Ad\wut VyaQya

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Kya Aaj Aapne gOD_Iy vE*`vo. kI trh jNma*3mI mna{?

ye smzne se phle yh smzna hoga ik gOD_Iy vE*`v kOn hE.? gOD_Iy vE*`v mtlb

'&IgOra.g mhap/wu ke AnuyayI'| gOra.g mhap/wu ke AnuyayI 'gOD_Iy vE*`v' ka 0k hI

mtlb hE ik ve vo sa2na krte hE.. ijsme. ]nke do Sv=p hote hE.-

0k- inTy nvµIp lIla me. ikxor =p me. &I gOra.g mhap/wu ke sevk ke =p me., v dUsra- ra2ak<*` kI b/j lIla me. 0k m.jrI ke Sv=p me.|

gOD_Iy vE*`v ka [ske Alava ko{ AOr dUsra mtlb n hota 4a, n hota hE, n hI

hoga wiv*y me.| gOD_Iy vE*`v mtlb vh sa2k ijske do Sv=p hE. inTy lIla me.|

mhap/wu ke Ap/k3 hone ke bad se lekr Ab tk ijtne wI p/mai`k prMpra hE., sbme.

yhI wjn 2ara cltI hE|

Ab hmara p/Xn yh 4a ik Kya hmne gOD_Iy vE*`vo. kI trh jNma*3mI mna{? Kya

gOD_Iy vE*`v ku7 iwNn p/kar se mnate hE. AOr ANy wKt log ku7 iwNn p/kar se?

yh p/Xn wI mn me. ho rha hoga? ibLkul| swI vE*`v sMp/day jo hE. yid p/mai`k

hE., to 0k hI p/kar se ve jNma*3mI mnate hE.| yid hmne gOD_Iy vE*`v trIke se

mna{ to hm Aapko bta0>ge vh Kya hota hE| ifr Aap qud Apne Aap se pUi70,

Kya Aapne gOD_Iy vE*`v ke trIke se mna{ ik nhI.…

gOD_Iy vE*`v jNma*3mI kEse mnate hE.? gOD_Iy vE*`v ko 7oiD_0, vE*`v Kya hota hE?

vE*`v mane jo kevl Apne [*3 kI p/sNnta ke il0 kayR krta ho| mere [*3 kOn

hE.... to gOD_Iy vE*`v ke [*3 kOn hE.? 'mhap/wu' AOr 'Aamar {XvrI v<.davneXvrI…',

hmare {Xvr kOn, {XvrI kOn hE.? v<.davneXvrI| to jo gOD_Iy vE*`v hE., ve kevl

ApnI #kuranI ke il0, ApnI SvaimnI kI p/Iit ke il0 kayR krte hE.| ANy ko{

kayR nhI. krte cahe #akur kI seva Kyo. n ho, kayR nhI. krte ! phle 'ra2e' bad me. 'Xyam'|

Ab yh jNma*3mI kEse mnate hE. gOD_Iy vE*`v? 'hm', yain ik 'mE.'| 'mE.' kOn?

'mE.' m.jrI ! jo 'mE.', m.jrI hU> ra2aranI kI, ra2aranI kI sqI, barh ÜÉÊÝ v8IRy sqI…, to mE. ra2aranI ke sa4 rhtI hU>, kha> pr? jNma*3mI kha> mna{ jatI hE?

kha> mna{ jatI hE? &Ik<*` ke 6r me.| ]nka Aiw8ek hota hE nNdIXvr me.| to

ra2aranI ko Aam.5` idya jata hE, ra2aranI ke iptajI ko wI 8*#I ke idn|

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A*3mI, sPtmI, 8*#I| 8*#I ke idn Aam.5` idya jata hE ik k<pa krke Aa0> AOr

jNma*3mI ke mhamhoTsv me. sMmIilt ho.|

to ra2aranI ApnI siqyo. ke sa4, yain ik hmare sa4 kha> phu>ctI hE.? nNdIXvr ! kb? sPtmI ke idn| to Aaj hE A*3mI, to hm to nNdIXvr me. vEse hI hE.| Aap

jNma*3mI mna rhe ho…, kEse? subh-subh jb Aap Snan [Tyaid kr lete ho to

kuNdlta AatI hE. Aapke pas…, kuNdlta &Ik<*` kI wawI, ccere wa{ kI pTnI| ve

AatI hE. AOr boltI hE.- "he ra2e, he siqyo., clo k<*` ke Aiw8ek ke il0 clo|"

to hmne AwI jNma*3mI mnaya, Aiw8ek ke dxRn ik0 to kEse krne caih0 dxRn?

hm kha> qD_e hE.? k<*` kI vedI ke pas, jha> k<*` ka Aiw8ek ho rha hE| ikske

sa4 ho Aap? jNma*3mI kEse mna rhe ho? #Ik ra2aranI ke sa4 qD_e hu0 ho…,

#Ik ]nke sa4 qD_e hokr nNdIXvr me.…, sa4 qD_e hokr dxRn kr rhe ho| nhI.

to…, 0k Aap bat bta0> ik Aapko &Ik<*` ke dxRn kI ya k<*` ke Aiw8ek deqne

kI Kya AavXykta hE? Aap to kh rhe ho -"Aamar {XvrI v<.davneXvrI", Aap to

]nke Alava, ]nkI p/Iit ke Alava ko{ kayR krtI hI nhI. hE.|

to Kyo.ik ra2aranI vha> g{ hu{ hE. &Ik<*` ke Aiw8ek me. AOr Aap ]nke p/sNnta ke

il0 kayR krte hE., Aap wI ]nke sa4 g0 hu0 hE., Svt.5 wav se nhI. g0| Aap bole.

hm jNma*3mI mna rhe hE., dxRn kr rhe hE. Aiw8ek ke| Kyo.? hme. AC7a lgta hE|

yh b/j me. "hme. AC7a lgne" ka ko{ S4an nhI. hE| b/j me. to vhI kayR hota hE jo

&Ik<*` ko ya ra2aranI ko p.sd ho| 0k m.jrI smile tk nhI. krtI, muSkuratI

nhI. hE ibna ra2aranI kI p/sNnta ke il0, kayR krna to bhut dUr kI bat hE|

Aiw8ek deqna ya ko{ iksI ka wI kayR krna, yh to bhut dUr kI bat hE| SvPn

me. wI vh ra2aranI kI seva ke isva ku7 nhI. soctI| SvPn me. kwI…, kdaip nhI.

soctI|

Ab &Ik<*` ke dxRn yid Aap kr rhe hE. to Aap kEse soce.ge? iktna AC7a lg rha

hE| Kyo.ik k<*` jo hE. ve Ap/ak<t kamdev hE., ve [tne suNdr hE., [tne suNdr hE. ik

suNdr xBd ]nke samne fIka hota hE, [tne suNdr hE.| [tne suNdr VyiKt ka

Aiw8ek ho rha ho to Aa>qe. ]sme. jD_I rh ja0>gI Svsuq kamna kI vjh se| #Ik

bat hE? prNtu b/j me. Svsuq ka ko{ S4an nhI. hE| Aap b/j me. qD_e ho, #akur ke

Aiw8ek ke dxRn kr rhe ho, ikske il0? AapkI d<i*3 kha> pr hE? #akur ke }pr?

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nhI., AapkI d<i*3 hE AapkI {XvrI ke suq ke }pr ik ve #akur ke Aiw8ek ka

dxRn krke iktnI qux ho rhI. hE., "hay, m.E varI ja}>, merI SvaimnI ko nj_r n

lg ja0, ko{ ]Nhe. deq le iktnI qux hE., ]Nhe. nj_r n lg ja0", Aap yh soc

rhI hE.| [tnI qux hE. ra2aranI, Aaha…!!

Aap #akur ke dxRn krte ho A`u p/em se, Aapko [tnI quxI imlegI to jo sa9at\

p/em kI mUitR hE., ve dxRn kre.gI &Ik<*` ka, to ]Nhe. iktnI quxI iml rhI hogI?

AOr AapkI sarI quxI iksme. hE? ra2aranI kI quxI me.| to ra2aranI ko qux hota

deqkr Aap iktne-iktne qux ho rhe ho| yh ho rha hE jNma*3mI me., yh kr rhe

ho Aap| kha> hE nawa? suno, AwI Apne Sv=p me. rhkr, yh kr rhI ho qD_I

hokr| ha>| 'ha>-ha> merI SvaimnI iktnI qux ho rhI hE. !' ha>, ]nke qux me. quxI| wiKt mtlb --

"tt\ suqe suiqTvm\, tt\ ivSmr`e prm Vyakulta [it"

Ünard wiKt sU5Ý

]nke suq me. mera suq|

AOr m.jrI to Kya hE.? #akur ke suq me. wI Apna suq nhI. hE| kevl ra2aranI ke

suq me. ]nka Svy. ka suq hE|

jo gOD_Iy vE*`v hE., ve 0k Sv=p se to ra2aranI ke sa4 qD_e hokr, k<*` dxRn

krke jNma*3mI mna rhe hE.| Kya Aap sbne 0esa ikya AwI? Aapko sb yhI

socna caih0 4a - ye siqya> hE., ye m.jirya> sa4 me. hE., yhI socna caih0 4a| ik

nhI.? nhI., to soca kro| deqo, yid jNma*3mI nhI. mnaAoge shI trIke se, to

ANy idn kEse mnaAoge shI trIke se? Kyo.ik b/j me. to roj_ hI festival hE| b/j me.

to p/Tyek kdm, gmnm\-na3\ym\ ! gmnm\-na3\ym\ ! xBd jo hE. vh gaynm\, xBd jo hE. vh gane ke sman hE.; clna jo hE na3\y hE, n<Ty ke sman hE, AOr p/Tyek idn to

yh festival hE hI hE vEse hI| to hm Aaj ka festival shI nhI. mnaAoge jNma*3mI

to kl Kya kroge?

wiKt iktne idn krnI hE, sal me.? kevl tIn sO pE.s# ÜËÎÍÝ idn| to tIn sO

cO.s# ÜËÎÌÝ kEse kroge, jb Aaj ke idn wiKt ko shI =p se nhI. kr paAoge?

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AC7a ! ANy wKt kEse festival mna rhe hE.? AapkI d<i*3 kha> hE? ra2aranI ke suq

pr| AC7a ! yid Aap wgvan\ &Ik<*` ko sqa =p se pana cahte ho to AapkI d<i*3 kha> hogI? sI2a k<*` ke }pr- 'hay mere sqa, mere iktne suNdr sqa hE.

[nka Aiw8ek ho rha hE, sb log deq rhe hE., iksI kI nj_r n lg ja0|' Aap

qux wI ho rhe hE., Dr wI rhe hE.| p/em ka Svwav hI yhI hE| qux wI hote hE. Apne

p/emaSpd ko deqkr AOr Drte wI hE., [nko ku7 ho n ja0, b/j me...., ku7 ho n

ja0| #akur {Xvr nhI. hE.-

"v/j-loker wave pa[ye ta>har cr`|

k<*` ke {Xvr naih jain b/j jn||"

Ü&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ m@y lIla Ñ.ÉÊÐÝ

#akur ko {Xvr ke =p me. nhI. janta ko{ b/j me.| ve yh socte hE. [nko nj_r n

lg ja0, [Nhe. ku7 ho n ja0, [tne log dxRn kr rhe hE., [tne suNdr mere #akur hE.

- sqa 0ese soc rhe hE.|

AOr jb jNma*3mI ho ja0gI kl ya prso., tIn idn to gocar` b.d rhega n?

sPtmI, A*3mI AOr nvmI| AOr dxmI ko Kya hoga? sare sqa Kya Svwav se

ho.ge? hay, k<*` subh 7: ÜÎÝ bj rhe hE., sa!_e 7: ÜÎ:ËÈÝ bj rhe hE., Snan [Tyaid

kr rhe hE., kb hme. bula0>ge AOr hm [k3\#e gocar` ko ja0>ge, kb ]nke sa4 bE#kr

wojn kre.ge? Agr sqa wav me. to Kya socoge hmexa, Kya socoge? kb #akur

bula0>ge, kb mE. gocar` ko ja}>ga| mE. ja}>go gocar` ko, yh socoge, Agr Aap

sqa wav me. ho| AOr m.jrI wav me. ho, to Kya kroge dxmI me.? AC7a btaAo

nvmI me. Kya kroge? nvmI me. wI Aap nNdIXvr me. hI rh rh ho, rat ko nNdIXvr

me. hI hoge| nvmI me. ifr ra2aranI kI seva me. hI hoge| ifr nvmI 7oD_kr ifr

ra2aranI ke 6r pr ja0>ge, nvmI kI xam ko| AC7a dxmI ko?

yid Aap vaTsLy wav se hE...., ik Aap wgvan\..., #akur ko Apne balk =p me.

deqna cahte hE. to Aap kEse dxRn kroge? hay, mere balk ka Aiw8ek ho rha hE,

mere 7o3e bCce ka| yxoda mata ko ve ]nke inTy ikxor &Ik<*` wI hmexa balk

=p me. idqte hE.| yh to ]Nhe. ko{ mj_ak me. wI bolta hE n k<*` kI xadI kr do,

khtI hE.- "0 terI mit marI g{ hE? mera balk [tna 7o3a hE, ]skI xadI kI ]m/

hE Kya AwI?"| to yid Aap vaTsLy wav me. ho, vaTsLy wav me. k<*` kI p/aiPt

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krna cahte ho, to Aap Alg p/kar se k<*` Aiw8ek ka dxRn kroge| sqa wav me.

ho to Alg p/kar se AOr yid gOD_Iy vE*`v ho, to Alg p/kar se &Ik<*` ka dxRn

kroge|

AOr yid naiyka wav me. ho, ik k<*` ko Apne p/emaSpd =p me., jEse lilta

ivxaqa hE. ya ANy siqya> hE., ijnka A.g-s.g hota hE k<*` se, yid ]s =p me.

pana cahte ho to kEse dxRn kroge? btaAo... Aapko Aapke #akur ke isva ku7 nj_r

nhI. Aa0ga, #akur ka Aiw8ek ho rha hE, mere XyamsuNdr ka Aiw8ek ho rha hE,

Aap ]sI dxRn me. ivwor ho jaAoge| to k<*` ka Aiw8ek hr p/mai`k sMp/day ke

wKt Alg p/kar se krte hE., ibLkul Alg p/kar se, AOr 0k hI p/kar se krte hE.,

do p/kar se nhI.|

AC7a 0k Sv=p me. to Aap b/j me. ho AOr dUsre Sv=p me.? ha>, gOra.g mhap/wu ke

sa4| ikske sa4? cEtNy mhap/wu ke sa4 nhI., gOra.g mhap/wu ke sa4| Kyo.ik

nvµIp me. mhap/wu sNyasI nhI. hE., ve g/hS4 hE., do piTnyo. ke sa4 invas krte hE.|

]nke sa4 Aap Aiw8ek deqne ke il0 AaAoge, pr mhap/wu Kya kr.ege? ve k<*`

wavavex me. Aa jate hE. jNma*3mI ke idn| AOr jha> m~Dp hota hE Aiw8ek ka, vha>

qud jakr bE# jate hE.| AOr sare dasg`, AµEtacayR, mhap/wu ka Aiw8ek kr rhe

hote hE. k<*` Sv=p me.| yh inTy nvµIp lIla me. jNma*3mI kI inTy jNma*3mI

lIla hE, mhap/wu ka Aiw8ek hota hE ]s smy|

to Aap gOD_Iy vE*`v ho| Kya Aapne gOD_Iy vE*`vo. kI trh jNma*3mI mna{? mna{

ik nhI., ha> ya n? nhI. mna{ to mnaAo| hre k<*` jp iksil0 kr rhe ho? hre

k<*` jp jo kr rhe hE. gOD_Iy vE*`v, ve 0k hI p/kar se jNma*3mI mnate hE., vh

yh p/kar hE|

hmne kItRn ikya, isfR tIn xBd 4e ]sme. -- 'k<*`, ra2e AOr v<.davn'| yid

gOD_Iy vE*`v ho to Aapko ye tIno. ko smzna Ait-Ait-Ait…, AavXyk hE| ye

k<*` kOn hE.? ye ra2a kOn hE.? ye b/j Kya hE? yid gOD_Iy vE*`v nhI. ho, kevl

sQy wav me. ]pask ho, to jy k<*` AOr jy v<.davn, [sme. ho ja0ga kayR|

ALp… ra2aranI kI ivSt<t jankarI kI ko{ bhut AavXykta nhI. hE| yid vaTsLy

wav me. wI ho..., to ra2aranI ke ivSt<t jankarI kI AavXykta hE Kya? nhI. hE|

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"dUre iSnG2prMpra ivjyta. dUre su¹Nm~DlI

w<Tya: sNtu ivdurto v/jpterNy: p/s¥: kut:|

y5 &Iv<

µarS4a ip/yik.krI prmh. &o*yaim ka.ic@binm\||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ÏÌÝ

dUre -- ve bhut dUr hE., kOn? mata ipta ra2ak<*` kI lIla se, bhut dUr hE.|

'dUre iSnG2prMpra dUre su¹Nm~DlI'-- AOr jo sqa hE., ve wI bhut dUr hE.| sqa Kya

socte hE.? hm gocar` kre.ge, hm qele.ge, hm 0k dUsre ko zU#a iqla0>ge, hm xtR

lgakr jIte.ge-har.ege, ve yh soc.ege| ]nko ra2ak<*` kI lIla se ko{ mtlb nhI.

hE| hr ko{ Apne wav me. pirpU R hE| pirpU`R ! Apne wav me. pirpU Rta Anuwv krta hE| ]sko ]sI lok pr AOr Kya-Kya ho rha hE, vh janne kI AavXykta nhI. hE jEse

hm janna cahte hE. n, Kya huAa, Kya huAa? Kyo....? Kyo.ik hm ApU Rta Anuwv kr

rhe hE. [sil0 janna cahte hE.| prNtu wKt jo hE, vh hmexa pU`Rta Anuwv krta hE,

]se Kya mtlb khI. pr ku7 ho, merI #kuranI ke sa4 mE. idn-rat hU>, muze AOr ku7

caih0 hI nhI.| yh hE gOD_Iy vE*`v ka wav|

&Ik<*` wgvan\ hE., k<palu to hE. hI hE. ! pr jNma*3mI ke idn, ATy.t k<palu hE., in:s.deh| to yid hm jNma*3mI ke idn ]nse shI =p se ku7 kamna kre.ge, to ve

inXcy hI hm pr pU`R k<pa kre.ge| kEse kamna krnI hE ]nse? Agr Aap Svy. wI

p/a4Rna kre.ge ku7, to ]sme. to, yh wOitk mnu*yo. ke wav ]sme. mix kr de.ge, to

p/a4Rna ivxu² hI nhI. hogI| smze. Aap bat? ApnI wavnaAo. ko iqcD_I bnakr

k<*` ke cr`o. me. ApR` kr de.ge| k<*` ko zU#a iqlaAoge Kya Apne thoughts ka?

zU#I cIj_e. iqlaAoge ]nko? Apne gNde mLlIn ivcaro. kI? nhI..| to ivcar iknke

prm xu²-ivxu² hote hE.? inTy is² pirkro. ke| to inTy is² pirkr iks p/kar se

p/a4Rna krte hE. &Ik<*` se..., ]s p/kar se yid hm p/a4Rna kre.ge to hmarI p/a4Rna qre

sone kI trh hogI AOr &Ik<*` turNt k<pa kre.ge|

to kEse p/a4Rna krte hE. AacayRpadg`, jNma*3mI ke idn? k<*` ko Kya p/a4Rna krnI

caih0, ra2a ko Kya p/a4Rna krnI caih0, b/j ko Kya p/a4Rna krnI caih0, ve hm

jane.ge| hmne to soca 4a ik bhut ku7 bta0>ge..., AwI to p/arMw ikya AOr Aa2a

smy ho gya hmara| AwI to hmne p/arMw wI nhI. ikya| kEse bta0>ge k<*` ka ya

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ra2a ka? b/j pta nhI. kb Aa0ga? cil0 k<*` se p/arMw krte hE.| p/a4Rna kEse

krnI hE?

"&IgoivNd v/jvrv2Uv<NdcUD_ami`Ste

koi3p/a`aMyi2k-prmp/e*#padaBjl(mI:|

kE£yeR`ad\wut-nvrsenEv ma SvIkrotu

wUyowUy: p/itmuhuri2SvaMyh. p/a4Ryaim||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ÊÍÏÝ

yh p/a4Rna krnI hE| sa4 me. kre.ge? kir0|

"&IgoivNd v/jvrv2Uv<NdcUD_ami`Ste, koi3p/a`aMyi2k-prmp/e*#padaBjl(mI:

kE£yeR`ad\wut-nvrsenEv ma SvIkrotu, wUyowUy: p/itmuhuri2SvaMyh. p/a4Ryaim"||

[ska mtlb hE ik, he goivNd,'&IgoivNd v/jvrv2Uv<NdcUD_ami`Ste'-- he goivNd,

ijnke cr`, koi3p/a`aMyi2k-prmp/e*#padaBjl(mI: …, he goivNd ! ijnke cr`kmlo. ka sO.dyR jo hE tuMhe. koi3 p/a`o. se wI Ai2k ip/y hE..., 'tuMhe.', bola ja rha hE

k<*` ko, 'tuMhe.', Aapko nhI.| b/j me. ko{ 0esI p/a4Rna nhI. krta - 'goivNd. Aaid

pu=8. tmh. wjaim', yh p/a4Rna b/j me. nhI. hotI hE| b/j me. bola jata hE, tuMhe. n,

ra2aranI ka jo cr`o. ka sO.dyR hE, Apne koi3 p/a`o. se wI Ai2k ip/y hE yh hme.

AC7I trh malUm hE, yh hme. AC7I trh malUm hE| to he goivNd ! ApnI vhI ra2a ka, ]sI ra2a ka, 'kE£yeR`ad\wut-nvrsenEv' -- jo Ad\wut daSy hE, ra2aranI ka

daSy, vh hme. p/dan kro|

Kya p/a4Rna hE goivNd se? ik Aap hme. p/aPt ho., yh nhI. bola ja rha| Kya bola

ja rha hE? Aapko to ]nke cr`kmlo. ka sO.dyR hI [tna ip/y hE, to Aap muze

]nka cr`o. ka daSy dekr k<ta4R kro, ma. SvIkrotu -- muze SvIkar kro, iks

=p me.? Apne daSy ke =p me.? nhI.| ApnI sqI ke =p me.? nhI.| Apne sqa ke =p

me.? nhI.| ma. SvIkrotu, iks =p me.? kE.kyR Ad\wut -- ]nke Ad\wut daSy,

ra2adaSy ke, dasI ke =p me. muze SvIkar kro| wUyowUy:-- barMbar, wUyowUy:

mtlb, barMbar| p/itmuhur -- mtlb hr 9`| mE. barMbar, hr 9`…, Ai2SvamI -

- mere SvamI ho, Akele ke SvamI nhI. ho, Kyo.ik-

"Aamar {XvrI hon v<.davneXvrI|

tar p/a`na4 bil wij igr2arI||"

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]nke p/a`na4 hone ke kar` mere SvamI ho| 0kaNt me. SvamI nhI. ho, 0kaNt me.

SvamI to v/jv2uAo. ke hote hE., lilta-ivxaqa [Tyaid ke| prNtu Aap mere SvamI ho

Kyo.ik Aap ra2aranI se sMbiN2t ho| Ah. p/a4Ryaim -- mE. Aapse p/a4Rna krtI hU>,

barMbar|

to hm Agr gOD_Iy vE*`v hE. to hme., p/itmuhur -- hr 9`, barMbar Kya p/a4Rna krnI

caih0 &Ik<*` se? ik Aap muze ra2aranI ka daSy p/dan krke k<ta4R kro| kevl

yhI p/a4Rna hme. idn-rat, cOibs ÜÊÌÝ 6~3e yhI krna caih0|

'goivNd' Kyo. bola gya hE [s xBd me.? [ske pI7e rhSy hE| &IgoivNd ! &Ik<*` Kyo. nhI. bola? &IgoivNd bola| goivNd mtlb…, go mtlb [iNd/ya>, ivNd mtlb

p/aPt krna| ijnkI [iNd/ya>…, &Ik<*` kI [iNd/ya> ra2aranI ko p/aPt krne me. stt\

]dg/Iv hE., mtlb prm ]Tki~#t hE., k<*` kI [iNd/ya> hr smy ra2aranI ko p/aPt

krne me.| AOr ra2aranI k<*` ko AasanI se p/aPt nhI. hotI b/j me.| ve wgvan\ hE.,

AaPtkam, pU`Rkam hE., leikn b/j me. ve Apne Aap ko nNdnNdn mante hE. - mE. nNd

mharaj ka pu5 hU>| ve wgvan\ nhI. hE. ik jo caha, jb caha, ho gya| ra2aranI

]nke il0 dulR(y hE., bhut muiXkl se p/aPt hotI h.E AOr ]nkI [iNd/ya> stt\ ]dg/Iv

hE. ]NhI. ko p/aPt krne me., dono. bate. hE.| 0k to muiXkl se p/aPt AOr Aap prm

]Tki~#t ho|

to Kyo. yh p/a4Rna kr rhe hE.? he #akur ! Aapko j_=rt merI hI pD_egI| kEse laAoge ]Nhe. 6r se ji3la se 7uD_akr ra2aranI ko kEse laAoge? mE. AapkI mdd k=>gI|

AC7a ! AOr gu=jno. kI ba2a0> Aa0>gI vh kOn sma2an krega? mE. k=>gI| Aapko [tne k*3, AapkI ra2aranI…, jb &Ik<*` ba>surI bjate hE., to ra2aranI jb

Aiwsar ko jatI hE. p4 pr, to ]Nhe. pta hI nhI. hota ve kha> cl rhI hE.| ve kwI

ivp4 ho jatI hE., kwI-kwI behox hokr igr jatI hE., ]Nhe. pkD_ega kOn? Aapne to

ba>surI bja{, Aapko p/aPt hI nhI. ho.gI ra2aranI mere ibna| smze…?

Feeling krke kro p/a4Rna| wiKt ka mtlb jo hE, vh p/emmyI seva hE, sarI

feelings ke sa4| Apne wavnaAo. ka pU`R smpR`| deqo #akur Akele to tuMhe.

ra2aranI p/aPt nhI. hone valI, mere ibna tuMhe. ra2aranI ke sa4 ivlas to 7oD_o ve

tuMhe. p/aPt wI nhI. ho.gI, tum cahe ve`u wI bjaAo| raSta kOn ]Nhe. par krva0ga?

'mE.'| to [sil0 stt\ ]dg/Iv [iNd/ya>…, tuMhe. bhut j_=rt hE ra2aranI kI| to yh

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soc lo ik tuMhe. merI wI bhut j_=rt hE, mE. tuMharI mdd k=>gI| to [sil0

'goivNd', bolkr sMboi2t ikya ja rha hE|

&Ik<*` bole. -- 'tuMharI ra2aranI, ve wI to mera daSy cahtI h.E..., to tum sI2a

mera daSy Kyo. nhI. cahtI? mera daSy hI jano|' nhI.-nhI.-nhI.-nhI.-nhI. ! mE. tum dono. ka daSy cahtI hU>, prNtu mere p/a` sare ra2aranI ko ibke hu0 hE.|

"ra2ak<*` p/a` mor yugl ikxor|

jIvne mr e git Aar naih mor||"

Üp/a4Rna ÊÐ - &Il nro%m das #akurÝ

&Ik<*` ka l(y Kya rhta hE? ra2aranI suqI ho.| ra2aranI ka l(y Kya rhta hE?

&Ik<*` suqI ho.| yh bat smiz0, ra2aranI AOr k<*` dono. ne 0k dUsre ko

AaTmsmpR` ikya huAa hE pUra| AOr jb AaTmsmpR` ikya hE ]nko hox hI nhI. hE

ik kEse baik kayR ho.ge| to sara jo lIla ka war hE ra2ak<*` ka, vh siqyo. ke

}pr hE| b/j kI lIla p/arMw nhI. ho sktI siqyo. ke ibna, pUitR to 7oD_ do|

"sqI ivna 0{ lIla pui*3 naih ho0|

sqI lIla ivStairya sqI AaSvady||"

Ü&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ m@y lIla Ð.ÊÈËÝ

p/arMw nhI. …, pui*3 7oD_o| p/arMw nhI. ho sktI| Kyo.ik ve to AaTmsmpR` krke ve

to Apne Aap ko wUl cukI hE., ]nko pta hI nhI. clta, ve Kya kayR kr rhI hE.|

jb &Ik<*` ra2aranI ke ivrh me. hote hE., ve p4 me. clte-clte ve behox hokr rote

rhte hE., rote rhte…, rote-rote ndI bn jatI hE, [tne AaTmsmpR` kr cuke hote hE.,

]Nhe. hox hI…, ve soc rhe hE. ik ra2aranI merI madn rs se seva krna cahtI hE.,

mE. f3af3 jakr ]nkI seva SvIkar k=>, mE. ja}> kEse? ve ]nke Aan.d kI Sm<it me.

behox ho jate hE. AOr Aapko !U>!ne jana pD_ta hE| yha> ra2aranI inku.j me. bE#I hE.

&Ik<*` ka [.tj_ar kr rhI hE., vha> #akur ne wI bola hE- mE. Aa}>ga pr ve Aa0>

kEse? Aa0> kEse? ve to mUi7Rt hE.-

"ve`u: krai¶pitt: Sqilt. ixq~D.

w/*3. c pItvsn. v/jrajsUno:|

ySya: k3a9xr6at-ivmUiCR7tSy

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ta. rai2ka. pircraim kda rsen||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ËÑÝ

'ySya: k3a9xr6at' -- ijnke k3a9 xr6at…, ijnke k3a9 ke 6at…, 6at-

6atk ho jata hE ijnka k3a9, ]sse ivmUi7Rt ho jate hE.| to vh to bhut bD_I

bat hE, AwI to dxRn wI nhI. hu0 ra2aranI ke| ra2aranI kI Sm<it me. &Ik<*` mUi7Rt

ho jate hE.| m.jrI Kya p/a4Rna krtI hE. #akur se? "ySya: k3a9xr6at-ivmUiC7RtSy,

ta. rai2ka. pircraim kda rsen"-- mE. ra2aranI tuMharI vh seva kb k=>gI, jb

k<*` mUi7Rt ho ja0>ge tuMhare k3a9 se? k3a9 ! AOr mUi7Rt ho.ge AOr tum ]nke…,

]nko madn rs se seva ivlas krna cahtI ho| jb ve mUi7Rt ho.ge to kEse seva

krogI? hmne Kya bola? jy ra2e, jy k<*`, yh jy - ye hE. ra2e, ye hE. k<*` AOr

ye hE v<.davn AOr ye ho tum| Apna role jano, Kya role hE tuMhara b/j me.? ve behox

pDe_ hE., ra2aranI ]dg/Iv hE. madn rs se ]nkI seva krne ko, ve jg nhI. rhe hE.|

ifr boltI hE. ra2aranI- '0 tulsI, mE. to 4k g{ [sko ]#akr, ]# nhI. rhe, tU

]#a n, tU merI mdd kr|' '0 tulsI', '0 sqI'- 0ese bole.gI ra2aranI Aapko|

]pasna- ]p Aasn, Aasn mtlb ink3 rhna| ]p, ]p- ink3, ink3 rhkr seva

krna| ]pasna yhI hE- Aapke [*3dev ke ink3 rhkr ]nkI seva kro| gOD_Iy vE*`v

mtlb ve idn-rat ra2aranI kI seva kr rhe hE.| ]nko ra2aranI ke seva ke Alava

n ku7 idqta hE n ku7 sUzta hE|

"jag/t-SvPn su8uiPt8u Sfurtu me ra2apdaBjC73a

ra2akeilk4a su2aMbui2-mhavIiciwraNdoilt.

kailNd ||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ÉÎÍÝ

'jag/t'-- jag rhe ho, to ra2aranI; so rhe ho, to ra2aranI; AOr ibLkul wI so

rhe ho tb wI ra2aranI| ivmUiCR7…, jag<t-SvPn, SvPn me. wI ra2aranI, jag/t me.

wI, AOr su8uiPt8u-- jb cOdh ÜÉÌÝ [iNd/yo. ka kayR b.d rhta hE| su8uiPt8u…

hm k<*` ko p/a4Rna kr rhe hE., ]nko ]nkI seva ka p9 idqakr ]nse…, k<*`

wiKt mtlb vh wiKt nhI. hE ik hm yh soce. ik mE. b²jIv hU>, AnNt papo. se

g/St hU>, jNm-m<Tyu ke sagr me. pD_a huAa hU> | k<Pya krke muze wgvd\ 2am me. vaips

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le clo, hm [sil0 wiKt krte hE.? yh k<*` wiKt 0ese nhI. hotI| [se khte hE.

vE2I wiKt| Kyo.ik Agr Aap 0ese wiKt kr rhe ho, [ska mtlb hE wgvd\2am

jana cahte ho jNm-m<Tyu ke c¢ se 7U3kr, #Ik bat hE? wgvd\2am ko{ wI ho

Aapko Kya fkR pD_ta hE? ]sme. k<*` wgvan\ ho., gOra.g mhap/wu ho., n<is.h wgvan\

ho., vamn ho., naray` ho., Aapko to ko{ fkR nhI. pD_ta ]sse| to [s wiKt ko

kha jata hE- vE2I wiKt, ik Aapko wgvd\ 2am jana hE AOr k<*` kI daSy ke

=p me. seva krne| prNtu b/j kI wiKt 0esI nhI. hE| b/j kI wiKt hotI hE, hm

&Ik<*` se precisely p/a4Rna krte hE. ik 'he k<*`, muze AOr ku7 nhI. caih0, muze

kevl Aapka sqa bnna hE|' to ve Aapko sqa bnne kI Aap pr k<pa kre.ge| [sme.

xBd bola gya hE…, 0k-0k xBd pr @yan dIij0- 'kE£yeR`ad\wut-nvrsenEv ma

SvIkrotu'- muze Aap SvIkar kre.| to iksI wI jIv ko iksI wI seva me. &Ik<*`

SvIkar krte hE., AapkI [C7a honI caih0 iksI seva kI…, to k<*` Aapko seva

me. SvIkar kr lete hE.|

yid Aap sqa bnna cahte ho, to vEsI sa2na kroge to k<*` Aapko sqa ke =p

me. SvIkar kre.ge| yid Aap sqI bnna cahte ho, to Aapko sqI ke =p me. wI

SvIkar kre.ge| AOr yid Aap gOD_Iy vE*`v bnna cahte ho, to Aapko m.jrI ke =p

me. wI Aapko SvIkar kr.ege, ma. SvIkrotu -- muze SvIkar kro Aap| p/a4Rna kr rhe.

hE.| to hme. wI yhI p/a4Rna krnI hE, Kya SvIkar kro muze? ApnI ra2aranI kI dasI

ke =p me. muze SvIkar kro| muze Aapka directly dasTv nhI. caih0| r6una4das

goSvamI Kya khte hE.? "he ra2e, yid tuMharI k<pa n ho to muze v/j2am kI ya k<*`

kI muze Kya AavXykta hE?"

"Aaim k<*` k<pa iwqarI naih|

Aamar {XvrI v<.davneXvrI||"

mE. k<*` k<pa ka iwqarI nhI. hU>, muze to isf_R tuMharI k<pa caih0| to yh hme.

smzna hoga ik iks p/kar se k<*` k<pa krte hE.| hme. k<*` se 0k p/kar se

]nke…, ]nkI seva kI kamna krnI caih0| Agr sqa bnna cahte ho ]sI p/kar

se kamna kro idn-rat| sqI bnna cahte ho, idn-rat ]sI p/kar se, AOr yid

m.jrI bnna cahte ho to idn-rat ]sI p/kar| iksI 0k p/kar se is² hokr

kamna krna| [sI sMbN2 me. AOr wI Xlok btaya ja rha hE ik &Ik<*` ke p/it

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hmara p/em hE vh direct p/em nhI. hE, vh Kya hE? inwRr p/em hE, inwRr p/em ! direct

nhI. hE|

"ra2apadsrojwi¯mclamuµI(y in*kEtva.

\

k~#e Sva. vnmailkamip mm NySyet\ kda mohn:||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ÉÉÐÝ

yh p/a4Rna wI Aap kr skte ho k<*` se, Kya?

"ra2apadsrojwi¯mclamuµI(y", "ra2apadsrojwi¯mclamuµI(y", ra2a cr`kmlo.

me. merI Acl wiKt deqkr…, ]dvI(y mtlb deqkr| yh p/a4Rna kr rhe hE.-

]dvI(y, deqkr, ra2acr`o. me. merI wiKt deqkr in*kEtva. p/It:| merI wiKt kEsI

hE? in*kEtva:, in*kEtv p/Iit hE, ko{ kp3 nhI. hE ]sme.| in*kEtva. p/It:, Sv.

ip- Sv. ip, jo &Ik<*` kI sI2I ]pasna krte hE. jEse…, sqa krte

hE., krte hE.? sqI krtI hE. AOr ]nke das hE.- rKtk-p5k ve sI2I ]pasna krte

hE., hmara 0esa nhI. hE| gOD_Iy vE*`v kEse krte hE.? "inwRrmhap/eM`ai2k. svRx:"| to

yh hE ik in*kEtva. p/It: ip, ip- tuMhara jo sI2a wjn krte

hE., ]sse wI J_yada k<pa krte ho yh deqkr ik ra2aranI kI yh dasI hE, [skI

p/Iit ibLkul in*kam hE|

k{ barI Kya hota hE ik inku.j vn me. &Ik<*` ja rhe hote hE.…, iksil0 ja0>ge

inku.jvn me. k<*`? iksil0 ja0>ge, ra2aranI, ra2aranI ko imlne ke il0| ra2aranI

ko !U>!te-!U>!te, to ve to p4 to wUl hI jate hE. iktnI barI| AanNd [tna J_yada

hota hE ik mE. ra2aranI ko imlU>ga| Aap nhI. deqte k{ barI raSte me. ja rhe hote

hE., [tna AanNd hota hE double cKkr lga lete hE.| to jb 0k b² jIv ke p/Iit

m.e [tna AanNd hE to &Ik<*` jb p/em krte hE.…, iksse? ra2aranI se ! p/em kI mUitR se ! to iktne Aan.d me. hote hE., to Svwaivk hE ]nka Apne Aap ko wUl jana| to wUl jate hE.| inku.jvn me. jate hE. to 0k ku.j m.idr ke bahr Aap…, Aap

kOn?

Aap m.jrI, barh v8IRy sqI, Aap rhte ho, mala, maLy guMf_n kr rhe ho, mala

bna rhe ho| ikske il0? ]NhI. ke il0| mala bna rhe ho| #akur Aapko Aakr

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bol rhe hE.…, #akur n bhut p/em krte hE., ve jante hE. in*kEtv p/Iit hE, ik jo p/em

hE, ]sme. ko{ kp3 nhI. hE| #akur yh socte hE. ik jo siqya> hotI hE., lilta-

ivxaqa, ]nka to muzse smy Aane pr kwI-kwI imln ho jata hE, mera A.g-s.g

ho jata hE prNtu yh jo siqya> hE. ya m.jirya> hE. ra2aranI kI, yh to SvPn-

"AnNy-&Ira2a-pdkml-daSyEk-rs2I, hRre: s.ge r.g. Svpnsmy ip d2tI|

blat\ k<*`e kUpaRskiwid ikmPyacrit kaPyud&u meRveit p/lpit mmaTma c

hsit||"

Üv<Ndavn mihmam<t ÉÎ.ÑÌÝ

ve SvPn ke smy wI hrer r.g. s.gm -- ve cahtI hI nhI. hE. hir ka s.g SvPn me. wI|

to yh p/Iit deqkr k<*` [tne qux hote hE., [tne qux hote hE. ik Sv. ip, --

Apne ko jo…, direct jo k<*` kI pUja krte hE., wiKt krte hE., ]nse wI J_yada

k<pa krte hE.|

to 0k barI ku.j me. maLy guMfn kr rhI hE. m.jrI| k<*` Aate hE. to AaniNdt hote

hE.| ve m.jrI kI seva in*#a deqkr, ifr wI bolte hE.…, taik sare wKt smaj me.

yh p/cilt ho ik m.jiryo.…, m.jirya> jo hE., svoR%m k9a me. hE. wiKt kI| m.jiryo.

se }pr ko{ wI wKt nhI. hE ! n 4a, n hE, n hoga| to seva in*#a, wiKt in*#a, ra2a in*#a S4aipt krne ke il0 ve lIla krte hE.| Kya lIla? k<*` m.jrI ko

bolte hE. ik- "he sqI, AwI ko{ wI hme. nhI. deq rha, to mera A.g-s.g kr lo|

AOr lilta ivxaqa kI trh ApnI ra2ajI kI wI seva kr ilya kro, ko{ nhI.

deq rha|" ]nke mn me. yh vasna nhI. hE ik ve s.g kre., Kyo. vasna nhI. hE?

Kyo.ik ve wgvan\ hE.|

k<*` ke mn me. vasna kEse ]TpNn hotI hE? yh Aap smiz0, 0k bar me. smz

ja[0| k<*` AaTmaram hE., AaPtkam hE.| ]Nhe. ko{ AavXykta nhI. iksI kI| prNtu

yid ko{ wKt iksI ivxe8 p/kar se ]nkI seva krna cahta hE, to vh ivxe8

p/kar kI seva jo hotI hE, ]nke ¹dy me. vh tr.g pEda krtI hE, ik vhI valI seva

ve g/h` kre.| ]Nhe. AavXykta nhI. hE| Kyo.ik Aapne seva kI 0esI wavna poi8t kr

dI hE to vh poi8t kEse…, pU`Rt: kEse p/aPt hogI, ve seva SvIkar kre.ge| to

m.jiryo. kI to SvPn me. wI [C7a nhI. hotI k<*` ke A.g-s.g krne kI| to vh

vasna hI nhI. hE m.jrI kI, to &Ik<*` ke mn me. vh vasna kwI wI jag/t nhI.

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hotI| n to m.jrI ke mn me. vh vasna hotI hE, mE. k<*` ka A.g-s.g k=>, n k<*`

ke mn me. hotI hE| Kyo.? Kyo.ik ]nke mn me. vasna kI tr.g nhI. ]#tI Kyo.ik 0esa

p/em nhI. hE…, direct p/em nhI. hE| kOn sa p/em hE? inwRrmhap/eM`ai2k.|

]nka inwRr p/em hE, iks pr inwRr hE? ra2aranI ! ra2aranI ke SvamI hE. [sil0 ve k<*` kI seva kr rhI hE.| to jb ve deqte hE. to khtI hE.…, m.jrI yain ik hm

khtI hE.… Aap yh soco, lIla me. jaAo, bE#o lIla me.| soco| gOD_Iy vE*`v

mtlb jo ra2aranI ke sa4 bE#kr icNtn kr rha hE, ik #akur Aapke samne Aa

rhe hE. AOr Aap #akur ko bol rhe ho- "deqo k<*`, tum #Ik kh rhe ho, tuMhara

A.g-s.g kOn nhI. krna cahtI? kOn tuMhare sa4 ivlas nhI. krna…, l(mI

krna cahtI hE. AOr tum #Ik kh rhe ho leikn jo tuMhara A.g-s.g krke vh jo

suq hE, vh to 0k bU.d brabr hE AOr mE.…, jante ho mE. kOn hU>? mE. ra2adasI h>U|

jo ra2a…"

deqo ijtna p/em hoga ]tna suq imlega wKt ko| sare jIvo. ka p/em iktna hota

hE? 0k bU.d ke sman, A`u ke sman| to suq iktna imlega? A`u ke sman| AOr

ra2aranI jo hE., ve p/em ka mha-smu³ hE.| to ve mha-smu³ k<*` ke mha-ma2uyR,

mha-AanNd ka mha-AaSvadn inrNtr krtI hE.| AOr ra2aranI jo hE. ]nse…, ]nkI

AiwNn deh AOr AiwNn p/a` hE. m.jirya>| to vh sara suq jo ra2aranI ka samuid/k

hota hE suq, vh sara suq jo hE vh m.jiryo. me. S4anaNtirt, ]nme. cla jata hE|

lilta-ivxaqa vh suq Anuwv nhI. krtI, jo m.jrI Anuwv krtI h.E|

ip7le Xlok kI 0k VyaQya me. hm wUl g0 0k bat btana, Xlok [s p/kar 4a

ik- 'kE.£yeR`ad\wut' AOr 'prmp/e*#padaBjl(mI:'- ik ra2aranI ke cr`o. ka jo sO.dyR

hE, vhI k<*` ko iktna Aak8Rk lgta hE| #Ik hE? AOr m.jrI pta hE Kya hotI

hE? m.jrI ka deh iksse bna hota hE? iksse bna hota hE m.jrI ka deh? jo

ra2aranI kI pirml ma2urI hE, jo sugN2 inkltI hE ra2aranI kI, vh jo ma2urI

hE, ]sse Aapka deh bna hota hE| hm iksse bnI hu{ hE.? Ab yh xrIr iksse bna

hE? p<$vI-AiGn-jl-vayu-Aakax| leikn Aapka xrIr iksse bna hE? ra2aranI kI

pirml ma2urI se| ra2aranI kI pirml ma2urI se Aapka xrIr gi#t hE| to Aap

[tne special ho| twI to m.jrI boltI hE, "tum #Ik bol rhe ho k<*`, swI

tuMhara A.g-s.g krna cahte hE. leikn mE.… mE. to ra2adasI hU>| ra2aranI ke

cr`kmlo. kI pirml ma2urI se mE. gi#t hU>, ra2aranI kI AiwNn deh AiwNn p/a`

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hU>| to mE. 0k bU.d…, tum btaAo qud ijsko smud/ iml rha ho Kya vh 0k bU.d

ka AaSvadn krna cahega? [sil0 mE. tuMhara A.g-s.g nhI. cahtI hU>| prNtu deqo mE.

tuMhara kam kr detI hU>, tum AwI p4 w/imt ho g0 ho, ra2aranI se imlna cahte

ho, clo merI ]>glI pkD_o mE. tuMhe. shI raSte pr lekr cltI hU>|" to ku.j me. lekr

AatI hE. m.jrI yain ik Aap AOr #akur ka imln #kuranI se krvate hE.| [s p/kar

se yh lIla gi#t hotI hE|

to yh to hmne btaya ik ]d\vI(y, #akur deqte hE. yh Acl in*#a, to ve 0kdm

Ait p/sNn ho jate hE.| ra2aranI yh in*#a deqkr AOr p/car krna cahtI hE., k{

barI ra2aranI boltI hE.- "deqo #akur, tum [tne p4-w/imt ho g0 4e AOr merI sqI

ne imln krvaya| ]sko purSkar de do, [se Apna Aail.gn p/dan kro|" to m.jrI

Kya krtI hE., "7I-7I-7I-7I…h3o-h3o-h3o-h3o-h3o ! Apna Aail.gn Apne pas rqo muze nhI. caih0|"

to #akur…, yh nhI. ik #akur kI [C7a hE, Aap smiz0 bat ko| #akur kI [C7a

nhI. hE| ve m.jiryo. ka gOrv S4aipt kr rhe hE.| m.jiryo. ka gOrv to #akur ke ¹dy

me. vas krta hE| Are ! 0k samaNy wKt ka gOrv #akur ke ¹dy me. vas krta hE jo in*kam ho, to yh to m.jrI hE., seva rs kI mUitR hE.| #akur to gd\gd\ rhte hE.

m.jrI ko deqkr, dxRn krke, yxoda mata wI| yxoda mata…

Ab hmne bola jy ra2e, jy k<*`, jy v<.davn| Ab v<.davn me. yxoda mata…, jEse

hI m.jrI 6r Aa{, Aapka dxRn krtI hE., ]Nhe. 0ese lgta hE ve ra2aranI ka hI dxRn

kr rhI hE.| AiwNn deh AiwNn p/a` hE., ibLkul 0ese hI lgta hE ]Nhe.|

mi` m.jrI wI khtI hE., jb ko{ sa2na kr rha ho, sqI, deqo sqI ! merI bat

suno, mera Anuwv ke Aa2ar pr bta rhI hU>…, bolte hE. n hm? mera Anuwv suno,

muze pta hE| to mi` m.jrI boltI hE.- "deqo muze pta hE, tum 0k kam kro sb

cIj_e. 7oD_o, ra2aranI se Apna dasITv ko pKka kr lo| yid yh pKka ho gya to

#akur to tuMhare pI7e-pI7e wagte hu0 Aa0>ge| Kyo.? 0k to ]Nhe. yh bat kI bhut

quxI hE ik tum ]nkI, ]nko prmanNd p/dan krne valI ra2aranI, ]nkI tum sqI

ho, to [sI bat se ve [tne qux hE.| dUsra, jb ]Nhe. ve p/aPt hone me. ki#na{ hogI,

tuMhara hI to Aa&y le.gI ve| to tum sb ku7 7oD_kr #akur se sMbN2 S4aipt mt

kro, ra2aranI se sMbN2 S4aipt kro|" to yh p/a4Rna hmne krnI hE #akur se|

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AOr ra2aranI se Kya p/a4Rna krnI hE? Aap sarI p/a4Rna0> jano, qrI p/a4Rna| 'jy

ra2e' mu>h se bolna nhI. hE ¹dy se bolna hE| 'jy k<*`' AOr 'jy v<.davn', to

k<*` kI wI jy kEse krnI hE, vh hmne btaya| ra2a kI jy kEse krnI hE AOr

bta0>ge|

"saNd/p/emrsO6vi8R`I nvoNmIlNmhama2urI

sam/aJyEk2urI`keilivwvTka=~ykLloilnI|

&Iv<NdavncNd/ic%hir`IbN2Sfurd\vagure

¢ItaiSm daSyoTsvE:||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ÊÈÏÝ

yh p/a4Rna krnI hE ]nse ik 'saNd/p/emrsO6vi8R`I'-- ik ra2aranI jo Aapka p/em hE

vh to 0kdm ga!_a p/em hE|

'saNd/p/emrsO6vi8R`I nvoNmIlNmhama2urI' -- Aapka, &Ik<*` ko nv-nv p/kar se

Aap AanNd p/dan krtI rhtI hE.| ifr Aage?

'&Iv<NdavncNd/ic%hir`IbN2Sfurd\vagure' -- Aap v<.davncNd/ ka ic% hr` krtI hE.,

kEse?

'bN2Sfurd\vagure'-- Aapka jo =p hE vh ikske sman hE? 0k jal| m7uAara hota

hE, jal hota hE, 'bN2Sfurd\vagure', vagure smzte hE.? jal|

'bN2Sfurd\vagure' -- Aapka ma2uyR to 0k jal ke sman hE jo

'v<.davncNd/ic%hir`I', v<.davncNd/ ke ic% ko hr leta hE|

¢ItaiSm daSyoTsvE:"- he ra2e, Aap to inku.j ¢ID_a krne

me. suinpu` ho, leikn ]sme. AavXykta merI j_=r pD_egI| Aapka ]Tsv hE, ivlas

]Tsv rhta hE Aapka inku.j me.| 'tv ¢ItaiSm daSyoTsvE:'|

jo ra2aranI kI seva hE n yh #akur kI seva…, yh wgvan\ kI seva kI trh nhI.

hE| wgvan\ kI seva mtlb, sMw/m-s.koc, Dr-Drkr| b/j me. sMw/m-s.koc xBd

wI nhI. hE, vEse seva to 7oD_ do| xBd hI nhI. hE| vh Dr-Drkr, Dr-Drkr, Dr-

Drkr…, yh to n<is.h wgvan\ ke lok me. hota hE, wgvan\ ram ke lok me. hota hE,

wgvan\ naray` ke lok me. hota hE, [sI ko vE2I wiKt khte hE. ik mE. jNm m<Tyu ke

sagr me. pD_a hU>, Aap k<pa krke muze bahr inkalo|

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"'A.6irp½su2a'y khe 'k<*` s.ganNd'

vE2I wiKt kre na pa[ye v/jeNd/nNdn||"

Ü&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ m@y lIla Ð.ÊÊÎÝ

vE2I wiKt krke v/jeNd/nNdn kI p/aiPt nhI. hotI hE|

wgvan\…, cEtNy cirtam<t me. btaya ja rha hE ik -

"skl jgte kre more vE2I wiKt|

vE2I wKTye v/jwav pa[te naih xiKt||"

Ü&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ Aaid lIla Ë.ÉÍÝ

skl jgt more kir vE2I wiKt -- iksil0 wiKt krte hE. wKt log J_yadatr?

ik mE. jNm-m<Tyu ke sagr me. hU>, muze bahr inkalo| "skl jgt more kir vE2I

wiKt"|

'vE2I wiKt v/jwave pa[te naih xiKt'-- jo vE2I wiKt hE n [sse b/jwav p/aPt

nhI. ho skta|

jb hm wgvd\ nam lete hE., to yid hm isfR_ wgvd\nam le rhe hE. AOr naray` jo

hE., ve sune.ge to k<pa kre.ge| wgvd\ nam iksil0 le rhe ho? ik muze wgvan\ ka daSy

p/aPt ho AOr to ko{ kar` nhI. hE, [sIil0 le rhe ho wgvd\ nam? to jb wgvan\

naray` ho.ge to ve Aapka nam sunkr Apna daSy p/dan kr de.ge, #Ik bat hE? yid

Aap in*kam =p se loge, smz rhe ho bat ko? hm Aapko s.Sk<t n bolkr,

b.galI n bolkr, vh wa8a me. bta rhe hE. jo Aapko smz Aa0gI|

jb Aap naray` se, vEku~#pit se p/a4Rna kroge…, ik wgvd\ nam l.ege ik Aap muze

jNm-m<Tyu ke sagr se 7uD_aAo to ve Aapko daSy =p se seva p/dan krke k<ta4R kr

d.ege, ]sme. ko{ s.deh nhI. hE| leikn jb Aap &Ik<*` se p/a4Rna kroge ik muze seva

do, seva do, to naray` ke lok me. to 0k hI seva imltI hE vEku~# lok me.,

kOn sI seva? daSy =p me., Kyo.ik socna hI nhI. pD_ta| daSy seva do AOr

k<ta4R kro ! do, k<ta4R kro ! do, k<ta4R kro ! bs ! leikn Aap #akur se p/a4Rna kr rhe ho, to #akur to soc me. pD_ jate hE., merI to bhut p/kar kI seva hE, tum

kOn sI cahte ho? wgvn\ nam to le rhe ho, AC7I bat hE mera nam le rhe ho|

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AOr wgvan\ ke mn me. wI vh eagerness… what do you call eagerness? Eagerness?

]Tk~#a hE, Aapko seva dena, seva p/dan krne kI to ve yh soc rhe hE.- "mE. dU>

kOn sI? yh to ma>g hI nhI. rha|" wgvd\… mera nam to le rha hE, ma>ge to mE.

dU>| ve hmare se J_yada ]Tki~#t hE. hme. seva dene ke il0, pr hm ma>ge to shI ko{

0k seva, ]sme. in*# hokr, 0kaiNtkI wKt to bne.| hm bne.ge to ve seva dekr

k<ta4R kre.ge|

to jo hm jNmo.-jNmo. tk hirnam lete hE., wgvd\nam lete hE., ]skI k<pa Kya hotI

hE? jb hirnam lete-lete lete-lete wgvan\ hme. Kya krte hE.? jb Ait p/sNn ho jate

hE. to hme. 0k sd\gu= ke cr`a&y me. Dal dete hE.| ifr hm sd\gu= se k<*` k4a

sunkr pU`R =p se k<ta4R hote hE., ]nkI seva ka Ai2kar p/aPt krte hE. AOr ]nko

b/j2am me. ]nkI p/aiPt krte hE.| sare wgvn\nam lene ke bad 0k hI k<pa hotI hE ik

hme. sd\gu= ke Aa&y me. ve Dal de., ijsse hm ]nkI p/aiPt kr ske.| Aaj tk hmne

ijtna nam ilya hE, ijtna 2am kI seva kI hE, ]ska 0k hI fl hE- hme. ivxu²

&Ik<*` kI seva p/aPt ho, ivxu² k4a p/aPt ho|

'saNd/p/emrsO6vi8R`I nvomIlNmhama2urI'

ik Aap… ra2aranI bole., "tum mera daSy cahtI ho, mE. to qud hI pra2In hU>, mE.

to qud hI &Ik<*` kI seva nhI. kr patI, tuMhe. Kya mE. seva dU>gI? mE. to ku7…"

ivvaiht hE. n ra2aranI? to ve qud hI b.2I hu{ hE.| to m.jrI khtI hE., "Aap muze

seva nhI.…, Aapko k<*` muiXkl hE. p/aPt hone? Aapko muiXkl hE.? Aapko? ha>

ra2aranI Aapko &Ik<*` muiXkl nhI. hE., &Iv<.davncNd/ic%hir`I, Aapne ]nka ic%

hra huAa hE| ve to qud Aapke pas wagte hu0 Aa jate hE., to yh muzko zU# to

mt…, ik Aapke il0 muiXkl hE.| Aapke il0 ko{ muiXkl nhI. hE.|" ra2aranI bol

rhI. hE., "Are! mE. to pitt…, muzme. to p/em hI nhI. hE, mE. tuze Kya dU>gI?" "Aapme.

p/em nhI. hE? saNd/p/emrsO6vi8R`I -- Aap to p/em kI mUitR ho, mUitR, Deity of love !

ivxu²p/em kI mUitR hE. ra2aranI| to Aapme. p/em nhI. hE to iksme.?" "AC7a #Ik hE, hE

muzme. p/em, ha>, k<*` muzse Aaki8Rt hote hE. sb #Ik hE| pr tum to b² ho, tum to

Apne pitt…, tum to papI ho, tumme. to [tnI vasna0> hE., tum inNda krte ho,

sb hE, mE. tum pr k<pa Kyo. k=>?" ra2aranI tumse pU7e., Kya bologe? ifr bolte hE.,

ka=~ykLloilnI-- Aap ka=~y ka wI mhasmud/ ho| Aap k=`a krke muz pr k<pa

kr do| 'papwajm\' -- hU>, papI hU> leikn Aap k<pa krke muz pr k<pa…, k=`a

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krke muz pr k<pa kro| Apna daSy-]Tsv p/dan kr do| yh ra2aranI se hmne

p/a4Rna krnI hE|

to ra2aranI kI p/a4Rna Aapko btaya| k<*` ko kEse p/a4Rna krnI hE Aapko btaya,

b/j me. Kya-Kya hota hE btaya|

ku7 k<*` p/sad ke bare me. bta0> ya Aapke bare me. bta0>? phle ikske bare me. bta0>?

Aapke bare me. btate hE.|

"ra2akeilklasu sai9`I kda v<Ndavne pavne

vTSyaim Sfu3muJJvlad\wutrse p/eemEkm%ak<it:|

tejo=pink j 0v klyn\ ne5aidip~De iS4t.

tad<Ksvoict-idVykomlvpu: SvIy. smalokye||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars-su2aini2 ÊÎÏÝ

yh Aapke bare me. p/a4Rna hE, jo Aap p/a4Rna krte ho b/j se, ra2aranI se, k<*` se-

sbse| yh Kya p/a4Rna hE?

'ra2akeilklasu sai9`I kda v<Ndavne pavne'-- [ska mtlb hE ik he v<.davn ! Aap merI ra2aranI ke AOr mere k<*` ke sa9I ho inku.j lIlaAo. ke, Aap sa9I ho -

sai9`I, v<Ndavne, pavne| Aage -

'vTSyaim Sfu3muJJvlad\wutrse p/eemEkm%ak<it:' -- Aapka jo ra2aranI…, jo ]Jjvl

Ad\wut rs hE, ra2adaSy m.jrI wav hE, jo ijsse AapkI ]pasna hotI hE, k<Pya

krke, 'p/emEkm%ak<it:' -- ijsse mE. pagl ho jatI hU> ibLkul| b/j me. ko{ bE#ne

ka S4an nhI. hE ik ha> hm b/j me. bE#kr deq rhe hE. ra2ak<*` ko, 0esa nhI. hE|

Aapka 0k role hota hE, AapkI seva hotI hE| to seva m.jrI kI 0ese hotI hE -

p/emEkm%ak<it:, m% ho jatI hE. m.jirya> ibLkul|

Ab yh p/a4Rna kr rhI hE. ik- he v<.davn ! Aap to sa9I ho ra2ak<*` kI lIlaAo. ke| to, 'tejo= \' -- to inku.j kI seva ]pyogI jo 'ne5aidip~De

iS4t.'…, Kya p/a4Rna krnI hE v<.davn se? ne5aidip~De iS4t.-- jo inku.j ke il0

]pyogI ne5 hE. ve muze p/dan kro| jo inku.j ke il0 ]pyogI naiska hE, naiska,

ne5aidip~De iS4t., muze naiska p/dan kro, muze Aa>qe. p/dan kro, muze Tvca p/dan

kro, muze vh k`R do| Kya bol rhe hE.? 'tad<Ksvoict' -- 'tad<k', vh… vEsa,

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'Sv ]ict' mere il0…, jo ijsse mE. seva kr sktI hU>, Sv ]ict|

'idVykomlvpu:'-- vh idVy, Spiritual body muze p/dan kro| ne5aidip~DeiS4t., kOn

sI Spiritual body? jo inku.j seva ke il0 ]pyogI hE.| 'ne5aidip~DeiS4t. SvIy.

smalokye', SvIy., 0esa muze ne5 p/dan kro mE. Svy. ko deq pa}> - 'SvIy. sm

Aalokye'| yh b/j se p/a4Rna hE|

hm Kya p/a4Rna kr rhe hE.? ra2a se ya k<*` se ya b/j se? ko{ p/a4Rna kr rhe hE.

jEse AacayRpadg` krte hE.? to kEse ra2a imle.gI? kEse k<*` imle.ge? kEse b/j

imlega? 'tejo= \', ne5aidip~DeiS4t.'…, ne5, yh vasna hmare

¹dy me. wwktI rhnI caih0- ne5aidip~DeiS4t.| tejo=pink j 0v klyn\- tum

inku.j ke seva, seva ]pyogI ne5 muze p/dan kro|

ra2aranI se yhI p/a4Rna, b/j se yhI p/a4Rna- he b/j ke Aakax ! he b/j ke p9I ! he ra2aranI ! he k<*` ! muze smza do bs 0k bar, 'ra2aranI ke isva mera AOr ko{ nhI. hE, k<*` wI nhI. hE.|' nhI. caih0 k<*`| 'Aaim k<*` k<pa iwqarI na[', Kyo.?

'tad<Ksvoict idVykomlvpu:', 'tad<Ksvoict'- mere il0 ]ict, idVy koml

transcendental body - koml| Transcendental soft Spiritual body- m.jrI deh, SvIy.

smalokye - muze p/dan kro taik mE. qud ko deq pa}>, jan pa}> m.jrI deh me.|

Kyo.ik samaNy naiska se to Aap b/j me. p/vex nhI. kr skte, inku.j me. kEse p/vex

kroge?

Agr Aapke pas ve Aa>q.e hE. jo nNd-yxoda ke pas hE. to wI Aap inku.j ke dxRn

nhI. kr skte, smz rhe ho? to wI dxRn nhI. kr skte Aap, Aapke pas yxoda

kI Aa>qe. wI ho., lilta kI Aa>qe. ho., tb wI vh inku.j lIla ke dxRn nhI. kr

skte| Kyo.? Kyo.ik ]ske il0 ivic5 ne5 caih0 hote hE.| kOn se ne5? jo ra2aranI

ke pirml ma2urI se ]TpNn deh hE, vh deh se bne hu0 ne5| 'tejo= 0v

klyn\ ne5aidip~DeiS4t.' -- yh p/a4Rna krnI hE|

Aap soce. ik - 'w{ mE. p/aPt kr pa}>, n kr pa}> [s jIvn me.', yh nhI. socna|

kEsI p/a4Rna0> krnI hE.? &Il p/bo2anNd srSvtI bta rhe hE.-

"y5 y5 mm jNmkmRiwna prme pd mm|

ivrajtam\||"

Ü&I&Ira2ars su2aini2 ÊÎÐÝ

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y5 y5 mm jNmkmRiwr -- mere pap kmR ho, gNde kmR ho, AC7e kmR ho, khI. wI

jNm ho mera, kha> pr hoga…? nrk me. ho, vEku~# me. ho ja0, cahe nrk me. mera

jIvn ho ya vEku~# me., ra2a…, rai2karitin m~DlI -- jo rai2ka ke inku.j

me. jo dxRn krne ka sOwaGy hE, jo vh 7iv hE, jo vh Aan.d hE, t5 t5 ¹id me.

ivrajtam\ -- mere ¹dy me. bs vh ivrajman rhe| mE. vEku~# me. wI phu>c ja}> to muze

kwI wI naray` ke dxRn AOr…, ko{ kwI wI muze nhI. caih0| ve bol rhe hE., Aap

Kyo. cle jaAoge, vEku~# me. ya ku7 wI…? bola iksI wI kar` se Agr jana wI

pD_ ja0 n, bs ra2aranI kI inku.j m~DlI mere ¹dy me. rhe bs| muze n naray`

caih0…, naray` 7oD_o k<*` nhI. caih0 muze to ibna ra2aranI ke| yha> Kya bola

hE? yugl rit? nhI., 'rai2ka rit inku.j m~DlI'|

kwI hm soce. ik hm yoGy nhI. hE. yh lIla sunne ke…, [s p/kar se, to yh w/m

ko &IgOra.g mhap/wu Svy. dUr kr rhe hE.| gOra.g mhap/wu Kya khte hE.? mhap/wu khte

hE.-

"v/jv2us.ge k<*`er rasaid-ivlas|

je[ [hakhe xune kirya ivXvas||

¹d\rog kam tar tTkale hy 9y|

itngu`-9ow naih, mha2Ir hy||"

(&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ A.Ty lIla Í.ÌÍ-ÌÎ)

[ska mtlb Kya hE? v/jv2u s.ge k<*`er rasaid-ivlas, jo v/jv2u goipyo. ke sa4

jo ras Aaid ivlas hota hE, je[ [hakhe xune kirya ivXvas -- jo ivXvas ke

sa4 [ska &v` krta hE, ya jo bolte hE., ]nke sa4 Kya hota hE? ]nka kam

b!_ta hE? nhI.| Kya bol rhe hE.? kOn bol rha hE? kOn? kOn? wgvan\ k<*` v

ra2aranI ka yugl Sv=p, ivlas Sv=p- ra2ak<*` ka pir`it, ]nse J_yada

ra2ak<*` kI lIla ke bare me. gaMwIyR [nka iksko malUm hoga? samaNy VyiKt

ko? [s wUtl pr clne vale VyiKt ko? vh comment krega iksko Kya krna

caih0? nhI.|

gOra.g mhap/wu se ]%m authority ko{ wI nhI. hE| ve Kya bol rhe hE.? ¹d\rog kam-

¹dy ka rog Kya hE? kam, lust ¹d\rog kam tar tTkale hy 9y -- tTkal 9y

ho jata hE ¹dy rog kamna ka, lust ka| ikska? jo, je[ jn khe xune kirya

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ivXvas, ¹d\rog kam tar tTkale hy 9y -- tTkal 9y ho jate hE. ¹d-rog

kamna0> jo ik ras Aaid ivlas kI lIla0> p/mai`k Sto5o. se sunta hE, p/mai`k

prMpra se juD_kr, sa2na krke suunta hE, ]ska tT9` sb ku7 An4R [Tyaid, kam

[Tyaid n*3 ho jate hE.| itngu`-9ow naih mha2Ir hy -- tIn gu` jo hE., kam,

¢o2 [Tyid, yh tIno. gu`o. ke ANtgRt Aate hE.| yh 9ow, yh Aapko cuwe.ge…, they

could not disturb you. tTkale mha2Ir hy -- 2Ir smzte ho? 2Ir mtlb vh

iksI wI p/kar se ivcilt nhI. hota AOr mha2Ir mtlb vh ra2ak<*` kI lIla

deq rha hE, vh ivcilt kEse hoga?

yh sa2na jo hE, sa2n sa@y 0[ - yhI sa2na hE, yhI isi² hE| AC7a sa2na

Kya hotI hE? sa2na… Aapko bta0> sa2na Kya hotI hE| 0k hotI hE isi²,

goal… Goal ko p/aPt krne ke il0 jo i¢ya-klap ikya jata hE, jo kayR ikya

jata hE, ]se sa2na khte hE.| yid Aap sqa bnna cahte hE., to AapkI sa2na

Alg hogI, ibLkul Alg| yid Aap sqI bnna cahte hE., to AapkI sa2na

ibLkul, ibLkul Alg hogI| AOr yid Aap m.jrI bnna cahte hE., to AapkI sa2na

ibLkul Alg hogI| k{ barI socte hE. ik "nhI., hm wav kI AvS4a me., p/em kI

AvS4a me. Aa ja0>ge, tb hm sa2na xu= kre.ge ra2ak<*` kI", 0esa nhI. hE| =ic,

AasiKt, wav, p/em| iks cIj_ kI =ic hogI? in*#a iks cIj_ me. Aa0gI?

"AadO &²a wjni¢ya|

A4asi¯Stto wavStt: |"

ÜwiKtrsam<t\ is.2u É.Ì.ÉÍ,

&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ m@y lIla ÊË.ÉÌ-ÊË.ÉÍÝ

An4R inv<i%, yh sb ho gya…, in*#a, =ic, AasiKt, wav, p/em| in*#a iksme.?

Agr Aap saQy rs p/aPt krna cahte ho, to ]sme. in*#a, saQy rs me.

=ic, saQy rs me. AasiKt, saQy me. wav AOr saQy rs me. p/em|

yid Aap gopI bnna cahte ho, to gopIwav me. in*#a, gopIwav me. =ic, ifr

AasiKt gopIwav me., gopIwav me. ifr p/em p/aPt hoga|

AOr yid m.jrI wav kI sa2na krte hE. to m.jrI wav me. in*#a hogI, ifr

m.jrI wav me. =ic hogI, m.jrI wav me. AasiKt, ifr m.jrI wav me. wav kI

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p/aiPt ifr p/em kI p/aiPt| m.5 sare Alg ho.ge hr sa2na me., jo puStke. ho.gI ve

ibLkul Alg ho.gI|

jEse hmne btaya, yid Aap sa2na krna cahte ho…, man lo sqI wav kI ya

sqa wav kI, to Kya Aapko yh p/a4Rna krne kI AavXykta hE?

"inku.j-yUno rit-keil-is²yE, ya yailiwr\ yui¯r\ Ape9`Iya|

t5ait-d(yad\ Ait-vLlwSy, vNde guro: &Icr`arivNdm\||"

Ü&I &IguvR*3k Î - &Il ivXvna4 ck/vtIR #akurÝ

yh Aapko p/a4Rna krne kI AavXykta hE, Agr Aap sqa wav me. ]pasna kr rhe

ho? hE ik nhI.? nhI. hE, Kyo.? Kyo.ik vha> tk AapkI phu>c hI nhI. hE vha> to,

seva hI nhI. hE AapkI vha> pr| Agr sqa wav me.…, to wI Aapko p/a4Rna nhI.

krnI hE; ram ke wKt ho tb wI vh p/a4Rna nhI. krnI hE; AOr n<is.h ke wKt ho

to vh p/a4Rna nhI. krnI hE; AOr yid sqa wav me. ho tb wI nhI.| yh p/a4Rna to

kevl m.jrI wav ke ]pasko. ko hI krnI hE| sb p/a4Rna0> Alg hE., m.5 Alg hE.,

wog ApR` kI ivi2 Alg hE|

Ab hm Aapko wog ApR` ke bare me. ku7 …

rai5 ke Aa# ÜÐÝ bje hE., Aap ra2aranI ke µara im*#an\, ANn [Tyaid bnakr

Aapko ra2aranI ne weja hE, kha>? nNdaly me.| jb nNdaly me. g0 hE., to ra2aranI

ne jo pkvan bna0 hE., ]nke dxRn sbse phle kOn…, lekr kOn ja rha hE? Aap

Akele| mE. m.jrI, mE. lekr ja rhI hU>| iks deh se? 'svoict idVykomlvpu: SvIy.

smalokye' -- ]s idVy koml vpu ke µara Aap lekr ja rhe hE.| to jb Aap lekr

g0 wojn, Vy.jn, to jEse hI yxoda mata ne deqa ]s Vy.jn ko, to Kya huAa,

]Nhe. Kya lga? hay ! mere lala kI m.glkair`I Aa g{| kEse? mere lala kI m.glkair`I Aa g{, kEse? ik yh jo wojn ra2aranI ne bnaya hE, yh vr p/aPt

hE… ra2aranI ko…, b/j lIla me. ra2aranI ko kOn vr dega? ve sbko vr detI hE.

- mqeXvir, i¢yeXvir, Sve2Xvir, sureXvir, i5ved-wartIXvir, p/ma`-xasneXvir,

[nko kOn vr dega?

pr ifr wI lIla hE, ]Nhe. vr idya jata hE, ik Aap jo Aap bnaAogI, jo pa0ga

]ska sONdyR b!_ega, Aayu b!_egI AOr bl b!_ega| to jEse hI yxoda mata wojn

deqtI hE., ve soctI hE., 'mere lala kI Aayu b!_egI [sse, mere lala ka sONdyR

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b!_ega, mere lala ka bl b!_ega, sb m.gl-m.gl hoga ra2aranI ke bne ha4 ke Vy.jno.

se|' lIla me. jaAo AOr deqo, [sse ko{ iksI kI kam vasna b!_ rhI hE btaAo?

Aap yxoda mata ke sa4 ho Apne idVy koml vpu me., AapkI kam vasna b!_ rhI

hE [sme.? nBbe ÜÑÈÝ percent lIla to hE. hI 0ese hI, ik Aap ]nkI ko{ seva kr

rhe ho| kam vasna to qTm ho jatI hE| Kya kam vasna Kya, hota Kya hE

kam, pta hI nhI. clega|

yh to yxoda mata soc rhI hE., Aap Kya soc rhe ho? Aahahaha ! yxoda mata ke vh suq se ik yxoda mata iktnI qux ho rhI hE., mere balk ko, mere lala kI

Aayu b!_egI, sONdyR b!_ega, AOr Aap qux ho rhe ho ApnI #kuranI kI givR`I hokr,

ik "merI…, merI SvaimnI ne bnaya hE wojn|" "merI SvaimnI ka bna huAa", 0k

to vh gvR hE AOr }pr se yh quxI deq rhe hE. yxoda mata kI, Aap ka ¹dy

pirpU R ho jata hE| pirpU R| 0kdm pirpU`R| 0kdm quxI me. Aap DUb jate ho, Kya

krke? yxoda mata ko kevl 4alI dekr|

Ab detail me. nhI. ja0>ge, bhut ivSt<t lIla hE| pr vh sb ku7 lIla ho g{, to

2in*#a Kya krtI hE.? k<*` ka A2ram<t, k<*` ka p/sad lekr ra2aranI ke pas

wej detI hE., Aapko| ifr Aap p/sad lekr phu>c g0 ho| Aap jEse hI ph>uce ra2aranI

ke pas, to Aap Kya deq rhe ho? Kya deq rhe ho Aap? ra2aranI [.tj_ar kr rhI.

hE.- "Aaha, lD\DU peDe_ Aa0>ge?" n ! ra2aranI to behox pD_I hu{ hE. ]s smy| ra2aranI idn me. iktnI barI behox hotI hE., hm soc wI nhI. skte| yha> AapkI

{XvrI hE., AapkI {XvrI to behox hI ho jatI hE. hr bat me.| jEse hI k<*` se ivrh

huAa, ra2aranI mUi7Rt ho jatI hE.| Ab &Ik<*` se ivrh ho rha hE, &Ik<*` nNdaly

me. hE. AOr ve Apne 6r me., to ve behox ho jatI hE. to iktnI koixx krtI hE.

siqya>, ]Nhe. ]#ane kI, ve ]#tI nhI. hE.|

ifr Aap Aate ho, "he SvaimnI ! mE. nNdIXvr se Aa g{ hU>|" ve Aaya? vh bat sunI k<*` lIlam<t ke bare me. 0k bU.d wI bolI to ra2aranI boltI hE. lilta ko, "he

lilte ! 0ese lg rha 4a mE. 0k b.jr wUim pr, 0ese &v` kI b.jr wUim pr so{ hu{ 4I, iksI ne k<*` lIlam<t kI v8aR kr dI ho, 0esa muze SvPn me. lg rha 4a,

0esa ku7 ho rha hE|" lilta khtI hE., "SvPn nhI. hE, tulsI Aa{ hE| yh tulsI

Aa{ hE ApnI nNdIXvr se|" tulsI mtlb 'Aap', Aap tulsI smz lo, ca=kla

ya, "0 ca=kle, tU Aa g{?" to Apne god me. ib#atI hE. ra2aranI, ifr boltI hE.

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- "Ab bta ]sne qaya #Ik se?" yh AapkI seva hE| seva ka mtlb Kya hE? jo

Aapke [*3 ko p/a`vNt ho, ]nko quxI de| yh AapkI seva hE| to yh sa2na

kroge to yhI to, twI to seva imlegI| cEtNy cirtam<t me. is²aNt btaya gya hE-

"baHy ANtr [har du[t sa2n, baHye sa2kdeehe kre &v`kItRn|

mne injis²deh kirya wavn, rai5idne kre v/je k<* er sevn||"

Ü&I &I cEtNy cirtam<t\ m@y lIla ÊÊ.ÉÍÎ-ÊÊ.ÉÍÏÝ

#Ik hE? baHy ANtr du[ to sa2n, jEse hm wog lgate hE., #akur kI seva krte hE.,

hirnam lete hE., g/N4 p!_te hE., gu= kI seva krte hE., to yh baHy sa2n hE| 0k

ANtr sa2n wI hE- jEse Aapne deqa ik…, ik ra2aranI kI 0k m.jrI AOr Aa{ hE.,

]nko ]nka m.jrI Sv=p p/aPt huAa| to dUsra sa2n hE Apne ANtr, ANtiXciNtt

m.jrI deh se ra2aranI kI [s p/kar se seva krna| do sa2n hE. gOD_Iy vE*`v ke,

Kya hE. ve do sa2n? 0k to &v`, kItRn, jp, m.5 Smr`, A@yyn [Tyaid, AOr

dUsra hE Apne ANtiXciNtt deh se, m.jrI deh se, idVy koml vpu: - ]s deh se

seva krna| Ab Aap yxoda mata ke pas se wojn lekr…, yh Aap seva kro|

do sa2n krne hE. gOD_Iy vE*`vo. ko…, to Aap jb lekr Aa0 p/sad| ha>, to

ra2aranI ne god me. ib#aya Aapko- "hay, ]sne qaya? mE.ne AC7a nhI. bnaya 4a

n? mI#a to ibLkul wI AC7a nhI. bna 4a|" 0ese bolte hE. n hm? ma> boltI hE

bCce ko ya pTnI boltI hE pit ko- "mI#a to ibLkul wI AC7a nhI. bna 4a|"

vEse ra2aranI…, "yh to ibLkul AC7a nhI. bna 4a, qaya 4a?" ve AC7I trh…,

ivSt<t VyaQyan Aap krte hE.- "ha>-ha>, bhut AC7e se iqlaya 4a, yxoda mata ne

do barI idya 4a", [s p/kar se Aap VyaQyan krte hE. AOr ra2aranI ka ]s ma2urI

ka AaSvadn krte hE.| ifr ra2aranI khtI hE...., 2in*#a ne muze k<*` A2ram<t, k<*`

p/sad tuMhare il0 weja hE… "Aaha, jEse hI ra2aranI…, AapkI SvaimnI suntI hE.,

]nke dry kan AOr dry p/a`, sb suxItl ho jate hE.| 0kdm AanNd me. Aa jatI

hE.|

p/sad… deiq0 p/sad…, p/sad ka jo Aan.d hE, p/sad ke p/it jo Aak8R` hE, vh

p/em ke Anu=p hota hE| ijtna J_yada p/em, ]tna J_yada Aak8R` hoga p/sad ke p/it|

to sbse J_yada p/em ikska hE? pUre wOitk-Aa@yaiTmk jgt me.? ikska hE sbse

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J_yada p/em? ra2aranI ka| to &Ik<*` p/sad ke p/it sbse J_yada Aak8R` ikska

hota hE? ra2aranI ka| sunte hI, bs ! AOr ku7 nhI. caih0|

ifr &IgOra.g mhap/wu ka Agr Aap deqe. g.wIra lIla me., jgNna4purI lIla me. to

gOra.g mhap/wu ke samne p/sad lekr Aate to, gOra.g mhap/wu 4oD_a sa p/sad, k<*`-

p/sad mu>h me. Dalte, ra2a wav me. iniv*3…, me. DUbkr, to ve 4oD_a sa p/sad lete

4e n, ]sko xam tk… subh p/sad lete to xam tk s6n Aavex rhta 4a k<*`

A2ro. ka, k<*` ke ho.#o ka Aavex xam tk rhta 4a| iksse? vh cavl se, vh

lD\DU se| cavl, lD\DU nhI. hE., ]sme. k<*` ke A2ro. ka Am<t imla huAa hE| [sil0

bola jata hE p/sad ko- 'k<*` A2ram<t', vh imla huAa hE| to jEse hI p/sad

gOra.g mhap/wu lete, ]sI me. hI ve k{ barI DUb jate 4e| ]Nhe. ku7 sUzta nhI. 4a,

0ese lgta 4a k<*` ko hI Aail.gn kr rhe hE.|

to ra2aranI ke pas jb p/sad Aata hE, to yh AapkI seva hE p/sad iqlana| vh

Aasan kam nhI. hE ra2aranI ko p/sad…, bhut muiXkl kayR hE| ra2aranI p/sad ka

0k g/as mu>h me. DaltI hE., to Aapko k{ bar Aan.d Aata hE, to AapkI Aa>qe. b.d

ho jatI hE. ik nhI.? Agr p/a` 7U3 jate hE., [s wOitk jgt me. 4oD_a Aan.d sa

imle| k{yo. kI quxI se hI heart attack Aa jata hE, hota hE ik nhI.? to

ra2aranI ko jb k<*` ke A2r ka Am<t p/aPt ho rha hE, to ]Nhe. Kya lg rha hE?

ve inku.j me. k<*` ka Ail.gn kr rhI hE., ]nka A2ro. ka, ivlas Aaid kI ]Nhe.

AnuwUit hotI hE, ve AanNd me. m% hokr..., k<*` Smr` se pUrI wr jatI hE. AOr

ANdr ka…, ¹dy ka jo Anurag hE, Anurag ka r.g Kya hota hE? Red, lal| vh

lal r.g - 'tPtka.cn gOra.gI ra2e v<.davneXvrI', vh lal r.g jo hE tPtka.cn kI

trh mix… iml jata hE AOr ifr Kya ho jatI hE.? kumkuma.gI| kumkum ke jEsI

idqne lg jatI hE. ra2aranI| kumkuma.gI ho jatI hE. AOr Aap yh sb deq rhe ho|

ra2aranI AwI tPtka.cnI, Ab kumkuma.gI ho g{| Aap yh deq rhe ho| Aap soco

Aap Kya deq rhe ho| twI to bola jata hE, 'daSyoTsv: tv ¢ItaiSm' -- tuMhara

daSy ]s smy muze qrId ilya hE pUra| 'tv ¢ItaiSm daSyoTsv:'…

to 0k to Aa>qe. b.d ho rhI hE., ifr siqya> pirhas krke ku7 lIla btate hu0,

Aap to sbse expert ho, m.jirya>, Aap iksI…, Anu=p bat bolte ho, Anu=p

]nko 7Ute ho, iksI trh ve ku7 le pa0>, ifr iksI trh lene pr ve AglI nhI. le

sktI, Aapke yTno. ke ibna| yTnat\, Aap yTn pUvRk ]nko ifr dUsrI g/as dete ho,

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ifr ]nka yhI h& hota hE| ]nke cehre pr xt-xt w.igma0> iql rhI hotI hE. p/sad

lete smy| xt-xt, hj_aro.-hj_aro. w.igma0>| 0k to r.g bdl gya, w.igma0> bdl

g{, Aa>qe. b.d ho g{|

Aap yh soco ko{ bhut suNdr VyiKt ho, jo ]s…, Agr Aap bs deqte rho,

iktna AC7a lgta hE n iksI suNdr VyiKt ko deqna| deqte…, isfR deqna ku7

wI n kre vh| k{ bolte hE. hm dxRn krna cahte hE., deqna cahte hE.| to deqte

rho, bs deqte hI rho| to ra2aranI ko Aap deq rhe ho to deqte-deqte ]nke ANdr

xt-xt p/kar kI w.igma0>… soco Kya… ra2aranI ke dxRn Kya hote hE., Aap soc

skte ho? yh k<*` ke mn me. 0ese hI low jga gOr bnne ka…? ra2ama2urI

AaSvadn krne ka…? ye, ye hmarI ra2aranI hE. ! [nka p/sad lena [tna ivic5 hE, [tna Ad\wut hE ik yh p/sad lene ka, AaSvadn lene ke il0 k<*` gOr bn rh.e hE.|

ra2ama2urI ka ivSt<t AaSvadn|

ra2aranI ka p/sad lena ko{ samaNy bat hE? ko{ lady p/sad le rhI hE? ko{

dasI p/sad le rhI hE? nhI., n ko{ lady p/sad le rhI hE, n ko{…, m.jrI p/sad

sevn kr rhI hE AOr p/em kI mUitR, ivxu² p/em kI mUitR ra2aranI p/sad g/h` kr rhI.

hE., [tnI bD_I 63na hE, idVy 63na, AanNdmyI !

Aap iksI trh ]nko p/sad de rhe hE. AOr ra2aranI ibLkul ]NmaidnI ho jatI hE.,

p/sad lekr 0kdm ]NmaidnI ! ]nko hox hI nhI. rhta| Ab mE. AOr VyaQya nhI. k=>ga [sme. AwI| Aap yh soco ik k<*` ka p/sad [tna Aan.dmy hota hE ik

gOra.g mhap/wu ko s6n Avex rhta hE, #Ik hE? AOr hm yha> kEse p/sad…, wog

kEse lgate hE. hm?

phle &Ik<*` ko, ifr k<*` ka…, hm yha> ra2ak<*` ko sI2a wog nhI.

lgate|

phle k<*` ko, ifr k<*` ka p/sad ra2aranI ko,

ifr ra2aranI ka p/sad hm log g/h` krtI hE.- m.jirya>|

tIn barI offering hotI hE hmarI|

to jb…, Aap soco, phle k<*` ne ilya vh [tna AaSvadnmy 4a| ifr ra2a ne

ilya to iktna ho gya hoga vh? Double AaSvadnmy| AOr jb Aap loge? to vh

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ra2a AOr k<*` dono. ke A2ro. ka Am<t Aapke wItr ja0ga, to Aap iktne

AanNdmy AvS4a me. hoAoge? twI to bola ja rha hE - 'tv ¢ItaiSm daSyoTsve:'|

ye hE. ra2e, ye hE. k<*` AOr ye hE v<.davn|