OCTOBER 1, 1992.

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1 COMMUNITY I RET.ATTCINS - ------

is more than 9 -e la t ing" t o t h e community, but e spu ia l ly deals with a c t i v i t i e s t h a t occur i n t h e neighbourhood.

A t r i o o f events happened recen t ly t h a t a r e (or w i l l be) p r e t t y in te res t ing .

The f i r s t was a v i s i t t o Carnegie by Megan Carve11 Davis. She came t o t h e Comm- un i ty Relations Committee t o t r y & c l e a r tip t h e damage done by Jim Bach, , would- be producer/director of t h e sleazy video

I he bas going t o c a l l Welfare ~ e d n k s d ? ~ . Bach had sen t a wr i t t en proposal t o the - -

l d i r e c t o r here, Diane, t h a t seethed s te reo-

I t y p i c a l s l u r s ; b a s i c a l l y c a l l i n g f o r a l l "right-thinking" people t o accept t h a t it is g o v q t slackness t h a t allows a l l us bum:

t o blow our welfare cheques en masse i n -------- the f i r s t 72 hccrs. What had h z p p x x ! i s t h a t Megan, who l ived f o r 11 years on wel- f a r e as a s i n g l e parent, read Bach's prop- osa l & s a i d she t o l d him h i s approach was a l l wrong. She s a i d she ta lked t o him and h i s wife a few times f o r hours. . to t r y t o j u s t open h i s eyes t o what he wanted t o do - 6 see it. She thought they had come t o see t h e s i t u a t i o n from both s ides , 6 gave them t h e minimum technical & f i n a n c i a l a id t o make a 5-minute t e s t video. From t h i s Megan would decide i f the a l t e r e d p ro jec t would be funded.

Bach came here & t o l d people on t h e com- mi t t ee t h a t he had "sol id backing" from t h e Knowledge Network. He'd done some cos- metic changes on t h e proposed video but it was obvious t h a t h i s thinking & judg-

-.....S..2&.. I --I- - - A r k * ~ * b u d a b r ~ v r c y I ~ ~ u p ~ a i came f r o m Karen OIShaunacery, who d i r e c t s t h e Look- out on Alexander. The ongoing treatment of t h e Downtown Eastside as a dumping ground has made l i f e incredibly hard & dangerous f o r our community's 600 o r so people with mental i l l n e s s e s . They a r e t r e a t e d l i k e so much garbage & kept out of l o t s of places. What Karen wanted was support f o r t h e new drop-in she & others have planned on t h e 500-block of Powell. Everything's ready t o go except f o r a l i t t l e problem with g e t t - ing t h e s i t e re-zoned. One wall i s t h e border a t which the required zoning stops, so it has t o be changed a t c i t y h a l l . This can take up t o 6 months & t h e drop-in i s

'needed yesterday. A l o t of community and business i n t e r e s t s endorse t h e whole idea so it should happen f a i r l y soon.

ing were st i l l coming from t h e same (rabid maybe?) place. He was denied permission t o f i l m i n Carnegie, wandered around t h e a rea i n a van taking people's p i c t u r e s without t h e i r okay, edi ted t h e footage down t o 5 minutes worth of f i l m & presented it t o Megan Davis.

. A . a She re jec ted it. She t o l d him t h a t t h e f i l m he had contained ample scenes & t a l k t o make a good video on t h e r e a l i t y of be- ing poor, but it was up t o Bach - the pro- ve rb ia l ' l a s t chance1 - t o e d i t t h e f i lm t o produce a good video.

Megan was honest & s t r a i g h t with us, t a lk ing about how t h e Knowledge Network operates & what she does as t h e Program Manager on soc ia l & p o l i t i c a l i ssues .

J i m Curran, from t h e Ci ty department of permits & l icences, came t o Carnegie t o meet with people about problems i n ho te l s & rooming houses. Lots of s p e c i f i c prob- lems were ra i sed & J i m seemed t o enjoy t a l k i n g about what can be done. Of course the biggest problem we have is ge t t ing t o the r i g h t person i n c i t y h a l l who can and - w i l l a c t on complaints. Here's the number t o carve i n your phone handle: 873-7563 and ask f o r J i m Curran. Before he l e f t he gave a copy of t h e by-law book t h a t s t a te . exact ly is required from landlords. The Tenants1 Rights Action Coali t ion (TRAC) has a booklet ca l l ed Tenants1 Survival Guide t h a t has r i g h t s & r e s p o n s i b i l i t i e s -

I l a i d out i n p l a i n language. I t 's p r e t t y good. There a r e photocopies of t h e by-law booklet i n t h e Newsletter Office & TRAC guides can be gotten i n shor t order

Other t i d b i t s from around the world: 1. Japan ' i s i n deep s h i t f o r t ry ing t o

get a bunch of plutonium .@he dead l ies t substance known).:home from France. They want t o feed t h e i r r eac to rs with it, but countr ies a l l over t h e world a r e refus ing t h e i r f r e i g h t e r any kind of leave t o pass through those nat ions1 waters. One pound of plutonium, i f cropped i n t h e ocean, would be enough t o k i l l a l l l i f e i n t h e oceans of t h e e n t i r e p lanet . 2. Muzak i s supposed t o make it d i f f i c u l t

t o th ink about anything se r ious , so you I-..-.. . - uuy stul'l' iu wilaiaver s t o r e you . w e a r c it. Las Vegas was t h e s i t e f o r a new t w i s t on t h i s kind of sensory exploi ta t ion. Smells were re leased in a casino & p r o f i t s went up 49% on t h e slot-machines i n t h a t place. P r e t t y soon we'l l have t o wear gasmasks & earplugs j u s t t o go t o t h e corner s to re . 3. Some ' b o r n - a g a i n e r h a n t s t o put God

i n t h e Consti tution. Nixon had prayer- breakfas ts during t h e Vietnam War, t o g ive h i s g u i l t t o anyone whose mind was blown enough t o take it. Slave t r a d e r s always had a p r i e s t b less t h e i r voyages too. I f God doesn' t have enough t o do. . i f any par t of r e l i g i o n can ever be separated from the people who s e t themselves up t o be God's mouthpieces, i t ' d be t o a s s i s t o r applaud some nutbar who took a whole r i f t of t a c t i c a l nukes t o slime l i k e Jimmy Swaggert & J e r r y Falwell & J i m Bakker e t a l . 4. There i s a growing concern i n Ottawa

t h a t t h e government's computers a re i n danger of t o t a l overload. Some bureaucrat i n t h e Mulroney r a t ' s nes t sa id they were g e t t i n g f i l e s on " a l l the Maude Barlowlsw. Maude is a decent woman. She has her f a c t s s t r a i g h t , knows Mulroney & h i s cronies a re on t h e take & says what she thinks. The over!oad is coming as more 6 more people volunteer t o be included i n with as many 'Maudes' a s t h e r e a r e people! 5. DEEDS has had a l l of i t s gov ' t money

cu t off & is having t h e handling of a l l i t s public money invest igated. Told ya so!

By PAULR TAYLOR

A STORE CALLED A.L.I.C.E. By Andy Dubitz .

The A.L.I.C.E. store project is slated to shut down on October 2

Federal, Provincial, Local - all these people have come together to initiate this store.

We have created a community enterprise that served our area for one and a half years. Our little "show" has had a very successful run. We've shown that seniors can do something useful. We've trained people to run a business, involved many volunteers and most importantly we've helped customers and the needy in our community.

Now that our funding has been exhausted, and rather than carry on until we have to go "belly up" we have decided to close on an upbeat note!

With a sincere thank-you to our sponsers, our very valued regular customers and dropin trade we must close our show the Vancouver-New York way. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. SORRY, kLLC.E. DOESN'T LIVE HERE ANYMORE!

Once again, we'll be closed on October 2, opened for emergencies, till then, Andy

D O W N T O W N E A S T S I D E Y O U T H

A C T I V I T Y S E R V I C E S

Needle Exchange Workers . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

I P a r t t ime 6 F u l l t ime p o s i t i o n s ,

I a b l e t o work a f t e r n o o n s & evenings .

Must have d r i v e r s l i c e n s e .

STRATHCONA: Crime Capi ta l o f B.C. ------------ I How much TV exposure does it need? Are the re r e a l l y drug add ic t s shooting up on people ' s f r o n t porches? Are hookers hang- ing out on every corner? On Friday, Sept.18, I walked t h e length

of Strathcona i n t h e a l l e y between Pender E Hastings from 2:30-3am. I saw what app* eared t o be one homeless person s leeping under a blanket near Gore 3 o r 4 people hanging around a t Pender E Dunlevy 1 block ins ide Strathcona, who looked l i k e they were deal ing drugs. A compact c a r was c r u i s ing the a l l e y t h a t could've been involved or'mkybe j u s t checking out t h e s i t u a t i o n , l i k e I was.

On my way back home I not iced the po l i ce checking one person a t Gore 6 Pender, but they d i d n ' t a r r e s t him. I a l s o walked p a s t the school yard & t h e park on both s i d e s & s&w no one the re . I checked t h e groundas I walked & found no needles, although obvi- ously t h e d iscarding of needles 4 condoms does happen. I saw none a t 3am. I a l s o had

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la look it Hastings & saw no hooking on the south (Strathcona) s ide , but t h e r e was ob- vious hooking on t h e nor th s ide . , On Monday, Sept.21, on the 6pm CBC News,, the announcer appeared with a s ign beside 1

him t h a t s a i d llDrugs-Strathcona'l. Footage . ,following was shot a t the corner of J&ck- son & Hastings, then suddenly moved t o The Marr Hotel on Powell a t Oppenheimer Park. ' I t showed undercover cops busting someone f o r 2 small black p e l l e t s t h a t were n o t i & Len t i f i ed & t h e cop sa id a>um_of $5- & $ 2 0 was involved. IIe then sa id t h a t he had

( ar res ted mostly the same people '*over and , over f o r years". Final ly , the re was a1 shot

, of a guy being released from j a i l t h e n e x t 1 morning. He gave the cameraman the f inger .

Accepting resumes only . Send t o : D.E .Y.A.S .

c / o Jean Momberg (Manager) 2 2 3 Main S t r e e t , Vancouver, B.C. V6A 2S7

TORA

- THE VANISHING MOMENT 1 I hear some music in my head. I fill some pages and softly tread 1 The painting are so lifelike; Out of the ocean to the isle of joy, , you see a troubled land, Where I can know life's perfect one loves it anymore - Huge museums fill the hills It dies by its own hand. Where laughing eyes perceive *But me, I must return there The strange and evil eases Before I can escape; Their fathers did conceive. Some men drink the beauty, They laugh at all the dinosaurs Some men press the grape. Glued up on a hoiste And snicker at the gallons That used to keep them moist.

AN OLD SHACK VERSUS A DOWNTOWN ROOM f l I ' d r a t h e r l i v e my s o l i t a r y o ld age

I n my own choice of cage An anc ien t shack o f logs

In a f o r e s t , by bogs I ' d use an outhhouse

With a deep hole r e q u i r i n g no p lunger I ' d burn wood and pea t from t h e bogs

Catch water i n r a i n b a r r e l s Drink from nearby stormy creeks ' w a t e r f a l l s

I ' d grow pota toes , c a r r o t s and l e e k s In c l e a r i n g s , ahd s w i m i n t h e buff

And not worry about my wr inkles and s t u f f I ' d be f r e e t o go s a i l i n g

In a row boat , t o go shopping O r I ' d leave an o l d c a r

A t t h e end o f a t r a i l Where I could pack i n my meagre needs without f a i l

I ' d burn coa l o i l and candles Have e a r l y t o bed and e a r l y t o r i s e hours

I ' d r a t h e r not have t o dea l With cons tant appeal a f t e r appeal To t h e landlord t o send up, p l e a s e Heat, a t l e a s t around 60 degrees

O r s u f f e r plumbing needs I don ' t want t o spend ano the r week

Using t h e plunger, and t h e s ink and tub leak ( J c r a s&.ha.(~- My one bedroom looks ou t ove r downtown

Commuting is no problem . But af ford ing my re s idence i n town

Leaves me nothing f o r The s t r e s s f r e e l o r e

Of watching d e e r with fawn Racoon, prowling bear , s q u i r r e l on my lawn

Dora Sanders

No Vacancies - Being Used And Burning ! ! !

The f i r e on Powell S t r e e t s t a r t e d about 4:30 pm. The en t rance t o t h e Four S i s t e r . Highr i se bu i ld ing was jam-packed.. people everywhere. Every one of them had t h e i r own s t o r i e s t o t e l l .

The f i r s t one I heard was t h a t it was done by s q u a t t e r s ; o t h e r s had dope d e a l e l doing t h e i r t h i n g on t h e t o p f l o o r . The most l o g i c a l one was t h a t it was s e t d e l i be ra t e ly . This might be t h e case , so don' make up your mind u n t i l you hea r me out .

About a month ago I phoned c i t y h a l l t c inform them t h a t t h e r e were people going i n E ou t of t h a t bu i ld ing . The reason tha I c a l l e d was so no one would g e t h u r t , i f something should happen. So does t h e f a u l l a y on t h e C i t y ' s shou lde r s ... o r , g e t t i n g back t o t h e po in t - t h e bu i ld ing was j u s t bought r ecen t ly .

Was t h i s an "insurance scam?" We'll nev e r know u n t i l t h e r e p o r t comes out .

In t h e meantime t h e r e was no power and bus ines se s had t o c l o s e a s f a r down a s Keefer, ove r t o C a r r a l l , up t o t h e Sunr is Market E down t o Alexander. We were kept i n t h e dark u n t i l 10:45 pm, having t o scramble t o t h e s t o r e f o r cand le s and/or j o i n t h e people on Powel l ' s s idewalk a s t h e y watched t h e c i t y ' s f i n e s t f i remen t a c k l e t h i s bu i ld ing i n f lames again. . .

, t h e o t h e r t ime was e a r l i e r t h i s year . The p o i n t I'm t r y i n g t o make is t h a t so

many people t r y t o g e t o u t o f t h e c o s t of having a l o t t hey newly own c l ea red . But i n t h e meantime i t ' s vbu. t h e t a x ~ a v e r s .

who end up paying because i t ' s t a x e s t h a t pay t h e f i remen E ambulances on s i t e . I t ' s no t people on wel fare who pay, except then t h e r e i s l e s s money f o r funding t h e esscn- t i a l s e r v i c e s t h a t we use. \ 5 -

I c a n ' t a f f o r d t o even pay t h a t ; I hav; t o budget my f inances every day but by no means do I g e t o f f t h e hook - we ( I ) do end up paying some way o r another . The l i t t l e food I keep i n my f r i d g e needs t o be cooked i n t h e next day o r so, which messes me up f o r t h i s month.

My message t o t h e C i ty people i s t h a t when a p l a c e is boarded up p l ea se make s u r e t h a t NO ONE can e n t e r it. B e t t e r y e t , renovate t h e s e bu i ld ings s o squa t t i ng is n o t necessary 6 t hey couldn ' t be turned i n t o crack houses. There a r e many bui ld- i ngs i n Vancouver E e s p e c i a l l y i n t h e Downtown Eas t s ide t h a t can be used f o r t h e housing we need..E no t j u s t s i t t i n g empty u n t i l t h e i r p r i c e is h igh enough t o s e l l .

Get a m i t E g e t i n t h e game.

Margaret, Downtown Eas t s ide Resident

( E d i t o r ' s no te : The bu i ld ing a t 176 Pow- e l l d i d change hands; t h e -

1ew owners have p l ans t o bu i ld condos. We heard through t h e grapevine t h a t i t was zoing t o be demolished about 3 months ago $ c a l l e d Permits E Licences t o make su re they'd made t h e requi red l e g a l assurances t ha t i t ' d b e done r i g h t - t h e bu i ld ing is f u l l o f a sbes to s , meaning i t c a n ' t j u s t ,e t r a s h e d wi th a wrecking b a l l . The demo l i d n ' t happen! E suddenly i t ' s on f i r e . .)

Lynn Peak

Dark was the dawn when I sl ipped away, the house quiet a s a tomb. To the f o r e s t I went, s i ck with longing, t o the f o r e s t , yearning f o r home.

Darkness concealed my going. Silence ca l l ed my name. Dawn took me by the hand. The c i t y s l e p t as I made my way t o Lyfin Creek.

* - Jense was the m i s t i n the va l l ey , sweet m i s t t h a t concealed me. The t r e e s loomed grey i n t h e mist l i k e grey nuns praying. The path ascended through the m i s t . Joy was my companion.

Steep was the path, and long. Up, up it went through the m i s t shrouded t r e e s . The walking was prayer. The branches brushing my cheeks were prayers. The m i s t , damp on my face, was a prayer.

A t t h e top of the f i r s t r idge sun f l i cke red through clouds, touching t h e ancient , moss covered t r e e s with green f i r e .

Then from nowhere, a huge b i rd swooped towards me, s i l e n t l y , a grey shadow. An eagle , 1. thought i n wonder, grey i n t h e grey l i g h t . For an i n s t a n t the eagle hovered over me, wings and t a i l f ea the r s spread wide. My hear t reached out t o t h e b i r d . Wings fanned my face , and the eagle turned as ide and disappeared.

i n t h i s

Sweet Remembrance

Do not remember i n sokrow, The sharpness of t h e thorn - But rememher i n joy The beauty of %he rose .

Do not remember i n sorrow The bleakness of t h e clouds, But remember i n splendour The r i s i n g of t h e sun.

Do not remember i n sorrow, The darkness of the tunnel - But remember i n triumph The l i g h t a t the end.

Do not remember i n sorrow, The sadness and the hur t - But remember

In sweet rememberance The greatness of my love.

Mona Naeem

"Every human being on e a r t h has a l i t t l e b i t of good i n them."

"Life is t o live!"

I P o l i t i c a l Thought

There were 3 men Walking down the s t r e e t One spots a magic lamp. "Hey l e t ' s see i f we can ge t a few wishes." They s i t i n a c i r c l e

Sandy Cameron

A t Lynn Peak, m i s t r o l l e d through the t r e e s , waking the surrounding mountains i n v i s i b l e . I had seen, though, and my s t e p was l i g h t

ancient f o r e s t , my home.

The second guy (B. Mulroney) asks "I wish 2 B 50% b e t t e r than what I amw "You're wish is my command" The t h i r d guy (M. Harcourt) says, "I wish 2 B 100% b e t t e r than what I am." "Yere wish i s my command" . "You a r e now a b e a u t i f u l woman."

With the lamp i n t h e middle The f i r s t guy (Gordon Campbell) "Say Genie I wish t o be 30% b e t t e r than what I am." Genie says "Y're wish i s my command.'

Have A Nice Day! Anonymc

PRECIOUS

~ u g s pul l ing, my s h i p of l i f e , Navigating within waters a l i v e , Lives within must never go f o r nought, Hands on the Bible, prayer within mjz thought God created l i f e ; i t ' s end He s h a l l decide, D i f f i c u l t , t he challenge, but t o s top is su ic ide Our own God - is t r u t h of word, But now we need raw sweat, a savage sword, Demons in water, wicked and corrupt , To champion our cause, waters erupt1 Chisel the demons t o t h e sand below, To caves. . to l i v e a death only Satan would know, I cl ipped death; it dazzled me, The waters calm, golden rays , I f e l t for tunate . . . fu tu re days, Yet an ache within my hear t remained? For fu tu re? O r an innocence parted, behind i n war "1 d i d not understand, nor d i d I know? Has it become p a r t of me, o r am I t o l e t it go?

David Kossakowski

- WHO'S AWAKE?

FORECAST: NOW DATELINE: THE FUTURE (5 years or l e s s )

I t w i l l not be long fe l low Americans (oops, a r e you su re we're s t i l l Canadians?) u n t i l t h e g r e a t p o l i t i c a l axe f a l l s (as it d id i n the S t a t e s ) upon ou r medicare system E our s o c i a l s e rv i ces system. It a l ready has claim- ed our economic system ("free" t r a d e ) .

See t h e mi l l i ons i n t h e s t r e e t s increased. See t h e increase of urban decay, youth gangs and crime o f a l l types.

I t w i l l no t mat te r t h a t we be l i eve Canada s t i l l e x i s t s , s e e our f l a g , s ee o u r govern- ment bui ld ings , hear ou r anthem. I t w i l l not matter t h a t t hese facades w i l l p l aca t e t h e soul E mind. We st i l l be l i eve we a r e f r e e .

Manifest Destiny, you sa id? I s e e it... I wonder how many o t h e r s out t h e r e can s e e t h e f u t u r e . . i f anyone is awake?

I have a b u l l e t f o r Brian. I t may not cure t h e d i sease but it w i l l ease t h e pain. Then we can say, "Send i n t h e Clowns again."

Chencha

I A mil l ion d o l l a r s f o r what.. .?

According t o information i n t h e l a s t Newsletter, Joan Smallwood has announced t h a t the NDP gov' t w i l l give $1 mil l ion t o those who advocate f o r t h e poor. That i s , the people who i d e n t i f y with leftwing p o l i t i c s & play the games t h a t M s . Small- wood & her colleagues did when they were small time wi l l l r ece ive a mi l l ion d o l l a r s This i s construed i n most left-wing minds t o mean Ithelp f o r t h e poor." - it i s not.

What it i s , is a payoff t o p o l i t i c a l novices, i n the hopes t h a t some of them w i l l join the mature p o l i t i c i a n s who make an a r t of appearing t o do th ings when dc- t u a l l y doing nothing a t a l l .

Ms. Smallwood's idea of poverty advoca- cy is, I think, summed up i n a quote from her: "Community organizations p lay a maj - o r ro le in working with government t o de- velop relevant 4 appropriate se rv ices . I '

- in o t h e r words, the one mil l ion d o l l - a r s i s what's known a s l'on-sidelf money - . . . i f poverty advocates a r e more wi l l ing t o play gov' t games than demand changes, they w i l l be funded.

Most ltadvocates" a re would-be p o l i t i c i - ans; they a r e not r ad ica l trouble-makers, but well-behaved s tudents of the NDP and COPE. ELP i s being brought on-side so t h a t they w i l l l earn a l l the reasons why radical demands f o r change must be given up i f they wish t o progress f u r t h e r i n t h e i r " l e f t wing" p o l i t i c a l ca ree r s .

Another quote from Joan Smallwood: - "I ' l l be making a major announcement shor t ly (Sep. 17) about add i t iona l i n i t i a - t i v e s t o support t r a i n i n g & employment oppor tuni t ies f o r people who a r e receiv- ing income ass i s t ance ." " I n i t i a t i v e s t o support t r a i n i n g 4 empl-

oyment o p p o r t u n i t i e ~ ~ ~ , i n case you don ' t know, i s typ ica l socred-Fraser I n s t i t u t e 1 anguage .

The whole point of t h i s exerc ise s t a r t - ed out a s an attempt t o ge t more money d i r e c t l y in to the pockets of those on welfare. . . . they sa id I would ge t $25 ex- t r a on my cheque & then they gave i t t o my landlord, who i s a COPE-NDP supporter: ... I d idn ' t even not ice any Christmas bo- nus but somebody to ld me it was $3.

And now Joan j u s t gave $1 mill ion t o the ELPies. I c a n ' t be l ieve it. I f they a r e $3 b i l l i o n i n the hole 5 a r e going t o ' t i n i t i a t e " employment oppor tun i t i e s f o r me, I am i n exact ly the same s i t u a t i o n I was under vanderzalm. . . .but those who go t o meetings 5 pract - i c e p o l i t i c s a r e being given $1 mill ion?

I t smells l i k e the same o l d ugly s h i t t h a t b u i l t t h i s very s ick nat ion i n the f i r s t place ... smart p o l i t i c s with no sub- stance, Jack.

. TORA

Dear Paul,

Thank you f o r the a r t i c l e E photo i n the l a s t Carnegie Newsletter -

I t was so nicg being ab le t o give Carb- t r e e ' s Soup In Bannock the $1000..besides, I l i k e bannock.

I t was nice t o help out some family mem- bers too.

Welfare sa id it was a ' p r i z e money', not "earned income", so I had t o give up t h i s month's cheque - apparently you can have savings but not a f t e r you're on welfare - o r something l i k e t h a t . So I l o s t $605. I d id buy a camera & some s t u f f I need f o r writ ing .

I have t o be honest . I t f e l t good t o have a l i t t l e ex t ra money. I ' ve been ge t t ing Christmas presents f o r my grandchildren.

SO I ge t the award a t the Burrard Libra- ry on the 1st of October a t 7: 15pm. .maybe I ' l l s ee you the re .

Thank you f o r a l l t h e encouragement with my wri t ing - the re is a l o t of t a l e n t i n Carnegie. Le t ' s ge t it a l l on!"

Shei la Baxter

What a l ands l ide v ic to ry f o r NPA candi- da te lynne Kennedy, t h e chbsen favour i t e of the NPA mayor & counci l lors & a l l the monied i n t e r e s t s t h a t support them!

Without buckets of money poured i n t o t h e i r co f fe r s , t h e media were l ack- lus t re i n t h e i r i n t e r e s t i n publ ic iz ing the by- e l ec t ion , & a t a l l -candidate meetings e i - t h e r a t s t r e e t l e v e l o r on TV, the presen- ce of Kennedy ra ised no g rea t outburs ts of unres t ra ined applause.

She r e a l l y had nothing t o say & the a r r - ay of o t h e r candidates, mostly a l leged "in- dependents", a good h a l f of whom were r i d - ing on the c o a t t a i l s of Me1 Lehants (COPE) program, put her one agains t ag00d baker ' s dozen, a l l s p l i t t i n g the COPE neighbour- hood pol icy vote.

So 10% of t h e Vancouver vo te r s were in- fQrmed enough of t h e by-election & the is- sues t o come ou t & vote. This was overwhel- mingly COPE'S achievement, but with 11 t o I odds, i t i s n ' t su rp r i s ing t h a t t h e s i n g l e NPA candidate managed t o g e t under t h e . I

wire f i r s t , only 1700 votes ahead of the r e a l winner - Me1 Lehan. Without the work of COPE'S supporters the by-election would have been a void. So much f o r t h e NPA & t h e media's enthusiasm f o r democracy.

Exhibit ing such contempt f o r the people, one can r e s t assured t h a t the NPA, between now & November 1993, w i l l so outrage the c i t i z e n s of t h i s c i t y with unrestrained pro-developer & maximizing p r o f i t e e r i n g p o l i c i e s t h a t , media o r no media, they w i l l be turned out of o f f i c e .

COPE & Me1 Lehan: keep on championing & building community-based & neighbourhood -building policies. . look ahead t o 1993.

The f igures : 10.2% of vo te r s d id so. Kennedy got 11,573; Lehan got 9,807, G the remaining candidates got 6,152 t y e t h e r .

Need one ,sapmore? Who won f o r democracy i n t h a t by-election? Me1 Leh-m, bands d0.m ... together with COPE.

Bea Ferneyhough

The Seagull Stole Crab Park

Talking t o t h e l a t e evening f l i e s , & the f l i e s t e l l me things. They say t h a t the Port plan f o r beside Crab Park beach i s t tover-bui l t f t .

I bel ieve them. The f l i e s don ' t l i e . . . t a lk ing t o t h e cockroaches i n the wall. The roaches t o l d me t h e Port i s "planninntt (using the word 1oosely)a 32 storey-high- ho te l near Crab park. ..Perhaps the Port planners t h a t a re the humans on Mars building t h e top hal f of t h e development beside Crab Beach.

The a n t s i n t h e g rass they say the huge (alcohol & prosti tut ion)Convention Centre "planned" f o r beside Crab park w i l l be a cement Disneyland North. ..Oh,& reading t h e loca l pigeon beaks,I d iv ine t h a t t h e new cruiseships w i l l be l a r g e r & l a r g e r & these f l o a t i n g luxury- h o t e l s t h a t come i n regu la r ly from May t o Septembe* have up t o 1500 t o u r i s t s on them already. . .For t h i s a r t i c l e I t r i e d t o get informa- t i o n out of the Port of Vancouver corpora- t i o n mascot--Salty Sam the Seagull. The seagul l laughed t h a t it was t h e P o r t ' s park now--its "a tourist-only-park-now- suckers". And then t h e Port seagul l r a i sed i t s f i n g e r i n s a l u t e , t h a t they were number one in v i c t o r y o r something. ..So I went & read the mind of a nearby crow. He crowed t h a t the re would be no place f o r local,lowincome fami l i e s anymore a t Crab Park,they would be l o s t under p i l e s of t o u r i s t s . . . t h e Port seagull t w i r - l ed & danced & sang its llours,ours,ours' . . . I waited & saw a Crab Beach Crab s c u t t l e i n t o t h e lapping ocean water,& I heard the Crab say "Save Crab Beach from Tourists". . .& the Crab Beach Crab t h a t he 'd help t r y t o save the park f o r t h e people a t the Oc- tober 1st c i t y h a l l meeting. ..Why destroy community 4 c i t y peoples use of a r a r e park space? ..Why would t h e Port want t o c r e a t e a t t tourist-only-placell , t h e Crab Beach c rea tu res a l l wondered.. . .

Don Larson

THE S C ~ E S ON OUR EYES

"Down here" is a quain t euphemism almost u n i v e r s a l l y appl ied t o one ' s home t u r f . For t h e purposes of t h i s r a n t , it r e f e r s t o t h e inne r co re of any major c i t y i n North America and s p e c i f i c a l l y t o t h e poores t neighbourhoods - t h e ' s k i d rows' of ou r f a i r land.

I f you t h i n k you l i v e on ' sk id row" you do, bub pbverty & want a r e c e r t a i n l y no t l i m i t e d t o a few blocks of cockroach h o t e l s . Adjec t ives l i k e needy, l a z y , s l e a - zy, t h i eve ing e t c . . r e a d i l y s t i c k t o s t e r e o t y p i c a l nouns l i k e bum, chea t , scum,..., when mouthed by t h e well-to-do. The arrogance of t h e i r usage is endemic t o s o c i e t a l chuckles a t s o c i e t y even t s , where t h e wealthy & powerful s h a r e super- i o r i t y complexes a s e a s i l y a s they pass t h e c a v i a r , where they don ' t even b l i n k a t t h e pas s iona te d i scour ses of t h e i r fe l lows spout ing t h e "givens" - t h e power & v io lence inherent i n t h e a b s b l u t e a r ro- gance of ves ted i n t e r e s t s hidden i n in- t e l l e c t u a l convic t ion .

4 Like t h e F rase r I n s t i t u t e publ i sh ing a

' r e p o r t ' s t a t i n g t h a t poverty is not a problem i n Canada.

Like t h e Business Council on Nat ional I s s u e s e n e r g e t i c a l l y l ~ b b ~ i n g l o r d e r i n g t h e i r p o l i t i c a l hacks t o ex terminate Med- i c a r e , t o l e v e l t h e p laying f i e l d , t o make Canada compet i t ive ...

A To t h e poin t : Big Business wants a

f r e e hand. The discovery t h a t t h e human mind is s u b j e c t t o behavioura l manipula- t i o n is t h e foundation of modern adve r t i - s ing . New c a r s sell when t h e sa l e spe r son / voice-over makes it urgent..one-time-only, "don't m i s s out" & s o on. Food is s o l d wi th t a s t e t h e only considered s e n s a t i o n , wi th f a s t images of k i d s & games & ' fun ' r e l e g a t i n g n u t r i t i o n a l q u a l i t y t o back- ground noise . McDonald's is f a r & away a t t h e top of i t ' s f i e l d i n e f f e c t i v e ad- v e r t i s i n g , spending something l i k e $100 m i l l i o n a yea r on it. When t h e v a s t maj- o r i t y of t h e i r t a r g e t popula t ion a r e poor wi th l i t t l e acces s t o adequate good food,

t h e protnotion o f t h e i r a s s o r t e d concoct- i ons is r e l a t i v e l y easy wi th p a s t e l co l - ourssb " tas te" . ("Cheap" is not. j u s t an- - o t h e r word f o r inexpensive.)

When you ' r e poor you a r e n ' t beneath t h e a d v e r t i s e r ' s not ice. .you a r e approa- ched d i f f e r e n t l y . For t h e most p a r t , ad- v e r t i s e r s can r e l a t e t o budgets & choices mych more than they can t o people simply no t having enough money. This is beginn- i ng t o bo the r t h e t r a n s n a t i o n a l s though. They've come t o t h e deluded conclusion. no doubt exacerbated by t h e mental d i s - ease c a l l e d greed , t h a t reducing c o s t s a t someone e l s e ' s expense is a s u r e way t o i n c r e a s e prof its.

v Under t h i s de lus ion they have been

~ t r i v i n g f o r yea r s , p a r t l y r e a l i s e d under t h e "free" t r a d e agreement, t o make Can- ada t h e resource cow & now, wi th t h e imp- ending North American Free Trade Agree- ment (NAFTA) t o make Mexico be t h e sou rce f o r cheap labour . One gov ' t p i ece of propaganda i n Canada s a i d t h a t Mexico would add 83 m i l l i o n people t o our econo- mic zone, "20 m i l l i o n of whom a r e w e l l - off by Canadian s tandards" & on it goes t o t h e next sal iva-producing f a c t o i d . (DO NOT pass GO, do no t c o l l e c t $200, do no t ask i f t h e o t h e r 63 m i l l i o n l i v e i n ab- j e c t poverty) . -

The mindset of a d v e r t i s i n g permeates a l l our p o l i t i c s , ou r news, our th inking . When some d i s t a s t e f u l f a c t o r s t o r y o r exposure would harm t h e s a l e , why, j u s t g ive it a 3-second sound byte . .& go on as quickly a s poss ib l e . I n pure commercials t h e 3-second b i t is excluded a l t o g e t h e r . It never happened, never could happen.

Down h e r e , t h e major t h r u s t s of mass media co lour our pe rcep t ions , but not a s much a s they do t o t h o s e whocan a c t u a l l y go out & buy whatever is being flogged. dhat t h e media is doing is t o inc rease crime & t h e d i s r e s p e c t most people seem a l l t o o w i l l i n g t o engage i n . b y sakuratiL' ing every campaign wi th t h e images, t h e v i s ion , of success be ing a s t a t e replend- 2nt wi th m a t e r i a l junk. The d i sconce r t ing

c-

-. facts of a g l o b a l r e c e s s i o n , of people dy- i ng by t h e m i l l i o n s of s t a r v a t i o n , of en- ,ironmental d i s a s t e r looming, of t h e van- i sh ing middle-class be ing boph t h e major- i t y t a r g e t f o r consumer ads & the ,major i - t y v i c t im of economic p o l i c i e s designed to reduce t h e numbers of t h o s e on t h e in- s i d e , a r e a l l p a r t of t h e process t o com- p l e t e t h e s e p a r a t i o n of t h e haves & t h e haveznots .

w The r e a l i t y of poverty is no t permi t ted

t o e n t e r t h e a d v e r t i s e r ' s mecca of f i n d z ing new t a r g e t s . C i g a r e t t e companies go i n t o 3rd World c o u n t r i e s & s t a r t g iv ing away t h e i r p roduct ; i n i t i a l o u t l a y is e a s i l y recovered a f t e r people ge t add ic t - ed & have t o pay. I n f a n t formula is adv- e r t i s e d i n t o u se by making t h e t i m e l e s s p r a c t i c e of breas t - feeding seem e i t h e r o b s o l e t e o r obscene. The World Bank & t h e I n t e r n a t i o n a l Monetary Fund p l ay daunting r o l e s w i th s t r i c t impos i t ion of s t r u c t u a l adjustment programs, s p e c i f i c a l l y design- ed t o e x p l o i t cond i t i ons of pover ty & want i n favour of t h e h ighes t r e t u r n s f o r t hose wi th products t o s e l l . I n t h e i r eyes , e t h i c s , i n t e g r i t y & even mora l i t y , by d i n t of be ing i n t a n g i b l e , are economically ir- r e l e v a n t . -

And i t a l l comes back t o TV & r a d i o & p r i n t ads t e l l i n g u s t h a t what we j u s t have t o buy is cheaper than t h e o t h e r guy I s . The g i g a n t i c bu lk of t h i s i c ebe rg , t h e s o r d i d ways & means by which product- i on of t h e product happens, is simply not t o l d . Repercussions - economic & s o c i a l - a r e a l s o i r r e l e v a n t i f you ' re a t r i c k l e r & n o t a t r i c k l e e .

Ads showing cows mooing i n amber f i e l d s of g r a i n b e l i e t h e f a c t s of f a c t o r y farm- ing ; chickens c lucking i n s u r r e a l barn- ya rds obscure t h e mass product ion r e a l i t y of f l o r e s c e n t t u b e s , block-long she lves of cages , hormones, i n j e c t i o n s & i n s a n i t y t h a t s t i l l a l low t h e product t o be l abe l - l e d "Grade A."

The i d e a t i o n of t h i s paper is t o en- l i g h t e n us a l l t o t h e mindset of t h o s e who use t h e media t o manipula te us . The po l i - tics of t h e media a r e hand-in-glove wi th

t h e prof i t -mot ive , compelling i t t o guide & manipulate programming i n t o t h e abyss- of t h e lowest common denominator. 111.

I ' d always f i l l e d t h e toothbrush with-'- t o o t h p a s t e - about an inch - because t h a t is what they do on TV. Af t e r 20 y e a r s it f i n a l l y occurred t o m e t h a t 314's of i t j u s t goes down t h e d ra in . , ~ ' d been bra in- washed along wi th t h e b e s t of 'em. The t o o t h p a s t e companies had made t r i p l e t h e p r o f i t o f f me j u s t by phony ads . Keep

' L your eyes open!

By PAULR TAYLOR

Adult l ea rne r s 4 t h e i r f r i ends ce lebra te the publ ica t ion of The Wind Cannot Read, a co l l ec t ion of wri t ings by new readers.

EVENT: TUESDAY, October 6, 1992 12:OO t o 1:30

Carnegie Theatre 401 Main ( a t Hastings) I

I Contact Debbie Bryant (Literacy Outreach at 665-3013 6 Eleanor Kelly i n the Carne gie Reading Room a t 665-3015.

Contributors o f f e r us a mosiac of f e e l i n g & thoughts about learning, about being unable t o read i n an increas ingly t e x t - based world, about l i f e 4 love. The l i v e - l y wri t ing & d i r e c t manner of presenta t ion $7 eggaging t o readers . la t any l eve l .

'This b w k s t a r t e d a s p a r t of a world- wide p r o j e c t t o ce lebra te In te rna t iona l Literacy Year 1990. Adult new readers on every cont inent joined toge the r t o c r e a t e a c o l l e c t i v e book of wri t ings . Sponsored by the United Nations, t h e Book Voyage began i n Thailand & journeyed around the globe. In Canada, t h e Movement f o r Canad- ian Li teracy launched a book f o r each province and t e r r i t o r y .

When Larry Loyie a r r ived i n Vancouver from Ottawa i n e a r l y 1990 with t h e "B.C. Book" i n h i s knapsack, it was unmarked pe r fec t red l ea the r . I t was empty except f o r a t i t l e page. A t t h e end of t h e year, it had t r a v e l l e d t o every region of B.C. The cover was ba t t e red & it was so f u l l of wri t ing t h a t it had t o be rebound on the way. I t was almost 1000 pages long G had t o be rebound again.

In many communities, new readers spoke i n publ ic about t h e i r s t rugg le t o l e a r n t o read & wri te f o r t h e f i r s t time. The "Book" came t o represent something more than p r i n t & paper. I t cane t o represent the bond t h e w r i t e r s f e l t with one anoth- e r over t h e i r shared h i s to ry , desp i t e t h e i r d i f fe rences i n age, gender, c u l t u r e o r b e l i e f s . The Wind Cannot Read is a se lec t ion of those wr i t ings . '

February 14, 1990, an e n t h u s i a s t i c crowdtlgathered i n t h e Carnegie Centre Theatre t o launch t h e "B.C. Book1'.

Now t h e "Book" has come f u l l c i r c l e G we a r e tremendously exci ted t o mark i t s publ ica t ion with a launch & celebra t ion i n t h e Theatre.

Program h igh l igh t s include an address by Larry Loyie, readings by adu l t learn- e r s & information about l i t e r a c y and up- grading programs. Refreshments a r e f r e e .

FREE TO THE PUBLIC, ALL WELCOME!

Prejudicehacisrn is one of the most destructive

forces shaping todays world. Prejudice violates

the basic principle of respect for all living things.

This principle of existence has great implications

for a healthy and wholistic approach to the

elimination of prejudice.

Wholeness:

'All things are interrelated. This connectedness

derives from the reality that everything is part

of a single whole which is greater than the

sum of its parts."

This principle, when applied to human beings,

means that all races, tribes and nationalities

belong to the same human family. Humankind is

really one. The distinctions and differences which

have been the basis of so much conflict and

hatred are only superficial.

Just as in the human body if one organ took

over the whole body and would not let the

others function freely. the organism would die, so

will the human race be destroyed if one tribe or

race tries to take over and does not let the other

tribes or races contribute their own gifts for the

benefit of all in our human community. * .

'Adapted from The Four Worlds Development Prqect"

It takes the whole community to

raise a child proud and unafraid..

'Unity by Lorne Bruce'

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overwhelmed. Do something about it.

There are resources available in our

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Come to power-take action.

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1 Reaten

j Unable t o move. I Fear has taken over my body.

There i s no way out . Paralyzed! The pa in i s too s t rong. I t r y t o scream but out come gasps of a i r ! I am numb, d i zzy and then I black ou t . The world has gone dark! Am I dead o r a l i v e - is t h i s f o r a s h o r t while - o r i s t h i s fo reve r? W i l l I be looking a t s i x f e e t soon? I run, but I c a n ' t g e t away from him! So many t imes I run, l i k e i n a maze. But a deadlend f a l l s i n f r o n t o f me. Every dead end, h e ' s t h e r e . Consequences; Bad consequences ! I s t h i s what l o v e ' s supposed t o he3 Scanning every corner , not knowing i f h e ' s t h e r e . Walking i n darkness, no t knowing i f t h e shadow I s e e is him. Suddenly I s e e s t a r s . S t a r s from every blow I t ake . Nightmares a r e a l l I have. Now, a l l I have a r e h o r r i f y i n g memories. 1 s t i l l qu ive r a t n i g h t .

Johanna Sandy

The Power Within

When she moved i n t o h e r own apartment, she was content , r e l i e v e d & a b i t nervous. I t was t h e f i r s t t ime s i n c e she was a lit- t l e g i r l t h a t she was on h e r own, and t h e thought of t h e memories as a l i t t l e g i r l came back i n a f l a s h . She saw h e r s e l f hud- dled i n h e r room a lone & no one was home with her . The l i t t l e g i r l she saw was i

very f r igh tened & hoped f o r h e r dad t o r e - t u rn soon, but she a l s o knew t h a t i t ' d be impossible. A s Johanna shook t h e memories away she s t a r t e d t o unpack t o unpack t h e boxes i n h e r living-room. She ' f igured it would t a k e a good week t o g e t every th ing i n order .

She was fond of h e r new apartment; it was q u i e t , no t f a r from a shopping mall & t h e r e was a school about 3 b locks away.It

was surrounded by cedar t r e e s & , i n t h e i r background, were the high peaks of mount- a in tops . Several rose bushes gathered c l o s e l y t o each o t h e r around t h e bui ld ing . Across t h e s t r e e t was a small pas tu re f o r horses who would roam i n t h e evening. Joh- anna sighed & thought ' a p e r f e c t home f o r someone who i s on h e r own, f i n a l l y . '

She stepped onto h e r balcony & breathed l a t e a f te rnoon a i r i n t o h e r lungs. I t was- n ' t a s f r e s h a s country a i r but b e t t e r than t h e p o l l u t i o n over t h e c i t y ' s cen t r e . She l e f t t h e balcony & went t o work on he r new place . She had p l ans f o r t h e ex t - r a room t o conver t it i n t o a s tudy so she could work on h e r book. While unpacking she f e l t re laxed t h a t she was on h e r own, y e t deep i n s i d e she f e l t a sudden f e a r t h a t i t - w a s n ' t over .

She knew she was t ak ing a b ig r i s k o f see ing h e r h a l f - b r o t h e r , - ~ l i n t i but t h i s was a new s t a r t f o r her . .whatever happgns w i l l happen. She wanted t o prove t o her - s e l f & t o everyone she knew t h a t she 'd make it on h e r own & she was a l s o a lone i f she was ever t o s e e C l i n t again.

The job she was doing kept h e r busy and she l i k e d it. She never thought photogra- phy was h e r s t y l e but she acquired knowl- edge from it 6 it paid well .

Late t h a t n i g h t she had a nightmare and it was about C l i n t . She ' thought she was r i d of t h e dreams bu t they were s t i l l I

with her . She got up & warmed some milk, th inking about t h e dream. She was f u l l of f e a r & had no one t o t a l k t o . But she s a t up s t r a i g h t 6 t o l d h e r s e l f it was a l r i g h t . . t h a t when she was th inking of him t h e day before , i t ' d s t i r r e d up bad memories. F in ish ing t h e milk she went t o bed, s leep- ing through without any dreams. Tomorrow was a new day 6 t h e thought would never e n t e r h e r again. She w i l l go on & hopeful- l y not s e e h e r h a l f bro ther .

The next day she was s i t t i n g i n a small coffee-shop i n a q u i e t a r e a of Abbotsford. She'd only been t h e r e about 1 0 minutes.. day-dreaming, s ipp ing a t her cof fee . I t was a warm afternoon; a lying-on-thsbeach kind o f day. From a distance1 she could ' hea r a t r a i n . x

In the coffee-shop were 12 t a b l e s with high padded s e a t s 6 a long counter with 8 bar s t o o l s i n f r o n t f o r customers e i t h e r alone or i n a hurry. A br ight E cheerful looking cashier stood a t the entrance. There were only seven people i n t h e shop, She l iked it t h i s way. She had intended t o go uptown t o a mall f o r lunch. but the thought-of a l l t h e t r a f f i c E f ind ing a parking s a w e .- - parking space seemed l i k e a b ig hass le . The coffee-shop a l s o provided a much app- r ec ia ted anonymity, a s only t h e l o c a l r e s - i d e n t s came here t o e a t ; very few v i s i t - o r s l i k e h e r s e l f .

She considered going f o r a long d r ive t o Harrison Hot Springs. The mountains were beau t i fu l ; l a s t time she'd been luc- ky enough t o spot an eagle soar ing i n t h e d is tance . The t i n k l i n g of t h e l i t t l e b e l l on the door brought her sharply back t o r e a l i t y . She brought he r ham & chees t o her mouth f o r one l a s t b i t e when she look- ed up 4 f roze . She saw who had walked i n - C l i n t , he r hal f brother . He d i d n ' t see he] and s a t down, a couple of booths away. With the high s e a t s a l l she could see was h i s j e t black h a i r .

She t r i e d t o be a s qu ie t as she could; she had no idea what she 'd say i f he d i d see her. Mentally, she kicked h e r s e l f . Shr knew she should have gone uptown; why was she here?! She gained he r composure only enough t o r e a l i z e t h a t she had t o walk r i g h t pas t him t o pay h e r b i l l . I t was thf only way out . She beat h e r s e l f up again f o r having j u s t gone t o t h e bank andlwith- drawing a l a rge amount of cash. With t h e smal les t change she had t o pay he r b i l l , i t ' d s t i l l take forever t o s e t t l e with the cash ie r 6 get out . She shook with f e a r , r e - l i v i n g the hor r ib le memories of t h e time they spent together. I t could've happened yesterday.

The wai t ress got h i s order , then came up :o J o E asked i f she wanted more coffee. Johanna shook her head quickly & whispered 'no.It She got up slowly 4 walked by quick- ly. She paid her b i l l 6 s a i d good-bye t o :he cash ie r , who rep l i ed "Enjoy t h e weath- :r bye!" A t t h a t moment C l i n t looked up 4 :heir eyes met f o r 2 seconds. J o rushed m t s i d e , fhinking,sheLnas,igoing t o f a i n t .

She walked quickly down t h e s t r e e t , but l ea r ly panicked when she heard her name ~ e i n g c a l l e d out . Somehow she kept going. ;he checked he r options: run E scream f o r l e l p o r wait E expect t h e worst. She thought she heard f o o t s t e p s but couldn' t t e l l because of t h e pounding of h e r hea r t .

C l in t caught up t o her . He was panting #hen he faced her & sa id , "We have t o ta lk , Jo."

She was almost i n t e a r s . "We have noth- ing t o t a l k about. Whatever you have t o say, I won't l i s t e n . You'll be wasting your breath . "

Cl in t pleaded with her, "Please, hear me m t , I have a few th ings t o t e l l you."

She wiped h e r eyes 5 t r i e d t o regain herse l f . To her su rp r i se , he r voice seemed calm E control led . ItHaven't you t o l d me nou ugh l i e s ? What's t h e use? After a l l t h e l i e s you t o l d me, why i n God's name would you th ink I ' d s t a r t be l ieving you now? I can ' t 'hear you ou t ' when I re fuse t o hear anything you say!" In s p i t e of he r o r i g i - nal i n t e n t t o put a s much d i s t ance as pos- s i b l e between he r se l f & t h i s demon from h e l l , J o seemed unable t o stem the t i d e of words t h a t r ipped from t h e cen t re of he r soul. Her words continued t o b a t t e r him, l i k e he had ba t t e red her. " I t was c l e a r t h a t you were out t o des t -

roy my family, & you accomplished t h a t . You should be proud .of yoursel f . Haven't you pa t t ed yourself o n t h e back yet?" away she s t a r t e d t o unpack boxes i n h e r living-room. She f igured it would take a good week t o get everything i n order .

"I have gone through enough problems be- cause of your abuse. I r e a l l y believed you were something, E I gave up myself j u s t t o pay a t t e n t i o n t o you1 You knew I

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Y x was the most vulnerable person. You c a s t out & hooked me i n & I was s tup id enough t o take the bai t !" you c a n ' t change t h e pas t & you can ' t

change the way I f e e l about you now. , I was so confused I thought I was going crazy! I knew I wasn't doing what I was supposed t o do f o r o t h e r people, but I was so t i e d up with you, I fo rgo t I ever exis ted! I look back a t what I d id & how I was ac t ing & I kick myself f o r going f o r a l l the s tupid t r i c k s you would p u l l ! I f only it had stopped before so many bad th ings happened. I wouldn't have had t o go through l i f e , being an EX-CON!!!l1 She

' m a nhecked wirh the shock of h e r words.

"You ruined my l i f e , . y o u 8 r e t h e one who put a l l t h e g u i l t & shame & e s p e c i a l l y the f e a r i n me. I ' m a f r a i d t o be around men because I don ' t know when one w i l l rape me. You caused a l l t h e t rouble . You were i n t h e d r i v e r ' s s e a t , I wasn't." She paused f o r a breath & a s a r c a s t i c smile crossed h e r l i p s . "But I fo rgo t you don ' t know how t o d r ive , do you ! !"

'#You caused a l l t h e t roub le , I d i d n ' t t e l l you t o rape me & beat me up! I'm not the one who t o l d you t o l i e with every word you sa id ! Not ONE th ing t h a t happen- ed was my f a u l t , you bas tard ! ! !" " I t was your l i e s , your manipulation, &

your abuse t h a t got me i n t roub le . Every- one i n both f a m i l i e s was h u r t , and guess who got the most of i t ? Denise, my s i s t e r

C l i n t ' s jaw dropped. He never f igured anyone would f ind out but , a s he remember ed, Denise d id tend t o speak h e r mind. J o went on. '*Yes, C l i n t , Denise G I. She's not going t o c a r r y your abuse e i t h e r . You know what she s a i d t o me? 'Why go on l i v - ing l i k e t h i s ? The only person who's hav- ing a great 01' time is C l i n t . Why should he go on with l i f e , l i v i n g happily ever a f t e r , while our l i v e s have been des t roy- ed?' Believe me, it was not easy f o r me t o have her stand by me. Even though I knew t h a t you caused her a s much pain a s you caused me, she s t i l l thought you were a GREAT GUY !

llYou're the one who i s a s i ck man; you are the one who needs t o see a shrink! Ion' t th ink you can go day by day & not . Forget what you did t o us. We're going t o nake sure you don ' t . Your l i f e w i l l be so niserable y o u ' l l be so r ry you were born." "1 have another g i r l i n mind who w i l l

~ e l p us..maybe you know who I'm ta lk ing about. I f you don ' t i t ' s 0.k. because your memory w i l l be refreshed i n court ."

A t t h i s point C l in t looked green. He ran h i s l e f t hand through h i s h a i r . He could bare ly manage a whisper. "Look Jo, I need t o t e l l you t h a t I ' m r e a l l y r e a l l y sorry." While C l in t sa id t h i s h i s hands were i n a prayer pos i t ion . He bare ly mov- ed, but croaked out another one of h i s lame excuses

iiaaabm "1 know it must of caused you a l o t of

hur t . I was going through a rough time, with my adopted parents & leaving family & f r i ends . I wanted you & your family t o l i k e me. I was angry & d i d n ' t know how t o hide it. I d i d n ' t want t o look a t myself. I was ashamed. To t e l l you t h e t r u t h , I don ' t r e a l l y know how & why I s t a r t e d t o do those th ings t o you.'t

J o looked away with t e a r s i n he r eyes, and b i t h e r lower l i p . She discarded t h e idea of pounding h i s head i n j u s t because it wouldn't look good i n cour t . I t was j u s t the thought of C l i n t beating, control - l i n g & raping her. She was amazed t h a t t h e painful memories were s t i l l s o f resh .

C l i n t saw her t e a r s & stepped forward t o put a hand on he r shoulder. She jerked away. J o stood the re , looking towards t h e mountains. Final ly , she spoke. "You have no idea what I went through. How could you know? You never gave me a chance. A l l you did was th rea ten me. You were 100% sure I would s t i c k by you l i k e glue..you knew I wouldn't t e l l anyone. I couldn' t c ry ,s leep o r th ink E I couldn' t t a l k t o anyone'. Who was t h e r e f o r me? Everyone was s o wrapped up i n you they had no time f o r me! You had so much con t ro l over me, I followed your every s t e p E t h a t ' s what ended us both i n j a i l ! ! ! I m YYK

"For t h e f i r s t 2 months i n j a i l I d i d n ' t care what t h e system d id t o me... I j u s t d i d n ' t care. After awhile I s t a r t e d t o r e - a l i z e t h a t I was something E not a can f o ~ - throwing garbage a t . Only one person got through t o me. I t was l i k e I had drowned t she saved my l i f e , because I was ha l f dead when I met her. She helped me discover ME!

"When I met her I refused t o t a l k but I b u i l t up my t r u s t t o t a l k t o her . I d id one-to-one counsell ing with her , then I went t o her group sess ions . I know more about myself now, than I d id before. I ne- ve r knew I had so much t o say because a l l of my l i f e I wasn't allowed t o speak my mind. I was vulnerable 4 I couldn ' t fend f o r myself. Now, I can face o rdea l s every day 6 not f e e l defeated."

"For some reason, I knew t h i s day would come. I 've prepared myself f o r t h i s day but it wasn't easy."

"This won't be t h e l a s t time we ' l l meet. The next time w i l l be i n cour t ." J o was about t o walk away but turned quickly t o f ace Cl in t . "And don' t th ink about follow- ing me. 1'11 have t h e po l i ce on your t a i l . You won't know what h i t you!" With t h a t she walked down the s t r e e t t o h e r car.

Johanna looked back when she was about a hundred f e e t away. She saw Cl in t going back t o the coffee-shop. She got i n he r c a r 6 s a t the re , dazed. She put both hand! on t h e steering-wheel & h e r head too. Morf t e a r s came. She t o l d h e r s e l f , "I t 's o.k., i t ' s over, i t ' s over, he can ' t hur t me any more. I t ' s a l r i g h t , I'm f i n a l l y f r e e . ' And with t h a t , she went on he r d r ive t o Ilarrison 6 when she returned she would be. g in a new l i f e i n he r new apartment. She re jo iced i n the power t h a t came from fac- ing f e a r s ins tead of running away from them. Life was good, and she looked f o r - ward t o the challenges ahead.

By JOHANNA SANDY

Dark, gloomy. Disgusting garbage t h a t ' s a waste t o carry. Why, such a beau t i fu l p lace t o be, be so ugly? A l l you want t o do i s ge t out! I had enough, t h i s i s a l l I have t o see I c a n ' t take it anymore! ! I ' m going t o stop, i t ' s gone too f a r !

This i s the dark s i d e where I 've ca r r i ed too much pain. The b a r r i e r . Cold, hard a s s t e e l , a very th ick wall where my hidden pain is locked away.

Calm, b r igh t , peaceful and love. This i s my s ide where a l l o f these e x i s t . I f e e l strong, because I ' ve got the power, the s t r eng th t o knock down the b a r r i e r .

The two s ides w i l l s t ruggle . I t w i l l hur t by the two b a t t l i n g out together . I w i l l keep a t it u n t i l I break through and re lease the pain.

The f u t u r e w i l l break through the pain in the pas t and the re w i l l be a day thq t I can walk, t a l k , cry, .shout and laugh f r e e l y , I am beau t i fu l . 1 am f r e e . I am number one in my soul, and I love myself and my l i t t l e g i r l within.

Johanna Sandy

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The one and only

Maybe your body moves i n t o i t s hor izon l i k e an implied conca tena t ion o f l i m i t s . You a r e hereby n o t i f i e d o f d a i l y evanescence, t h e vanish ing c o r o l l a r i e s . Love, perhaps, when it comes languish ing i n i t s bordered

extravagance, l i k e a s i e s t a , amd goes

l e a v e s t h i s annota t ion , t h i s e x i t . The quanta o f l a b o r become h i s t o r y , and each e n t r y i n t o renewed s p e c i f i c i t y r a i s e s ano the r a r c h i t e c t u r e , ano the r un ive r se . This is why

a c y c l i s t , sweating t h e h i l l never looks back. The way downhill i s c e r t a i n , t h e f u t u r e

i s everywhere, c i r c u l a r and r e g a r d l e s s .

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I THE EPIC DREAM

The dream is t h e s t o r y of an a lcoho l i c binge & t h e recovery from i t . Readers w i l l note t h a t the s t o r y begins i n pr ison - a s a l l a l coho l i cs a r e i n p r i sons - 4 t h a t a pos i t ive note is t h a t a few a r e seen leav- .ing the prison toward i t s end. May I happ- i l y repor t t h a t , s ince having t h i s dream, I have found the means t o r e lease the p r i - sonens wholesale & t h a t I the re fo re no

I longer go on drinking binges. Nor do I do

I drugs. On t o t h e dream ... I ' I n pr ison I was looking through a l a r g e I glass window. In t h e room I was viewing, :

saw a t a l l man kneeling on t h e f l o o r & i n a very bad s t a t e . He had a black eye. H i s movements i n pounding on t h e f l o o r , h i s

1 to r tu red f a c i a l expressions. .everything to ld me he was i n the g r i p of very s t rong emotions but was cut off from me by t h e g lass , alone i n t h e room with n e i t h e r hell nor comfort f o r him.

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The scene channed & now I was ou t s ide the prison, i n the darkness of a wintry night. There was a tower the re . I climbed

, u p t h e wooden s t r u c t u r e & looked around. ! ~ l l about me t h e horizon was lit by red flames of l i g h t a s i f f i r e s were burning beyond t h e horizon. I descended the ladder & marched o f f across t h e snow. When I next came t o my senses i n t h e dream I knew I ' d been wandering insane f o r perhaps 2 weeks. Now I was i n a f o r e s t of widely-spaced t r e e s . I walked on but soon became aware t h a t I wasn't alone. Shadowy male f i g u r e s sl ipped through the t w i l i t scene apppaach- ing & r e t r e a t i n g , but always nearer. One of them, a male i n a red jacket , came t o almost within arm's reach before turning away. I saw h i s f ace 6 became alarmed. H i s expression was so cold, so wolfish. ' I ' v e got t o make a s t and , ' I thought, & moved t o ge t my back aga ins t a t r e e .

Immediately the scene changed E I was facing a t perhaps a hundred yards the en- t i r e crowd of male f i g u r e s , scores of them who had threatened me i n the f o r e s t . The f o r e s t was behind them & I was out i n open country. Every one of them was motionless & stil l ; i n f a c t one was frozen i n midstep, l i k e he'd been walking across my f i e l d of v i s i o n & looking back a t me.

I stood & s ta red a t them while they re - mained motionless. Then a l i t t l e black boy of perhaps 6 o r 7 emerged from t h e i r ranks & came t o me. He put h i s hand i n mine & a s we walked away chat tered merri ly about a model sh ip he was bui ld ing.

A s the ch i ld & I walked we met & passed a very we l l -bu i l t woman i n a green d ress . She s t a r e d at u s without speaking. The boy l e d me t o a green-painted metal door & l e f t me the re , s tanding before it. I knew t h a t some t r i c k was needed t o open it but what was i t ? I mustlve found it becausethe door was suddenly open. .a t the very top of a v a s t a r ray of s e a t s i n an empty, s u n l i t s p o r t s stadium. The only person i n s i g h t was a beau t i fu l woman off t o my r i g h t i n a top row. Clad i n an orange dress , she was watching me very c losely .

I was a t the top of s t eps going down be- tween blocks of s e a t s & I knew t h e th ing t o do was t o go down, but the re were plank ba- r r i e r s about knee-high blocking my descent. I s tudied them. 'Well you have t o t r y , ' I thought, & s e t out t o go down. Apparently t h e e f f o r t was a l l t h a t was needed, a s the stadium disappeared 6 I found myslef t r a p - ped ins ide a hollow, gray concrete dome. I r ea l i zed t h a t I had t o r a i s e one s ide of i t with my mind i n order t o escape.

0 In my f i r s t 2 at tempts I t r i e d concentra-

t i o n 6- w i l l power. ~ a c h time the dome would l i f t a l i t t l e on one s ide , then f a l l back, again trapping me. But then I laughed a t myself & my will-power e f f o r t s because I 'd r ea l i zed the way t o l i f e the concrete dome with my mind was j u s t t o l i f t it - it was more a mat ter of- confidence than w i l l power. So, laughing a t myself, I l i f t e d the dome 6 went out from under it. I

I found myself a t the top of a grass cov- /\

A ered h i l l overlooking a f r e a t s u n l i t v a l l e y G knew I was t o go down i n t o it. nearby I was a bare s o r t of c l ay s l i d e going down the h i l l . A hollow a t t h e top was about the r i g h t s i z e f o r my bum so, a b i t nervously, I planted me s e a t i n it. A t once I was t r a n sported down i n t o t h e v a l l e y & found myself walking along a path with low vegeta t ion on e i t h e r s ide .

In the va l l ey , the sky, the vegeta t ion, everything, even t h e very a i r shone with a s o f t 6 heavenly l i g h t . From hearing conver- s a t i o n s i n waking time, c a r r i e d on by those who'd s tudied Eastern r e l i g i o n s , I recog- nized t h i s marvellous l i g h t a s what those r e l i g i o u s devotees ca l l ed The Clear Light.

Off t o my l e f t was a row of t r e e s a s b ig 25 c c t t c ~ v ~ c ~ s , n i ~ p d e c vl+h fiovers ef every colour & shade. From a c e r t a i n point high between those t r e e s came t h e voices of a female choir singing a s no e a r t h l y cho i r never sang. I stopped 6 l i s t e n e d morecloae- 1y.when I recognized t h e voice of my mother i n t h e choir .

I went on & as I went, I thought ' I f t h i s i s t h e Garden of t h e Clear Light, of which t h e ancients spoke, the re should be a Foun- t a i n . ' I looked f o r it & sure enough found t h e founta in , but it was a poor thing; a l i t t l e mound peeing out 8-inch streams i n a c i r c l e & a c e n t r a l j e t t h a t went no more than 10 inches i n t o the a i r .

Turning onto another path, I continued t o walk & the Clear Light faded t o normal.

Leaving the va l l ey , I found myself faced with a s e r i e s of s t eps cut i n t o t h e c lay h i l l s i d e . I knew I had t o g e t up by w i l l power, r a t h e r than by climbing them i n nor- mal fashion. I focused my mind on r i s i n g t o t he f i r s t s tep . I t worked & I made it up the h i l l , s t e p by s tep .

I found myself i n darkness on a @.eat l ev e l p la in . Here & the re around t h e horizon were l i g h t s , a s of sca t t e red dwellings. I learned l a t e r t h a t t h i s p l a i n & those sca t - t e red l i g h t s a r e an archetypal dream symbol f o r a p lace o r time of learning. Archetypal means human beings everywhere & throughout h i s t o r y have had t h a t dream symbol meaning t h e same thing. Another archetypal dream symbol, t h i s time of knowledge gained, app- eared when I saw here 6 the re l a rge , 4-pet- a l l e d f lowers, ly ing f l a t on the p l a i n wit1

t h e i r p e t a l s pointed.

I walked across the p l a i n & came t o a :offee shop. I t was b r i g h t l y lit ins ide 4 :rowded with customers. I l e f t t h e r e & my qalking l e d me t o t h e j a i l from which I ' d ?merged a t t h e beginning of the dream. A s I passed near a p a r t of it I saw, a handful >f newly-released p r i soners , s t i l l i n p r i - son c lothing, descending a broad s e t of s t a i r s t o freedom. %ct i r ? priser?, I z t with z C U ~ ef crrf-

Eee i n f r o n t of me. Through a l a r g e g l a s s ~ indow looking i n t o another room, I saw a t a l l man being wheeled pas t on a s t r e t c h e l -Ie was very st i l l . I recognized t h a t he Mas the same man I saw before I ' d l e f t .

And t h a t was t h e end of t h e Epic Dream. In f u t u r e i s s u e s I ' l l wr i t e more about

alcoholism, a s a person who used t o be sent i n t o weeks-long sprees by drinking jus t one beer. Now, a s an a lcoho l i c f r i enc wonderingly described me, I ' m a "moderate drinker." And t h e drinking I do is design- ed day t o day, t o br ing together fragmen- ted p a r t s of my fragmented mind..fragmen- t ed t o a g rea t extent by t h a t a l coho l i c s tage . What I l i k e is t h a t my drinking i s now so moderate t h a t I don ' t have any more hangovers.

I t is my wish t o share what I ' v e l ea rn - ed with o thers . Some may p r o f i t from it.

By ERIC ERICKSON

llL/ I had t h i s dream i n t h e 1970's when I

was recovering from a month-long drinking & soft-drug s p e l l . I o f f e r it because I bel ieve it has g rea t value t o any alcohol i c who seeks t o understand h i s o r her own behiviour. Certainly, i n t h e months f o l l o -ing the dream, I found t h a t my binges s p e c i f i c a l l y matched, s t e p by s t ep , the e n t i r e dream from onset t o conclusion. In deed, one day when I mixed LSD with booze the e n t i r e dream happened t o me i n a matt e r of hours.

FROM A JOURNAL

Ins tead lof 4 walklng a i m l e s s l y ~ ~ ~ a b o u t then, I go tol lcoffee shops where I smoke toomuch & w r i t e page a f t e r page desc r ib ing t h e seemingly end le s s i n impossible words, t h e seemingly impossible i n end le s s words, & only r a r e l y t a l k t o any o f t h e numerous acquaintances who come by looking f o r some one t o t e l l t h e s t o r y of t h e i r new o r o l d love r , t h e i r new o r o l d job t o . Rather, I watch t h e n i g h t s progress i n t o t h e i r i nd i - v idua l darknesses, never q u i t e overcoming t h e apprehension o f approaching dread, kno- wing t h e s torms so f a r c a r e f u l l y kept from r e t u r n i n g t o u s he re a r e coming soon any- , way, knowing t h a t t h e v io lence , squalor 6 genera l i s o l a t i o n , malignant a s they a r e & o f t e n n e a r l y asphyxia t ing , a r e only emiss- a r i e s o f t h e h o r r o r t o come. A d e s i r e t o t e l l everyone I s e e t h a t t h e y must t a k e t h e r i g h t s i d e i n t h e i n e v i t a b l e c o n f l i c t wel l s i n me, but I don ' t know how t o say

i t convincingly & with confidence, f o r t r u t h becomes d a i l y more t e r r i b l e ; & f e a r , lumbing & b r u t a l , a r i s e s i n me t h a t t hey d i l l understand only when it i s too l a t e tha t what i s a t s t ake , i n anyone's s u r v i - t a l , cannot be divorced from t h e su rv iva l 3f t h e spec ie s . An alarm i s r inging . I know t h e r e is no

good i n panic , but someone l i k e me' b been panicking a long time. Every day I s e e those eyes i n a hundred heads. s t a r i h g from t h e r u i n s of a hundred f a c e s . They know t h e world burnt up long ago. They're j u s t wai t ing f o r t h e r e s t of u s t o r e a l - i z e it.

~ l t h o u g h I never walk a imles s ly f o r miles around t h e c i t y i n t h e evenings a s I used t o do i n my adolescence, wearying myself out of anx ie ty with a s t a c k o f impressions

- so l a r g e noth ing could e x t r i c a t e i t s e l f from beneath it; 6 though i t ' s been yea r s

, s ince I l i k e d t o g e t soaked i n t h e r a i n , o r could sit myself down i n any comfortab- l e pa tch o f g r a s s I might happen by f o r a c i g a r e t t e & a contemplat ion o f one of tho- s e d i f f i c u l t myster ies t h a t seem t o evapo- r a t e i n t h e dryness o f pass ing years ; a l - though I never walk along r a i l r o a d t r a c k s anymore o r look i n vacant l o t s overgrown

, with weeds I cannot i d e n t i f y f o r l o s t toys ) o r p i e c e s of d iscarded metal ; a l though 1'-

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' ve outgrown t h e h a b i t of reading p i e c e s of paper I spot l ay ing on sidewalks o r i n parking l o t s o r around shrubbery, not even papers t h a t look l i k e chucked l e t t e r s ; a l - though noth ing e x c i t e s me today, G tomorr- ow is only a promise o f deepening i s o l a t - ion, t h e next s t e p i n a s t e a d i l y slowing dead march toward t h e g r e a t i n s t i t u t i o n of t h e ground; s t i l l , i n t h e s e d e c l i n i n g days I sometimes g e t t h e overwhelming f e e l i n g

I t h a t someone has been wai t ing f o r u s f o r a i long t ime, & is about t o g ive up on e v e r , l oca t ing us .

This i s when I ask my f r i e n d s r e a l l y odd ques t ions , about what they 've been doing

I o r dreaming, G why they 've been doing o r 1 dreaming it, & whether o r n o t t hey s e e any , end t o it bes ides t h e grave; & they quick- ; l y g e t bored with me, disenchanted with my I ques t ions , E cannot t a k e me s e r i o u s l y any-

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NO WAY BACK:

Poli t ics i s a dead horse. No mat ter how much you beat it, feed it, plead with it, i t w i l l never p u l l t h a t wagon again. J u s t a s horse-power has been replaced by machi- nery, government has been superceded by corporate s t r u c t u r e . Money markets have replaced what North Americans so naively c a l l "democracy".

A l l p o l i t i c a l process: e l ec t ions , r e f e r - endums, public information meetings, comm- i t t e e s , l e g i s l a t u r e s , e t c . have been redu- ced by the power of economic organizat ions t o mere propaganda - t h a t i s , they have become publ ic r e l a t i o n s media forums i n which t h e agenda is s e t & t h e p o l i t i c a l cards a l ready stacked t o ensure a f u r t h e r extension of e s t ab l i shed business methods promoting economic pol icys t h a t support what has come t o be known a s t h e "corpor- a t e i n f r a s t r u c t u r e ."

This i s t r u e everywhere on t h e p lanet . The development & expansion of t h e United S t a t e s business world has replaced a l l lo - c a l c u l t u r e s & t h e i r p o l i t i c a l systems with economic i n i t i a t i v e s designed t o f u r - t h e r "The American Dream" - t h e roo t p h i l - osophy of capi ta l i sm, which demands t h a t t h e only worthwhile a c t i v i t y i n t h e l i f e of any individual must be the accumulation of wealth & property.

I f new inventions o r ideas cannot be bought & sold according t o market values they w i l l not see t h e l i g h t of day. The rad ica l changes i n a t t i t u d e , pol icy & pol- i t i c a l ac t ion s o obviously necessary today a r e a l l dead i s sues . The system has been taken over - it is now owned & operated by mul t inat ional corporate necess i ty , E no amount of publ ic debate, demand o r p r o t e s t can change it. "Democracy" i s dead, t h e world over. . . & umonopoiyil i s the name of t h e game.

TORA

The Beast Within

Fear a t n ight . Fear i n day l igh t . Why? Darkness was a b l inding death. Was it near of f a r ? I don' t know. Walking, crying and stumbling. soon, I f e l t it was going t o grasp me and p u l l me down hard. Daylight. Every eye watching. But why? I t could see , hear and smell. Walking, not knowing it had seeped i n t o t h e bpdy. It t akes control of the mind and body. You can ' t s top it! W i l l it go away? No, because i t ' s too l a t e . The job is done. I t s s l i k e waking up from a night- mare but i t ' s r e a l . Red and blue! Too l a t e ! ! In a way you1 r e f r e e but i t ' s j u s t a beginning.

I f I could wr i t e down i n words, A l l t h a t you mean t o me,

I would need a thousand pages. You, of a l l people Don't belong on t h i s hell-on-earth And when you breathe Your l a s t b rea th Know t h a t you s h a l l l i v e Forever and ever In my h e a r t and i n my words. You s h a l l be

na Naeem

Canadian Press WINNIPEG - Diet-related

chronic diseases are sweeping remote northern communities in Canada because residents can't get nutritious food, a Manitoba doctor says.

"I can't explain why we tolerate the availability of tonnes of; junk foods in communities held '<aptive by communication, geography and economics - at the expense of health," said Dr. Sharon MacDon- ald, director of the University of Manitoba's northern medicat unit.

The local store in one small community in the North sells rioth- ing but chocolate bars and' soft drinks, said MacDonald, wk.0 trav- els throughout northern Manitoba and the Northwest Territories.

As traditional food sources are destroyed by environmental con- tamination, she said, people in northern regions must turn to store-bought foods that are costly and full of fat and sugar.

At one northern reserve, the incidence of diabetes was three to nine times higher, depending on age, than in southern Manitoba.

"Dental decay in small children requiring surgery under anesthe- sia, rickets, low hemoglobins, obe- sity coupled with high blood pressure and diabetes is like an epidemic in many lndian communi- ties across North America," Mac- Donald told about 100 delegates at a food-safety seminar in Winnipeg.

"Inuit are having heart-bypass surgery; lndian people are on kid- ney dialysis and losing their sight to diabetes," she said.

BE INFORMED

Reform, a word de f ined i n t h e Oxford - d i c t i o n a r y a s 1 ) make, o r become b e t t e r by removal o f f a u l t s o r e r r o r s .

The "Reform P a r t y o f Canada" has chosen a ca t chy name which people could mistaken- l y i n t e r p r e t . The fo l lowing a r e a few of t h e p o l i c i e s & p r i n c i p l e s Preston Manning 5 t h e so -ca l l ed ' Reform Pa r ty1 r e a l l y s t and f o r . I t i s shocking.

S o c i a l Programs: A l l s o c i a l programs would - b e turned ove r t o "..non-

governmental o rgan iza t ions , and t h e p r i v - a t e s ec to r . . ." Programs such a s r e t i r emen t p l ans , s o c i a l housing, s o c i a l a s s i s t a n c e & c h i l d r e n ' s suppor t programs would become t h e r e s p o n s i b i l i t y of c h a r i t i e s ! Assist- ance f o r s i n g l e mothers, f a m i l i e s , s e n i o r s t h e d i s a b l e d & t h e unemployed would be r e - duced t o soup k i t chens , used c l o t h i n g hand -outs & homeless s h e l t e r s .

Labour Pol icy : The 'Reform Pa r ty ' kritends t o "e l imina te t h e minimum

wage." This would des t roy labour s t anda rds i n Canada. The number of hours t h a t can b e worked i n a week, overt ime pay & many o th - e r r i g h t s Canadians barga in f o r would be h i s t o r y . Working men & women would be thrown back i n t ime t o t h e &9Zb:eenthyg:-- wh,eye employees had % L i t t l e I o r no r i g h t s .

Child Pover ty & Daycare: S t a t i s t i c s r evea l I t . . reduct ion o r

e l imina t ion" f o r s 'un iversa l & b u r e a u c r a t i c s o c i a l p o l i c y i n a r e a s such a s daycare." Reform MP Deborah Grey s t a t e d i n a speech made i n Parl iament i n May 1989 t h a t : t 8 . . ch i ldca re is probably a waste of moneyw Pres ton Manning i s an oppor tun i s t who only gained support because of t h e d i s con ten t Canadians have with Brian Mulroney & t h e Progress ive Conservat ive P a r t y (PC).

In f a c t , t h e Reform P a r t y & t h e PC Par ty I t . . p o l i c i e s a r e almost i d e n t i c a l . . ' I .

For an in-depth 4 t o t a l exposure of Pre- s ton Manning & t h e 'Reform P a r t y t read Pres ton Manning & t h e Reform paEty by Murray Dobbie, publ i shed by James Lorimer - & Co. 1991.

The a r t i c l e you have j u s t read was w r i t - t e n with t h e a s s i s t a n c e of t h e above ment- ioned bood & by "Reform P a r t y P r i n c i p l e s a 4 p o l i c i e s : The Blue Book, 1991.

Public Meeting

JUST SAY NO!

David Orchard is a Saskatchewan farmer and the National Chairman of Citizens Concerned About Free Trade (CVIFT). He is one of this countvs best known opponents of the Canada-US. Free Trade Agreement (FTA) and is now spearheading the "NO to Mulrone)ls Constitution' campaign in the West. His speech will examine the destruction of Canada's economy under free trade and the transfer of our sovereignty to the US. He will explain how the constitutional accord to be voted on October 26. weakens and balkanizes Canada just as the wen more comprehensive North American Free Trade Agreement is approaching. Orchard will outline CCAFTs plans to defeat Mulroney and the premiers in their constitutional attack on Canada - worse than Meech Lake - and how to get rid of the FTA and NAFTA in the next federal election.

David Orchard is the author of the forthcoming book "Manifest Destiny and Free Wade: 300 Years of Resistance to the U.S. Takeover of Canada."

DATE - TIME - PLACE -

Tuesday, October 6, 1992

John Oliver Secondary School 530 East 4 1 st Ave at Fraser S t Vancouver, BC

* All Welcome * * Admission Free (Donations welcome) * Full Question and Answer period *

Sponsored by CITIZENS CONCERNED ABOUT FREE TRADE National Office, PO. Box 8052, SASKATOON, SK. S7K 4R7 Tel: (306) 244-5757

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