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B kys & J u rh d rd r s
ikooditdh smkrt acitck`
Csebdo Aernk Ikod
Xwcstdh Ypkk` Vrdss / Vrenud
M D R J E @ @ T @ N E R
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Xre`soetck` ikpyrcnmt © 2661 by Csebdo Aernk Ikod
Eatdrwkrh ikpyrcnmt © 2661 by Csebdo Aernk Ikod
Xmkjes Je`` prdaeid ikpyrcnmt © 5316, 53>8 by Y. Acsimdr Qdroen NjbM
Ikjjd`tery ikpyrcnmt © 2665 by Gerksoev Brå`sl˝
Xmcs dhctck` © 2661 by Xwcstdh Ypkk` Vrdss
Eoo rcnmts rdsdrvdh. @k pert ka tmcs bkkl jey bd usdh kr
rdprkhuidh c` e`y akrj, sevd akr tmd purpksds ka rdvcdw, wctmkut
tmd wrcttd` pdrjcssck` ka tmd pubocsmdr.
csb` =6-=1218-24-8
Xmd tre`soetck` ka tmcs wkrl wes jehd pksscbod by nre`ts arkj tmd
Aku`hetck` ka tmd Gdwcsm Jusduj c` Vrenud
e`h tmd Ytcatu`n Luoturak`hs, Ndrje`y.
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i k ̀ t d ̀ t s
Vrdaeid by Xmkjes Je`` 3
bkys & jurhdrdrs
E Je` e`h e Jech 5>
Ytkry ka e Jurhdr 15
ikobdrt–s gkur`dy
Ikobdrt–s Gkur`dy 553
Xmd ^c`d-Xrevdodr 593Rdesk`s akr Dvdrytmc`n 51>
Xuopd 5>5
Eodxe`hdr (E Arenjd`t) 5>4
Jdook`, tmd ‟Eitkr‚ 5=6
Bkbdl Jerrcds 5=8
Xmd Ydirdt ^er 535
Xmd Brktmdrs 534
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u`ikooditdh stkrcdsYe`etkrcuj 265
Odttdr tk e ^kje` 264
E Hrdej 263
Bcbe cs Hyc`n 259
Octtod Ocds (Hceoknud akr e Jerrcdh Ikupod) 25=
Xmd Ieocpm 229
Eatdrwkrh 22>
Ikjjd`tery & Ykurids 294
@ktds 289
Ebkut tmd Eutmkr 284 Ebkut tmd Xre`soetkr 245
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prdaeid
C kwd tmd jdoe`imkoy prcvcodnd, tmd meppy huty ka c`trkhuic`n tmcs
pkstmujkus ikooditck` ka Mdrje`` T`ner–s wkrl tk e Ndrje` euhc-
d`id, tk tmd aeit tmet C wes k`d ka tmd strst tk rdikn`czd e`h ieoo ettd`-
tck` tk tmd dxtrekrhc`ery teod`t ka tmd hdidesdh. Mevc`n imejpck`dh
mcs hdbut, Bkys & Jurhdrdrs , ct wkuoh bd wrk`n ka jd tk ste`h by c`hcaadrd`toy et tmd pubocietck` ka mcs oest, pkstmujkus wkrl ‘ wmksd
c``dr bdeuty e`h ertcstci eppdeo stcr jd stcoo jkrd tme` tmd queoctcds
ka mcs strst ikooditck` hch beil tmd`. Xmd` eoo wes mkpd, merld`c`n,
hdocnmt c` tmd rcsc`n ka e` euspcickus ster, aectm c` ocad< tkhey tmcs ocad,
d`hkwdh wctm suim nrdet ncats hkkjdh tk u`auostoojd`t, ocds c` tmd
dertm.
Hch wd bdt wrk`n, tmd`, hch kur c`stc`it aeco kur mkpd; @k, C ej
`kt esmejdh ka mevc`n ikjjd`hdh tk ocad k`d wmk wes hkkjdh tk
hcd. Hdetm cs `kt e rdautetck`, e`h ct wkuoh teld e` crrdocnckus, Vmcocstc`d
vcdw ka meppc`dss e`h suiidss tk jeld ocad–s bodssc`n tmd irctdrck` akr
wmet cs wkrtm okvc`n. Xmd hdidesdh rdflditdh prkaku`hoy, bcttdroy,
e`h truoy k` vcitkry e`h hdadet, bodssc`n e`h hdbesdjd`t. ‟Xkhey C
l`kw,‚ md wrctds c` tmd c`trkhuitkry pessend ka k`d ka tmd stkrcds c`
tmcs vkoujd, ‟tmet teod`t swcatoy nresps mkw descoy ct ie` sdrvd dvdry
ieusd, e`h katd` cts jkst tdooc`n trect cs tmd ebcocty tk ik`akrj tk tmd
krhc`ery e`h st`h e jkreo gustcstietck` akr tmcs ik`akrjcty. Ydd` arkj
e mcnmdr ve`tend pkc`t, tmd vcitkrs c` ocad erd nd`dreooy tmd ve`qucsmdh.
Xmd hdetms ka tmd aecourds smc`d et tcjds wctm tmd `cjbus ka vcitkry.‚
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Xmcs tdxt krcnc`eooy prdaeidh tmd ikooditck` Ikobdrt–s Gkur`dy (5396), pubocsmdh smkrtoy eatdr T`ner–s hdetm. Ydd ikjjd`tery tk tmd stkrcds.
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Xmet cs wmet ct jde`s tk sdd tmrkunm eppdere`ids wctm c`ikrruptcbod,
jen`e`cjkus pdrspcieicty, e`h ca ct cs trud tmet ‟yku smeoo l`kw tmdj
by tmdcr aructs,‚ k`d ie` bd prkuh tk mevd pupcos wctm suim ik`vci-tck`s. K`oy k`d tmc`n cs akrnkttd` kr pessdh kvdr mdrd, tmet tmd trud
vcitkrcds ka ocad–s imcohrd` katd` ocd wmdrd tmd jessds hk `kt sdd tmdj,
tmet rd`kw` cs `dctmdr e jde`s `kr e prkhuit ka ikjprdmd`sck`, e`h
tmet ocad–s vcitkrs erd eosk c` `ddh ka muje`cty ‘ wmcim ehjcttdhoy
jde`s we`tc`n dvdrytmc`n et k`id.
C` rdtrkspdit, ct sddjs tk jd tmet C eoweys sd`sdh tmd hkkjdh
espdit ka Mdrje`` T`ner–s ert e`h bdc`n e`h tmet tmcs vdry ‟c`stc`it‚ wes tmd skurid ka jy syjpetmy, tmd jktcvd akr jd tk imejpck` tmd
deroy je`cadstetck`s ka mcs `eturd. C` mcs u`oeunmc`n ikjci sd`sd, mcs
sdxueo jdoe`imkoy, c` tmd bcttdr e`h katd` u`ie``coy hdocbdretd wey
c` wmcim md dxprdssds mcs vcsck` ka ocad ‘ c` mcs jd`teo e`h dvd` mcs
pmyscieo pmysckn`kjy tmdrd cs e peookr, e aeteo jerl, e` eustdrd mkpd-
odss`dss. Ct telds `k sdik`h scnmt tk c`tdrprdt tmcs prkpmdtcieooy, e`h ct
prdvd`ts jd arkj rdnerhc`n mcs deroy hdetm es e` eiichd`t. Ct hch `kt surprcsd jd tmet Bkys & Jurhdrdrs wes cjjdhcetdoy tre`soetdh e`h
juim `ktdh c` Are`id. Xmd Ard`im dsprct merbkrs jkrd crk`y tkwerh
tmd stt, jkrd c`ioc`etck` tkwerh `kbod c`strjcty tme` hk wd Ndrje`s,
wctm Nkdtmd–s odneiy ka e rkbust ercstkireiy ka ocad sdetdh hddp c` kur
bokkh. T`qudstck`eboy, eoo tmet cs hdetm–s cs `kt `kbod, wmcod eoo tmet cs
ocad–s cs `kt besd. But wd bdst smkw kur ik`sicd`id-hrcvd` jkildry
enec`st dvd` tmd mcnmdst akrjs ka ik`akrjcty by bkwc`n tk hdetm–s`kbcocty.
Xmdrd ie` bd `k teol ka auostoojd`t mdrd, ka tmd nreid ka jeture-
tck` e`h pdraditck`< but bdakrd ocad hrkppdh mcj wctm tmd ierdodss`dss
wmcim sk katd` eppeoos e`h kutrends kur muje` sd`scbcocty, mcs spcrct
hch je`end tk ncvd jkrd tme` jcnmt eppder arkj wmet C mevd sech
ebkvd. Akookwc`n tmd strst ikooditck` ka `kvdooes, wd mevd e `kvdo ka
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e`nucsmdh pkwdr, Xmd Jecjdh < wd mevd Xmd Ioess , odss jkjd`tkus
pdrmeps, ydt stcoo c` cts hcstc`itcvd styod e`h vcsck` e` dxprdssck` ka tmd
iuotcvetdh prcjeo queocty wmcim wd ieoo ert< wd mevd poeys wmksd sui-idss c` Bdroc` e`h Qcd``e hch `kt ikjd arkj ik`akrjcty tk tmd `krj.
E`h tmkunm tk rdbuld aetd akr cts ierdodss`dss wkuoh bd tk teld eatdr
tmd lc`n wmk meh tmd sde flknndh, k`d cs tdjptdh tk rdprkeim ct wctm
eoo tmd tmc`ns c` T`ner–s jdoe`imkoy kduvrd tmet wkk ocad wctm suim
pkdtci erhkr< ct smkuoh mevd smkw` jkrd aevkr tkwerh suim sd`sueo
sthdocty. Xeld, akr dxejpod, wmet mcs ‟wc`d-trevdodr‚ seys c` tmd pends
tk akookw ebkut tmd sdirdt ka mcs werds7 ‟C` koh wc`d cs tmd sid`t ka eooflkwdrs, tmd reys ka tmd su`, imcohrd`–s oeunmtdr, jd`–s swdet, tmd vcsck`
ka tmd sujjdr oe`hsiepd, eoo rcpd e`h mdevy es tmd brdest ka e `ursc`n
jktmdr.‚ Xmet cs tmd sk`n ka ocad. Ert jey bd jerldh by hdetm, but ct
cs eoweys okvd, eoweys ocad. ‟Sku erd e` ertcst,‚ seys tmd wc`d-trevdodr,
‟c` e hcaadrd`t spmdrd tme` tmd pkdt kr tmd juscice`, but ocld tmdj
recsdh by ykur sd`sds c`tk e hddpdr e`h mkocdr ikjju`ck` wctm @eturd,
ocatdh up arkj tmd c`drt jessds ka tmksd wmksd dyds erd es huoo es tmdcr ders, tmdcr `kstrcos, tmdcr tk`nuds e`h tmd `drvds bd`detm tmdcr slc`.‚
T`ner, tkk, wes recsdh by mcs teod`t c`tk e hddpdr e`h mkocdr ikjju-
`ck` wctm `eturd ‘ e`h ct cs tmdsd pkstmujkusoy pubocsmdh stkrcds
wmcim rdvdeo tmcs jkst vcvchoy, smkwc̀ n pdrmeps jkrd ioderoy tme` tmksd
pubocsmdh hurc`n T`ner–s ocadtcjd wmet pktd`tceo akr hdvdokpjd`t wes
`cppdh c` tmd buh by mcs prdjeturd hdetm, e`h tmdcr pubocietck`, akr
us, cs e trud muje` c`hcitjd`t ka aetd. ^met e` cjjd`sdoy scn`cstie`t stnurd, tmcs sdrve`t Jkhoczlc c`
‟Ikobdrt–s Gkur`dy‚! Xmcs stkry cs rcnmtoy adeturdh et tmd bdnc``c`n
ka tmcs ikooditck`< ct cs e jc`kr jestdrpcdid e`h wkuoh kiiupy e`
mk`krebod poeid wctmc` e`y ioesscieo kduvrd. Xmd ktmdrs hk `kt mevd
tmcs rku`hdh`dss< tmdy erd sldtimcdr, arenjd`ts e`h c`tcjetck`s ka e`
u`rdeoczdh dpci wkroh ‘ but k`d `ddh k`oy rdeh ‟Bkbdl Jerrcds‚ tk
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‟Ikobdrt–s Gkur`dy.‚ Md mcjsdoa trevdodh tk Cteoy e`h Vercs, but ehjct-
tdh wctm rerd mk`dsty, e`h c` ik`trest tk tmd sdoa-ik`nretuoetkry bocss
ka tmd trevdo pkdts, tmet `dctmdr tmd boud skutm, tmd aejkus ertcstcisctds `kr tmd imerjs ka tmd jdtrkpkocs meh juim tk sey tk mcj. Akr
preitcieo rdesk`s, md bdst d`gkydh ocad c` Bdroc`, wmdrd md meh arcd`hs
e`h mcs spmdrd ka eitcvcty.
Md bdne` tk wrctd deroy k`, ok`n bdakrd Bkys & Jurhdrdrs , but
rdvdeodh mcs octdrery ejbctck`s k`oy tk twk kr tmrdd arcd`hs. Ct wes
typcieo ka mcs imereitdr tmet tmksd odss ioksd tk mcj hch `kt et eoo rdnerh
mcj es e` c`tdooditueooy c`tdrdstc`n pdrsk`. Mcs adookw kastidrs sew mcj es e nkkh adookw wmk d`gkydh d`tdrtec`c`n tmd ktmdrs, katd` wctm
octtod rdnerh akr mcs hcn`cty. Mcs be`l e`h odneo ikoodenuds l`dw mcj
es e` krhc`ery ikaaddmkusd petrk` e`h wdrd quctd surprcsdh tk mder ka
bkkls tmet md meh pubocsmdh e`h tmet meh dvd` bdd` precsdh.
Md wkrldh merh. Akr pdrsk`eo rdesk`s, tmd hcery md ldpt hurc`n
tmd oest yders ka mcs ocad cs u`suctebod akr pubocietck` c` auoo, but e
tmdetdr gkur`eo mes pubocsmdh arenjd`ts wmcim tdstcay tk mcs ae`etcieookvd ka tmd octdrery ert, tk tmd burhd` ka rdspk`scbcocty u`hdr wmcim md
wrktd kr mdsctetdh tk wrctd, tk mcs e`xcdty ebkut mcs jcssck`, tmd ader
tmet mcs ebcocty ikuoh aehd, mcs wkrl bdikjd jdrd ireat. ‟Hurc`n tmd
wer,‚ md wrktd, ‟tmd cjjdhcetd pdrco ka hdetm aeidh jd mkuroy, but
wmd` C preydh, C preydh tmet Nkh smkuoh odt jd ocvd k`oy ca C wes
imksd` tk bd e wrctdr.‚ ^met pcdty! E`h C jde` `kt mcs bdocda c` Nkh,
but mcs bdocda c` wrctc`n. ‘ Et e`ktmdr pkc`t, k` Ydptdjbdr 96, 532=,md wrctds7 ‟C mevd scx jk`tms– veietck`. C` tmcs tcjd `k k`d smeoo mder
e tmc`n arkj jd. Dctmdr C wcoo mevd irdetdh skjdtmc`n rdeo by tmd`, kr
C wcoo st`csm wctm dvdrytmc`n. Vdrmeps `kt wctm ocad, but wctm ert. But
wctmkut ct tmdrd cs `k ocad akr jd. Xmet cs tmd he`ndr.‚ ‘ Xmd ader akr
mcs mcnmdr sdoa cs chd`tcieo tk tmd ader akr mcs ocad. Cs suim e tmc`n stcoo
pksscbod;
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C`ichd`teooy, md eosk aderdh akr mcs ocad k` tmd purdoy pmyscieo odvdo,
e mypkimk`hrcei ik`ste`toy ru``c`n tk tmd hkitkr. Xmet wes uotcjetdoy
tmd ieusd ka mcs deroy hdetm. Xmd hkitkrs, jehd ieookus e`h sldptcieoby mcs dtdr`eo ae`icds, u`hdrdstcjetdh e`h jcshcen`ksdh mcs aeteo coo-
`dss akr juim tkk ok`n.
Md hcdh u`hdr pdiuocer icriujste`ids. Et tmd tcjd ka mcs eiutd
coo`dss mcs jktmdr, wmk suaadrdh arkj e sdvdrd dyd ecojd`t, wes c` tmd
sejd ioc`ci wmdrd mcs kpdretck` tkkl poeid. Xmd kpdretck` cs ldpt sdirdt
arkj mdr, but smd mes e hrdej ebkut Mdrje``–s hdetm. Mdr sk` ocvds
sdvdreo heys jkrd, ncvd` up akr okst by tmd hkitkrs, but mcjsdoa mkpd-auo. Xmd` mcs ettd`he`t cs ime`ndh7 c`tk mcs rkkj ikjds e `ursd wmkj
md rdikn`czds es e imcohmkkh eiquec`te`id arkj Bkslkvcid. ^ctm
mkrrkr ‘ akr md sdds ct es e` kjd`. Xmd dertm mes sd`t tmcs aeid arkj
tmd mkjdoe`h tk jddt mcj. Md just hcd.
Mcs oest ae`tescds ik`idr`dh tmd prdjcdrd ka mcs poey Xmd Erbkr ,
wmcim rdid`toy meh cts statcdtm pdrakrje`id et Qcd``e–s Rd`ecsse`id
Xmdetdr. Md hcdh k` Kitkbdr 2=, 5323.
Xmkjes Je``
@chhd`, 5396
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tmd wc`d-trevdodr
C hk `kt wcsm tk hwdoo upk` tmd cjprdssck`s ka jy ykutm.
Yuastid ct tk sey tmet C wes bkr` tmcrty-scx yders enk es tmd
sk` ka e trevdoc`n seodsje`. Deroy k` C eiqucrdh tmd slcoos wmcim
wkuoh k`d hey d`ebod jd tk teld kvdr jy aetmdr–s busc`dss.
Xmkunm md meh strunnodh eoo mcs ocad tk jeld d`hs jddt, md meh
e nrdet odneiy tk odevd jd7 mcs l`kwodhnd ka tmd iocd`tdod. Md
l`dw eoo pktd`tceo iustkjdrs c` mcs hcstrcit ‘ e`h tmdrd wdrd
pktd`tceo iustkjdrs c` tmd sjeoodst tkw`s ‘ `kt k`oy by `ejd,
md l`dw tmdcr rdoetcvds, aejcoy beilnrku`h e`h imereitdr trects.
Xmet cs `k desy jettdr c` e trehd es aer-flu`n es tmd wc`d trehd.
K`d just ieoo upk` tmd c``lddpdrs c` tmd sjeoo tkw`s, nrkidrse`h mktdocdrs c` tmd ictcds. Ct–s e ikokrauo okt tmd wc`d-trevdodr
jddts k` mcs gkb, jkrd ikokrauo tme` tmd iocd`tdod ka, sey, tmd
trevdodr c` ioktm. C``lddpdrs erd siku`hrdos, pdkpod sey, e`h tmd
trutm ka ct cs tmet tmd c``lddpdr mes e jkrd imdildrdh jãtcdr
tme` e`y ktmdr jdrime`t.
Ca C adot ieoodh tk wrctd e `kvdo poujbc`n tmd hdptms ka tmdmuje` mdert, C wkuoh jeld jy mdrk e` c``lddpdr. Xmd kw`dr,
sey, ka e sjeoo mktdo. Ct wkuoh ocd k` e `errkw schd strddt, ejk`n
jusci meoos e`h octtod smkps. Xmd sdirdts ka suim e mkusd, tmd
pdkpod wmk pess c` e`h kut, okvdrs e`h boeil jerldtddrs, tmd tk
e`h ark ka nrcj kr oeunmc`n stnurds, tmd odevd` ka tmd pdkpod e`h
tmd irdej ka mcnm skicdty ‘ e`h c` tmdcr jchst tmd c``lddpdr,
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kutwerhoy tmd pdtty bkurndkcs, but mcs mdert stoodh wctm tmd
sdirdts ka e iocd`tdod wmcim tdjpts mcj tk hdje`h jkrd ka ocad
tme` cs mcs okt.Totcjetdoy tmdrd cs `k hcaadrd`id bdtwdd` e mktdocdr c` tmd
iepcteo e`h e` c``lddpdr c` tmd prkvc`ids. Xmd stend cs sjeoodr,
tmd hreje poeydh kut by adwdr eitkrs, but tmd pessck`s erd gust
es mkt e`h ik`sujc`n. C wkuoh vd`turd tmet tmd c``lddpdr c`
tmd prkvc`ids mes k`d tmrcoo wmcim ncvds mcj tmd ehve`tend kvdr
tmd mktdocdr c` tmd iepcteo7 tmd stre`ndr arkj tmd iepcteo wmk
ik``dits mcj tk tmd wchd wkroh, wmksd ounnend md sirutc`czds
wctm tmd sejd sd`sueo iurckscty es mcs ioktmds e`h mcs oc`d`s c`
tmd ioksdt. Ct cs merh tk akko e` c``lddpdr. Ca tmd ik` jd`–s nucoh
meh e tdst akr jestdry, `k hkubt tmd tesl wkuoh bd tk ikex e
pd``y arkj e` c``lddpdr.
C sey tmcs bdieusd tmd prkadssck` mes poeydh e spdiceo rkod c`
jy ocad, es wd smeoo sdd, e`h tk ik`vdy mkw hcastiuot tmd wc`d-trevdodr–s busc`dss cs, quctd epert arkj tmd aeit ka hdeoc`n c` wc`d.
^c`d cs ieoodh jdrime`hcsd, gust es scol e`h pepdr erd ieoodh
jdrime`hcsd, tmkunm pepdr e`h scol ka e idrtec` nrehd e`h ikokr
ie` bd prkhuidh eh c`st`ctuj, e`h k`d pcdid ka tmd sejd typd
e`h nrehd ka pepdr wcoo eoweys okkl dxeitoy tmd sejd es e`ktmdr.
L`kwc`n pepdr e`h scol cs e jettdr ka preitcid. E wc`d-trevdodr cs bkr`, `kt jehd. L`kwc`n wc`d cs e jystdrckus ncat. Ct
mc`nds `kt k`oy k` tmd rdst`djd`t ka tmd testd buhs. Xmet cs e`
kbvckus rdqucrdjd`t. C hk `kt mdsctetd tk ieoo tmcs ncat e ncat ka tmd
mdert. Ct ie``kt bd trec`dh, oder`dh kr e`eoyzdh. Cs ct prdsujp-
tukus ka jd tk ikjperd ct wctm ertcstci c`spcretck`, wmcim, tkk,
ie``kt bd oder`dh, but cs scjpoy tmdrd, e ncat ka tmd nkhs; Ct cs
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`kt irdetcvd ocld tmd pkdt–s ncat. But cs`–t tmdrd eosk u`irdetcvd
ertcstry, tmd ert ka d`gkyjd`t, ka rdspk`sd, cs`–t ct ‘ tmd ebcocty
tk bd c`tkxcietdh by jusci, sey, tmd distesy ka tmd ocstd`dr ‘ ocldtmd ncat ka tmd irdetcvd ertcst, nre`tdh tk adw, e`h es stcrrc`n es
tmd ncat ka tmd irdetkr; E`h cs`–t skjdtmc`n ka tmd irdetcvd akrid
c`mdrd`t c` tmd epprecseo ka d`gkyjd`t, c` tmd hcsircjc`etck`
wmcim irkw`s tmd podesurd, st`csmds ct, sprc`nc`n ioder e`h prcs-
tc`d arkj tmd turbuod`id ka djktck` ocld tmet Nrddl nkhhdss
wmk, C mder, odepdh auooy-erjdh arkj mdr aetmdr–s sluoo; Xk teld
c` dvdrytmc`n ‘ sjdoo, testd, bkhy ‘ wctm strec`c`n sd`sds, wctm
ocps, peoetd e`h tk`nud tk addo tmd hrkps ocld mdevy vdovdt kr ircsp
scol, pcdridh by e tmkuse`h jdjkrcds strunnoc`n tk teld akrj,
sdczdh by e` c`tkxcietck` ka eoo tmd sd`sds tmet brc`ns akrtm l`kwo-
dhnd7 tmet cs e ncat nre`tdh tk adw. C c`mdrctdh ct arkj jy aetmdr
e`h pkssdss ct tk suim e hdnrdd tmet C ie` rdikn`czd e wc`d C
hre`l k`d hrkp ka td` yders enk, e`h ̀ ejd cts krcnc`, cts vc`tend.C wes `kt jde`t et strst tk jeld usd ka tmdsd ebcoctcds. Jy
aetmdr hch `kt we`t jd tk teld up mcs prkadssck`, wmcim meh
ycdohdh mcj k`oy e jdendr, merh-der`dh c`ikjd. Md we`tdh
jd tk epprd`tcid jysdoa et e trehc`n ikjpe`y tmet meh wchd-
re`nc`n ik``ditck`s tk eoo tmd iku`trcds c` tmd wkroh e`h wes
kw`dh by e hcste`t rdoetcvd ka jy jktmdr. Xmd poe` aku`hdrdhk` jy kppksctck`. C we`tdh tk bd e wc`d-trevdodr. C descoy
hdadetdh jy aetmdr, e lc`h-mdertdh je` wmk okvdh mcs k`oy imcoh
td`hdroy, by eslc`n wmdtmdr md wkuoh jeld mcs sk` nk c`tk tmd
trehc`n ikjpe`y ca md wdrd e vcrtuksk k` tmd vckoc`.
‟@k,‚ jy aetmdr sech. ‟Cs`–t wc`d ocld e` koh vckoc`,‚ C esldh,
‟e`h cs`–t ct jy ncat tk poey tmcs vckoc` ocld e vcrtuksk;‚
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Xmcs jcnmt odeh k`d tk bdocdvd tmet arkj ykutm C mevd bdd`
e je` ka jkhdst ejbctck`s. Xmet C wcsmdh tk akookw jy c`ioc-
`etck`s, st`hc`n c` tmdj e jkhdst meppc`dss retmdr tme` sderimtmd wchd wkroh akr tmd ard`dtci eitcvcty tmet cs `k meppc`dss et
eoo. Xmet C we`tdh tk bd `ktmc`n but wmet jy aetmdr wes. Odt
jd sey et k`id tmet tmcs wes `kt tmd iesd. ^met C wrctd mdrd ka
tmd wkroh–s ard`dtci eitcvcty, C hch `kt l`kw et tmd tcjd. C iejd
by tmcs l`kwodhnd tmd merh wey. Aetd mes bdd` e stdr` tdeimdr
tk jd, stdr`dr pdrmeps tme` tk je`y wmksd ocvds akookw tmdcr
prdsircbdh petms qucdtoy e`h wctmkut upmdeveo. Hk yku suppksd
tmet C wes `kt te`teoczdh e`h tdjptdh by tmd tmkunmt ka der`-
c`n jk`dy ocld jy imcohodss u`iod, wmksd akrtu`d C hkubtodss
wkuoh mevd c`mdrctdh; Jk`dy, ouxury, tmd pkwdr tk pey akr
wkjd` e`h ncvd tmdj prdsd`ts, tk nk tmrkunm ocad es e je` ka
hcstc`itck` ‘ et tmd tcjd, tmet just mevd bdd` jy mdert–s jkst
erhd`t hdscrd. Ca C rdgditdh tmd kaadr wmcim prkjcsdh eoo tmcs akr tmd auturd, ct wes bdieusd C tmkunmt ct smkuoh eoo aeoo c`tk jy
oep c` e` descdr, jkrd nretcayc`n wey, daakrtodssoy, `kt merh wk`
tmrkunm mk`dst, rdspditebod wkrl c` jy u`iod–s kastid u`hdr
mcs strcit supdrvcsck`. @kt k`oy hch C bdocdvd, C wes ebskoutdoy
ik`vc`idh tmdrd just dxcst bkoh, vd`turdskjd weys tk ikjd c`tk
jk`dy wctmkut tmd socnmtdst daakrt. Hdspctd jy ykutm, tmdrd wes`k aectm c` jy mdert tmet mk`dsty, tmrcat e`h merh wkrl wkuoh
eoweys bd rdwerhdh. C bdocdvdh tmd kppksctd.
C meh `k ioder `ktck` ka mkw tk jeld nkkh k` jy hrdejs.
C sd`sdh k`oy tmet k`d just bd et tmd rdehy, ardd ka prdguhcids,
u`c`mcbctdh, tk sdczd tmd kppkrtu`cty wmd` ct erksd. C tmkunmt
up eoo skrts ka sctuetck`s arkj wmcim C djdrndh wctm mund prkstts.
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Xmdrd cs k`d C rdjdjbdr c` pertciuoer. C wcoo ncvd jysdoa tmd
bd`dstt ka tmd hkubt e`h suppksd tmet ct cs dspdiceooy hder tk jd
bdieusd C trcujpmdh odss by hdidptck` tme` tmrkunm jy ert.K` k`d ka jy trcps, C tmkunmt, C ikjd tk e tkw`. Ct cs e`
c`scn`cstie`t octtod tkw`, aer arkj tmd bdetd` petm. E tkw` ka
wmksd dxcstd`id C ej u`ewerd u`tco tmd hey C errcvd. Ykjd
dsiepehd mes brkunmt jd mdrd. C teld e rkkj et tmd c``, hrdss,
es C nd`dreooy hk, sokwoy e`h jdtciuokusoy, pdrmeps jkrd sokwoy
tme` usueo tk lddp tmd c``lddpdr c` suspd`sd. C l`kw tmd
c``lddpdr cs oyc`n c` wect tk sku`h jd kut. Md cs es iurckus es
k`oy e` c``lddpdr ie` bd. C nk hkw`stecrs. C sct et e tebod. Xmd
c``lddpdr ikjds tk stert e ik`vdrsetck` wctm jd. C ej smkrt ka
wkrhs. Xmd` tmd wc`d cs brkunmt. Xmd bkttod cs koh e`h husty,
wctmkut e oebdo. C pkur e noess auoo. Bkrhdeux. Dvd` bdakrd C
hrc`l C ej sdczdh by tmet sdhuitcvd u`rdst, e trdjkr ka tmd sd`sds
es just sdczd ertcsts wmd` tmdy erd suhhd`oy, u`dxpditdhoy kvdr-ikjd by tmd vcsck` ka e wkrl. E jkjd`t oetdr C irusm tmd strst
hrkp bdtwdd` tk`nud e`h peoetd. E vkouptukus werjtm ikursds
tmrkunm jy bokkh. C ioksd jy dyds. C mevd bdakrd jd tmd jkst
dxqucsctd wc`d C dvdr hre`l. Xmd irkw`c`n nokry ka eoo wc`ds. E
mu`hrdh yders koh akr idrtec`, e mu`hrdh yders sdeodh c` tmd
bkttod, e mu`hrdh yders rdjkvdh arkj eoo tmd c`flud`ids ka tmddertm, odat tk ctsdoa, nrkw` rcpd, rcpd es e trkpcieo aruct, ka nd`tod
mdat, suppod swddt`dss, stt tk flkw hkw` tmd tmrkets ka tmd jkst
hcsircjc`etc`n ik``kcssdurs. E sdik`h k`oy, e`h C l`kw dvdry-
tmc`n. C kpd` jy dyds. C okkl et tmd c``lddpdr. Md mes `k c`loc`n
ka jy hcsikvdry.
Xk tmcs hey C hcstc`itoy rdieoo tmd testd ka tmcs wc`d, eotmkunm
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C `dvdr hre`l ct. Cts bkuqudt tcilods tmd `drvds ka jy `ksd es ca
C wdrd mkohc`n tmd noess bdakrd jd `kw. C l`kw C wcoo `dvdr
rdeooy brdetmd tmcs arenre`id, `dvdr addo k` jy tk`nud tmd testdtmet jdjkry ik`gurds up. Jdjkry; Jdjkry; Jdjkry ka skjd-
tmc`n C `dvdr rdeooy dxpdrcd`idh; Sku wcoo oeunm et tmet. But akr
jd ct cs `k hcaadrd`t tme` e rdeo dxpdrcd`id. C st`h `k spdiceo
adeturd tk hcstc`nucsm tmcs dxpdrcd`id arkj ktmdrs. Ca tmcs cs `kt
trud, tmd` C wes `dvdr rdeooy e wc`d-trevdodr, C k`oy hrdejdh ct,
e`h C `k ok`ndr l`kw wmdtmdr C rdeooy lcoodh e je` kr wmdtmdr
ct wes e hrdej.
C bdocdvd k`d smkuoh `kt sddl tk hcsikvdr wmet wes rdeo c`
tmd pest e`h wmet wes `kt. Xmd tmkunmt cs stre`nd e`h hcsquc-
dtc`n. Ct cs e ikjakrt wmd` tmd mdert jelds `k hcstc`itck`s.
C sdt up tmd swc`hod iodvdroy. C hch `kt jd`tck` tmd wc`d tk
tmd c``lddpdr tmet hey. ^md` C pech C sew tmet tmd c``lddpdr
veoudh tmd wc`d wkrtm tmkuse`hs et e adw pd``cds. Xmd `dxt hey, `k skk`dr, C teoldh tmd u`suspditc`n c``lddpdr c`tk sdooc`n
jd mcs d`tcrd suppoy, k`d mu`hrdh e`h td` bkttods, e`h wes e
wdeotmy je`.
C wes berdoy dcnmtdd` wmd` jy aetmdr d`trustdh jd wctm mcs
`ktdbkkl. Xmcs bkkl wes jy aetmdr–s sidptdr. ^ctm ct mdbdqudetmdh jd mcs l`kwodhnd ka tmd iocd`tdod. Ct wes e octtod
kitevk bkklodt wctm e hkn-derdh ierhbkerh ikvdr mdoh tkndtmdr
by e` doestci ikrh. Xmd bkkl wes sjeoo d`kunm tk stt, wctm skjd
hcastiuoty, c`tk k`d–s kutschd geildt pkildt. Kpd`c`n ct, k`d sew
k` tmd rcnmt schd e flcnmt ka wmctd odttdrs k` rdite`nuoer rdh stdohs,
E tk W. Xmcs bkkl wes ̀ kt usdh tk rdikrh iustkjdrs– krhdrs. Akr
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tmet tmdrd wdrd sod`hdr ̀ ktdbkkls wctm ierbk`-pepdr c`sdrts e`h
e prd-prc`tdh tdxt, tmd skrt dvdry trevdoc`n seodsje` mes. C hkubt,
tmkunm, tmet e`y trevdoc`n seodsje` kw`s e bkkl ocld tmd k`djy aetmdr odat jd. Kvdr akrty yders c` tmd trehd jy aetmdr meh
`ktdh eoo md hddjdh cjpkrte`t akr e seodsje` c` tmd hcstrcits
wd trevdodh, imereitdrczetck`s ka tmd pdkpod k`d hdeot wctm, tmdcr
pdrsk`eoctcds, tmdcr ik``ditck`s, okieoctcds, prcids ‘ sddc`n tmet
tmcs ocst aecos tk brc`n tmd pciturd tk ocad, C smeoo quktd e adw oc`ds
arkj jy aetmdr–s bkkl vdrbetcj.
‟J. Rdh-mecrdh siku`hrdo. Me`hod wctm ieutck`. Ikjpoec`s
ebkut dvdry smcpjd`t. Hru`l by hey, ikjd c` tmd dvd`c`n. K.
@dpmdw ka A. c` . . . Buy tc` ka serhc`ds. Ncvd A.–s rdnerhs. Esl
ca odn cs murtc`n enec`. Reco et tmd Gdws. Nkkh krhdrs, bkttodh
wc`ds. Arkj Jdydr & Ouhwcn. Hk –̀t odevd.‚
Es tmdsd dxejpods smkw, jy aetmdr, ca `kt e` kutste`hc`n
je`, wes et odest e` kutoe`hcsm k`d. @kw tmet C mevd bdnu` tkspdel ka jy aetmdr, C ie``kt rdscst tdooc`n k`d jkrd tmc`n ebkut
mcj, dvd` ca ct c`tdrrupts tmd flkw ka jy `erretcvd. But uotc-
jetdoy C ej c`tdrdstdh `kt c` wrctc`n e` ebskrbc`n stkry, but c`
rdikrhc`n jy ocad–s iruiceo pertciuoers. Cs ct prdsujptukus ka jd
tk tmc`l jy ocad cjpkrte`t d`kunm tk bd rdikrhdh akr pkstdrcty;
C wrctd `dctmdr tk dhcay `kr tk upocat. C `ddh e`swdr tk `k k`d.Vdrmeps C k`oy we`t tk pess k`id jkrd c` spcrct, stdp by stdp,
hkw` tmd rkeh C mevd ikjd, akr c` tmd mdert–s mdopodss tkrjd`t
tmdrd cs sdirdt podesurd c` tmd c`ebcocty tk jeld wmet meppd`dh
meppd` enec` hcaadrd`toy. C wcoo dxpdrcd`id tmd stetck`s ka tmcs
rkeh enec`, e`h c` tmd jchst ka tmcs dxpdrcd`id C wcoo l`kw tmd
c`dvctebod d`h. ^es ct c`dvctebod dvd` tmd`, bdakrd C l`dw ct; Kr
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ikuoh C mevd teld` aetd tk e`ktmdr d`h wctm e`ktmdr wkrh,
e`ktmdr hdicsck`; K Nkh, odt jd bdocdvd tmet dvdrytmc`n wes
c`dvcteboy krhec`dh akr jd. Eoes, jdjkry cs `kt kboctdretdh,kvdr e`h kvdr enec` ct sddjs tk ik`ark`t us wctm tmd hdicsck`
wmcim cs e` c`dsiepebod ikjpuosck`, tmd ikjpuosck` tk akookw
e jystdrckus Bdakrd wmcim uotcjetdoy `dvdr dxcstdh dctmdr, gust
es e hrdej jelds yku uttdr pe`cildh wkrhs wmksd sku`h rdvdr-
bdretds c` ykur ders arkj tmd pest kr tmd auturd. Eoo tmc`ns erd
stoodh wctm enk`czc`n jystdry wmdrd je` oksds mcs wey.
C jde`t tk spdel ka jy aetmdr. C jde`t tk sey tmet md rdtcrdh
wctm e` desy jc`h, tmkunm md meh put ewey berdoy d`kunm tk
lddp bkhy e`h skuo tkndtmdr. C smkuoh `kt ocld e`yk`d tk tmc`l
jy aetmdr e akko eatdr rdehc`n wmet C wrctd ebkut mcj. Xmd
pdiuocercty C ej ebkut tk hcvuond nevd mcs ocad e qucdt meppc`dss.
Jy aetmdr meh e sdirdt. @k k`d l`dw ct, k`oy md e`h C, e`h tmet
stoodh mcj wctm qucdt gky. Vdkpod tkkl mcj akr e pkkr koh wc`d-trevdodr e`h `kt akr wmet md rdeooy wes, e`h md aku`h tmet sk
dxqucsctd tmet md ikuoh merhoy ik`tec` mcs jcrtm. Jy aetmdr, yku
sdd, wes e nrdet stetdsje`. C` tmd yder –11* md meh sevdh Eustrce
arkj hdadet tmrkunm e` eooce`id wctm Russce. Xmcs wes prkvd`
crrdauteboy by tmd pepdrs mchhd` ewey c` mcs hdsl arkj iurckus
dyds. Es wes je`y e`ktmdr hcpokjetci hddh tmet meh meh tmdjkst prkaku`h c`flud`id upk` Durkpd–s pkoctcieo ik`stdooetck`.
Mcs eooce`ids, jcoctery iejpecn`s e`h pdeid trdetcds meh meh e
brkehdr e`h jkrd seoutery scn`cstie`id tme` tmksd k`d rdehs ka c`
tmd pepdrs, akr wmcim jy aetmdr ikuoh sperd k`oy e` crk`ci sjcod.
Jy aetmdr katd` dxpoec`dh tk jd tmd au`hejd`teo pkoctcieo
prc`icpods md meh akookwdh c` eoo mcs ikjbc`etck`s, iejpecn`s,
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eooce`ids e`h sdirdt trdetcds. Xmd stetdsje`, md wkuoh sey,
strklc`n mcs spersd wmctd bderh, just mevd mcs kw` vcdw ka tmd
wkroh, e`h md just `kt odt mcjsdoa bd sweydh arkj mcs petm by eiiku`ts ktmdrs ncvd mcj. C` ik`trest tk eoo jy ktmdr ik`tdj-
pkrercds wmkj tmd wkroh sdds stt tk ieoo stetdsjd`, C mevd eoweys
hrew` upk` jy kw` rdskurids e`h `dvdr rdocdh k` teod-bderdrs,
bd tmdy `dwspepdrjd` kr hcpokjets. Jy wkrohvcdw wes tmet ka
e pdeid-okvc`n, d`ocnmtd`dh je` wmk u`hdrstkkh tmd pocnmt ka
tmd pdkpod. C je`endh tk stddr ioder ka nrdet wers c`tk wmcim
ktmdrs pou`ndh mdehok`n, e`h C bdocdvd C eitdh rcnmtoy, dvd`
wmd` C d`gkydh tmd suppkrt ka strk`n ik`adhdretds e`h ikuoh
prdhcit e vcitkry wctm eojkst jetmdjetcieo idrtec`ty. C wes dvdr
ik`sickus ka tmd nrevd rdspk`scbcocty tmet Nkh meh vdstdh c` jd,
e`h C bdocdvd C `ddh `kt eiiusd jysdoa ka ebusc`n ct. C ie` hcd
et pdeid e`h nk bdakrd tmd mdevd`oy guhnd wmk wcoo wdcnm jy
hddhs e`h tmksd ka ktmdr stetdsjd`. C `ddh `kt trdjbod et tmd vdrhcit.
Yk jy aetmdr spkld tk jd et tcjds wmd` wd wdrd eok`d.
Erku`h ktmdrs md wes `kt e stetdsje`, but e rdtcrdh sjeoo-tcjd
wc`d-trevdodr wmk hcsiussdh tmd prkspdits akr tmd mervdst e`h
tmd u`td`ebod prcid c`irdesds c` rdid`t yders. Es C jd`tck`dh,
md sew ct es e` ejusc`n pre`l md poeydh k` tmd wkroh by ik`-ideoc`n mcs trud wkrls, e octtod rknudry md c`huondh c` akr mcs
e`h jy podesurd, jelc`n mcj burst kut c` e imcoh–s jcsimcdvkus
oeunmtdr wmd`dvdr wd spkld ka ct. C cjenc`d md adot ocld tmd ruodr
c` tmd aecry teod wmk jc`nodh wctm mcs subgdits c`ikn`ctk e`h
gkc`dh tmdcr ik`vdrsetck`s, bocssauo c` mcs subtdraund, e sdirdt
ieocpm ocld jy aetmdr.
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Et tmd tcjd, sk es `kt tk hcseppkc̀ t tmd koh je ,̀ C prdtd`hdh
tk ocstd` nrevdoy e`h enrdd wctm mcj, but C katd` oeunmdh et mcj
jysdoa. Xkhey C oeunm `k ok`ndr. Erd`–t wd eoo sdirdt ieocpms; d̂ eoo bucoh kursdovds tmd mkusd ka kur ocad, e`h tmd wkroh
erku`h us sdds ct hcaadrd`toy. ^my hk wd odt ktmdrs hdouhd us
c`tk sddc`n kur ocad wctm tmdcr dyds; Bdttdr tk sjcod et tmdj ocld
jy aetmdr, akr `kt l`kwc`n wmet wd l`kw, c`stdeh ka bdocdvc`n
tmdj. Ca wd tmc`l up kur auturd, wmy `kt hk tmd sejd wctm tmd
pest ‘ wmet cs tmd hcaadrd`id bdtwdd` pest e`h auturd; ‘ e`h
bd sdirdt ieocpms ocld Meru` eo-Resmch;* Xmd ikjjk` akol sey7
Ca tmdy ieoo yku e ikw, yku mevd tk jkk. ^mk cs rcnmt, tmksd
pdkpod kr jy aetmdr;
C smeoo `kt hwdoo k` tmdsd qudstck`s, sddc`n tmet oder`dh jd`
mevd hkubtodss dxpoec`dh e`h e`swdrdh tmdj c` tmdcr bkkls ok`n
enk, e`h C wkuoh k`oy oksd jy wey c` e oebyrc`tm ka hkubts. C
smeoo `kw stert tdooc`n tmd stkry C smkuoh eordehy mevd bdnu` wctmretmdr tme` odttc`n jysdoa hcnrdss.
Eatdr telc`n kvdr jy aetmdr–s busc`dss, C bdne` by ieooc`n k`
tmd iocd`ts wmkj md mcjsdoa meh vcsctdh sdvdreo tcjds e yder kvdr
tmd hdiehds. Nkc`n by jy aetmdr–s `ktdbkkl, C c`trkhuidh jysdoa
tk deim es tmd sk` ka jy aetmdr, akookwdh jy aetmdr–s wrcttd`
c`struitck`s, spkld wctm k`d ka mcs nkut, wctm e`ktmdr ka mcsheunmtdr c` Qcd``e, e`h meh `k ieusd akr ikjpoec`t. Busc`dss
wd`t tkodreboy wdoo. C skoh d`kunm tk ocvd jkhdstoy e`h sevd e
adw pd``cds mdrd e`h tmdrd akr jy koh end. Sdt C wes `kt ik`-
td`t wctm tmdsd prkspdits. C meh `kt nk`d c`tk tmcs prkadssck`
k`oy tk preitcid ct es jy aetmdr meh. Xmdrd wes `k hkubt c` jy
jc`h tmet jc`d wes e hcaadrd`t, rcimdr aetd. Xmd l`kwodhnd ka
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tmd pkdt kr tmd juscice`, but ocld tmdj recsdh by ykur sd`sds
c`tk e hddpdr e`h mkocdr ikjju`ck` wctm @eturd, ocatdh up arkj
tmd c`drt jessds ka tmksd wmksd dyds erd es huoo es tmdcr ders,tmdcr `kstrcos, tmdcr tk`nuds, e`h tmd `drvds bd`detm tmdcr slc`.
C jde`t tk der` k`oy tmd strst ka jy jk`dy c` jy aetmdr–s
prkadssck`. Xmd` ewey arkj mkjd, strst tk tmd iepcteo, tmd`
trevdoc`n eoo tmd iku`trcds k` dertm. Beil tmd`, wmd` C set
dvd`c`ns c` e sjeoo-tkw` c`` eatdr e hey–s wkrl, hrc`lc`n e
bkttod ka imdep wc`d, C vcvchoy bdmdoh jy ocad es ct wkuoh smkrtoy
bd. C adot k` jy tk`nud tmd stdry, mdehy wc`d C wkuoh hrc`l,
swkk`c`n c` tmd nrcp ka tmd podesurd tmet wes jy hud. C wes
surrku`hdh by rcim yku`n jd` e`h bdeutcauo wkjd` C hrdw
eatdr jd c`tk tmd bdetctuhd ka podesurd. Xmdy meh `dvdr hru`l
ocld tmcs bdakrd. C rdvdeodh tk tmdj tmd jystdry ka tmd wc`d wd
hre`l. C` koh wc`d cs tmd sid`t ka eoo flkwdrs, tmd reys ka tmd su`,
imcohrd`–s oeunmtdr, jd –̀s swdet, tmd vcsck` ka tmd sujjdr oe`h-siepd, eoo rcpd e`h mdevy es tmd brdest ka e `ursc`n jktmdr. C hch
`kt rdvdeo ct c` wkrhs, jy sd`sds rdvdeodh ct, es wkjd`–s jutd
sd`sueocty rdvdeos ctsdoa e`h pou`nds c`tk swddt tre`spkrt.
Jy aetmdr–s iustkjdrs bdne` tk rdnerh jd wctm suspcick`.
Xmd sjeoo-tcjd c``lddpdrs e`h trehdsjd` tkkl ct es e` eaark`t
wmd` e seodsje` iejd tk tkut mcs wc`ds wderc`n sod`hdr petd`t-odetmdr bkkts e`h aesmck`ebod irevets. ^met tmdy ehjcrdh
c` tmdcr skiceo supdrckrs, tmdy rdsd`tdh c` jd. Ct wes prdsujp-
tukus ka jd tk hrdss bdttdr tme` tmdy. ^es C jkrd tme` tmdy, kr
wes –̀t C eitueooy odss, wdrd –̀t tmdy tmd buydrs, e`h hch –̀t C mevd
tk bd meppy e`h sey tme`l yku wmd` tmdy krhdrdh e adw bkttods
ka imdep Qñsoeudr; Xmdy stkppdh poeic`n krhdrs wctm jd. C–h sdd
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mkw aer C nkt wctm jy nd`todje`oy dodne`id, okrhc`n ct kvdr
tmdj.
E`h sk C hch `kt st`h ct merh tk odevd jy irejpdh spmdrd ka eitcvcty eatdr e yder e`h nk tk tmd iepcteo, wmcim C meh vcsctdh
sdvdreo tcjds. Mdrd C wkuoh teld jy strst stdps c`tk ocad–s wchd
erd`e e`h tmd` jkvd k` c`tk tmd wchd wkroh, je`y perts ka
wmcim C l`dw es ca C meh eordehy bdmdoh tmdj. C l`dw tmd scnmt
ka Burnu`hy, e`h tmd oe`h ka Bkrhdeux. ^es`–t tmd k`d e su`-
werjdh poec` e`h tmd ktmdr e imec` ka mcoos k` wmcim tmd s`kw
jdots c` tmd dertm–s werj brdetm; Ikuoh ct bd ktmdrwcsd; C l`dw
tmdj eoo, tmd rdh burnu`hcds arkj Imejbdrtc` tk Jeîk`, tmd
wmctds ka Jk`treimdt e`h Imebocs, tmd rdh Bkrhdeux ka Jãhki,
Oetkur, Imetdeu Jerneux, tmd wmctds ka Yeutdr`d.
C errcvdh c` tmd icty wctm jk`dy d`kunm tk ocvd aruneooy akr
sdvdreo jk`tms. But aruneocty wes aer arkj jy jc`h. C tkkl e
nkkh rkkj c` e pd`sck` wmdrd trevdodrs steydh, C etd et aesm-ck`ebod rdsteure`ts e`h spd`t jy dvd`c`ns c` tmd schd rkkj ka
e ieaã wmdrd pdkpod nejbodh akr mcnm stelds. C we`tdh jy aetd
tk bd hdichdh. C hch `kt gkc` c` tmd nejd. Eoo C we`tdh et strst
wes tk jeld eiquec`te`ids c` tmdsd icriods, tk jddt pdkpod wmk
ikuoh bd mdopauo. Xmdrd ikuoh bd `k jkrd prkpctckus ikjpe`y
tme` tmet ka nejbodrs. Xmdcr jk`dy bur`s e mkod c` tmdcr pkildt<tmdy erd nd`drkus e`h dxtrevene`t wmd` tmdy wc`< tmdy erd des-
coy strdh up akr akkomerhy chdes sk ok`n es tmdy merbkr tmd socnmt-
dst mkpd ka nrdet prkstts. Xmdy bdocdvd c` tmd ouil tmet ie` bd
akridh, tmdy bdocdvd tmd ouily je` e`h smu` tmd je` hknndh
by coo-ouil es ca md wdrd e ircjc`eo.
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C jdt jd` mdrd wmk pkssdssdh nrdet wdeotm. Kr pdrmeps tmdy
meh eordehy sque`hdrdh ct c` tmd bocssauo mkpd ka c`irdesc`n ct
td`akoh. Jy smerp dyds cjjdhcetdoy hcstc`nucsmdh tmksd jd`arkj jy lc`h, tmd he`hcds wctm tmdcr sddjc`n c`hcaadrd`id
tkwerh okss e`h nec`, wmk ocld jd meh `ktmc`n tk steld but tmdcr
mu`ndr akr jk`dy. Xmdrd wes k`d, e yku`n je`, sod`hdr, boeil-
mecrdh, eoweys oeunmc`n e`h ireilc`n gklds tmet jehd ktmdrs
oeunm, hrdssdh wctm aestchckus dodne`id, ecrcoy, mddhodssoy `k`-
imeoe`t c` mcs jkvdjd`ts. @dxt tk mcj C adot ocld e nrdd`mkr`.
Ocld eoo tmd rdst md set c` tmd werj, sjkly rkkj c` mcs smcrt-
soddvds, but md `dvdr okst mcs pkcsd. Md okkldh `k odss ik`suj-
jetd c` mcs smcrtsoddvds tme` md wkuoh mevd wdrd md wderc`n
dvd`c`n hrdss. Mcs dodne`id wes `kt tmd brddhc`n ka tmksd bkr`
tk jk`dy, `kt tmd mebctuetck`, tmd cjctetck` ka tmksd wmk mevd
ikjd c`tk jk`dy, ct wes wmet jc`d wes, e` c``dr dxpdrcd`id ka
cts kw`, `k jettdr wmdtmdr k`d cs scttc`n c` k`d–s smcrtsoddvds et tmd nejc`n tebod kr odehc`n e oehy k`tk tmd he`id flkkr ka e beoo-
rkkj. Mcs `ejd wes ^èndr. Ct wes sech md wes ebkut tk bdikjd
d`nendh tk e vdry rcim yku`n wkje`, e wchkw. Md meh brcooce`t
dyds hkubtodss iepebod ka sdhuic`n wkjd`. C sew jy kw` hdscrds
bur`c`n c` tmdj. Xmet wes mkw C l`dw mcj.
Erku`h twk c` tmd jkr`c̀ n C wkuoh odevd tmd nejboc`n meoo.C weoldh hkw` tmd `errkw icty strddts tk jy pd`sck`, sctuetdh
c` e `dw bucohc`n c` tmd Koh Xkw`. Hey eatdr hey C mkpdh tk
jddt e wkje` et tmd ark`t hkkr kr k` tmd stecrs, pdrmeps e akr-
dcn`dr okhnc`n c` tmd pd`sck` akr e adw heys. C l`dw mkw C wkuoh
spdel tk mdr, mkw jy rdsdrvd ‘ `k`dtmdodss ik`vdyc`n ldd`,
crrdscstcbod hdscrd ‘ wkuoh wc` mdr kvdr, tmcs vdry `cnmt. Mkw
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C wkuoh sdt kut wctm mdr, pdrmeps tmd vdry `dxt hey, `kt ydt et
jy nkeo, but eordehy e nkkh hdeo ioksdr. C `dvdr jdt e wkje`
k` tmd stecrs. ^md` C weoldh hkw` tmd ikrrchkr pest stre`ndrs–hkkrs tk jy hkkr, tmd flcildr ka tmd jetim smkwdh jd jd`–s
sturhy smkds ste`hc`n `dxt tk wkjd`–s hec`ty bkkts. Ykjdtcjds,
tkk, e ok`doy pecr ka wkjd`–s smkds stkkh kutschd e hkkr. C wkuoh
hrdej ka tmet hkkr wmcod hrc`lc`n jy iustkjery bkttod ka wc`d
c` jy rkkj bdakrd nkc`n tk bdh. C ndt up, kpd` tmd hkkr wmdrd
tmd wkjd`–s smkds ste`h, e arcnmtd`dh wkje` ircds kut, C nrkpd
akr tmd ocnmt, C esl mdr tk bd stcoo, C tdoo mdr tmet C we`t k`oy e`
mkur wctm mdr, tmet C meh `k imkcid but tk brdel c` k` mdr et
tmd rcsl ka mdr rkusc`n tmd mkusd, sujjk`c`n tmd pkocid tk errdst
jd ocld e ircjc`eo. E`h C hk `kt rdtur` tk jy rkkj tmet `cnmt,
`kt u`tco tmd strst akktstdps weld c` tmd mkusd hk C socp ewey
arkj mdr, wmk mes jd swder e tmkuse`h tcjds kvdr tmet C okvd
mdr e`h wcoo `dvdr odevd mdr. Ymd cs rcim, mdr pderos eok`d erd wkrtm jkrd tme` e aecr-sczdh vc̀ dyerh. C mevd jk`dy, d`kunm tk
nk tk Jk`td, brdel tmd be`l e`h rdstkrd mdr pkssdssck`s wctm e
iesueo ndsturd.
^md` C tmc`l beil upk` tmcs tcjd tkhey, C brdel c` k` tmcs
wkje` e`h jy ocad telds e hcaadrd`t ikursd tme` ct tkkl. Beil
tmd` C hch `kt hk ct. Hch C oeil aectm c` jy ouil eatdr eoo, hch Cader tmd trutm, hch jy mdert, setdh by tmdsd hrdejs, `k ok`ndr
hdscrd tmd hddh; ^es ct jy aetmdr–s odneiy wctmc` jd, jcstelc`n
ae`tesy akr rdeocty; Rdeocty! Xmc`lc`n beil, wkuoh ct mevd bdd`
jkrd rdeo tk brdel c`tk tmet u`l`kw` wkje`–s rkkj tme` tk
ocvd ct kut pe`tc`n c` jy mdert; Hrdejs ocld tmdsd odat jd mep-
pcoy dxmeustdh eoo `cnmt ok`n, wctmkut hdscrd. C `k ok`ndr meh
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tmd strd`ntm tk eit. Vdrmeps hddp hkw` c` jy mdert, berdoy
l`kw` tk jd, tmdrd wes e hkubt tmet stkppdh tmd hddh. Xmd
hkubt wmdtmdr eitc`n stcoo jettdrdh wmd` tmd eit meh eordehy bdd` tmus dxpdrcd`idh. C bdocdvd ct jey bd cjpksscbod tk bd bktm
e rdeo vcitkr e`h e sdirdt k`d.
^md` C sew tmet jy jk`dy wes ru``c`n okw, C bdne` tk
nejbod. C evkchdh scttc`n et tmd tebod wmdrd ^èndr set< C aderdh
kur aetds jcnmt bd c` deim ktmdr–s wey. Ykjdtcjds C wk` sjeoo
ejku`ts, k`oy tk oksd tmdj enec`. K`d hey C wendrdh jy oest
nkoh pcdid. Yeircstid tmd oest yku mevd, hk`–t bd pdtty, steld dvdry-
tmc`n k` k`d ierh, tmet rdik`icods aetd, tmet akrids ouil! C okst.
Aetd we`ts aurtmdr seircstids, C tmkunmt. Xmet wes `kt d`kunm.
C mevd e wetim c` jy pkildt. C c`mdrctdh ct arkj jy aetmdr. Mcs
wdhhc`n prdsd`t arkj jy jktmdr. E` koh wetim tmet mes tk bd
wku`h wctm e octtod ldy. But nkoh eoo tmd sejd. Aetd sjcods upk`
mcj wmk, ardd ka pdtty sd`tcjd`teo c`mcbctck`s, sdoos ct mcs mdert,es pdkpod k`id skoh tmdjsdovds tk tmd hdvco.
Xmd wectdr nevd jd e adw scovdr ikc`s. C rdtur`dh tk tmd
nejboc`n meoo. Jy dyds jdt ^èndr–s. C sjcodh. C wd`t up tk tmd
tebod, enec` C steldh dvdrytmc`n k` k`d ierh. C wk`. C odat jy
wc``c`ns wmdrd tmdy wdrd, C wk` enec`. Xmrdd tcjds c` e rkw C
wk` tmcs wey. Vdkpod bdne` tk teld ̀ ktcid ka jd. Nejboc`n meoosaeoo stcoo c` suim jkjd`ts. Eoo tmet cs mderh cs tmd vkcid ka tmd
irkupcdr. Dvdryk`d sddjs tk sd`sd tmet e aetd cs c` tmd beoe`id.
C steldh eoo jy wc``c`ns e akurtm e`h statm tcjd e`h wk` enec`.
Xmd` C hdichdh tk wctmhrew meoa ka wmet C meh wk`. Xmd ierhs
adoo. C meh okst.
Xmd dxictdjd`t dbbdh arkj tmd meoo. Xmd bebbod ka vkcids
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rdeimdh jy ders enec` ocld tmd rker ka aeooc`n wetdr arkj e hcs-
te`id. C u`hdrstkkh wmet meh meppd`dh. Ouil meh tur`dh cts
beil k` jd wmd` C hkubtdh ct, wmd` C trcdh tk jeld e ieutckuspeit wctm ct, wmd` tmd pdtty-bkurndkcs wc`d-trevdodr wkld wctmc`
jd. C wkuoh wrdst ct beil. C tkkl tmd rdst ka jy jk`dy e`h
steldh ct. E adw sdik`hs oetdr jy aetd wes hdichdh. C meh okst.
C stkkh up e`h okkldh erku`h jd. C skunmt ^èndr–s dyds.
Md wes tmd k`oy pdrsk` wmk ikuoh mdop jd. Xk mcj C ikuoh
ehjct tmet C wes et tmd d`h ka jy rkpd. Akr k`d jkjd`t ^èndr
okkldh et jd. Mcs nezd sddjdh mkstcod. Es ca tk sey7 ^d erd `kt
ik`adhdretds, yku–rd jcsteld`. C mevd ouil e`h yku hk `kt. Hk`–t
ioc`n tk jd, nk, C sey, nk!
C wd`t. Ymkuoh C nk mkjd; Xkjkrrkw jkr`c`n C wkuoh mevd
tk pey tmd pest wddl–s rd`t. C wkuoh st`h skjd dxiusd e`h odevd
tmd mkusd. C meh jy wkrhs et tmd rdehy. But tmd`, wmet tmd`; C
hch`–t l`kw e`yk`d c` tmd icty wdoo d`kunm tk iku`t k` tmdcr esscste`id. C ikuoh`–t sdoo jy sucts wctmkut ebe`hk`c`n eoo mkpd
ka trevdoc`n c` tmd jk`dydh ioessds. Eoo tmet rdjec`dh wdrd
ae`testci mkpds ka e` dxtrekrhc`ery strkld ka ouil tmet wkuoh
put jk`dy c`tk jy me`hs tkjkrrkw. Xk nk tk e wc`d-jdrime`t
e`h sdoo mcj sk juim wc`d tmet tmd prkstt wkuoh lddp jy mdeh
ebkvd wetdr e wmcod ok`ndr. C akrnkt tmet C wes cn`kre`t ka tmdoetdst prcids e`h meh `k chde wmet tmd ikjpe`cds C rdprdsd`tdh
meh c` stkil, e`h tmet e jdrime`t ikuoh `kt bd dxpditdh tk
cjjdhcetdoy poeid e oernd krhdr wctm e stre`ndr ocld jd. Es C
jehd tmdsd poe`s, jy hdspdretck` subschdh.
^ctmkut rdeoczc`n ct, C wes `kt telc`n tmd smkrtdst rkutd
mkjd. C wes weolc`n sokwoy eok`n tmd quey. C hch `kt jddt e
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skuo. Ct wes tmrdd c` tmd jkr`c`n, e werj Gu`d `cnmt. C set k`
e bd`im. Xmd jurjur ka wetdr c` cts rdnuoercty skktmdh jd ocld
tmd vcdw ka tmd herl jess ka mcoos k` tmd kppksctd be`l. C jehdkut tmd scomkudttd ka tmd iestod ste`hc`n kut smerpoy enec`st tmd
sly. C mderh stdps. E wkje` wes epprkeimc`n. Ymd wkuoh mevd
tk weol rcnmt pest jd. C` tmd strst huoo nocjjdr ka jkr`c`n C
sew tmet smd wkrd e met e`h e wrep, pdrmeps e aur.
^md` smd wes ebkut stvd stdps ewey arkj jy bd`im, C jehd
e jkvdjd`t. Ymd flc`imdh, meotdh, e`h sddjdh tk ik`schdr
wmdtmdr smd smkuoh`–t tur` erku`h e`h jeld e octtod hdtkur.
Yuhhd`oy imddrauo, C oeunmdh. ‟Hk`–t bd earech,‚ C sech, ‟hk`–t
bd earech. C–j noeh d`kunm tk bd odat eok`d jysdoa.‚
C rksd tk jy addt. C`spditc`n jy suct, smd rdnec`dh mdr
ikjpksurd.
‟Km,‚ smd sech, ‟C . . . Ykjdtcjds mkjdodss pdkpod soddp k`
tmdsd bd`imds mdrd.‚‟C ikuoh bd mkjdodss tkk.‚
C iejd ioksdr. C sew tmet smd wes e yku`n, prdtty ncro, but
idrtec`oy `kt tmd k`d C wes wectc`n akr. Ct ejusdh jd tk tmc`l
tmet wd wdrd bktm sddlc`n kur akrtu`d c` scjcoer weys, deim
mkpc`n et tmcs jkjd`t tk st`h ct c` tmd ktmdr.
‟Mkjdodss,‚ smd sech, ‟yku!‚ Ymd okkldh et jd c`irdhuokusoy. ^my put k` e` eit c` ark`t ka mdr, C tmkunmt. C–oo tdoo mdr.
Dvdrytmc`n cs descdr c` tmd tdooc`n.
‟Xk`cnmt,‚ C sech, ‟C nejbodh ewey dvdrytmc`n. Dvd` jy
aetmdr–s nkohd` wetim. Ct wes e wdhhc`n prdsd`t arkj jy
jktmdr.‚
‟Km Nkh, yku smkuoh`–t mevd hk`d tmet. Xmet wes beh ouil.‚
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‟C ie –̀t nk beil tk jy mktdo. Mkw ej C suppksdh tk pey tmd
rd`t tkjkrrkw; Sku sdd ‘ C hk`–t l`kw wmdrd C–j nkc`n tk
soddp tk`cnmt.‚‟C–oo teld yku wctm jd,‚ smd sech.
‟C jde` ct, C hk`–t mevd e`y jk`dy.‚
‟@k, `k, `kt akr jk`dy. Xmdrd–s e mktdo kvdr k` tmet schd
strddt. Xmdy l`kw jd tmdrd. C–oo pey akr tmd rkkj. C–oo teld yku
eok`n, gust ocld tmet, akr au`. E`h yku . . . yku–oo mevd jk`dy
enec` skjd hey, surd d`kunm!‚
‟Enrddh,‚ C sech.
C ocldh mdr. Ymd wes sod`hdr, bok`hd, wctm `cid tddtm e`h tmc`
ocps. E`h smd spkld sk hdichdhoy tmet tmdrd wes `k rkkj akr
ik`trehcitck`. Merhoy wectc`n akr jy rdpoy, smd tkkl jd by tmd
erj e`h odh tmd wey.
Irkssc`n tmd octtod squerd wctm tmd jdjkrceo tk e` djpdrkr,
wd tur`dh kaa c`tk e `errkw, herl, coo-pevdh strddt. C` ark`t ka e hdrdocit mkusd wd stkppdh. Ymd re`n. Ebkvd us mu`n e` dxtc`-
nucsmdh oe`tdr` wctm tmd rdh odttdrc`n7 Mktdo.
d̂ mderh stdps c`schd. E sie`tcoy hrdssdh ncro ebkut sdv-
d`tdd` yders koh, rdh-mecrdh, wctm tc`y dyds e`h e bokkhodss
aeid, kpd`dh tmd hkkr akr us. ^ctm k`d slc``y erj smd oct tmd
wey up tmd stecrs tk e sjeoo rkkj ik`tec`c`n e rujpodh bdh, e bdhschd tebod wctm e ie`hod, e`h e skae ikvdrdh wctm e stotmy
smddt.
‟Xchy up tmd rkkj,‚ C sech tk tmd ncro. ‟@dvdr jc`h,‚ sech
Ococ, ‟smd–s wdel c` tmd mdeh.‚ Ococ tchcdh up tmd rkkj mdrsdoa.
‟Hk yku we`t e`ytmc`n,‚ smd esldh, ‟tk det, tk hrc`l;‚
‟^c`d,‚ C sech.
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‟E`h yku smeoo mevd ct!‚ Mdr ndsturd wes tmet ka e lc`n
bdstkwc`n e prkvc`id. Ymd wd`t hkw`stecrs. Bdokw C mderh mdr
vkcid, welc`n tmd c``lddpdr e`h eslc`n mcj tk murry. C mderh e hkkr kpd`, e`h smuaflc`n stdps, es ka swkood`, nkuty addt c` socp-
pdrs. Jy brdetm ietimds wmd` C tmc`l beil k` tmet jkjd`t. C
addo es ca skjdtmc`n wctmc` jd tkkl aetmkjodss arcnmt et tmd sku`h.
Hch e` ewauo jdjkry weld herl e`h jystdrckus c` jy mdert;
Kr hkds kur bokkh iurhod wmd` tmd u`l`kw`, skk` tk bd kur
aetd, strst brusmds tmd dhnd ka kur dxcstd`id; C spre`n up e`h mur-
rcdh tk tmd hkkr. C we`tdh tk fldd. E mchdkus ader meh sdczdh jd.
Ococ rdtur`dh wctm tmd wc`d, oeunmc`n. Ymd sew jd ste`hc`n
c` tmd hkkrwey wctm jy met k` jy mdeh. Ymd nevd jd e ster-
todh, qudstck`c`n okkl. C adot C ikuoh `kt rdausd tmd nd`drkscty
smd hdocnmtdh c` wctmkut dxpoec`c`n dvdrytmc`n. C wes ebkut tk
spdel. But eordehy eoo jy ader hcsskovdh. C oeunmdh. C wes
esmejdh ka jy nrku`hodss arcnmt. Km, ca k`oy C meh akookwdhjy strst cjpuosd e`h fldh! Ca ct cs pksscbod tk fldd k`d–s aetd, C
wkuoh mevd dsiepdh e` ewauo k`d, `kw but e adw mkurs kaa.
d̂ hre`l e hry Jksdo wc`d, bdttdr tme` C meh mkpdh. Ococ
d`gkydh poeyc`n mkstdss. C odt mdr td`h tk jd ocld e imcoh. ^d
hre`l, imettdh, oeunmdh e`h wd`t tk bdh. Ykk` Ococ adoo esoddp,
k`d oest meppy sjcod poeyc`n ebkut mdr ocps. C hch `kt soddp. C wes stoodh wctm td`sd c``dr u`rdst akr wmcim C l`dw `k rdesk`
but tmd dxictdjd`t ka tmd nejd stcoo trdjboc`n wctmc` jd. C
bdocdvd dvdryk`d l`kws tmcs eodrt`dss ka tmd erkusdh sd`sds wmcim
c`td`scstds arkj k`d jc`utd tk tmd `dxt, e`h k`oy c`irdesds wctm
tmd nrkwc`n wderc`dss ka tmd bkhy, tmd eojkst eimc`n soeil`dss
ka tmd ocjbs. Sku we`t tk gujp kut ka bdh, bkot eirkss tmd rkkj
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e`h kut c`tk tmd strddt. Sku strec` wctm e` c`dxpociebod encte-
tck`. Yuhhd`oy yku addo tmd urnd tk sc`n, tk weco ocld e imcoh tkk
tcrdh tk aeoo esoddp.
C oey ocld tmet u`tco wmet just mevd bdd` `kk` c` tmd rkkj–s
iurtec`dh herl`dss. Xmd` C suiiujbdh tk e rdstodss soujbdr,
tkrjd`tdh by wcoh hrdejs. C poeydh tmd sejd nejd C meh poeydh
tmet dvd`c`n, but tmd ierhs adoo hcaadrd`toy. Xmdy adoo akr jd. C
poeydh enec`st e aet je` wmk set aeic`n jd. C adot tmet tmcs je`
wes ikjpodtdoy skat, wctmkut bk`ds. C wk`, but jy pcod ka jk`dy
hwc`hodh e`h hwc`hodh, wmcod tmd smepdodss aet je`–s nrdw. Md
sjcodh, C wkuoh mevd flkw` c`tk e rend, but C ikuoh `kt jkvd,
ikuoh merhoy brdetmd, e nrdesy, smepdodss, hcsnustc`noy skat jess
wdcnmdh upk` jd. E `kcsd wkld jd. Ococ wes wesmc`n. Ct wes
oetd c` tmd eatdr`kk`. Ymd murrcdh kaa. Ymd put jk`dy k` tmd tebod
akr jd tk pey tmd c``lddpdr. Esmejdh ka ydstdrhey–s wmcj, Ococtkkl ierd ka tmd busc`dss wctm tmd brcsl coo-tdjpdr smd l`dw arkj
mdr iustkjdrs. Xmd tmkunmt jehd jd sjcod. Ymd sech ‟Nkkhbyd‚
e`h nevd jd mdr me`h. C steydh c` bdh. C meh e mdevy mdeh.
E l`kil iejd et tmd hkkr. ‟^mk–s tmdrd;‚ C ieoodh. C mderh
e skat tcttdr e`h ocnmt akktstdps jkvc`n ewey. Xmd meoawct, C
tmkunmt, tmd k`d wmk ocnmtdh kur wey up tmd stecrs ydstdrhey. Cnkt up. Xmdrd wes jk`dy oyc`n k` tmd tebod. C put ct c` jy
pkildt. Xmd` C wes sdczdh by tmd cjpuosd tk teld ct kut ka jy
pkildt enec` e`h spct k` ct. Xmet–s wmet yku hk wctm jk`dy ocld
tmet, C tmkunmt, e`h oeunmdh. C oeunmdh, ydt eordehy C wes jerldh
es tmd c`strujd`t ka hdetm e`h hdstruitck`.
C nrkpdh jy wey hkw` tmd jurly, irdelc`n stecrwey. C
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aku`h jysdoa c` e herl, flenstk`dh vdstcbuod, sie`toy oct by tmd
meoa-kpd`dh ark`t hkkr. E adw peids emdeh ka jd C sew tmd sco-
mkudttd ka e bcn je` wctmkut e geildt. Mcs smcrt nocjjdrdh wmctd.
‟Xmrdd-staty,‚ sech tmd c``lddpdr. Xmd tk`d ka ct d`rendh jd
es juim es mcs vkcid. Ct wes e aet aeosdttk.
‟C we`t skjdtmc`n tk det,‚ C sech. C just mevd we`tdh tk
poey tmd jestdr ncvc`n tmd krhdrs. Md pusmdh kpd` e hkkr bdmc`h
jd. Xmd meoawct oct tmd ocnmt c` e sjeoo rkkj wmksd k`d schd
wes teld` up by e ber. C tkkl e sdet. Xmd berd tebod wes iketdh
wctm stotm. Vec`t meh pddodh arkj tmd weoos c` poeids. Arkj tmd
flkkrbkerhs iejd tmd justy sjdoo ka hdiey.
C meh tmd c``lddpdr brc`n jd e bkttod ka wc`d. C etd e pcdid
ka merh, gucidodss jdet e`h hre`l. Xmd c``lddpdr set aeic`n jd.
Md `dvdr tkkl mcs dyds kaa jd, C ikuoh addo ct. C tmkunmt ka stert-
c`n e ik`vdrsetck`, but ikuoh `kt tmc`l ka e wkrh tk sey tk mcj.Md set tmdrd u`jkvc`n, wmddzc`n es md brdetmdh. Xmd `kcsd
stoodh jd wctm u`spdelebod rdvuosck`. C okkldh et mcj, C wcoodh
mcj wctm jy nezd tk ndt up e`h odevd jd. Md meh tc`y dyds wctm
aet pkuimds. Mcs jkusteimd, hcrty ydookw, mu`n c`tk mcs jkutm<
mcs mdeh wes beoh. Md meh e nrkwtm k` tmd beil ka mcs mdeh. C
ikuoh `kt hdtdrjc`d wmdtmdr ct wes e bkco kr e tubdriod. C rdeimdhc`tk jy pkildt es ca sderimc`n akr e wdepk`, e`h adot tmd jk`dy.
Et tmet jkjd`t e tmkunmt flesmdh tmrkunm jy jc`h. Ct
arcnmtd`dh jd et strst, but ct rdausdh tk odt jd nk. Mdrd c` jy
pkildt wes tmd ime`id tk akrid jy ouil. Meh`–t C hrdejdh C
wkuoh wc`; Xmd ierhs wkuoh aevkr jd tkhey, dvdrytmc`n wkuoh
aeoo c`tk jy oep. Ouil hdje`hs strd`ntm. C ikuoh`–t odt jysdoa
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bd bdetd`. C we`tdh jk`dy, jk`dy, wctm tmdsd bcoos c` jy pkildt
C wkuoh wc` ct. Ct wes ouily jk`dy, wes`–t ct; Xmd tebods meh
tur`dh, ouil wes sjcoc`n k` jd, wmy dosd wkuoh C mevd jdt Ococ;Mkw iodvdr ka jd tk spct k` ct, wmet e` c`spcretck`! Ct wes jy
oest ime`id, jy oest seovetck`. Ca C hcsrdnerhdh ct, wkuoh`–t tmet
jde` tmrustc`n ouil ewey, ebe`hk`c`n eoo C meh hrdejdh ka;
Mdrd wes tmd aetd C meh bdd` wectc`n akr. C k`oy meh tk bd strk`n
d`kunm tk sdczd ct. C adot tmet eoo wkuoh bd wk` jdrdoy by d`tdr-
c`n tmd nejboc`n meoo wctm tmdsd bcoos c` jy pkildt. Yk strj wes
jy aectm.
C hch `kt l`kw mkw juim C meh c` jy pkildt. C meh `kt
iku`tdh ct. Xmet, tkk, wes prkpctckus. C wkuoh wendr ct wctm jy
dyds ioksdh. Jeybd ct wkuoh`–t dvd` bd d`kunm tk setcsay tmd
c``lddpdr. Xmdrd wkuoh bd e sid`d k`d wey kr tmd ktmdr. ^es C
suppksdh tk wecvd jy ioecj tk ouil gust bdieusd ka tmcs aet
ikokssus aeic`n jd; Yurdoy md meh jk`dy d`kunm, c` tmd be`l kr mchhd` c` mcs mkusd skjdwmdrd. Sku ikuoh tdoo by okklc`n et
mcj. Vcty wes u`ieoodh-akr. Xmcs wes tmd oest ime`id! Ca C skoh e
suct tkjkrrkw, C–h mevd tk pey akr tmd rkkjs. C wkuoh `ddh tmd
rdst akr e jdeo. Xkjkrrkw C wcoo mevd detd` `ktmc`n akr e` d`tcrd
hey, C tmkunmt. ^met ikuoh C wendr tmd`; E`h wcoo ouil bd k`
jy schd tkjkrrkw; Ct wes jy oest ime`id. C meh tk usd ct et eooiksts.
Eoo tmdsd tmkunmts irkssdh jy jc`h et k`id, `kt k`d by k`d,
but schd by schd. C meh repchoy hrec`dh tmd bkttod ka wc`d. C adot
ardd e`h ierdodss. Xkjkrrkw C wkuoh ikjd beil e`h pey tmd
c``lddpdr, but tkhey C meh tk odevd tmcs poeid wctm Ococ–s jk`dy,
jy ouil wes et steld. Jy poe` wes jehd. C wkuoh st`h skjd
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odat tmd hkkr kpd`. Xmd` tmd c``lddpdr okkjdh c` tmd hkkr wctm
tmd wc`d bkttod. C meh meoa rcsd` tk jy addt. Vrdtd`hc`n C meh
bdd` gklc`n wctm tmd meoawct, C tmujpdh mdr k` tmd beil.‟Mememe,‚ smrcdldh tmd c``lddpdr, ‟yku ocld mdr, mememe!‚
‟Ymd–s ykur heunmtdr;‚
‟Jy k`oy, heroc`n imcoh, mememe!‚
Mderc`n mdr aetmdr oeunmc`n, tmd k`oy imcoh oeunmdh eok`n.
Ct sku`hdh mchdkus, ocld tmd nurnoc`n sku`h skjd pdkpod jeld
wmd` tmdy hrc`l. Xmd koh je` stkppdh oeunmc`n. Md okkldh et
mcs heunmtdr e`nrcoy. Xmd meoawct tkkl e stdp tkwerh tmd weoo
e`h irc`ndh ocld e hkn.
‟Oeunmc`n,‚ ircdh tmd c``lddpdr, ‟oeunmc`n . . . yku . . .‚
Ymd trcdh tk socp pest eok`n tmd weoo. Md nrebbdh mdr by tmd
stcaa octtod brech, puoodh mdr up e`h pu`imdh mdr c` tmd aeid.
Xmd meoawct imcoh nespdh aec`toy, e`h wmd` md odt mdr nk smd
tujbodh tk tmd nrku`h. Xmd struil imddl wes herl rdh. Xmdmeoawct rksd e`h stenndrdh arkj tmd rkkj.
‟^met erd yku hkc`n;‚ C ircdh.
‟^met ej C hkc`n; C nevd mdr e nkkh sjeil, c` iesd yku
hch`–t `ktcid. Xmet–s e nkkh k`d, scr!‚
Md set hkw` enec` mdevcoy. C quciloy pkurdh jysdoa e noess
ka wc`d e`h djptcdh ct c` k`d nuop. C` jy pkildt C adot tmdjk`dy. C tmkunmt ka `ktmc`n but dsiepc`n tmd c``lddpdr.
C mevd wrcttd` hkw` tmd stkry ka jy ocad. @k hkubt C jey
mevd hwdot tkk ok`n k` supdrflukus hdtecos. But C mevd c`td`-
tck`eooy wctmmdoh `ktmc`n c` jy derocdr ocad wmcim ikuoh sdrvd
tk dxpoec` wmet meppd`dh `kw. Xkhey, C bdocdvd, C vcdw jysdoa
ieojoy e`h ikkooy. C sdd eoo tmet wes dvco c` jd, e`h C wcsm tk
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dxtd`uetd `ktmc`n. E`h ydt7 C mevd `k dxpoe`etck` akr wmet C
hch c` tmet jkjd`t. Hk pdkpod–s eitck`s akookw e oew; ^mdrd
cs ct; ^es C tmd tkko ka e mcnmdr wcoo; ^my jd; Eoes, k`d stdpakookws e`ktmdr by e sdirdt oew tmet odevds `k imkcid, yku ie`
jkvd ykur akkt akrwerh, but `dvdr beilwerh, e`h c` tmd d`h e
je`–s strst brdetm cs mcs ocad–s c`dvctebod hdstc`y!
C poe``dh ca `ddh bd tk socp pest tmd c``lddpdr wctm jy
jk`dy. C sdt jysdoa e tcjd tk gujp up. Xmd bkttod wes meoa
djpty. ^md` ct cs djpty, odt ct bd hk`d. Kutschd tmd strst nudsts
wdrd errcvc`n. Xmd meoawct odh tmdj up tmd stecrs tk e rkkj. Ct
wes tcjd. C wkuoh hrec` tmd oest noess tk tmd hrdns e`h muro ct
tk tmd nrku`h. Xelc`n ehve`tend ka tmd c``lddpdr–s ik`ausck`,
C wkuoh bkot pest mcj. C hre`l sokwoy, es ca hrdehc`n tmd jkjd`t
C meh imksd` tk eit. C hch `kt okkl et tmd c``lddpdr. C adot mcs
nezd upk` jd e`h mderh mcs rmytmjci wmddzc`n.
Xmd hkkr kpd`dh, e`h tmd meoawct iejd c`. Mdr imddl mehswkood` up u`tco k`d dyd smkwdh k`oy es e `errkw soct. Ymd wd`t
bdmc`h tmd ber. C mderh tmd gc`nod ka ldys. Et k`id C u`hdrstkkh.
C meh `kt rdilk`dh wctm tmet. C rksd tk jy addt. C sd`sdh tmet ct
just bd hk`d `kw, c` e jc`utd tmd ark`t hkkr wkuoh bd okildh.
Ct cs c`dxpociebod tmet C hch `kt bkot akrwerh et k`id, es C meh
poe``dh. Xmd c``lddpdr meh rcsd` es wdoo. Md okkldh et jd. Cadot tmet md wes s`ddrc`n. Yuhhd`oy C rdjdjbdrdh tmd skat jess
wmcim meh wdcnmdh upk` jd c` jy hrdej. C sdczdh jy met e`h
tkkl e adw u`idrtec` stdps akrwerh.
Xmd c``lddpdr bokildh jy petm. ‟Octtod brktmdr, octtod
brktmdr,‚ md sech. C rdjdjbdr tmdsd wkrhs hcstc`itoy. Ct cs c`dx-
pociebod wmet arcnmtd`dh jd ebkut tmdj.
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@kw C teld tmd nudsts tk tmdcr rkkjs et `cnmt e`h ocd c` wect akr
jy jk`dy c` tmd vdstcbuod. C c`vdst ct `kt c` ioktmds `kw, but
c` koh wc`ds.C fldd jdjkry wctm cts tkrjd`t ka tmd crrdtrcdvebod hdicsck`.
Et `cnmt C mevd `k tcjd tk tmc`l. C` tmd jkr`c`n C soddp. C` tmd
eatdr`kk` busc`dss cs sokw. C hk es tmd ertcsts hk. Es tmdy fldd
ik`sicd`id c` tmdcr hrdejs, sk hk C. C adtim e bkttod ka wc`d e`h
hrc`l. C hrc`l tmd wey ktmdrs ocstd` tk jusci. C` tmdsd mkurs C
ocvd jy ocad kvdr enec`, e`h C hdichd hcaadrd`toy. K`d tcjd C nk
c`tk jy u`iod–s busc`dss, k`d tcjd C rdjec` e wc`d-trevdodr, kr
C hk `kt ime`nd jy petm u`tco tmd hey C skoh jy aetmdr–s wetim.
C poey hcaadrd`toy, wc` e`h nk tk jy mktdo. Ca tmd c``lddpdr cs
hdeh e`ywey, tmd` ct rdeooy wes tmd meoawct wmk lcoodh mcj. Kr
^èndr od`hs jd jk`dy. C sey k`d octtod wkrh tk Ococ7 @k. E`h
meppc`dss, rdspdit, suiidss erd jc`d. C` tmd d`h ct sddjs tk jd
tmd pest cs`–t crrdvkiebod eatdr eoo. C sjcod es jy aetmdr sjcodh wmd` md spkld ka mcs hcpokjetci trcujpms. @k k`d l`kws ebkut
ct, e`h tmet cs wmet–s sk dxqucsctd! C weol tmrkunm Benmheh
c`ikn`ctk es tmd ieocpm.