter never comes
For it is that season
That breaks the rose
I feel the wind howling
And it seems like snow will fall
But you have been kindness
The sweet Indian summer
Where the rose basks in the sunlight
And prepairs for the next season
You revive my hope
To pull me out of sorrow
And I will always see you
As the rainbow after the storm
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Lost sunshine
We all have glass hearts
With smooth curves that never lose the shine
That can be stolen and shattered
For who mends the pieces that cut
That we can lose the heart
And the shine is broken
For it is love , that lavendar haze
Which mends and breaks our hearts
That binds us and seperates us
For you can drive miles and miles
And never find love that sits beside you
It sometimes is beauty
That you just cant see
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Mirror of quicksilver
Mercury rising when we see ourselves
Impossible the choices we face
When all trials seem to fail
You look to the waters of life
And try to find the flow
It is then when you decide
To smell the roses while you run
And try paint your the sky
Its never where we want to go
Its where we truely are
And the struggle that realizes
That we must change our world
To get anywhere in life
And that is what makes up our lives
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The knights tour
And this was my tour
On the board of life and death
Bloodshed that you could smell
For the sacrifices were equal
But my forces were prime
I pulled out a pin from my fair lady
And sacrificed the knight for a tall tower
For I have taken his options away
And the day ended with mate in the last rank
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Disorder
No god of war it seems to me
Only a goddess playing with Olives
For we see in times gone by
A waltz of leaders of those times
Revolution the rebirth from ashes
Peace a sublime lack of action
For whom does the sorid bell toll
Eriss delight With discord at hand
While soldiers stand for their doctrines at hand
One finds that without war no peace would come
And that a clear conflict may never come
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Mortal Melody
Sometimes roses speak to me
A sweet song never heard by mortals like me
Crimson tells of matters inside
Beauty that is merely free
Velvets majesty leads to castles
Floating in the clear blue sky
Azures imagination in bloom
Cultivating its own path into the day
A mortal melody
A thought they hold
That lets them live
That gives them soul
For the emerald rose knows only
The truth at hand
Nothing ventured means nothing gained
One must find the exit door
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The Tint of life
Maybe its that tinted skin
That hints of foreign lands not seen
Or a body you could drown in
That you can plainly see
Its that something I cant tell
That makes her what she is
For she carves ripples in my mind
Smooth as silk and clear as the sky
Her kindness like a warm touch
Thats soothing to the soul
Its this memory of her
That is wind at my back
And the friend at my side
It is merely that something
The thoughts I hold of her
That no one sees, that I desire
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Flown the Coup
Her love has flown like the falcon
Threw the trees and above the moon
After those last pink petals fell
You still didnt know what she was
What she meant to you
Now your left standing there
You feel naked without her
As night falls
You weep a bed full of tears
As just another isolated pawn
Left there by a dominating queen
Tomorrow will never occur
At least that is what you believe
And yet you still play the game
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Echos from the ocean
Eyes as blue as the ocean
Hair of flaxen music past
An echo of an atlantean dream
Majestic as the night sky
For she wants to learn the language of love
A foreign tougue of the Sun King
Their song still stands
As beautys manifest destiny
Its something in her eyes
Looking at me like a fey
Her stare is to me
As windows looking out at a rainbow
Eyes like the wildflower
That line the path to where it stood
Where mortals dare not tred
A velvet paradise of Eden
Not perfection I have sought
For I would have found my goddess
But a queen I found
And I was seeking you
(Model: Alex Polly)
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Broken flower
You see remnants of roses
Their flutter sounds like whispers
Of borrowed dreams that you have
Or fondness not spoken of
Their color reminds one of
A furys heat once known
Passions flowering into a muse
With fires warm touch
They rustle at your feet
Like petals that you picked
Falling remnants of love
Attempting to find the one
You wait at an imaginary place
Somewhere between the den of the real
And the garden of eden
Where your heart runs free
Searching with your soul
It found exactly what it sought
That something that just is
The one you just cant leave
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Ethernal blade
Knight with ethernal blade
Who was your Vally Hi
Sight unseen can not redress
The mystery at umpton grace
For have you seen the sands there
The bumglos drop their flowers
Eternal on those journey men sands
Calloo malay They shout at you
As you find their star crossed women
A greeting in verse
From an archaic ancient tougue
And yet you know what happened
For you were there; it was revealed to you
Now tell me now what you have seen
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Lavender Haze
When your lost in that lavender haze
A phase that you might see opaque
Do you see yourself in it?
For you think you lost your muse
Inside the glass onion
Listen to your blue rose
To find where the emerald crystal lies
So your muse can be free
You find yourself in a forest
A autumn day of a yellow green wood
St Jude shows you the path
And you find yourself where you started
Since you never really lost your muse
You merely lost yourself
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What is weakness?
Is that pain weakness that makes us human?
For we live for the struggle
We die for the cause
And yet sometimes
Its not the pain that you feel
The one inside hurts much more
When it isnt weakness but merely lack of strength
You must make it leave
And find the strength within
To fight it and to win
Your friends can only show you the path
But it is only you that will be saved by you
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False truth
And yet they said
For the pieces of culture were pure
Its faded glory still stood
Once they said that its destruction
Would bring us to eden
Saving us from purgatories lingering spirit
On their last breath
When they belived replacement
Would give salvation
We knew their affliction
Of the artifical utopia
And the truth of the real
That the converse satisifies
But the utopia never does
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Foreground, Backound
We see the petals fall
The breeze carrys wind around
Petals of a pastel pink
That foreground of a major key
With a lucid flow of melody
The scene reminds you
Of dreams that may come
And yet you still see
Whats behind it all
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And the beauty that lies
In the scheme that is
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The wind of change
The storm has ended
A sweet nothing fills your senses
Yet I still smell the change
Patterns you can find
In the choices you make
But not all patterns are true
Some might be true others are dead ends
But you can still hold onto one
Sometimes you must let them go
With information thats forced down our throats
Patterns we must see
But are there ones we may not recognize?
But some you will never see
Even though beauty may fade
You still hold on to it
For even a catepillar changes
Into a butterfly and
That is the power of change
Can either cause a tempest
Or quell a storm
But it is the butterflies choice
Even if it doesnt realize
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Its true power
Even if its broken
It can be mended
But it will never be like it was
For it will find the path
That will still save it even
If its a fundamental fault
You can still see your dreams
And survive when your breath is almost gone
Will you die with no means to an end
Or create anew
To live without fear
And then you shall see
That even the broken arrow
Can stil hit the mark in the sky
It just takes time
It is when you see yourself
The wonders that may pass
You shall still see what is in front of you
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An Discord To Eris
She always knew where her towel was
For has ridden with hells angels
And sung better than any choir
And her answer to all is written in the texts
But she has saved me
Giving me meaning where there was nothing
I have seen her in the times of light
Or in my darkess hour
Telling me how to pull through
She had the smell of fairy dust
But I could never comprehend her
For she is like the unknown aleph
Her infinite nature that is undecidable
When I looked into her eyes of amber
There was a coolness unseen
Like the grace she has
When you see her afar
You could hear her sing her sweet song
As she strolled on by not even looking at me
Her dress was provocative at best
At worst it left nothing to the imagination
All golden like the apple she had
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But It had changed
And I could use the blade of the delta
To find where I stood
My world of dreams had ended
Instead the world of implementation awaited
And all I had to do
Was not be afraid
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Wishing for Forgetting
Being faced with
the yearning to erase
memories
This pill
holds the key
Opening the brain
Erasing thoughts
As it took hold
I wished to forget
my forgetting
To remember
once more
Eliminating this
dark cloud
And wish away
my first wish
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Laurels
Lamenting dead days on laurels
No uniqueness, no order, no chaos
Just apathy, the opposite of love
Just a bunch of dejected dreams
I wish that more happened,
I wish that love rung true
Instead of looking towards
an ill past, a dead one
Lets begin anew,
Reviving and rescuating
replacing death with life, chaos with order
And stop wasting and killing my time
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Blue rose
Life is like a blue rose
Daedalian in its seamless impossibility
But thorny with peril
For the sound of silence permeates
And rules begot the land
Where Rigid and square is the norm
But the wise have said it all in a day
Or have they?
Follow the road to the Strawberry Fields
Where no drab cold winds grow
Chase forever forward to dream
And gorgeous landscapes are in your grasp for-ever
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Duality
An azure windswept passage I found that mycloset seemed to open up to
I asked does it end or loop back on itself?
For in darkness imagination does not treat meas a friend
So I had to cut through half of my fears
For curiosity could whisper in my ear
Enticing me to venture forth
But my fears had me in my grasp
So I closed the door to where the shadows lay
And said goodbye to curiosity
I could sence a cold slience prevailed the winds
of time
But then a weeping pierces the silence like aknife in my back
Eminating from my door to the passage of blue
Open you dare to test my curiosity if it will full-fill its promise
Only time will tell if crossing its fingers it has
I followed where the passage went
With blade at hand and fear in breath
I walked in as a boy holding a ethereal hatchet
And came out As a man wielding a vorpal katana
With fear at bay and faith in hand
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a kiss
Took my hand with her soft touch
Lead me the way out of darkness she did
You saw her soul from her eyes
She had what was too little of but lost it some-where
Which is still in mind
Of water doped with plenty weight
Hemlock with water a dangerous bunch
She was as kind as a flower but as deadly as abee
You can hear her voice ring out above the rest
She studied at the school of Etuprie at the topof her class
Encompanced in her glance what men desribe ina lifetime
For her speech eloquent filled with metaphoresof a different colour
mares she was haunted in her sleep
-welding a blade of velvet green light
For her gig was gold until her elvish lover waslost by an electric fire
His last words were his magnum opus
Life is like a blue rose
Daedalian in its seamless impossibility
But thorny with peril
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She didnt remember the rest because it was a
enlightenment path
That she wanted to follow but couldnt do alone
What she had to remember him by was a ringof duality
Of crypto dragons and blue rose butterflies
So I took the first step in a mans journey
And with her we rode to the tainted fields
Where poppies grew and it was dantes hell
Because no snow fell on the tarnished land
A present we hoped to bring to there
Representing the slaying of the beast of burden
That was the true sorrow of the field.
That said goodbye to blue skys
Along the way there was a velvet road
With scarred skys and painted dreams
And she said to know the right path follow themaster
That laied out the path to become one
Since silence stayed with me
As we walked to her house in the
Drinking her wine talking till 4
Talking about how I got here
Space-time oragami it seems
A few folded manifolds made it all possible
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So I took out my sub-ethea-sence o matic to
check this out
To my surprise nothing was found.
And then she told me a poem on purple frogs
That she remembered as a child
Venture forth to your own iris
Where purple frogs and blue roses lament
That is where the strawberry fields lay
Enter with thy mithral touch
To leave your fears behind
For a sorrowful soul is one
That doesnt see the beauty inside a forget-me-not
That saved ones soul tonight
By the intake of the pure air
On the forever fields
With the blue roses singing their truth
She had a garden of the azure rose
Arranged like the cup of a sunflower
Then a staccato note ringed threw the air
A knocking at the entrance of this abode
The red queens forces seem to have come
Men with looking glass ties that didnt have anyeyes
I brought out my hatchet and my friend readied
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herself for the fight
The challengers said what have you knaves?....
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Etheral Blade
All I have is a ethereral dagger with an elvishtext in a obscure dialect engraved uponthe blade
When it rings it sounds the song of a cagedflower
Of which only the ones with the true ears cansee
The colours of its ring
For it helped me go to my destination
Of opening the 10th door
As a crypt needing an word to open
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Furtive Dance
to be or not to be?
That is what my fears are.
So I hid behind a mask of dance
A game played by me and all
To hide behind a mask
To know thyself is really to win
To lose is to not change
An ultimate evil of our seeing minds eye,
Contemplating our existance inside us?
Now I say To be or let it be
And instead try to face piles of trials with smiles
SInce all you need is love to make the world goround.
For its the one I love that I am looking for
threw looking glass ties and lucys skys
Even marshmellow bridge will eluded me
I have been Across the universe
But back home I still came
Looking for a kindred spirit to walk with me
To find the place where blue skys havent saidgoodbye
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Kings Sword
Inherited a sword of elvish antiquity I have
It was one of my uncles keepsakes
rumored to have slain a bandersnach
A reprise of this lore my I set my eyes on
For I loved the sword drove me to that (conclu-sion)
Vorpal and ethereal it was
So that it couldnt be touched by the gods
Yet here I stood with it
Upon the strawberry Fields
To slay the dark dragon for its blood
For the blood in my veins wasnt mine
But of a velvet dragon
For a curse lay upon me
Not be able die but to live
To posses a my soul into a freeze
And to be entombed in a blue diamond
And a blood sucker I would have to be
Of only dragons I shall dine
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Love white dreams
You love white dreams
I like pink truth
We know how blue diamonds moan
Please have her feel individal skys
The ones that you cant go through
If purple observations love you so
It will let winters ache flood in
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Marble Orchid
Sister Deaths cold marble orchid
Where flowers fall for her customers
That never seem to leave
Where griefs game helps when played as a team
And Love is the eternal that only is
For these fields are the last ones we wont see
But we shall live eternal , in our childrens eyes
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New year
All hail the good grace of the new year!
May your resolutions come true
And your bad habits go stale
For woe is the one that cant keep promises
To themselves.
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Purple Frog
Venture forth to your own iris
Where purple frogs and blue roses lament
That is where the strawberry fields lay
Enter with thy mithral touch
To leave your fears behind
For a sorrowful soul is one
That doesnt see the beauty inside a forget-me-not
That saved ones soul tonight
By the intake of the pure air
On the forever fields
With the blue roses singing their truth
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Tenement
Telling the darkness my deepest fears
My ears ring the sound that just isnt there
Of the breaking of neon idols in the pure whitelight
I started reading those tentament halls
They cut me in my anger and my shame
For a mere prophets script was upon those walls
That led me to my fate of the sails of quicksilver
To bleed without wound
To absorb the tears but not shed any
And on no ones side and everyones at the same
To lay myself down against all odds
To confort when the pain is all around
When I lay my cards on the table
After the flop comes down
I shall be healed
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Reality Lost
Reality has turned me down
because of my affair with seraphrim
I have been listening to my fears too long
So I lost the warmth love gave me
And replaced it with a cold hard silence
To find my way back I only needed one thing
A truely kindred spirit that I could share
Whats truely inside my heart
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Sakura Rhapsody
When the sakura flowers sing their sweet rhap-sody
Of being in bloom and suicide
For they commit both in their prime
Instead of taking heed of the Lotus
That is the true path to salvation
For when white carnations dont line your path
Dahlia has befriended you
So when you try to choose your path
Try to use the rose that you hold within
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Valkrye Stopped
When the valkrys stopped suddenly
Their glorious song
The magic was lost in a curious way
Only reserved for the truthsayers it is said
And to ride with backrwards talking white knights
Playing like pawns to a queens game
Until the great change of 42
When some went roin to fight the woman
To slay the beast that had she had begotten.
So that red queen would have a rolling head
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Vorpal Blade
Inheriting a elvish sword
(A realm sword ;A sword of kings)
Wondrland wasnt the same, ever!
Its name, the bandersnach slayer
The vortex eater,
Inherited a sword of elvish antiquity I have
The sword of the king of the realm
For wonderland was never the same without it
rumored to have slain a bandersnach
A reprise of this lore my I set my eyes on
For I loved the sword drove me to that
Vorpal and ethereal it was
So that it couldnt be touched by the gods
Yet here I stood with it
Upon the strawberry Fields
To slay the dark dragon for its blood
For the blood in my veins wasnt mine
But of a velvet dragon
For a curse lay upon me
Not be able die but to live
To posses a my soul into a freeze
And to be entombed in a blue diamond
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Afterward
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Part VI
Thoughts
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Part VII
acknowledgments
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